So, This is not my normal inspiring stuff, this is another poem written from the depths of my soul. It is a continuation, or second part you may say to the poem I recently posted called”Trapped By The Unknown Fire Within” - if you have not read it yet, I suggest reading before reading the following written piece.
You started off as a glimpse of Hope,
Providing much needed direction to a young learning soul
While uniting an A-Team of sisters
To draw together and work towards a common goal
A Dream that took over 7 years to build
A dream that took us through all the ups and downs
A dream we had to fight for... I had to fight for!
A dream I invested my future, sweat and tears into
And most importantly...
A dream that brought so much hope to so many broken souls.
But now...
You have me Chained, Screaming, Scratching at... nothing.
Not because I am broken
Not because I am defeated
but because I am left... empty
It’s as if, this time...
You managed to ripe my core straight from my chest.
When we started to dance this Tango
I know realise, I had already lost this battle
And although I was already feeling
“Trapped By The Unknown Fire within”
Stuck i this place that needed release,
But unable to as I couldn’t name the demon within
Yet, You weren’t quite finished with me.
You watched quietly while I tried to stuff it under that mountain under my carpet.
You allowed me to cling to Hope once more,
When you already knew what your game ending move would be,
What it would do to me,
And where I’d be left...
In a place of complete emptiness
Where its cold and suffocating
While you know this fire is still stuck within the unknown depths of my soul
The lessons you have recently taught me,
Have been brutal and difficult to swallow,
But I never stopped trying to come up for that much needed air my lungs burned for.
Until this very moment;
Where the cold walls of emptiness
And burning of the Trapped Fire within
They are fighting one another,
While their troops of
Fear, Stress, Pressure, Failure
And so many more fight amongst themselves.
You can’t fool me, I know you pushing to make me explode
But what will happen, I am unsure
As I’ve never ventured this deep
And certainly never had the opportunity to explode... and I still don’t.
But what is even worse?
The fact that I still don’t know how to...
And I fear the darkness that is starting to take hold within...
Where the gaping hole has been left from where my biggest passion once lay.
