#im dissociating

[sapphicbucket]

im so locked in rn, you’d swear I was about get on the court too

[rel-ish]

bdg's boat boys song but it's five peter lukases

[coolguycy]

y’know that sound when your headphones are half broken and you have to hold them at an angle or else the sound is weird? and eventually you give up and just let things sound off?

thats the vibe rn

[angeltrash666]

“What am I?”

Bones turning to rubber in a body that does not belong to me. I touch my hair - do you know what hair looks like on a rotten corpse? - death falls out. If I look long enough I see the same person as in the pictures, but I am not her. Like a parasite I crawled my way through her eyes and made a host of her. I touch my hair and it does not fall out, but this is a dream. I put a hand on my leg and I feel her feel it, but I do not. Skin liquid like candlevax, her body melts away, leacks into her bed, into the walls. “I” sit there and watch her write this. I am nowhere and everywhere, I am a stolen dream. I am what goes on within a coma, I am real unreal. I am imaginary imagined

- Anne Berg

[spacebell]

im feeling a anxiety attack approaching

[franklanqdon]

I mean like on the outside I’m just chilling but on the inside I’m having an anxiety attack

[mycptsdstory]

So I’m gonna do a post about me and what’s my personality is like. Me and my therapist have been working on this for some time and since I have CPTSD I dissociate a lot. I dissociate with my emotions, my personality and I thought my hobbies are me but they’re not, it’s the things that I like. So here it goes;

I’m an invtrovert but I’m not shy.

I’m the type of person who never gives up.

I don’t scare easily.

I don’t back down easily.

It’s extremely hard to intimidate me.

I’m very strong willed.

I’m head strong.

I’m stubborn.

I think with my emotions too much (found out through therapy, that’s not a bad thing).

Animals love me (for some odd reason)

I try to be understanding and be kind.

My bf says I’m very generous.

My bf says I’m very patient with people but I’m not patient when it comes to technology.

So that’s me. It’s weird seeing it in a list because I’m 28 and I should know on who I am. But I’m glad therapy has been helping to help me understand some things.

[quiiescenza]

Where do I find the willpower to not act on my impulses... Ah right I don't want people to hate me even more