Feb 20
going to make an attempt not to make a suibaiting schizopost for at least a month which will be the most effort I'll put into anything ever
#i'll probably still make private misery[posts but I absolutely hate the idea that my posts could be affecting any of you guys still followin#following me. even to the extent of pitying me OMG don't do that I'm an off the assembly line retard with self made problems and no innitia#innitiative#instead besides my usual posts I made before which I still have in me maybe i'll try to motivate myself with this blog.#over this year the only positive thing for me is that I'm motivated to get into two of the really prestigious schools in my state. country.#I'm an absolute numbskull and I am ASSURED I'll never get in but I want to study the textbooks of the courses offered at these schools and#any of the free resources they provide so If I don't make it in atleast I'll be like. less stupid enough to get into a middling school#so much of my 'i fucking hate my life'ism comes from the fact that I don't contribute in any way to society. I can accept being ugly and ha#having no friends but I can't accept not having a job and freeloading off my parents and not giving back in some way like charity.
