Dear Siblings, particularly Kalluto and Alluka (also Killua), I would like to apologize for the transphobia you experienced at my hands. I learned all the wrong things to say and do from mother and father during my own transition, and instead of doing better and protecting you, I subjected you to the same treatment but worse, because I should have been the one to understand you and help you. I'm probably going to be writing quite a few of these things, because I have a lot of guilt now that I wasn't allowed to experience before, and I have done a lot of things to hurt and scar the family I wanted to love. It's ok if my words don't bring all of you closure, but hopefully at least one of you will read this and know that I'm sorry for having ever hurt you at all.
- Illumi
