#iwilllive

[sweetieness]

#somedays #ifeelthisway #ontheinside #depending #on #things #that #ichoose #to #effect #me #mainly #on #the #people #iallow #inmybubble Sometimes my bubble is empty because the ones closest to me have always done the most damage! FACTS. So I just can't! #iwilllive

[jacksmind99]

August 2, 2023 - Twice Now

First off, yeah I know I'm a little late. I was busy playing video games. Sue me. Secondly, what should I talk about today? How about working out. I'm typing this while my arms feel like noodles cause I worked out for the first time in 2 or 3 weeks. I began a month and a half ago with my brother, but then stopped when school (yes I take summer classes) became really stressful. I am happy to report as of today I am picking it back up. I have mad social anxiety, so going to a gym is out of the question. Instead, I'm using my semi-gym obsessed brother who has a work out kit in his garage. I am doing the "beginners" workout. 3 sets of barbell squats, 3 lifts of bench press, and 1-3 sets of deadlift depending on my remaining strength.

I have been super duper skinny my entire life. Or at least since puberty. I even got diagnosed anorexic at one point. I never worked out. Rarely ate healthy. Felt and acted like shit. Now, at 23 years of age, I am finally putting an end to that. That's not to day I haven't been making progress over the past few years. Its just that most of my progress has been mental health focused, with physical health a secondary (but still improving!) focus. I'm sure I'll talk about all that another time. But to stay on topic, it feels weird working out. I didn't quite know what to expect, and I cannot say for certain if what I'm feeling is it. But I am happy that I am making a step in the right direction. I am working on myself.

I know I shouldn't get this deep and personal on the second day, but I have awful self doubt. And awful body dysmorphia. And a fear that I am wasting my youth. Living to passively, life on autopilot. That's part of the reason I began this journal. To keep myself in check. To do things I will be happy to journal about. This fall, starting August 25, I will begin my very last semester of college. I have been missing the experience. I have been denying myself the experience. No more. I have improved my mental health. I will improve my physical health. I will be social. I will try new things. I will live, not just be.

I did some searching, and it seems tumblr to Spotify links are 404ing for a lot of people. This just started recently, too. Unfortunate. I didn't like the idea of linking a Youtube video. It just feels so clinky and large. Instead, I will just list the song. (edit: and add the link on top of it)

Weightless - All Time Low

[tridiindonesia]

#IWillLive #InSilentAndPain #Hiks https://www.instagram.com/p/CFmP5F9nBBL/?igshid=1ilf2nls0552c

[johnjacobjinglebell079]

No matter what I face in life. No matter what opposes me. No matter what has happened, is or will. I know I will outlive it all. I am meant to live. I know I’m meant to be. Nothing will ever take that away from me. I may not be the best at this or that, but it’s what’s on the inside that counts, and ultimately determines all. #amen #iwilllive #iamthestrongestwhereitcounts https://www.instagram.com/p/CDTw5fsgWAL/?igshid=1o3ho85s4tljl

[letstowerofmight]

God will always give us the right words we need, everyday. Learning a lot from the life of David. In this fight, i will not give up. There's a generation waiting for me. #visionary #rhemaWord #iwilllive #aliveinChrist #wordoftheday📖 #biblescripture https://www.instagram.com/p/BoUJDTLHBCV/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1s8g9hos0u1e2

[jessicaloveis]

"I'm sorry... I get a little reved up on this song cuz I've seen God raise the dead! So, ima sing it with authority". I still love this song. #injesusname #iwilllive

[lifestylebynai]

“I will not die but live, and will proclaim what the Lord has done.”~Psalm‬ ‭118:17‬ ‭NIV‬‬ . . . . . . #naiquotes #quotes #bible #psalms #ewc #powernight #prophetgideondanso #refuse #live #die #Godtypeoflife #declarations #moldmenai #iwilllive #exist #God #church #prayer #christian #christianquotes #scripture #christrepresenter #blogger #christianblogger #verse #browngirlswhoblog #kingdomwork #powerful (at Empowerment Worship Centre)

[thattranslife]

When bae sends you cute texts 👌❤😂 #moneymoneymoney #iwilllive #studentlife