Out of context quotes from my journals:
(note: yes, these are from my most personal journals, which nobody reads but me, so the writing style is all over the place, as sometimes I wax poetic or get way into my feels, and sometimes I'm just spitting out my thoughts in amusingly ordinary lingo 😄 Oh, and these are not necessarily in chronological order, and some are just pieces of sentences.)
"So I just sat around and felt lonely, unwanted, and inordinately sad about not getting ice cream."
"...it just doesn't seem like society is set up for people like that. Rude."
"I find that his careless touch upon my heart left the imprints of shadows darker & deeper than I knew."
"...[A]nd that is truly a great woe, the rottenness that spoils the whole tree."
"I joke that I'm going to run away and join the Pirates[...] Pirates, here I come...."
"I've gotten into this 'either-or' mindset, that you can't possibly get the best of both worlds, that you can't have your crime and hide the body too, as it were."
"... at least as far as it can be ascertained via [virtual] chats...." (why did I feel the need to use this fancy wording? lol)
"Sometimes I feel like I fundamentally do not understand."
"Where is the grass in this place? Where are the open spaces where randos aren't walking around all the time?"
"But what I do know is that if you're not attracted to someone, you're just not attracted, and sometimes that's truly the extent of it."
"....I want to be with someone I can kiss reverently."
"It was much needed, because I'd been having a kind of bad relationship with my hair of late."
"...beautiful, admirable, and crush-worthy characters (worthy of having a crush on them, not worthy to be crushed, yikes!)"
"...[it] is like beams of silver light, spilling down over me, quivering with joy and laughter. There are no dark corners for anything sinister to hide in."
"...the unfortunate incident wherein I happened upon a most attractive stranger online and have been some sort of different ever since."
"Ah, the things that enchant the foolish heart!"
"We used to joke that if you dreamed the same thing three times it would come true."
"[T]here's woefully little of anything green to be seen."
"Kinda rude of them [cramps] to hit me like that."
"What is this societal woe, that apparently we can't handle long sentences anymore? What are these readers in such a hurry about anyway?"
"Oh no, somebody get the writing sheriff - this person just used a sentence with *three* clauses and a *four-syllable* word!"
"Lost and restless are not two feelings that abide well together."
"We were all invited, of course, but I started getting Social Nope and came up with a reason not to go."
"And it's foolish to harbor any hope or dreams for a relationship (of the romantic sort) with someone who does not, presently and in reality, meet the qualifications. No amount of hope in their potential is going to get them there."
"'I really shouldn't tell you this because it's highly illegal, but I've been in the business of hunting leprachauns.'"
"... the distant relations and other curiosities at the wedding ...."
"This is all absurdity of the highest order."
"I'm in a really big pickle right now, and I mean mostly financially, and somewhat generally."
"All you wanted to say is that Kayla-from-work's cousin's mom got a rotisserie chicken from Walmart, and I don't care."
"Why would I be attracted to the very antithesis of the good I want to spend my life fighting for?"
"[This song] touches something so deep within and makes you want to cry the tears of a hundred different emotions."
"'I've been thinking about joining the pirates.'"
"Somebody get me a gun, somebody get me a sword, or just let me go out and clobber evil with my bare hands, let's just get it out of here! If only it worked that way.... At any rate, I was in a very stabby mood."
"I guess it's also not socially acceptable to suggest too many alternate viewpoints on a given issue."
"I sure hope it doesn't actually turn out that way, or that it'll at least be funny if it does."
"And then I thought, Lol, that is very Bilbo Baggins of me."
"The configuration [...] is so weird, with its strange hallways and doorways and suspicious, creaky staircases of death."
"Maybe sometime while I'm here I'll just go poking about and see where I end up."
"People are so many more experiences and realities and worlds than just 'happy' and 'confident,' and yet apparently those are the things you've got to be in order to appear likeable and attractive."
"We have been eating so much food from Wendy's!"
"I don't truly think that there's no reason to live or keep going, but sometimes the feelings I have tell a different story. And sometimes they get really melodramatic and persistent. And sometimes it appears they just like to camp out for a while."
"It's such a funny point to be at in life, wanting to move forward and get on with things, and yet at the same time feeling that I'd just like to curl up in a blankie and hide."
