I don’t know what to do anymore.
This has been such a shitty week. Traffic upon traffic to and from work. No big deal. Two days ago, i fell down and ruined my favorite pants. Yesterday, I found out someone I knew online who I frequently interacted with and considered a friend (or at least a good acquaintance) passed away because of a horrible freak accident. Now, today, I was feeling rather bitter because of all this. I keep crying off and on all day because everything has just been terrible. Then, to top the cherry on my week, i decided to go to my grandmothers even though i just wanted to go home, because she said she had a surprise for me. I get there, and its snacks and I found out a dress she ordered me is coming in. Fantastic, i think finally, something good. BUT! Just my luck, she decides to be A TOTAL FUCKING BITCH to me for no fucking reason. Here i am packing my stuff to leave, and i ask my mum to stick my chips (crisps) in her bag. Then my gran goes “dont forget your chips”, and all i said was “I just told mom to put them in her bag” like thats literally ALL I FUCKING SAID and guess what she says in the most snotty, rude, petulant fucking tone “OKAY GEEZ I WAS JUST TRYING TO BE HELPFUL, GOD, I CANT SAY THING AROUND HERE!” and getting all fucking huffy and puffy like a fucking child! Now i have had enough of bullshit this week I dont need her bitchiness at me just because i said i already fucking mentioned something! Time and time again she does this, and it fucking hurts! I swear to god human beings are the most ignorant disgusting revolting pieces of shit excuses for a species that has ever existed. And im fucking done. Im tired of it. Im thinking of canceling most of my social media platforms because im sick of it. I should honestly just fucking end it all. I’m a useless piece of shit anyway. I’m just so fucking tired of everything.