ohgaadd.. i am really insecure about myself most especially when I started to gain weight here back in 2011..
I need to get back to my workout..
i can see it again, i can see how much I'm gaining again..
back in 2011 is when I gained so much and it was also bad timing--cause it's wehn I went back to PI.. so when I went back there everyone was like "what happened? you look so chubby now!" and looking at my debut pics really motivated me to workout.
i did insanity for four months, i did lose fat, but i gained muscles. i was able to do it, but i stopped,. i got busy( i worked and as the same times was wrapping up fro my senior year in HS graduating)
then college came, i was working out when I have time, i was still ok..
I know i'm chubs.. but i'm getting that 2011 shape again.. so now
-no more rice, (no!! no rice no life, maybe just a lil bit! hahaha!)
-NO MORE EATING OUTSIDE! AVOID FASTFOOD AND STUFF! UGGGHH! (-this is the main reason!! also, i need to stop so i can save moneyyyy)
-workout everyday (i'm starting that now) so I look ok for summer. lol
but yea... i hate how when I look back at my pics, I always ask myself "what happened to me? why did i let myself gained weight like this?"
it's only me who can help myself to stop comparing how I used to look like back then from now..
I need to do my goals, this is what I'm slacking on..
but yea.. I am so insecure, i am always jealous of gurls that are perfectly fit. I'll work on that. I can do this!