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Ellen and Orlok sketches
2020 vs 2025
Living a double life vs living my truth.
Being depressed all the time to the point of SI or Ideations vs manageable MDD which is the medical diagnosis for massive depression cases or Major Depressive Disorder.
Living life with a well paid job but it was inconsistent and i was very unhappy vs working for way less pay but my happiness is through the roof in comparison.
2020 was a year and a half before coming out vs 2025 I am am 4.2 yrs out, 2.2 yrs on HRT.
HRT works and its not just for trans or queer people even cis women and cis men sometimes need HRT or hormone replacement therapy!
Annabeth ideations
Wanting a dress for summer ball that looks like spilled liquid opal, an iridescent oil slick flow, witch’s sorcery spun into gossamer glow
As promised, a glimpse into my efforts of designing a hoverbike. For the current issue i’m working on, I wanted the Scowlers to have a vehicle to get them to and fro. I already have a vehicle called the Hellbat (which you’ll all see sometime) but I wanted to give them something they could patrol in. Giving them a car felt too.....pedestrian. To which I settled on a hover bike.
My big problem with a lot of hover bikes in fiction is that they often look and feel like slightly bigger mopeds but without wheels.
To which I think is completely lame.
The real requirements I had were that i didn’t want my bike to look too close to either the bikes from Akira or the Lawmasters from Judge Dredd. My first attempts (the big illustrations with Scowlers on them) were channeling in the Tron Legacy bikes. They were nice and all, but I wanted bikes that had a very definite front and back and these didn’t have that. And I wanted some sort of machinery in place of the wheels that looks like that’s what’s causing it to hover.
I went back to the drawing board and when I want to bang out some ideas i tend to do a lot of gesture doodles or silhouette sketches. I find there i’m less likely to get stuck on minor details and instead focus on the overall form. I still haven’t decided on a form yet, but I got an idea of what the final incarnation will look like.
mammogram
it'll be wednesday two hours passed noon and the walk will be long
at least, the doctor listened and so this will really confirm if her concerns
are malignant or benign
still, she feared otherwise the subject of mutilating her body especially for naught
was worse than dying
a million ideas swirling in her mind like a catastrophic whirlpool the unknown looming
further compounding a dark cloud
she hated being alive but she didn't want to die like this
the walk will be long she has to be there two hours passed noon on wednesday.
Applied 2
For the final push we were tasked with creating a analogue portfolio.
For my grad project I created a magic shop and all the wares that go in it. I started with wanting to make a portfolio that showcased the work I had made for the 2025 grad gallery. To do this I thought of how it would be displayed, and decided on a magic grimoire (a magic book filled with magic knowledge) as it would be a cute way to tie everything together I played around with page layout by making a template and trying different things with it. I also attempted to use some motifs from the my grad show to create a border of sorts, will continue to refine
*This idea however was later scratched as in order to make this happen my deadlines would have had to move up, and that... did not happen I'd have to finish and photograph all of my pieces, edit the pictures, compile it into a printable digital version, edit that version, and then print it out before April 12th
Applied 2 - Create an App 2.0
With knowing we are going for cuteness and a happiness journal, one might remember that journals can sometimes get boring, so having a sense of guilt to return to the cute companion to care for it or interact with it, just because it is cute. HOWEVER life is hard enough and we don't need virtual souls on our hands, so while the cute companions may be sad or mad at ones interaction they WILL NOT DIE. This is supposed to be chill.
Another aspect I'd like to incorporate to encourage repeated use of the app if a wall of fuzzies, so all the images (and text attached) one uploads will be compiled into an easy to view area, with a monthly notification prompting you to revisit your warm and happy moments.
I like pink and softer aesthetics so my app will also emulate that color scheme, with a more hand drawn looking typeface.