i love the way john is always poking/hugging/touching throwing pillows etc at paul because it just shows how much he loves him. i feel like i know, because i do that too. i’m really bad with words. i always feel sappy and cheesy and cant get myself to tell someone ‘i love you’ without feeling like i wanna sink to the floor and hide forever. instead i do what he does. being all touchy and annoying but all i’m really doing is showing you affection and trying to get your attention. just to let you know i’m here and i love you and i need your reaction to know that you love me too. and usually this happens the most when there are others around. because then you’re not exclusively mine so it’s also kind of a way to get a tiny amount of extra love from you.
