but I miss you all like hell.. the times when I talked to you were the best and I always had so much fun, I would look forward to every reply.. and I meant everything I said to you..
James, I miss your silly bedtime stories, they always made me laugh even though they were short, and I want to thank you for letting me be a silly little child around you, I remember that.. when you left.. I was on vacation and I couldn't wait to come back home and tell you everything that happened..
Kendall, I'm so sorry for not talking to you every day before you left.. You were the only one I could really tell how I felt when I found out Jake was dying.. I'd still love to go to Asia with you if you ever come back.. please do..
Carlos, thank you for making me feel good about myself, I know you haven't really left since I still talk to you sometimes but.. I just miss the times we used to talk on Tumblr.. I'm sorry for any trouble I caused you.. and maybe one day we can actually meet..
Dustin, I tried so hard to be your friend but each time I felt like you didn't want it.. and yet you still managed to help me out a lot.. Thank you for being there when I needed you, and I'm sorry for not trying harder to make you feel alright.. I really wish we could've been good friends..
Logan, oh Jake, you have no idea how much I miss you.. You're so important to me and I really wish you never left.. You gave me the strength to do things I other wise wouldn't have the courage for.. You made me feel loved.. and I always felt so good about myself whenever I made you proud.. and you were always right.. about everything and I'm so sorry for not listening to you half of the time.. I'm so sorry for breaking promises for things that were never worth it and I'm so sorry for being so stubborn and stupid.. I wish I could make it all better.. I just want you back.. I need you so badly right now.. I'm so scared of everything without you.. and I hate that I didn't fight hard enough to be able to visit you.. I regret that so much.. You were the best friend I ever had.. and I hate that you had to leave this way and I'm still not over it.. j-just please.. come back..
I really hope that one day.. I'll see you all again.. one way or another.. and if you'd come back.. I'll be waiting with my arms wide open..