#introvert spectrum

[apixiedyedhere]

Solitude, night creature sounds, and a good book.

I need people for what now?

[apixiedyedhere]

If any1 saw how I am by myself, I'd probably be interred 🤪😸

My daydreams get so realistic I can start to act them out, or even speak character lines out loud

Sometimes I legit have dialogues and arguments with myself out loud when trying to make small decisions

I laugh hysterically to myself when I think of something funny.

I'm always laughing about the smallest things, it could be about a cool coincidence that happened, or a piece of fuzz stuck to a table

I can hyper focus on one topic and be entertained by it all day long but it'll look like a weird obsession even when it's not.

I like to fawn over and examine prized objects which can come off as loopy

I get really happy sometimes when I've spent a lot of time alone and for some people that might seem weird!

My strict self rules and routines at home, which leave little space for companions, may come off as out of touch and absorbed.

Can any1 relate?

[apixiedyedhere]

I say the wrong thing, react the wrong way. Say nothing at all, don't react at all.

Meanwhile my brain is in anguish because it knows.

What to say.

What to feel.

What to do.

But just refuses to connect that with my body, my person.

Just know that that's not me. That blank expression and shifting gaze. That coldness.

Just know that I do care. Deeply. But it's like trying to wave hello at a boat but from the bottom of the ocean.