Would you be willing to summarize what you said on your insta live? I didn't get to watch it sorry Mama :(
I’m back, my loves.
So, I basically explained on my live that I did on Instagram about a month ago that I was not actually going to completely distangle myself from social media, mostly Tumblr. I was honestly going through a hard period where family issues arose, work and money became a strained subject for me and time was just…empty. Some days I woke up and I did not feel capable to give over myself to my Tumblr crew and have enough energy left over for the rest of my day.
I won’t sit here and ramble about my problems or issues, because I’m a big girl now and I know that life is not a basket full of roses. However, we are just human and sometimes, we do break.
Before I left on my month-long break from posting, I asked everyone to send in tons of nasty asks for the biggest live Thirsty Asks Hour. I went into details about each ask live, some of which was embarrassing for me but oh well. My shame was tossed into the trash when I began sending random thirsty asks to different CNCO bloggers.
So, my dear friends, as I got my new laptop and re-read all of your sweet messages sent to me in regards to my leave of Tumblr. I’ve been thinking about telling you all something for a while now. It’s a little more depressing than my last announcement:
I am…no longer going to be writing for CNCO.
Hear me out. I have never, not until I fell down the hole of the fandom, been into writing or reading about reader inserts with celebrities. I mean, it wasn’t 2D characters, which existences were not reality and therefore could be considered fantasies. It was always weird for me to write about real life people and involve yourself with them in your fantasies.
Now, don’t me wrong, I’m not putting those people that do write about them down in any way. It’s just that, I’m going to be dating soon, going into college, and a lifestyle that won’t allow me to balance my obsession with the boys with it.
Don’t freak out:
1) I’m keeping all of my mutuals.I hope you guys know that I made friends with y’all past the CNCO connection. Some of y’all have made deeper friendships with me so beautiful that I disregard the CNCO meetup sometimes. I am not breaking up a friendship, just because I’m no longer writing for them.
2) I will finish all the requests in my draft box. I will make sure that it isn’t rushed or less of quality. I will make sure all my remaining work with CNCO will be even better.
3) I hope y’all understand that it’s totally okay to unfollow me. After posting my last CNCO request, I will still be supporting the boys and I will love their music and I will always be a CNCOwner at heart. But….I will also be posting other work from another fandom I recently joined during my break. I will not be offended at all if y’all only followed to see CNCO content and will not hesitate to quietly unfollow me.
4) I don’t think I can post the CNCO orgy. I’m so sorry about this the most because I know I promised you guys this before I left, but this is something I scraped a while ago. I realized that my mental and physical health comes before everything and that may mean going back on my promise. I hate doing this, I don’t do it often so it’s difficult for me to say it. I hope you guys understand.
I apologize for being so long, and if you’ve made it this far, I applaud you. I will get to working on those drafts and be posting them one by one, so keep a lookout.
I love you guys. So much. With my chest.
