#issa rant

[proshippers-against-censorship]

its rly weird how antishipping creeps would do anything to tear me down because of my SELFSHIP by harassing and threatening and sending people to dox me. when im literally inserting myself and i only portray little in my character because mentally i am a child and there is nothing i, or antis, can do about it. sorry …. i dont know if anyone else relates. but my brain isnt grown up compared to anyone else,,, ALL of my self inserts/kins are little girls because thats the real me. im not romanticizing pedophilia. it is antis seeing it that way. this is me coping with all my SA experiences whether i was a child or teenager while also trying to cope with this “age dysphoria” thing i have. oh, im stupid? well im practically a TWELVE year old you are talking to. and the fact that when i was only SEVENTEEN irl i was sent harassment and RAPE THREATS because apparently seeing mettaton shipped with a cartoon girl makes them THAT ANGRY ???? like who is the real pedo here??? im literally attracted to ADULT MEN both irl and fictional . because of the heavy harassmnt for three years, i am who i am today, even more traumatized and i didnt deserve it. i will never forgive anyone that hurt me. i will always remember their faces. i will always be hurt over this. it is insane to think about what i experienced.

and no one ever cared.

fuck antis.

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[nicetomeetyouimqueer]

I’ll make a longer post later but I really hate how Covid vaccines are depicted. Like the fact these shuts are patented because the pharmaceuticals “need” their fucking money. I hate how it’s being withheld from other countries/ they have to comply with all this bs, to get vaccine formulas. The Jansen (Johnson and Johnson) getting recalled fucking sucks because that’s less vaccines available and people getting hurt from those blood clots/ other injuries. I hate how vaccines are being treated as a panacea. Because it was never about people’s health but profit and “getting people back to work”. It’s really frustrating all this shit happened and health care is still the fucking same.

[charpaige]

Charlotte Page deserved better. 

I’m sure we all know that, but now that I’ve had time to accept the end for what it is, now I can go back to being pissy about how she was treated for the remainder of the series. 

Charlotte already started off as a stereotype. She was the black best friend that rolled her eyes at white stupidity, engaged in snark and sarcasm, and huffed and side-eyed situations while being by Henry’s side.

Then somewhere along Season 5, she became the butt of all jokes from being the smart, perfect, rational one??? When previously in the series, Charlotte and Schwoz were pretty much joined at the hip to save the day while in the Man Cave and it didn’t matter how smart and rational she was then. 

Season 5 turned her into the know-it-all black girl. The one who's always right, but for some reason, the white writers think it’s funny for her to be attacked for it episode after episode when it’s really not funny. 

Charlotte went from being such a key piece in the series to Henry’s character growth and emotional development by being there for him to just sitting in the Man Cave and barely having speaking lines that don’t result in her being lambasted for just talking. 

And then, of course, she was completely disregarded as a potential love interest and that will always kill me. Whether someone agrees with Chenry or not, their relationship as friends that could’ve grown into something more was undeniable. They both deeply cared about each other, protected each other, and got thrown into this crazy world of fighting crime and protecting Swellview together. Henry took the oath, but Charlotte might as well have too. 

Overall, Charlotte Page fell victim to the most common thing in writing today: white writers. Nothing’s wrong with being white obviously, but it really feels like all these white episode writers fucked her over. She never had a chance of being seen as something other than the black best friend. She was never going to have a shot at love, whether it be with Henry or another side character. And she was never going to be able to be her own person without the four white men she was constantly surrounded by.

For the writers, I’m sure that Charlotte was just another character and her race doesn’t matter in this fictional superhero kid show. 

BUT IT DOES!!!

To the black girls that watch her get to be smart only to be shut down. To the black girls that don’t get to be fantasized about, flirted with, and be acknowledged as attractive enough to date the white main character. To the black girls that get to see Charlotte help save the day from within the Man Cave, but it’s all about Ray and Henry. 

And don’t get me wrong, I love a good hetero-platonic relationship between people of different backgrounds. But if you go out of your way to cast a black girl, just for her to get absolutely no attention or recognition, it just looks really apparent that she doesn’t matter to y’all. I also know for a fact, if Charlotte was cast as a white girl, she wouldn’t have gotten that treatment. 

Somehow, along the way, Charlotte went from being a natural-haired, dark-skinned black girl main lead on Nickelodeon to being the token black girl in an all-white cast that occasionally said things. And that is truly a downfall I will never get over.

[nakadoo]

ive been rewatching sense8 this past quarantine and ive mostly been rewatching s2 and the finale but im now rewatching s1 and i have a few things to say

okay so first daniela: like ofc we already love her by the end of s2. Shes pushy, but shes a good friend and shes loyal. but at the start we were all kinda worried that she would out lito somehow. Anyways, when we first meet her she tells the person interviewing her that she and lito are good friends. and tbh though its all implied, lito was technically using her so that people wouldnt suspect he was gay.

anyway, upon finding out that lito is gay, she takes it in stride and she tells hernando the situation is “a dream come true”

and i was thinking, considering her ex and bad background, i think the reason she was so pushy to have sex with lito at the start is because she didn’t have a man in her life that was as kind as lito (lito does say at the start that he and daniella are good friends too). and maybe her “dream come true” to sit in between two men is like... she feels protected when she is with lito, and to be between lito and someone he loves can only mean that she is protected and surrounded by love

idk! you know by the end of it that they do both love daniella, and daniella loves them :(((((( IN THE FINALE, when herndando, dani, and amanita go out to get food and they get cornered by BPO, and lito screams “IM COMING FAMILY” idk i am so soft for that trio. theyre so good :(

[reniisha]

[shakespearedidnothavecumsh0ts]

For the most part.... Liam was right. Brett was okay. He was alive. He was strong. He was going to survive. But he didn't. Because some redneck looking asshole with a hair cut worthy of someone on the sex offenders' mowed him and his little sister down. Now, I don't know whether I should be glad he died first because then he won't feel like he failed to protect her or if I should be pissed even more because Lori (who may have a chance) watched the last member of her family die while she could do nothing to help him.

[blvcktivity]

RANT!!!

This is a word of advise to the niggas that think they know everything about black women, what they go through, who think you can tell them how they should dress, who they should love and especially to the niggas that talk this shit about “we lost her” because you see a Rihanna having fun with and Arab man or Serena Williams getting married to a rich ass white man. Nigga shut the F#@K up and sit your stupid ass down because you need to understand that black women are allowed to do whatever the fuck they want regardless of size, age and status. Nigga it’s not your place to tell them anything because the truth is that you are exposing yourself, looking like idiot and taking Ls so just humble yourself and learn that it not your place to tell them anything.

[peridot-tears]

I think a lot about how US-centrism is a really big thing, and something we USians commit whether we are conscious of it or not -- because, quite frankly, no matter how much we proclaim to dislike our country or want it to change, or straight up just want to leave it behind, it's already been deeply intertwined into our personalities.

But there's also that other factor where when it comes to fandom, we end up writing AUs set in the USA, because, well...that's still our home? That's what we're familiar with? So of course I want to play around and reimagine WangXian as diaspora Chinese growing up in New York, just like me. I think it'd be really funny to reimagine Arno as an exchange student who has to deal with NYU kids out here (I pity the man, NYU is an elitist nightmare). And if Tumblr is a US-based site, where most of us end up gathering, that's just math, right? There are going to be a lot of USians here writing about our experiences in this country, because they're the things that immediately affect us the most.

I don't think it's inherently bad to want to reimagine characters in the world we personally live in, but we do have to ask ourselves some hard questions about why we want to take these characters and put them in a setting that we are comfortable with. Would we appreciate them all the same if they were in a setting unfamiliar to us?

And if we were on a non-American site doing the same thing, and the people on that site got mad at us, how would we react? We have to be honest with ourselves.

Also, HUGE disclaimer:

This is not permission to whitewash characters.

If you're writing an AU with characters of non-American origin, do your research on their cultural norms.

Also, the USA is the "melting pot" or whatever the fuck you wanna call it, right. So is this character going to be an immigrant, a tourist, a tenth-generation American, or a second-generation American from another country's diaspora?

*Or are they Indigenous? In which case, what nation are they from, did they grow up on the rez, elsewhere, and what relationship do they have with their family and identity?

We should still think outside of our country. Realizing and acknowledging that we are raised to be ignorant of the world, and that our country holds a cultural Monopoly (i.e. our fucking media and entertainment are EVERYWHERE, and my roommate from Vietnam knows iCarly as well as I do, and I know someone from Nigeria who grew up on Johnny Bravo, just to name a few examples) are only the first step. We need to deprogram and see the rest of the world as a place that exists outside of us while still being affected by just how sprawling our influence is.

My personal experience:

I'm an immigrants' kid who grew up among other immigrants' kids in New York (note, I say "immigrants' kid," meaning I am explicitly not saying we immigrated, only that our parents did. People assume I came here just because I'm not white, which is some racist bullshit).

I have lived on other continents.

MDZS is easy for me because it's my culture. I've written them as diaspora Gen Z kids, Chinese people who grew up in mainland cities I'm familiar with, and in the canon Ye Olde China (Tang-dynasty-ish, but also a Ming-dynasty AU) setting.

I write French Frye in modern-day Paris and London very easily because as a USian, we're taught that "world history" is just "Western and Central European history." We're a Eurocentric society. Also, I've been in those cities and know people from there.

I struggle with writing Ratohnhaké:ton even though he is literally Indigenous to the land I grew up on (Kanien'kéha:ka were from upstate New York, just a day's drive from me, before colonization forced them to move further north). As a USian, that means I was taught the colonizers' attitude towards Indigenous folks, and despite all my research and talks with Indigenous folks to learn to be better, I will eventually trip up and accidentally say something racist or culturally offensive.

This isn't going to stop me from writing fanfic about him, but I'm gonna do my due diligence and consider the circumstances he would be in in a modern AU.

Yes, I want to write a modern-day AU where he goes to China and trains with Shao Jun, because I'm Chinese and I think that would be neat.

When I read modern AU MDZS fanfiction, I can tell who's not Chinese when I read about WangXian living in a house in China. I cannot emphasize how different the apartment-to-house ratio in most major Chinese cities is from the USA. I don't find it offensive, it's just a really strong tell.

If you're writing an AU set in NYC and there isn't a single "yerrrr" in it, you've already outed yourself (this is a joke).