Me and my dad are leaving for the College in about a half hour or so. I'm not looking forward to it at all, because I've felt college to be a largely miserable experience. If not for my dad also agreeing to go to College with me, I think I may already have just given up. Because it's truly been a stressful experience for me, honestly. I don't enjoy it.
Half my classes consist of three hour lectures and severely nitpicky teachers. The other half of my classes feature noisy kids or unpredictable hours. One day I didn't leave school until 4 pm, and it nearly drove me mad. The College courses are all unpredictable. Some feel like they're only one hour while some feel like five hours. It's exhausting and tiresome and frustrating. Enough so that leaving High School to go to College is what I'm blaming for at least 40% to 50% of all my stress based stomach pains.
I miss High School the more I attend College, really. The changes are too much for me, and it makes me miserable. I can't read at all in College because I can't focus there! I could read in High School, but not in College. I had a condescending GLE teacher in High School who clearly meant well but was also always talking down to me, and yet I somehow think he's better than the teachers in College who give me 0s every other week and seem downright apathetic to my existence. Those stupid teen movies and tv shows don't get it; I wish I could've stayed in High School forever. I wish I could've, honestly.
So my advice on College (based on my bias from my very negative experience)? Don't treat it like an essential part of life. Acknowledge the flaws, and maybe try to understand my desire for College to just be structured more like High School. Or my desire for people to be able to continue going to high school, even after they graduate. If I can get at least one more person to see my perspective, I'll feel like I may have done some good. I won't technically feel alone in this stressful boat. Because right now, only my dad really understands my hatred for College. At least in real life, he's the only person I know who fully gets it.
My stomachs being nervous again, so I'm going to hole up in the bathroom until me and my dad leave. Might write another post just to try and distract myself. But to ensure people see my dilemma, I shall tag everyone I can.
Here's the list of my mutuals: @marvel-and-moor @kryptonbabe @ihauntmyhouse @thewordsmith3 @snapcandle @c00c00pig @yourfriendlyneighbourhoodaries @southernfreakinggothic @demigod-jack-hearth @beauty-queen-official @molovesbooks @billybatsonmylove @irish-agender-moss @munchkinmarauder @dougielombax @0asta0 @one-of-batmans-orphans @ace-looking-4-parkingspace @supersonicdp @ltwharfy @ligaments-08 @spiritbox713 @drksanctuary @istilldontlikemyusername @berf-a-smurf @bacon-bitch @demigoddumbass @cosmo-autistic-version @blueknightmage @112emptycoffeecups @a-field-of-dragonflowers @sparkysaurus @jasongracesglasses @that-lego-frog
Now for some of the people I don't follow/I follow but they don't follow me back/any number of other possible explanations: @onewordaway @emperorcandy @tremendousdreamtragedy @riordanverseaddict @royaltystudios @daresplaining @sandy-castle @conundrumrespeculis @the-fyre-flie @gelpenss @bobs-biscuits-emporium @somedamslytherindemigod2 @delicatebatharmony @muiltifandomnerd @okaydokielemonquokey @forkborb
