Jude Bellingham request where the reader teases Jude about the news that England players will be allowed to take viagra for the Mexico vs England match because of the altitude. And she makes a joke about how his size and how it might cause and offside.
VIAGRA - ju. bellingham
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inwhich! you tease jude about him and his team taking viagra before the mexico vs. england game.
frannytalks! this is so short, didn’t know if you wanted smut haha, i hope you like this! and he lowkey would cause an offside. 👀 don’t forget to join my taglist(s) here!
jude had always left his phone unattended and you would have to shut it off for him. this time he left it on the kitchen table while he was getting ready to go for a game, you were mid yelling his name to get his phone but you stopped before you could finish.
you saw his team group chat going crazy and you had to take a look. as you looked and scrolled you saw mentions of taking viagra for a joke because of the altitude.
you laugh to yourself quietly as jude comes up behind you, “you said my name love?”
you slightly jump, turning his phone face-down, “oh, yeah, your phone.”
he gave you a quick kiss, “thanks baby.”
you grin to yourself, knowing what you’re about to say to him, “you feeling okay?”
“yeah, why?” you furrowed his eyebrows, grabbing his phone.
“even after the viagra?” you hold in your laugh, “or did you not take that yet?”
jude gave you a “really?” look as he rolled his eyes, chuckling softly, “okay y/n, enough.”
“you sure you’ll be able to play tonight baby?” you say, finally letting out a loud laugh.
“i’ll be fine, y/n, were you going through my phone?” he says, scrolling through messages.
you nod no, “why? are you all planning to take it at the same time?”
“y/n.” he says, glaring at you.
“maybe you shouldn’t jude, your size might cause an offside while you’re playing.” you wink, brushing your fingers across his lap.
he twitched, backing away, “shut up.”
“maybe i should help you out!” you say loudly while laughing because he’s walking away.
“just start the car!” he huffs from your shared bedroom.
“you sure you still want to go? they might not let you play with a third leg!” you bite your lip, holding in your laugh once again.
he didn’t respond, “it’s okay to have three legs, don’t be ashamed jude!” you say, finally grabbing the keys and walking away towards the car.
──── ❝ jude x model celebcrush! reader ❞ ⌞ 644 wc⌝
synopsis ⪩ Jude embarrassed himself admitting his celebrity crush on the newest rising star and hot topic in the model industry - you. What he didn’t expect is to encounter feelings of reciprocation at their game against Norway.
warnings. . none
Charming, cool, composed - that’s how Jude was viewed in his fanbase and even beyond that. And that was true for the most parts, not just some gimmick held up for the public by his PR team. He was a gentleman thoroughly and it showed in the support he gained across various social media platforms.
He always appeared mature and well spoken; even for his relatively young age he maintained a son-in-law image over the years.
That was also the image that you had in mind since you were introduced to him in the Euros 2020. Back then your career didn't start yet and except for a few modeling jobs in your home town you were pretty much a nobody. But that changed drastically.
After your first few national wide campaigns you were soon discovered and ended up in the fashion capitals on the runway and as a brand ambassador for various luxury brands - it all worked out.
You’ve taken the fashion industry by storm and are now a very recognizable name. And that‘s exactly how you ended up here - in the grand stands of the football match between Norway and England invited by Adidas. And thats when you saw a certain someone warming up on the field.
Since you had to be in Miami for a shoot with a clothing brand anyways you decided this was a good opportunity for a little break. Though, you would be lying if you claimed this as the only reason. A very amusing video featuring England’s superstar going viral right now certainly aroused your interest as well.
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„So Jude, continue, what‘s the next essential in your bag?“ the girl from British Vogue behind the camera said after he took the first few items out of his Luis Vuitton bag. He shot a quick smile into the camera and then continued with the YouTube video.
„So for the next item I picked this moisturizer. Cause I‘ve got quite dry skin so it’s really nice to just have this on me whereever I go.“ he paused for a little showing the tube into the camera.
„I‘ve also heard they‘ve got a new ambassador right?“
„Oh yeah that’s right.“ the voice from the faceless girl could be heard again, mentioning your name.
„ She actually signed about three new brand deals this year, quite impressive if you ask me.“
„Three? Thats actually crazy work. But with that face...“ the last part came out a little quieter and less directed at the camera. As if the statement was only meant to be heard by him, followed by a subtle blush on his cheeks.
That's right when the clip segment ended and the video was cut to Jude showing the next essential of him. And if you weren't paying much attention to the video either you wouldn't have noticed it any further.
But the internet did. And within the first hour the video was online the moment got clipped; uploaded hundreds of times on Tik Tok and Instagram and instantly got viral.
The comments reached from jealousy and shipping you two to even people suggesting you're already dating in private. And after a few days of circulating online, the whirlwind surrounding it reached you.
In the middle of a shoot, which was only meant to be a quick Tik Tok break, turned into a deep dive into the Englishman and all of the attention disrupting his normally well collected appearance online.
Football wasn't the usual content appearing on your for-you page either but seeing your name in the hashtag made you curious. So you stayed. And you were glad you did.
So after a well spent amount of time online you were all filled in on this little crush regarding Englands matchmaker. It was safe to say that this also might have been a reason why you showed up at the match in the end.
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a/n: this lowkey screams for a part two
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Would u do one in which her and Jude are doing it in his familly home and the whole family is downstairs but they're not aware of the noise they're making. smth like that. thx you!! :)
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𝒔𝒖𝒎𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒚 — You really shouldn't have teased Jude earlier. Now you're paying the price—with his family just one floor below.
𝒑𝒂𝒊𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒈 — Jude Bellingham x you
𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒅 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒕 — 1.6k
Warnings! FLUFF! established relationship, NSFW / SMUT (18+), explicit sexual content, dirty talk, praise, possessive Jude, family downstairs, risk of getting caught, This chapter contains mature themes and explicit content intended for readers 18+.
You should have known better than to tease him at dinner.
Because now the joke's on you.
Now you're pinned beneath him on this too-small single bed—the same bed he's had since he was fourteen, apparently, with a mattress that creaks if you so much as breathe wrong—and his hand is over your mouth, his hips pressed tight against your ass, voice a ruined whisper against your ear.
"You think you're funny, don't you?" Jude's breath is hot against the shell of your ear, as his palm presses firmer against your lips. "Running your foot up my leg under the table like that. Hm?"
You whimper against his hand, and he groans low in his throat.
"Sh, baby. They're gonna hear us," he murmurs against your skin, and the bastard sounds amused.
His hand spans your waist, thumb pressing into the soft dip above your hipbone. He's behind you, chest flush to your back, and you can feel the rumble of his laugh trapped in his ribcage where it presses into your spine. The mattress groans beneath your combined weight. They've got the telly on downstairs, but neither of you want to risk. As much as you enjoy the slight danger, it would be too embarrassing for both of you.
He noses along your jaw, and his lips brush the spot just below your ear that he knows makes you crazy.
"Couldn't even wait till we got home," he murmurs, and you can hear the grin in it. "Just had to have my cock in you, huh?"
His hand slides from your mouth to grip your chin instead, tilting your head back against his shoulder. His eyes are dark in the low light of his childhood bedroom, hal-lidded with pleasure. He presses slow, open-mouthed kisses to your neck.
"Answer me," he says, soft and firm, his thumb dragging across your lower lip.
You blink up at him, dazed. "Yes."
"Yes, what?"
"Yes, wanted to get fucked," you manage, voice barely a breath. "Wanted you."
"That's right," he says, and his hand slides from your chin to wrap loosely around the front of your throat, barely adding pressure. "Couldn't even be good for me at dinner, could you? Had me so hard I couldn't think."
His pace quickens, each one punching a soft sound out of you, ones that you can't swallow back no matter how hard you try. The mattress springs groan in time with his movements, and your eyes fly to the door.
"Jude—"
"I know." His forehead drops to the back of your shoulder, his breath coming in sharp, controlled bursts through his nose. "I know, baby. But you're gonna have to be so quiet for me. Can you do that?"
You nod, but the truth is you're not sure you can.
Not when he's fucking you this good.
His hand tightens slightly around your throat—just enough to make your pulse hammer against his palm—and he shifts his weight. The new angle hits that spot deep inside that only he's ever managed to, and the sound that escapes you is embarrassing.
"Shh, shh, shh," he soothes, but his hips don't stop. If anything, he goes deeper, rolling into you with a slow grinds that have your toes curling. "God, you're so tight. Feel that? Feel how deep I am?"
You do.
The stretch of him, the heat of him, the way his stomach flexes against your lower back with every thrust. Your hand shoots back to grip his thigh, nails biting into the muscle there as you try to push him away, and he hisses through his teeth.
"Uh uh—" He catches your wrist, pins it behind your back, and his voice drops even lower. "Don't run from it. Take it." Your face presses into the pillow, and you bite down on the fabric to muffle the moan that builds in your chest. He lets out a breathless laugh behind you. "That's it. Bite the pillow if you have to." His free hand smooths down your spine, "Good girl."
The mattress betrays you both again with a sharp creak, and you both freeze. His hips still, buried deep. From downstairs, you can faintly hear chatter.
Jude's mouth finds your ear. "They're right there," he whispers, rolling his hips slow. "And you're soaking my cock like this." You clench around him involuntarily, and his whole body shudders. "Oh, you like that, don't you? Dirty girl. Like knowing they could walk up those stairs any second." You shake your head against the pillow, but your body tells a different story.
"Liar," he murmurs, and you can feel his smile against your neck.
His hand releases your wrist, and immediately his fingers find your hip, gripping tight as he starts moving again. Slow, deep thrusts that make sure you feel every inch of him pulling out before sliding back in.
"Baby, please," you breathe into the pillow, and your voice cracks on it.
"Please what?" Jude's voice is a rasp against the nape of your neck, and you can feel his patience fraying at the edges, the controlled rhythm of his hips stuttering just slightly. "Use your words."
"More," you whimper. "Need more."
Jude makes a sound behind you and his hips snap forward hard enough to shove you up the mattress. Your hand slaps against the headboard, "Gonna be the death of me," he moans into your shoulder, "Want it harder?" he asks, though his gentle tone betrays his intentions. "Tell me. Tell me what you need, sweet girl."
"You. Just—more. Please, Jude."
His hand flexes on your hip. "Since you asked so nicely." Then he gives you what you want.
He doesn't hold back after that.
His grip shifts—both hands now, one on your hip and the other pressing flat between your shoulder blades, keeping you pinned to the mattress as he pounds into you. The sound of skin meeting skin is obscene in the quiet of this room. The headboard taps against the wall a little too loudly for comfort, and he slows just enough to slide a hand up, pressing his palm flat against the wall above you to cushion the impact.
"Can't have that," he breathes, more to himself than to you.
But he doesn't slow down. He just adjusts, angling your hips up so he can sink even deeper, and the new position has your face pressing sideways into the pillow, mouth open, eyes squeezed shut. His hand finds your hair, fingers tangling in the strands at the root, and he tugs—gentle but firm—tilting your head back.
"Look at me," he says, and it's not a request. Your eyes open, hazy and unfocused, and you find him above you—this man who commands a stadium of thousands, now reduced to gritted teeth and trembling thighs.
"There she is," he murmurs, and his expression is almost pained. "My good girl. Taking everything I give you." His thumb traces down your cheek, wiping at a tear you didn't realize had slipped free. The tenderness of it hits you harder than anything else tonight, and your bottom lip trembles. "Hey," he whispers, softening for just a moment. His hips slow to a deep, grinding roll that makes your breath catch. "You okay?"
You nod, but your voice comes out wrecked. "Don't stop."
Something shifts in his expression at that. His jaw works, and he presses his forehead to your temple, breath warm and uneven against your neck.
"Never," he promises. "Never gonna stop."
His hips pick up again, and you feel a knot tightening low in your belly, building with every drag of him against that spot. Your hand grips the fitted sheet, twisting the fabric in your fist so you can have something to hold onto.
"Jude—" His name comes out cracked and desperate, swallowed by the pillow.
"I know, baby. I feel you," he rasps against your temple. "Feel you squeezing me. Gonna cum for me?"
You can't answer him. You can't do anything except cling to the sheets and try to remember how to breathe. Your body does the talking for you—clenching around him in fluttering waves that bring him closer to the edge too.
"There it is," he barely holds back his moans now. "There she goes. Give it to me. Let go, baby. I've got you." His hand slides from your hair to wrap around your front, pulling you flush against his chest, changing the angle again. His other hand finds yours, fingers lacing together against the mattress, pinning you there. Your back arches, and the knot snaps.
Your mouth opens against the pillow, but no sound comes out. Just a silent, trembling cry that wracks your whole body as your warmwet walls milk him for all he's got.
Jude's breath breaks apart against your neck. "Oh fuck—oh, fuck—" And he's following behind you, burying himself as deep as he can, his hips stuttering through the last few thrusts as he spills into the condom. His hand squeezes yours so hard his knuckles crack, and his whole body goes rigid against your back, trembling, a choked-off moan swallowed by the skin of your shoulder where he bites down to muffle himself.
The silence that follows is deafening.
Jude's weight settles against you, his forehead still pressed to your shoulder. His hand hasn't let go of yours. His fingers are still laced through yours against the pillow.
"I love you," he breathes against your shoulder, and it comes out so quiet you almost miss it.
⊹ 𝘀𝘆𝗻𝗼𝗽𝘀𝗶𝘀. england’s dream ends with a heartbreaking 2–1 defeat. some losses linger long after the final whistle. they follow you into quiet corridors, settle in tired eyes, and remind you that one painful night could never define you.
⊹ 𝗰𝗼𝗻𝘁𝗮𝗶𝗻𝘀. boyfriend!jude bellingham, angst, hurt/comfort, established relationship, post-match vulnerability, emotional intimacy, self-blame, quiet reassurance, emotional jude bellingham, physical affection, post-match heartbreak, jude bellingham needing comfort, disappointment, grief over a loss, being loved through difficult moments.
the final whistle didn’t sound like an ending. it sounded like something being taken away.
for a few seconds, she couldn’t move. she stayed exactly where she was, fingers still curled around the edge of her seat, her eyes fixed on the pitch in front of her as thousands of people around her reacted in completely different ways. there were cheers that felt too loud, voices breaking into celebrations, flags waving, cameras flashing, and yet somehow everything around her felt distant, almost like she was underwater and the entire stadium had become nothing more than a blur of sound and movement.
because she wasn’t looking at the winners. she wasn’t looking at the celebrations. she was looking for him.
jude.
she found him almost immediately. maybe because she always did. even in a crowd of players, even surrounded by cameras and teammates and millions of eyes watching him, she always found him first. and the sight of him made something in her chest tighten. because she knew that expression. she knew the difference between jude being disappointed and jude being hurt. disappointment was the frustration he showed after a mistake, the way he would shake his head and push himself harder, the way he would tell himself to do better next time. this was different. this was the quiet kind of pain. the kind he tried to hide.
he stood there for a moment, hands resting on his hips, his chest rising and falling slowly as he stared across the pitch. and she wondered what he was seeing. what he was feeling. because she knew it wasn’t the stadium. it wasn’t the fans. it wasn’t the moment that everyone else was watching. she knew he was replaying everything. every pass. every chance. every second where he would convince himself that maybe, if he had done something differently, the outcome would have changed.
that was the thing about jude. he never just experienced moments. he carried them.
the cameras moved toward him, searching for a reaction. and she watched him do what he always did. he lifted his head. he composed himself. he gave them the version of jude everyone knew. the professional. the fighter. the player who could stand in front of millions of people and handle pressure most people would never understand.
he shook hands. he showed respect. he walked towards his teammates. he did everything right. but she noticed the things nobody else did. she noticed the way his shoulders stayed tense, like he was physically holding himself together. she noticed the way his fingers curled and released at his sides, a small nervous movement she had seen countless times before. she noticed the way his eyes dropped whenever someone looked at him for too long. like he didn’t want anyone to see how much it hurt.
because that was the part people never understood. they saw a footballer after a loss. she saw the person behind the footballer. they saw the result. she saw the boy who had spent countless hours chasing moments like this. they saw ninety minutes. she saw everything that came before them.
she remembered the nights when he stayed late because he wanted to improve one more thing. the mornings when he woke up exhausted but still showed up. the way he never allowed himself to be satisfied for too long because there was always something else to achieve. she knew how much this meant to him. and maybe that was why watching him walk away from the pitch hurt so much. because she knew he wasn’t thinking about what he had achieved. he was thinking about what he had lost.
when the players finally began leaving the pitch, she stayed. she didn’t rush. she didn’t call his name from across the stadium. she didn’t want to add herself to the noise he had already been surrounded by all night. she knew jude. she knew that when the world was looking at him, he held himself together. but when it was just one person who truly knew him…
that was when he finally allowed himself to feel.
she waited near the tunnel, away from the cameras and the crowd, her heart beating a little faster the closer the footsteps got. and then she saw him. not jude bellingham. not the england player everyone had been watching.
just jude. tired. quiet. carrying a disappointment too heavy for one person.
for a second, their eyes met. and she watched the smallest change happen. it wasn’t dramatic. it wasn’t something anyone else would notice. but she did. the tension in his face softened. his shoulders dropped just slightly. like seeing her reminded him that, for a moment, he didn’t have to be the person everyone expected him to be.
“hey,” she whispered.
and somehow that simple word carried everything she couldn’t say.
i’m here.
i saw you.
i know.
his lips parted slightly, but no words came. and that hurt more than if he had cried. because jude always had something to say. always had a response. always found a way to make things lighter. but tonight, there was nothing. just the silence of someone who had given everything and was still trying to understand why it wasn’t enough.
for a few seconds, he didn’t move. he just looked at her. and she hated how quickly she could read him. because if anyone else had been standing in front of him, they might have believed the same thing everyone else believed. that he was handling it. that he was composed. that he was strong. she knew that the calm expression wasn’t peace. it was control. there was a difference.
jude wasn’t sure if he was allowed to let go yet. because he had spent the entire evening being everything everyone needed him to be. a leader. a teammate. a professional. someone who could walk away from disappointment and still shake hands, still show respect, still stand tall. but with her, he didn’t have to do any of that. with her, he didn’t have to pretend the loss didn’t hurt.
and then he moved. he stepped forward and pulled her into him so quickly, so desperately, that she felt every bit of emotion he had been keeping locked away. his arms wrapped around her tightly, holding her like he was afraid that if he let go, everything he had been trying to keep together would finally fall apart. and she immediately held him back. one hand sliding around his shoulders, the other resting against the back of his head, feeling the way his body slowly started to relax against hers.
this was jude. he was always moving. always pushing. always chasing the next thing. but right now, for the first time all night, he stopped. he stopped fighting the disappointment. he stopped trying to convince himself it didn’t hurt. he stopped carrying the weight of the entire night alone.
she felt him exhale. a long, shaky breath that sounded like it had been trapped inside him since the final whistle. and somehow that hurt her more than seeing him upset. because it meant he had been holding all of that in. all of those thoughts. all of those emotions. all of that pressure. he had carried it through the stadium, through the interviews, through every person who asked him to speak about the loss. and only now, with her, did he finally let himself breathe.
“i’m sorry.” his voice was barely above a whisper against her, so quiet that she almost wondered if he meant for her to hear it at all.
and immediately, her heart tightened. because even now, even here, his first instinct was to apologize. she knew that this wasn’t an apology for losing. it wasn’t an apology because the match didn’t go their way. it was something deeper than that. it was the instinct he had whenever he felt like he had fallen short—the need to take responsibility, to carry the weight, to convince himself that if he had just done more, been better, been enough, maybe the ending would have been different.
even now, standing there with his arms still wrapped around her, still trying to find some kind of comfort after the hardest moment of the night, his first thought wasn’t about himself.
it was an apology. and that broke her heart.
she pulled back slightly. just enough to see his face. his beautiful eyes. they were glossy, carrying the kind of emotion that came from holding too much in for too long, from forcing himself to stay composed when every part of him wanted to break under the weight of it. the kind of look that came from swallowing every feeling back because there had been too many cameras watching, too many people waiting for a reaction, too many expectations resting on his shoulders.
“for what?” her voice was soft. not confused. she already knew the answer. but she wanted him to hear himself say it. she wanted him to realize that he was apologizing for something he should never apologize for.
his eyes lifted to hers. and for a second, she wished she could take away every thought she saw sitting behind them.
“i don’t know.” a small, broken laugh left him, but there was no humor behind it. it was the kind of laugh people gave when they didn’t know what else to do with a feeling that was too heavy.
his eyes dropped again. his fingers tightened slightly around her waist.
“i just…” he stopped.
and she watched him struggle. watched him search for the right words, even though there probably weren’t any words big enough to explain what he was feeling.
“it wasn’t enough.” the sentence came out quietly.
and there it was. the thought that had followed him all night. the one he couldn’t escape. she lifted her hand, gently touching his cheek, making him look back at her.
there were still traces of the match written across him—a faint smear of grass along his cheek, tiny marks left behind from a night where he had thrown himself into every challenge, every run, every second he had been given. his hair was slightly messy, falling in a way it normally wouldn’t, his face carrying the tiredness of someone who had spent ninety minutes fighting for something and was now struggling with the fact that fighting had not been enough.
her fingertips brushed over his skin, feeling the warmth beneath them, feeling the way his jaw tensed slightly before slowly relaxing at her touch. she guided his face back toward hers.
“jude,” the way she said his name made him go quiet. not because it was a warning. not because she was correcting him.
because it was love. it was the kind of love that didn’t ask him to be different. it didn’t ask him to stop hurting. it only reminded him that he didn’t have to hurt alone.
“you know what hurts me?”
his eyebrows pulled together slightly, a small crease forming between them.
“what?” his voice was quiet, almost cautious. like he already knew whatever she was going to say would hit somewhere he had been trying not to look.
“that you can stand in front of millions of people and they can see everything you’ve done…” her thumb moved gently across his cheek, brushing away nothing and everything at the same time. “they can see how hard you fought. they can see how much you gave. they can see the player you are. they can see everything you’ve done.”
she paused. her eyes stayed on his.
“but you only see what you didn’t.”
that was the truth. the world saw the player who reached the semi-final. the player who fought. the player who inspired. but he only saw the moments he wished he could change.
“one match doesn’t get to decide who you are.” her voice was barely above a whisper, so soft it almost disappeared between them, yet somehow it was the loudest thing he had heard all night. her thumb continued its slow movement across his cheek, brushing past the faint streak of grass still clinging to his skin.
“one night,” she murmured, her eyes never leaving his, “doesn’t get to erase every early morning you showed up when nobody was watching. every sacrifice. every bruise. every hour you spent becoming the person you are.”
she swallowed around the lump growing in her throat. “it doesn’t get to erase the player everyone believes in…”
her fingers slipped gently to the back of his neck, her thumb grazing the edge of his jaw, grounding him in a way words never could. “and it could never erase the person i love.”
she smiled sadly, her eyes glistening now too. “because when i look at you, jude… i don’t see a loss.” a small pause settled between them. “i see someone who gave every part of himself until there was nothing left to give.”
her hand cupped his face a little more firmly, almost as if she wanted him to feel every word. “and if you can’t see that tonight…” she leaned forward, resting her forehead against his once more. “then let me see it for you until you can.”
he didn’t answer. not because he didn’t want to. because he couldn’t.
the words settled somewhere deep inside him, reaching the part of him that had been aching ever since the final whistle. his lips parted slightly, as though he wanted to say something, but nothing came. there wasn’t anything he could say. because how could he explain the feeling of wanting so badly to believe her while another part of him was still standing on that pitch, replaying every second, every touch of the ball, every decision, wondering if somewhere between the first whistle and the last, he had left something behind?
his throat bobbed as he swallowed hard. she saw him blink once. then again. a little slower this time. and when he lowered his head, it wasn’t because he couldn’t bear to look at her. it was because the weight behind his eyes had become too much to keep holding there.
he let out a breath so unsteady it almost sounded like it hurt. like it had been trapped inside his chest all night, refusing to leave because letting it go would mean accepting that it was over. his shoulders, tense from the moment the match had ended, finally gave the smallest shake beneath her hands. so small that anyone else would have missed it.
she didn’t. she felt it. she felt the way he leaned into her touch almost without realizing it, his face instinctively settling a fraction further into her palm, searching for the warmth of it as though it were the only thing keeping him anchored.
his eyes slipped closed. not to shut her out. but because, finally, he didn’t have to keep pretending he was strong enough to carry it all on his own. he could simply exist there. with her hands holding his face. with her voice still lingering in the silence between them. with the painful, impossible realization that maybe…
just maybe… she saw him far more gently than he had ever been capable of seeing himself.
she leaned closer. slowly. carefully. not wanting to rush a moment that felt so fragile, so heartbreakingly delicate, like one wrong movement might send him retreating back behind the walls he had spent the entire evening hiding behind. she gave him every chance to pull away. every chance to turn his head, to tell her he wasn’t ready, to keep carrying the weight on his own. but he didn’t. he simply looked at her. his eyes searched hers so quietly that it almost hurt, as though he was looking for something he hadn’t been able to find anywhere else that night. something the scoreboard couldn’t give him. something no teammate, no supporter, no headline could ever offer.
understanding.
forgiveness.
home.
she closed the remaining distance between them, her lips brushing against his with a tenderness that made time seem to slow around them. it wasn’t desperate. it wasn’t meant to steal his thoughts away or convince him that the hurt no longer existed. it wasn’t trying to erase the disappointment still sitting heavily inside his chest. it couldn’t. they both knew that.
instead, it was gentle. patient. the kind that simply whispered,
you’re still here.
you’re still loved.
and nothing—not one result, not one night, not one painful moment—will ever change the way i see you.
for a moment, jude didn’t move. he simply let himself exist inside it. his lips remained against hers, hesitant at first, almost as if he had forgotten what it felt like to receive comfort without needing to earn it. the warmth of her lips. the softness of her touch. the faint, familiar scent that had always managed to calm the parts of him the world never got to see. it wrapped around him so quietly that he hadn’t even realised how desperately he needed it until now.
because everything else about the last few hours had been loud. the roar of the crowd still echoed somewhere in the back of his mind. the celebrations that hadn’t belonged to them. the cameras following every movement. the questions waiting before he’d even had a chance to process what he was feeling. everyone had wanted something from him.
she was simply holding him. loving him. without asking him to be anything other than exactly who he was in that moment. and somehow…
that hurt almost as much as it healed. because after spending the entire evening convincing himself he hadn’t been enough…
she was kissing him as though she couldn’t see a single thing wrong with him.
as though all the parts of himself he struggled to accept were the very ones she held closest.
as though loving him came as naturally as breathing, never once questioning if he was worth it.
and somehow, that reached deeper than any criticism ever could—because she made it impossible for him to keep believing he wasn’t enough.
he broke the kiss gently, drawing back just enough to look at her one more time. the corners of his lips lifted into the faintest smile before he let himself fall forward, resting his head against her shoulder. he didn’t say a word. he only held her, melting into her embrace —as though being close to her was the only thing he needed.
as though the weight he’d been carrying had finally found somewhere safe to rest.
after a long while, he finally lifted his head.
for a moment, neither of them said anything. they simply looked at each other, the silence no longer heavy, but comforting. the corners of her lips curved into the softest smile, and his answered it without hesitation. she reached up, closing what little distance remained between them until their noses brushed softly. he stayed there, his eyes fluttering shut for the briefest moment, as though he wanted to hold onto the feeling of her being this close just a little longer.
when he opened them again, she was still looking at him with that same unwavering tenderness. he couldn’t help himself. he shifted just enough to press one last lingering kiss to her forehead, before letting his lips rest there for a heartbeat.
“ready?” she asked quietly.
he let out the faintest breath, a smile tugging at the corners of his mouth.
“yeah,” he whispered. “let’s go home.”
their hands found each other as naturally as breathing, fingers intertwining. and for once, he wasn’t thinking about what he could have done better, what he could have been, or whether he was enough. they walked out of the empty stadium together, leaving behind the echoes of the night and carrying only what mattered with them.
and maybe that was the thing he had been searching for all along—not someone who would convince him he was perfect, but someone who would remind him he was worthy even when he forgot.
he had spent so long believing that this could be the moment everything finally changed. the moment where all the years of waiting, all the near misses, all the nights spent carrying england’s hopes would finally be worth it. but then, in a matter of seconds, it was gone. and the hardest part wasn’t the loss itself—it was seeing the way he went quiet afterward, the way he stood there trying to accept something his heart wasn’t ready to let go of.
she knew how much of himself he had given to this team, how much pride he carried every time he wore that shirt, how much it meant to him to make a nation believe again. and now she was watching the person who always found a way to keep going, struggle with a moment he couldn’t fix. she wished she could remind him of everything he was beyond this result, beyond this night, beyond the trophy that slipped through his fingers.
but she knew some dreams left behind a silence that words couldn’t reach.
and it’s okay… she thought, even though she knew it wasn’t. not really. not for him. not when she could see the way the disappointment had settled into him, quiet and heavy, after giving everything he had to a moment that was supposed to be theirs. she hated that there was nothing she could do to change the score, nothing she could say that would bring back the seconds they had lost. she could only stand beside him and feel the heartbreak of watching someone she loved come so close to something he had dreamed about his entire life,
Chin up (and open)➶[comforting jude after the match]
➷pairing: jude x reader, jude x you, 18+
➷summary: jude is upset after losing the semifinals and you want to help him feel better
➷tags: smut, oral (m receiving), fem reader, emotional hurt/comfort, face fucking, big dick! jude, praise kink, fluff, reassurance, emotional jude
➷wc:~1.8k
"Shhhh shhhh," you murmur, "It's okay, baby."
You're hugging Jude, his face is in your chest and you stroke his face lovingly, whispering reassurances. He's so upset, but who wouldn't be? He worked so hard and it's hard for you to see that work not able to take the team further. You know him, and that he cares so much and you want to be there for him as best as you can.
He'd walked into your arms without saying anything, back into the hotel room after reconvening with the team, no doubt heartbroken, no doubt feeling like he just wants to hide away from the world right now, away from all the interviews and the questions, and into your arms.
"You played so well baby," you whisper into his ear, "So good, this whole tournament, you should be so proud of yourself."
And you feel a little triumphant at the way he mewls at your words, rubbing his face further into your chest. It's true, what you said, he always puts his all into everything. But it must be so exhausting to carry that weight, and all you want is for him to let go of that pain.
"Amazing, you were amazing," You don't stop, you kiss all across his face, whisper sweet reassurances, "Top Goal scorer," another kiss, "So strong on the pitch," kiss along the jaw, "Never gave up." You trail your kisses across his cheek, back to his ear to whisper sweet nothings.
"I just..." he says, voice small "I just thought we could go further you know? Like we could really make it this time."
"I know... I know," you whisper, you rub at his chest. Resting your head on top of his and stroking his arms
You're about to close your eyes, let sleep and exhaustion take you both but then you look down and notice the tenting present in his shorts. You wonder if it's all the compliments you've been giving him, he always got a bit going when you praised him in the past, or if it's still the adrenaline of the match, or maybe how his head had been nestled into your breasts for the past hour.
"Ugh forget about that-" he starts, but you shush him. Giving him soft eyes that you know make him all quiet.
"Let me take care of you, baby, okay? Can I do that?"
You'll do anything to make him feel better, and he looks at you with such gratefullness.
"I- yeah, yes, please-" he whines and you're off.
You trail your kisses down his neck, soft and wet, dropping to your knees in front of him while he sits on the edge of the bed. You lay your palm on the buldge of his shorts, rubbing up and down slightly, his hips respond to your touch and he moans from above.
You don't hesitate, pull his shorts and underwear down and almost get slapped in the face with his dick. It's aching, weeping, begging to be touched, to be milked by your mouth, and who are you to deny such a sweet thing?
You look up at him, he looks back perked up but still a bit of lingering sadness from the match- you're determined to get rid of all of that ache, to suck him so thoroughly, make him feel so good, that he won't have space in his brain to think of anything but pure pleasure.
You nuzzle your face at the base of his cock and he keens out- so sensitive. Place wet, sloppy kisses at the base, rub your cheek along the sides of his dick.
"Babe..." he whines, hips jerking up at how you're teasing him.
Good, you're getting him all hot and bothered, let him think of nothing but how badly he wants to come.
"Yeah?" you whisper, licking at the lower part of his shaft.
You suckle at the base again, avoiding his fat tip where you know he loves to be sucked at. You continue your ministrations, teasing and placing slopping kisses, his voice getting more and more desperate.
"Hmmph-" he whines, "Please, babe, I need- need you-"
Yes, you think, this is how desperate you want him.
"I'm sorry," you murmur, "Let me take care of everything, okay?"
He looks thoroughly wrecked, face and chest heaving, but he nods, laying over his control, finally relaxing under the weight of the pressure.
You shift up and finally, finally, take his sobbing head into your mouth.
The effect is instant, his head thrown back, his voice letting out moans and whimpers.
You don't stop, you suck at his tip, run you tongue through his slit and lap up all his sweet, sweet precum. You flatten you tongue underneath the sensitive ridge of his head and he outright shouts, so keen on what you're reducing him to. His cock is so thick, fills you're mouth so utterly, you move you head down further and further, taking in more and more of him and feel yourself getting wetter at the feeling of being completely choked on his cock.
You're slobbering over his dick, sucking hard and lapping it all up, your hand covers the base, jerking him up and up. You twist in time with your sucks and he's moaning out your name in desperation.
You pull off his dick and he whines.
"Babe, what? why-"
"I want to try something, okay?" you saying, using your does eyes again. You must look a sight: lips swollen, wetness all over your chin.
He looks at you like you're beautiful, "What is it?"
You look back at his cock in consideration, You slap it against you cheek a few times to test out your idea.
"Ugh- babe-" he groans, "What're thinking."
It's a big dick, you've always know, takes up almost all your head you notice as you nuzzle your face into it. And you've never done this before, but tonight is all about him, his pleasure, and letting him lose control.
"I want you to fuck my face."
"Huh?" he says, haplessly, still a little lost from all the pleasure, "You sure?"
"Yeah baby," You place a soft kiss at the tip of his dick, "I want to be so good for you, will you let me?"
"It's just... I've never done it before, what if I hurt you?"
"I'll tell you if it is, okay? I promise."
He still looks a bit hesitant, so you bring out the big guns.
"Pleeeease, Jude," you whine, rubbing your face on his dick, "Please, I want you to fuck my face so bad, I need your big cock to stuff my mouth."
"Holy shit- okay, okay," he scrambles up from the bed, and you smile, pleased at your power.
You shuffle into place, kneeling on the floor and wait patiently as Jude gets into place.
He smiles down at you, takes his dick that's already leaking cum and wipes it on your swollen lips like a sticky lip gloss. You lick your lips and gather his cum back into your mouth, eyes closing at how good it tastes.
"Fuck-" he chokes, stroking his dick at the site, "You're gonna be the death of me, 'm so close."
You grin at his words, "That's okay, can't wait to swallow your cum, Jude."
"Jeez, okay, shit-"
He takes both of his hands and gather your hair back, you start opening your jaw as far as you can, you'll need as much space as you can get to fit him all in. You relax your jaw, stick out your tongue expectantly.
He feeds his dick into your mouth, slowly. It stuff you instantly, because not only is he big, he's thick and your lips stretch you take him all in.
"You okay?" he asks.
You groan around him in response and he swears he almost comes then and there.
"Fuck, fucking hell," He's accidently shoved the rest of his cock into you, "Sorry, shit, you good?"
You're full, mouth full, throat full he's all around you and it feels so fucking good. You moan again and he starts moving his hips, starts fucking into your mouth.
He's so loud above you, telling you you look beautiful, you take him so well, that you're mouth is so sinful but all you can think about is his fucking cock, shoving in and out of your throat, swallowing your thoughts whole. You're slobbering all over his dick, eyes watering, you can't do anything but let him take control, let him take whatever he needs to make himself feel better, to gain some control back after the loss.
"Shit, babe, you're a fucking sight to see."
You whimper at his words, it feels so good. His hips find a faster rhythm, shoving deeper in each thrust, his hands threading through your hair.
He snaps his hips harder and harder, getting more confident with each thrust, taking out the anger and frustration into your soft mouth. And you take it all, swallow every gag and let your jaw grow numb at being fucked so ruthlessly. You get wetter at the thought
"So close- 'm so close, your mouth so fucking warm 'n perfect-"
His thrust are stuttering, getting more errattic, and you can't wait to be filled with his semen.
"Okay- fuck, I'm gonna-"
He bullies himself as deep as he can into your mouth, stopping there to finish. You feel his hot spurts of cum coating your throat, he comes so much but you swallow every bit of it. It tastes saltly and exactly like him and you whimper at how stuffed you feel.
He softly leaves your mouth, and you cough slightly as he does. He comes down, kneels with you, strokes your hair and wipes lovingly at the corners of your eyes were tears had formed.
"So good, babe," he murmurs and you catch your breath, "You did so good for me, make me come so hard."
"Yeah?" you say, voice slightly hoarse, smiling at all the praise.
"Are you kidding?" he grins, "You were fucking perfect for me."
You lean your back against the foot of the bed and settle into his shoulder, energy depleting.
"Wasn't it my job to be giving you compliments tonight, not the other way around?" you tease.
"Oh shit," he says, frowning a little, "I forgot about the match."
"Oh... I'm sorry for reminding you."
"No- no, not at all," he whispers, kissing your cheek, "You're the reason I forgot in the first place, remember?"
You hum at his words, feeling sleepier by the second.
"Thank you, by the way," he says after a second, "Not just for... you know but everything. You really helped me, I don't know what I'd be feeling if it wasn't for you."
You open your eyes and see him look at you adoringly, and your insides glow at the feeling.
"It's okay, it's what I'm here for."
"Yeah, just, I love you so much." he whispers against your temple, placing a kiss there.
"I love you too," you say, choking a little.
He laughs, "I'm getting you some water, okay? And ice chips."
He stands to get up but you tug him down.
"Later, okay? Right now just stay with me."
He settles his head above yours, smiling, "Okay."
FIN.
thank you sm for reading <3 please send any requests my way or if you want to cry over the match results w me :(((
sy: jude discovers your childhood One Direction collection and somehow ends up jealous.
a/n: just a silly little thing I felt like writing
sorry if there are any writing or translation mistakes
The move had started with organisation and was clearly descending into chaos. Not the bad kind of chaos — the chaos of two people in a small room with boxes stacked and decisions to be made about every object that had existed since before you knew you'd need to decide what to do with it.
Jude was theoretically helping, which in practice meant he carried the heavy things with a helpfulness you appreciated and snooped through absolutely everything with a curiosity you pretended not to appreciate but did.
"Are you taking this?" he had asked about the pink lampshade your mum had put in the room when you were twelve and that had stayed there by force of habit.
"Probably not."
"Good," he said, with a seriousness that wasn't entirely serious.
You were folding clothes into a pile while he went through the highest shelf of the wardrobe — the part you used as storage for things you didn't know where to put but also couldn't throw away, which was the practical definition of half of everything you owned.
That was where he found the box.
You weren't watching when he pulled it out, so you only noticed something had happened when the sound of rummaging stopped and silence took its place, when someone comes across something interesting. You turned.
Jude was sitting on the edge of the bed with the box in his lap, wearing that expression.
It was a cardboard box with a printed photo on the lid — five boys, the Frat Boy era photo, the one you had been completely obsessed with — and you knew before he opened it what was going to happen.
"Jude," you said.
He had already opened it.
The problem with the box was that it was too complete to be ignored.
There were polaroids of them, collectible cards, an old school notebook that was well-used but that you had kept simply because they were on the cover and therefore it was important. There were t-shirts folded with the same care you kept things that genuinely mattered, were CDs with those covers you knew by heart, with the scratches of heavy use and there was, scattered throughout the entire box with the clear evidence of someone who wasn't trying to hide it, the indisputable fact that Zayn was your favourite — a poster carefully folded, the t-shirt with his name on the back, one specific photo kept in a plastic sleeve as though it were a document.
Jude was going through all of it with an attention proportionate to the amount of material available, which was a lot of attention.
You went to sit beside him because there was nowhere else to go and because standing in a defensive posture would have been worse. You picked up the CD he had been holding and looked at the cover for a second with that specific feeling of rediscovering something that was once very important at some point in your life and that time had kept in a place you hadn't visited in a while.
"God…" you said, more to yourself than to him, with the tone of someone arriving at a memory they hadn't expected to find so intact. "I loved them so much."
Jude raised his eyes from the poster he was unfolding with a comic delicacy, like an archaeologist handling a fragile artefact.
"I miss them so much," you continued, running your thumb along the edge of the CD with a tone that was slightly tearful and completely honest. "I'm never going to get over this infinite hiatus..."
He looked at you. You didn't look back because you were holding the t-shirt now, recognising the fabric.
"And Liam," you said, with the specific quality of genuine nostalgia. "God. I miss Liam."
There was a silence.
You looked up.
Jude was standing with the semi-folded poster in his hand, looking at you with an expression that was the honest attempt to appear neutral and which was failing quite visibly. There was something in it that was simultaneously genuine tenderness — the kind belonging to someone finding it endearing to see you so vulnerable about something that had clearly mattered a great deal — and something that was, recognisably, jealousy. The kind that appears when you lose someone's attention to a cardboard box with five boys on the lid.
"Excuse me," he said, with the tone of someone arriving at an important conclusion.
"Hm?" you said, distracted, because you had found a specific photo and were processing it.
"I exist," he said.
"I know you exist."
"You are clearly not remembering that right now."
You looked at him properly for the first time since the box had appeared, and there was something on his face that was so genuinely defeated in a way he clearly found funny but which was also not completely funny, that you had to bite the inside of your cheek.
"Jude."
"No," he said, solemnly. "You don't have to. I understand. You'll stay here with your five British boys and I'll finish packing things up by myself."
"There are four British ones," you said. "Niall is Irish."
He looked at you for a second.
"You know that off the top of your head."
"I knew a lot of things off the top of my head," you said, with the dignity of someone defending a formative phase.
Jude put down the poster, turned his body toward you and looked at you with that expression that was his when he was allowing himself to be mildly ridiculous and knew it. There was something in it you loved about him — the ability to make drama in a completely self-aware way, to be the comic version of jealous without losing the self-awareness.
"So," he said, with completely fabricated seriousness, "you spent years in love with a group of British boys."
"I was thirteen."
"That's not an answer."
"It's an excellent answer."
He tilted his body slightly toward you, his knee pressing against yours, and there was in that adjustment of position someone getting closer for reasons that had zero to do with the available physical space. His eyes were that way — direct, mildly amused, with that layer underneath that was more serious than the surface suggested.
"And now?" he said. "Still in love?"
You looked at him for a second. At the face you knew better than any photo in any box, at the way he was looking at you with that specific mix of teasing and something more honest than the teasing.
"My love," you said, with the calm of someone delivering the final argument, "I haven't felt something this strong for an English person since One Direction." You said you were referring to him.
The silence that followed lasted exactly as long as it took him to process that.
And then he laughed — genuine, that laugh you had memorised better than any song on any CD in that box — and before you had finished appreciating the laugh he had pulled you close by the shoulder, his arm wrapping around you with that familiar firmness, his face near yours in a way that didn't ask permission because it didn't need to.
"Okay, I'm flattered," he said, with the smile still in place. "I love you."
You looked at him up close, with the box still open beside you and the CDs scattered and the semi-folded poster, and there was in all of it something that was simultaneously completely silly and completely real — the version of you that was thirteen and kept posters and the version that was the age you are now in a moving-day room with a man who made jealous drama about British pop groups because he knew it would make you laugh.
You rested your head on his shoulder.
He left a kiss on the top of your head — soft, absentminded, the kind that happens without specific intention because it's simply what he does when you're close.
"Are you still taking that box?" he asked.
"Of course I am."
"Right," he said, with completely fake resignation. "They're coming too then."
𓏲 ࣪ ˖ one - shot. jude bellingham x reader. 18+. groupie x celebrity. smut and little angst. cheating (jude is). reader is a playgirl. dry humping. riding. yearner!jude. ◞ seducing men like jude is a part-time job for you
the stadium lights are blinding, a neon haze that turns the pitch into a stage, but you don’t care about the roar of the crowd or the tactical formation. you’re here for one reason: jude.
you’ve spent the last year perfecting the art of the chase—flickering between hotel lobbies and vip lounges, catching the eyes of men who think they hold the world in their boots. for you, these high-profile encounters are just stories waiting to be written in the dark, a collection of fleeting moments with the famous and the untouchable. but jude is different. he isn't just another name on a guest list; he’s the obsession that keeps you up at 3 a.m.
the air is thick with the scent of damp grass and expensive cologne as you lean against the railing of the player’s tunnel. you look impeccable—a calculated, effortless display of allure that usually leaves athletes stumbling over their words. when he finally trots onto the pitch for the warm-up, the sound of thousands of voices vanishes for you. he looks lethal in that england kit, his focus absolute, his movements sharp enough to cut through the tension in your chest.
as he turns toward your side of the pitch, you catch that brief, intense flicker of recognition in his eyes before he turns back to the ball. the game hasn't even started yet, but you can feel it—the thrill of the hunt, the promise of a dangerous night, and the silent realization that tonight, you are the only thing that matters in his peripheral vision.
the game is a blur of motion and color, but for you, the world has narrowed down to a single frame: the way he commands the pitch. every time the ball finds his feet, the stadium seems to hold its breath. you watch the muscles in his legs coil and release, his grace under pressure nothing short of mesmerizing. he isn’t just playing football; he’s performing, every touch calculated, every turn a display of raw, magnetic power.
he is devastatingly beautiful, his presence radiating a confidence that makes the thousands watching feel like he’s playing for them alone. you track the sheen of sweat on his skin, the intense, hooded look in his eyes as he scans the field, and the way he brushes his hair back with a quick, impatient flick of his hand. it’s an effortless kind of attraction—the way he holds himself, the authority in his gestures, the way he celebrates a goal with that familiar, iconic stance that stops your heart in your throat.
you find yourself ignoring the rest of the match entirely. you don’t care about the score or the opposing team; you are feeding on the sight of him. his talent is intoxicating, but it’s his sheer, unapologetic allure that has you completely hooked. he’s lethal, elegant, and impossibly desirable, and with every passing minute of the game, the desire to have that focus—that intensity—turned entirely on you becomes a physical ache. you aren't just watching him; you are studying him, cataloging every detail, waiting for the moment when the final whistle blows and you can finally make your move.
you know the rhythm of this game better than anyone. as the final minutes tick away, you don't stay to watch the celebration on the pitch; you’re already moving, slipping away from your seat before the crowd can even think about surging toward the exits.
your heels click softly against the cold concrete of the stadium’s bowels, a sound drowned out by the muffled roar above. you aren't just another fan; you move with the kind of practiced, unbothered confidence that makes security guards look the other way. a knowing nod, a strategic flash of a pass you didn't technically earn, and you’re weaving through the labyrinthine corridors. you navigate the maze of staff, photographers, and media personnel, your presence so seamless it’s practically invisible.
you find your spot—that golden, restricted passage where the players have to pass before they can retreat to the sanctuary of the dressing room. it’s a tight, industrial space, smelling of stale air and adrenaline. there’s a small group of journalists nearby, clutching their microphones like weapons, but you’re positioned just perfectly, tucked into the shadows of a reinforced door frame.
your heart is drumming a chaotic rhythm against your ribs, not from nerves, but from the thrill of the maneuver. you’ve played this scene out a dozen times before, but this time feels heavy, electric. you adjust your jacket, catching your reflection in a darkened glass panel—you look cool, collected, and entirely intentional. the stadium is echoing with the final whistle now, and the sound of heavy footsteps approaching sends a jolt of static through the air. he’s coming. you lean back, crossing your arms, waiting for the exact moment the tunnel lights reveal him, knowing that when he walks past, you won't be just another face in the crowd. you’ll be the only thing he stops for.
the tunnel erupts in a cacophony of echoes—cheers, footsteps, and the relentless flash of cameras. when he emerges, he’s still buzzing with the adrenaline of the win, his england jersey damp against his skin. he handles the journalists with a practiced, charming ease, answering questions with that low, melodic drawl you’ve replayed in your head a thousand times.
then, the chaos shifts. he starts moving down the line, signing shirts and posing for quick snaps. your pulse is a frantic drumbeat, but your exterior is a masterpiece of cool. as he gets closer, the air around him feels charged, almost heavy.
when he finally reaches you, the world seems to sharpen into high definition. you extend your hand, offering the photo and a pen, your movements slow and deliberate. he stops. his eyes dart from the paper to your face, and then back again—a flicker of genuine, unguarded surprise crossing his features. it’s as if he didn't expect to find someone quite like you tucked away in this sterile, industrial corridor.
you tilt your head just slightly, leaning into his space, and deliver your line with a voice that is honey-smooth and perfectly measured. "you were incredible tonight, jude," you say, your smile soft and knowing. "i’ve been waiting all match for this."
the effect is immediate. the effortless, public-facing composure he’s maintained all night wavers. his eyebrows knit together for a split second, a look of fleeting disorientation, as if he’s trying to place why you feel so familiar, or perhaps, why you don't feel like the rest of the fans at all.
but then, the tension breaks. he lets out a short, surprised laugh, the corners of his eyes crinkling as he looks at you properly, really seeing you. he doesn't just scribble his name; he takes a moment, his gaze lingering, his smile turning warm and unmistakably curious.
"thank you," he says, his voice a little lower, a little more intimate than it was for the others. he’s clearly a bit thrown off, off-balance in the best possible way, but he holds your gaze, completely disarmed by your presence. "i appreciate that. truly."
he hands the photo back, his fingers brushing against yours, and for a fleeting, delicious second, he doesn't pull away. the game is over, but the real show is just beginning.
you hold his gaze just a second longer than necessary, your expression shifting from simple admiration to something far more intimate, far more dangerous. you let your eyes trace the line of his jaw before locking back onto his, a slow, deliberate play of power.
"i'm a huge fan," you murmur, your voice dropping into that sweet, velvety register that makes him instinctively lean in, even if just by a fraction of an inch. "but i think we both know that goes without saying, don't we?"
the air between you hums with the unspoken. you watch the flicker of realization cross his face—that you aren't playing by the rules of a normal fan interaction. you aren't asking for a selfie, you aren't begging for attention; you are setting a trap, and he’s realized, a second too late, that he’s already halfway inside it.
"thank you, jude," you say, your voice barely a whisper, soft and lingering.
without waiting for him to find his footing, you pull your hand back and pivot, turning your back to him with the grace of a predator who knows exactly when to walk away. you walk down the concrete corridor with a measured, rhythmic stride, your hips swaying just enough to hold his attention, your posture perfectly arched.
you can feel his eyes on you—heavy, intense, and utterly bewildered. he’s standing there, frozen for a heartbeat, his hand still lingering in the air where he had just signed your photo. he’s not used to being the one left behind, and he’s certainly not used to someone leaving him speechless in a tunnel full of people.
as you reach the turn of the hallway, you pause. you don't stop walking, but you tilt your head back over your shoulder, offering him one final, knowing smile—the kind that promises everything and gives away nothing. you see his lips part, a silent question forming on his tongue, but you’re already rounding the corner, leaving him anchored to the spot, completely unsettled by your sudden, intoxicating disappearance.
the silence in the corridor after you disappear feels heavier than the noise that preceded it. jude stands frozen for a beat too long, his eyes still fixed on the empty space where you just were, his mind rewinding the last thirty seconds.
"who was that?"
the voice of a teammate—sharp, amused, and laced with curiosity—cuts through his daze. jude blinks, his focus snapping back to the reality of the stadium tunnel. he looks toward the other player, a faint, perplexed frown creasing his brow as he shakes his head, his fingers subconsciously rubbing against the spot on his palm where they’d brushed against yours.
"i have absolutely no idea," jude replies, his voice steady but betraying a trace of lingering disbelief. there’s a strange, kinetic energy still prickling his skin, a lingering sense of being completely caught off guard by someone he didn't even know existed a minute ago.
the reality of his situation hits him then. he’s surrounded by a throng of waiting fans, cameras are still clicking, and the line behind him is growing restless. he takes a deep, grounding breath, forcing his composure back into place. he has to finish this—the jerseys, the pens, the relentless parade of faces—but every name he signs and every handshake he offers feels mechanical, forced, and hollow compared to the electricity of that brief, strange encounter.
he keeps glancing toward the corner you rounded, his eyes searching the shadows, his mind busy trying to reconcile the professional footballer he’s expected to be with the man who just had his world momentarily tilted off its axis by a girl who didn't even leave her name.
the satisfaction is a slow burn in your chest as you settle into the designated area near the training pitch. a few days have passed, but the look on his face in that corridor hasn't faded from your mind. you know how this game is played—persistence is just another form of seduction. you’ve secured your spot among the media crew, dressed with an effortless, casual chic that screams 'off-duty' while still demanding every ounce of focus from anyone who happens to look your way.
the air is crisp, filled with the sharp sound of cleats hitting the turf and the rhythmic thud of footballs being kicked across the field. you aren't trying to hide; in fact, you’re positioned exactly where he’s bound to see you.
as the players emerge from the facility, spilling onto the green in a wave of motion and chatter, you don't track them. you don't even scan the group. you just watch the pitch, your posture relaxed, one leg crossed over the other, a small, knowing smile playing on your lips.
the recognition is instantaneous.
as jude jogs toward the center of the pitch, his conversation with a teammate abruptly dies in his throat. his head snaps toward the sidelines, his stride faltering for a split second before he regains his rhythm. his eyes lock onto yours, and you can practically see the jolt of surprise—and something deeper, something far more intense—hit him. he doesn't break eye contact. even as he starts his light warm-up drills, he’s constantly checking back to your position, his movements suddenly carrying a different kind of energy. he’s not just practicing anymore; he’s performing, and the stage is now small enough that he knows you’re the only audience member that actually counts.
he doesn't wave, and he doesn't smile—not yet. he just stares, his gaze dark and unreadable, as if he’s trying to figure out if you’re a hallucination or the most dangerous thing to happen to his training routine. you lean back, enjoying the way his focus has completely shattered, knowing exactly why he can't look away.
the training session is a masterclass in unintentional chaos, and you are the reason for it. it’s amusing—delightfully so—to watch a man who usually operates with such clinical, machine-like focus on the pitch turn into someone who can barely track the ball.
every time the ball rolls near his feet, his eyes flick toward the sidelines, checking to see if you’re still there, if you’re still watching. he’s lost his rhythm, overthinking his touches, and stumbling over his own feet in ways that would usually earn him a stern look from his teammates. his coach is already starting to notice, barking out orders to "stay focused" and "get your head in the game," but jude just wipes the sweat from his forehead with his jersey, his expression caught somewhere between frustration and pure, helpless fascination.
you sit there, perfectly still, enjoying the quiet power of it. you aren't shouting his name or waving like the other fans who are hovering in the distance. you just watch him with that same calm, enigmatic smile you gave him in the tunnel. the more you ignore his attempts to catch your attention, the more desperate his efforts become. he tries to show off, launching a long-range pass that misses its mark because his focus is pinned on you, not the teammate he’s supposed to be hitting.
it’s intoxicating to hold that kind of sway over someone so iconic. he’s essentially fighting a losing battle against his own distraction. he’s clearly agitated, running a hand through his hair, his chest heaving with exertion, and every few minutes, he glances over—searching for a reaction, a sign, anything.
you see the exact moment he gives up on pretending. he stops mid-drill, hands on his hips, his gaze locking onto yours with a intensity that burns through the distance between you. he isn't even trying to hide it anymore. he looks tired, frustrated, and completely under your spell. you tilt your head slightly, a flicker of amusement dancing in your eyes, letting him know that you see him seeing you. he doesn't look away, and for a moment, the entire training ground seems to fade into nothing but the two of you, leaving him exposed, unraveling, and absolutely hooked.
as you stand up, brushing off your clothes with deliberate, languid movements, you can see the exact moment his composure snaps. he’s supposed to be listening to a tactical instruction, but his eyes track your every movement—the way you stand, the way you adjust your bag, the way you turn to walk away. he doesn't even wait for the whistle.
he mutters something hasty to his teammate, a vague excuse about the facilities, and peels away from the drill. he isn't walking; he’s hunting.
you’ve already calculated your path. you head toward the quiet, sterile hallway that leads back toward the players' lounge, knowing exactly where the acoustics are best for an encounter. you aren't running, but you aren't lingering, either. you want him to have to work for it.
you hear the sharp, rhythmic slap of his boots against the floor behind you—he’s moving fast, his breathing heavy from the training intensity. just as you reach the corner, his hand catches the frame of the door, his frame blocking the path. he’s flushed, his hair damp and chaotic, his chest rising and falling with a tempo that has nothing to do with fitness.
he stops when he sees you, leaning slightly against the wall, trying to catch his breath. his eyes are wide, searching yours, his professional veneer completely stripped away.
"you," he breathes, the word a mix of accusation and awe. he looks back toward the pitch, then back to you, clearly aware of the risk he’s taking by being here. "you were watching. all of it."
you don’t give him the satisfaction of a direct admission. instead, you lean back against the wall, crossing your arms, and let a slow, mischievous smile curl your lips. you look him up and down—the grass stains on his kit, the raw, unpolished energy of a man who just risked his coach’s wrath for a glimpse of you.
"you seem distracted, jude," you say, your voice soft, honeyed, and dripping with playfulness. "if you’re going to be this bad at your job, maybe you should have stayed on the pitch."
he lets out a low, breathless laugh, his gaze dropping to your lips before locking back onto your eyes. he steps a fraction closer, invading your space, the heat radiating off his body almost overwhelming. "i think we both know that wasn't my choice," he murmurs, his voice dropping an octave. "you’re playing a dangerous game, you know that?"
you tilt your head, feigning innocence. "am i? i was just watching the best player on the field. is that a crime?"
he brushes a hand through his hair, his eyes dark with a mix of frustration and hunger. he knows he’s trapped, and the way his pupils dilate tells you he wouldn't have it any other way. he’s completely yours to toy with now.
"what do you want?" he asks, his voice barely a tremor in the quiet hallway.
you take a slow step toward him, closing the remaining distance until you're inches away. "i think you already know the answer to that, don't you?"
a low, raspy chuckle escapes his throat, but it lacks any real conviction. he shifts his weight, leaning one arm against the wall right beside your head, effectively boxing you into the corner. he’s trying to hold onto his defenses, but the way his gaze sweeps over your face—searching for any sign that you’re bluffing—gives him away.
"i have a girlfriend," he says, the words clipped and defensive. he says it like a shield, but his eyes tell a different story.
you don't even flinch. instead, you let out a light, melodic laugh that echoes against the tiled walls, a sound that clearly unmoors him even further. you reach out, your fingers tracing the edge of his training jersey, letting your hand rest lightly on his chest, right over his racing heart. you can feel the frantic rhythm beneath the fabric—it’s the fastest it’s been all day.
you look up at him through your lashes, your expression dripping with amused confidence. "do you really think i’m naive, jude?" you whisper, your voice a soft, challenging taunt. "because if that were true—if you were truly as settled and content as you want me to believe—you wouldn't be standing here in a deserted hallway, hiding from your coaches, completely out of breath, just to find a girl you barely even know."
you take a deliberate step forward, forcing him to lean back further against the wall. you’re so close now that you can smell the faint, clean scent of his shower gel and the musky reality of his sweat.
"men like you don't chase things they aren't hungry for," you continue, your voice dropping to a smooth, dangerous low. "you didn't come here because you're happy. you came here because you were desperate to see if i was as real as you thought i was."
the amusement drains from his face, replaced by a raw, intense focus. he doesn't pull away; he doesn't even try to lie again. he just watches your lips, his own mouth slightly parted, his breathing hitching as the weight of your words settles between you. the air in the narrow space is suffocatingly thick, and for the first time, he looks absolutely terrified of how easily you’ve dismantled him.
the distance between you vanishes until you are merely a heartbeat away. you can see the precise moment his resolve shatters; his eyes drift from yours to your lips, and he leans in, an instinctive, magnetic pull he no longer has the strength to fight. his posture softens, his hand inches toward your waist, and his breath hitches—he is fully prepared to cross that line, to let the world outside this hallway cease to exist for the sake of one kiss.
you let the anticipation stretch, thick and intoxicating. you can see the pulse at the base of his throat thumping in time with your own. he’s leaning into you, his eyes closing, fully surrendered to the inevitable.
and then, you move.
with a fluidity that feels almost cruel, you slide out of his space just as his lips are about to find their target. the air feels suddenly cold where your warmth had been. he stumbles slightly, his hand grasping at empty air, his eyes flying open in a mixture of confusion and raw, electric shock. he’s left leaning against the wall, chest heaving, looking as though he’s just been jolted awake from a dream.
you don't run; you walk away with that same slow, rhythmic elegance that has been haunting him all afternoon. you don’t look back until you’re ten paces down the hall, your footsteps echoing sharply against the concrete.
when you finally pause, you turn just enough to glance over your shoulder. your expression is cool, composed, and utterly triumphant. his eyes are still locked on you, burning with a frantic, desperate intensity that says he’s completely hooked.
you tilt your head, a soft, parting smile touching your lips—the kind that promises you’re both the prize and the problem.
"bye, jude," you murmur, your voice lingering in the quiet corridor, light as a feather but heavy with consequence.
before he can find his voice, before he can move or call out to stop you, you turn the corner and vanish once more, leaving him standing there in the silence, utterly dismantled.
for the next few days, the training ground becomes a theater of his internal war. jude is no longer the clinical, effortless phenom the team relies on; he is erratic, his mind a thousand miles away from the tactical drills and the coach's whistle.
every time a ball rolls out of bounds, his eyes immediately scan the sidelines, searching the crowd for a flash of your silhouette, a familiar tilt of your head, or the memory of your perfume lingering in the air. he is haunted by the phantom of that touch, the way you dismantled his excuses, and that final, lingering "bye" that seems to echo in his ears during the dead silence of his hotel room at night.
he finds himself asking, without really asking, questions that reveal too much to his teammates. he’ll pause mid-pass, frowning at the turf, wondering: who is she? is she just another face that drifts through the VIP lounge, or is she something else, something intentional? he replays every word you said, analyzing your tone, trying to decipher if you were playing a game or if you were testing him—or worse, if you were right about him all along.
the mystery of you has become his newest obsession. he starts to over-analyze his own life, looking at the life he’s built—the media obligations, the relationship, the relentless expectations—and seeing it through the lens of your dismissive, amused smile. he is a man who is used to being the one in control, the one who dictates the pace of the game, but now, he feels like the one being marked, shadowed, and systematically picked apart.
he catches himself staring off into the distance during team meetings, the coach's voice fading into white noise as he tries to piece together the puzzle of you. he isn't just distracted; he is unraveling. he’s burning with a need to find you again, not because he’s looking for a signature or a photo, but because he needs to know if the power you hold over him is real—or if he’s finally lost his grip on the only world he’s ever known.
every time he closes his eyes, he sees that hallway. he feels the phantom heat of your proximity. and as he laces up his boots for the next session, he knows with a sinking, exhilarating certainty that he’s not looking for a ball anymore; he’s looking for the next time you decide to show up and break his composure all over again.
few days after,
the press room is a buzz of low-frequency chatter, the glare of stage lights reflecting off the water bottles on the table. jude is slouched slightly in his chair, his usual professional mask firmly in place, answering standard questions about the team’s form with practiced, mechanical efficiency. he looks tired, the weight of the last few days of internal conflict showing in the slight tension around his eyes.
then, the moderator points to your section. "next question, front row."
you lean into the microphone, the metallic click of the equipment echoing through the room. "jude," you begin, your voice smooth, melodic, and instantly unmistakable. "considering the pressure of this season, how do you manage to keep your focus when the game takes an unexpected turn?"
at the first syllable, jude freezes. the pen he was fidgeting with drops onto the desk with a sharp clack. he goes rigid, his head snapping toward the audience. for a fleeting, desperate second, he convinces himself it’s just a trick of his mind—a cruel auditory hallucination born from days of obsession. he tells himself there are thousands of people in this city, and it’s impossible for you to be sitting in a room full of accredited press.
but then, the cameras shift, and the view clears. he locks eyes with you.
the air leaves his lungs in a sharp, audible exhale. he is visibly rattled, his face flushing a deep, unmistakable crimson. he doesn't just look surprised; he looks completely blindsided, his composure disintegrating in front of a dozen live cameras. he grips the edge of the table, his knuckles turning white, his gaze locked onto your face as if he’s trying to confirm you’re solid, real, and actually standing there.
the room falls into a sudden, heavy silence, the other journalists glancing between the two of you, sensing the strange, electric shift in the atmosphere. jude’s mouth opens, but no sound comes out. he’s struggling to reconcile the professional reality of the press conference with the chaotic, intimate reality you’ve built between you.
he stares at you, paralyzed, his heart hammering against his ribs in a way that the entire room—and the thousands watching online—can almost feel. you hold his gaze, unblinking and perfectly serene, while the man who is supposed to be the most composed player on the pitch looks like he’s just seen a ghost—or the one person he’s been terrified to face.
he clears his throat, the sound rough and forced. he forces his shoulders to drop, dragging his eyes away from yours to stare blankly at the microphones, his fingers gripping his water bottle so tightly his knuckles are white.
"it’s... it’s about perspective," he manages to say, his voice a fraction deeper than usual, straining to keep the tremor out of it. "sometimes the things you least expect are the ones that test your discipline the most. you just have to find a way to... to stay grounded."
it’s a generic, safe answer, but his eyes keep darting back to you, betraying every word. he’s sweating now, a thin sheen on his forehead that the stage lights catch. he’s failing, and he knows it.
you offer him one last, slow smile—the one that sits right on the edge of a secret—and then, without waiting for the follow-up, you tuck your notebook under your arm. you rise with that same fluid, predatory grace, your heels clicking against the floor. you turn your back on him, walking toward the exit of the press room with an air of complete indifference, leaving him mid-sentence as he tries to finish a thought that has already completely evaporated from his mind.
he watches you go, his head tracking your movement until you’re forced out of his line of sight by the heavy double doors. the moderator tries to move to the next question, but jude isn't there anymore. he’s staring at the door, his jaw tight, his leg bouncing nervously under the table.
the moment the moderator utters the words, "that concludes the conference," jude doesn't wait for his pr team to gather the equipment. he stands up with a sudden, sharp motion, muttering a frantic apology to his teammates and the staff.
"gotta go," he says, already moving, his strides long and urgent as he pushes past the photographers and security personnel.
he bursts out of the press room, his eyes scanning the corridor, his heart hammering against his ribs like a trapped bird. he ignores the calls of the staff behind him, his only focus the sound of those retreating heels. he doesn't know what he's going to say when he catches you, he doesn't know why he’s chasing you again, but he knows one thing for certain: he’s done playing the game by your rules. he’s finally going to corner you.
you’re walking down a dimly lit service hallway when the sharp, heavy rhythm of his gait catches up to you. he’s fast, his chest heaving as he rounds the corner, and before you can even register the sound, he’s blocked your path, his hands bracing against the wall on either side of you. he looks frantic—the kind of look he never wears on the pitch.
"what is this?" he demands, his voice low, sharp, and laced with pure, unadulterated confusion. "how are you here? why are you here? why are you... everywhere?"
the questions spill out of him, tumbling over one another. he’s looking at you like you’re a riddle he’s terrified he won't be able to solve, and for the first time, his professional armor is stripped completely bare. he isn't just asking; he’s pleading for an explanation, for some sense of order in the chaos you’ve introduced to his life.
you don't look intimidated. in fact, you look amused. you watch him with an unhurried, languid gaze, leaning back against the cool tiles until your shoulders brush his arms. you let the silence stretch for a moment, enjoying the way his breathing hitches as he waits for an answer you have no intention of giving him—at least, not yet.
you reach up, your fingers grazing the collar of his jacket, and you smooth it down with a slow, deliberate touch. he flinches at the contact, his eyes tracking your hand with hungry, desperate focus.
"jude," you purr, your voice like liquid velvet, cutting through his frantic energy. you look up at him through your lashes, a teasing, lopsided smile playing on your lips. "breathe."
you let your hand trail down to his chest, feeling the wild, irregular thrum of his heart—a rhythmic betrayal of his composure. you run your thumb over the fabric of his shirt, a small, circular motion that seems to snap his focus entirely to your touch.
"you’re spiraling," you whisper, the sweetness of your tone dripping with a mock-sympathy that only pushes him further toward the edge. "why are you so desperate to understand me? maybe you should spend less time asking questions and more time enjoying the view."
you lean in close, just enough for him to smell the scent of you, your breath feathering against his jawline. he’s frozen, trapped between the urge to back away and the impossible gravity that keeps him locked in your orbit. you tilt your head, a glint of triumph dancing in your eyes as you watch him struggle to regain his footing, completely at the mercy of your game.
"you're so tense, darling," you tease, your voice barely a breath. "do you always get this worked up when you don't know the final score?"
he lets out a sharp, incredulous huff, his eyes searching yours with an intensity that’s almost painful. "is this it?" he asks, his voice dropping into a low, strained register. "is this just your thing? you show up, you haunt the corridors, you get into the press rooms... do you do this with everyone? is every athlete, every celebrity just a target for your little games?"
you don't pull away. instead, you let a soft, melodic laugh escape your throat—a sound that is light, dismissive, and utterly infuriating. you reach up and trace the line of his jaw with a single finger, your touch light as a feather but heavy with implication. you feel him shudder under your contact, the rigid line of his shoulders slackening despite himself.
"you're overthinking it again, jude," you murmur, your eyes sparkling with playful mischief. "why does it matter if i've done it before? does it make what's happening between us right now any less real?"
he stiffens, his grip on the wall tightening. you’ve hit a nerve—he hates that he wants to know, hates that he’s jealous of the idea of you playing this game with anyone else, but more than anything, he hates how little he knows about you. he’s completely paralyzed by the desire to keep standing here, to keep hearing your voice, to keep deciphering the mystery that is you.
"you're impossible," he breathes, his gaze dropping to your mouth and staying there, his frustration warring with a magnetic pull he can no longer deny.
you tilt your head, a triumphant, secretive smile playing on your lips. you can see the conflict raging behind his eyes—he wants to walk away, to go back to his life and the safety of his routine, but he’s rooted to the spot, entirely addicted to the chaos you bring.
"i'm not impossible, jude," you whisper, stepping just a hair closer, letting your chest brush against his. "i'm just the first person who hasn't played by your rules. it’s quite a thrill, isn't it?"
he doesn't answer, he can't. he just stares at you, his breathing shallow, looking like a man who knows he’s walking into a fire but has lost the will to turn back.
your hand drifts down, your palm pressing firmly against the center of his chest. you can feel the frantic, irregular thudding of his heart—a physical manifestation of the complete power you hold over him. you lean in, your lips grazing the shell of his ear, and you let your breath hitch as you speak, your voice a low, honeyed secret that sends a visible shiver down his spine.
"next time, jude," you whisper, the words heavy with promise, "i won't be in a crowd. i’ll be waiting. just for you. and if you’re brave enough to come find me, i’ll finally show you exactly who i am."
the air in the hallway seems to vanish. you pull back just enough to catch his gaze, a wicked, knowing smirk playing on your lips. he’s completely paralyzed, his mouth slightly parted, his breathing ragged. the sheer audacity of your invitation, combined with the way you’re dismantling his defenses, leaves him reeling. he’s trapped in a labyrinth of his own desire, and you’ve just handed him the map to the center.
you don't wait for a reply. you give his chest one final, lingering caress before slipping out from beneath his arm. your exit is swift and silent, your heels clicking against the floor with a rhythmic finality that echoes in the cramped space.
you don't look back this time. you round the corner, leaving him alone in the dim light of the corridor.
behind you, jude doesn't move. he stays pressed against the wall, his hands falling to his sides, his chest still heaving with the ghost of your presence. he’s utterly spellbound, a man who knows he has just been marked. the weight of your words hangs in the air, a siren song that has already decided his future. he is standing in the silence, his heart racing, realizing with a terrifying clarity that he isn't just hooked—he is completely and irrevocably yours.
the shift in jude is visceral, and it doesn't go unnoticed by the people around him. his life, once carefully curated and balanced between high-stakes football and his public relationship, has begun to fracture under the weight of the unknown. that anchor he used to hold onto—his girlfriend—has become nothing more than a blurred background noise, a static frequency he’s tuned out entirely. his thoughts are no longer occupied by tactical maneuvers or his future career; they are exclusively yours.
he spends his nights staring at the ceiling of his hotel room, the silence amplified by the maddening loops of your voice in his head. why are you everywhere? who are you really?
the confusion is a physical ache. every time he sees a shadow in a corner, or hears the faint click of heels in a lobby, his entire posture shifts. he’s constantly on edge, his eyes scanning every room he enters with a frantic, desperate intensity. his teammates have stopped joking about his mood; there’s a new, sharp irritability to him that makes even the coaching staff tread carefully. he’s lost his rhythm, and for a player who prides himself on total command, this lack of control is terrifying.
he is obsessed. he finds himself scrolling through social media, searching for any trace of you, any photo that might have caught your face in the background of a stadium event. he’s hunting for a name, a history, a clue—anything to make you tangible instead of this ethereal, dangerous force that has dismantled his reality.
during training, he’s a ghost of his former self. he’ll go for minutes at a time without touching the ball, his focus shattered by the mere possibility that you might be watching from the sidelines again. he’s no longer looking for his teammates’ runs; he’s looking for you.
the realization that he is "condemned" settles into his marrow. he knows he’s setting himself up for disaster, that seeking you out is a path that could jeopardize everything he’s worked for. but the pull is too strong. you’ve become the only thing that makes his pulse race, the only thing that makes the world feel real. he’s not just waiting for the next match; he’s waiting for the next move in a game he knows he’s already lost.
he’s no longer playing football for the fans or the trophies. he’s playing, waiting, and breathing entirely for the moment you decide to reappear and finally unveil the secret you’ve been keeping from him.
the match had been exhilarating, the kind of night where every pass clicked and the stadium’s roar still hummed in his bones. jude slumped into the back of his waiting car, the interior dark and quiet, a sanctuary after the blinding lights of the pitch. he leaned his head back, closing his eyes, letting out a long, shaky breath of pure, adrenaline-fueled relief. he wasn't thinking about you—not for the first time in hours. he was just a man enjoying the aftermath of victory.
"home, please," he murmured to the driver, his voice thick with exhaustion.
the engine purred to life, and as the car began to glide away from the stadium, a subtle shift in the air caught his attention. it wasn't just the scent of leather anymore; there was something else—a faint, intoxicating trace of your perfume that hit him like a physical blow. his eyes snapped open.
he turned his head to the left, his gaze cutting through the dim cabin light.
you were there.
you were draped against the seat with an effortless, feline grace, the shadows playing over the curve of your collarbone and the soft fabric of your dress. you looked even more breathtaking than usual, your makeup flawless, your hair falling in loose, artful waves. you didn't look like a fan, or a journalist, or a stalker; you looked like a predator who had finally cornered her prize.
jude froze, his entire body going rigid. his heart, which had been slowing down to a calm, post-match rhythm, instantly spiked into a violent, erratic thud against his ribs. he couldn't speak; the breath had been stolen from his lungs. he just stared at you, his pupils dilating in the dark, his professional composure shattering into a thousand pieces.
the irony of his thought process—the fact that he’d finally managed to push you out of his mind for just a few hours—vanished as he realized you hadn't been playing a game of hide-and-seek anymore. you were playing for keeps.
"how..." he started, his voice cracking, barely a whisper. he didn't even know what he was asking. he just knew that seeing you there, in the private, confined space of his car, felt more dangerous and more exhilarating than anything he’d ever experienced on a pitch.
you didn't move, you just watched him, that same enigmatic, seductive smile playing on your lips—the one that had haunted his dreams for days. you held his gaze, unblinking, the silence in the car growing heavier and more charged with every passing second. you had found your way into his inner sanctum, and the look in your eyes told him exactly what you intended to do with him.
the darkness inside the car becomes absolute the moment you reach over and hit the switch to raise the privacy partition. the soft hum of the city outside is instantly muffled, replaced by the heavy, suffocating silence of your own private space. jude is trapped, pinned between the back door and the invisible line you’ve drawn in the air.
he’s staring at you, his eyes dark and dilated, reflecting the faint ambient light from the streetlamps passing by. his breath is coming in short, uneven hitches, and his hands are gripping the edges of his seat so hard his knuckles are stark white. he looks completely undone, the man who commands thousands of screaming fans now reduced to a state of absolute, paralyzed anticipation.
you lean into his space, your movements slow, deliberate, and predatory. you lock eyes with him, your gaze no longer playful—it’s fierce, possessive, and daring him to break. you don't say a word. you just hold that look, letting the tension coil between you like a wire pulled to its breaking point.
then, with agonizing slowness, you shift your gaze to his lips, then back up to his eyes, before biting down softly on your own lower lip. you hold it there, a teasing, mocking smile tugging at the corners of your mouth. you aren't just playing with him anymore; you’re dismantling him, piece by piece, savoring the way his jaw tightens and his resolve crumbles.
you lean even closer, until the space between you is electric. you can feel the heat radiating off him, the way his chest rises and falls in rhythm with your own heartbeat. you let out a soft, low chuckle—a sound of pure, unadulterated triumph—and tilt your head to the side, your eyes dancing with a mix of mischief and pure hunger.
"you thought you were done with me after the match, didn't you, jude?" you whisper, your voice a low, raspy challenge. "you really have no idea how this ends, do you?"
you watch him swallow hard, his adam's apple bobbing in his throat. he looks like he’s caught in a waking dream, terrified that if he moves, he’ll wake up and find you gone. he’s completely at your mercy, and he knows it—he’s just waiting to see how far you’re going to take this tonight.
he opens his mouth to speak, likely to demand an answer or perhaps to protest—but the words die on his tongue the moment your hand settles against his thigh.
your touch is slow, deliberate, and maddeningly light. you let your fingertips trace the firm muscle beneath his tailored trousers, your hand moving with a possessive, rhythmic heat that sends a visible tremor through his frame. he gasps, his head falling back against the headrest, his eyes squeezing shut for a brief second as his entire body reacts to the sensation.
when he opens his eyes again, the confusion is entirely gone, replaced by a raw, dark hunger that has finally overridden his last shred of hesitation. the professional footballer, the public figure, the man with a girlfriend—they all vanish. in this enclosed, dimly lit space, there is only the man who is becoming utterly, irrevocably addicted to your touch.
he leans into your hand, his own fingers coming up to hover near your waist, trembling as he fights the urge to grab you. he’s completely anchored to you now, his pulse visible in the frantic, rhythmic throb at the base of his throat. he tries to lean away, but the movement only brings him closer to your gravity, and he lets out a broken, ragged sound that’s half-protest, half-surrender.
"you have no idea what you're doing to me," he manages to choke out, his voice thick and strained. he reaches out, his hand hovering uncertainly before he finally grips your wrist, his fingers firm but not pulling you away. instead, he keeps your hand exactly where it is, pressing your palm harder against his leg, grounding himself through you.
he’s breathing so heavily the glass partition is starting to fog. he looks at you not with suspicion, but with a terrifying, desperate need for you to continue. he’s no longer fighting the current; he’s drowning in it, and he’s realized that he doesn't want to be saved—he wants you to keep pushing him further until there’s nothing left of his old life at all.
"you're not just playing anymore, are you?" he whispers, his gaze locking onto yours with a terrifying intensity. "tell me you're not just playing."
you lean into his personal space, the scent of your perfume overwhelming the sterile air of the car. your voice is a low, deliberate purr as you look him dead in the eye and murmur the lines, letting the weight of the words strip away the last of his resistance:
"that’s okay baby…, do what you please. i have the stuff that you want. i am the thing that you need."
the effect is immediate and devastating. as the words leave your lips, jude’s entire posture collapses inward, all remnants of his public life and his existing relationship incinerated by the sheer intensity of the moment. he lets out a ragged, desperate sound, his hand tightening over yours on his thigh as if he’s afraid you’ll disappear the moment he lets go. he’s no longer thinking about consequences, about the paparazzi, or about the life he’s supposed to be returning to; he’s entirely consumed by the intoxicating, dangerous reality you’ve built for him.
he looks at you with a hunger that’s borderline frantic, his gaze darting from your eyes to your lips as he leans into your touch. he’s lost—fully, completely, and willingly lost—and he doesn't even try to fight it anymore. he presses your hand further against his skin, his breathing shallow and erratic, clearly signaling that he has abandoned any last-ditch attempt to uphold his moral defenses. you have pushed him over the edge, and he has finally stopped trying to climb back up.
jude freezes, his breath hitching, his eyes snapping shut as the cold realization hits him with brutal clarity: it is already far too late. he is trapped, not by the walls of the car, but by the undeniable fact that he is completely ensnared in your heart, and there is no longer any path back to the man he was before you.
as you lean in, the space between you vanishing, you begin to press slow, searing kisses against the sensitive skin of his neck. the sensation is instant and all-consuming, an electric shock that bypasses his mind and speaks directly to his nerves.
his resolve evaporates completely. he tilts his head back, surrendering to the overwhelming wave of heat, his hands trembling as he grips the leather of the seat to stay tethered to the earth. he is entirely possessed by the feeling of your lips against his skin, utterly powerless to resist, and desperate for nothing more than to lose himself in the beautiful, dangerous trap you have set for him.
he doesn't hesitate; his hands slide to your waist, his grip firm and desperate as he pulls you onto his lap, positioning you squarely over his hips. the power shift is complete. he bows his head, his breath coming in ragged, broken gasps against your skin as he pleads with you, his voice barely a whisper against your throat.
"don't stop," he begs, the words muffled and thick with need, his face pressed into the crook of your neck as he urges you to keep going. "please, keep going."
you pull back just enough to look down at him, a soft, mocking laugh escaping your lips as you run your fingers through his hair. you trace the line of his jaw, enjoying the sight of him—so undone, so utterly at your mercy.
"does it feel that good, jude?" you tease, your voice dripping with playful cruelty. you lean in, your lips brushing against his ear as you whisper, "you know, you’re almost a little pathetic like this."
you watch his reaction, seeing the way his eyes darken with a mix of shame and even deeper, more frantic hunger. he doesn't pull away; instead, he clings to you tighter, as if you’re the only thing keeping him from falling apart entirely.
you continue trailing slow, burning kisses along the column of his throat, feeling the erratic, desperate pulse beneath his skin. as you settle closer against him, the friction of your dress against his trousers shifts, and the lack of a barrier between you becomes instantly, unmistakably clear.
jude freezes, his hands splaying against your back, his eyes widening in the dim light. he lets out a sharp, choked intake of breath, his entire body going rigid as he registers the unfiltered heat radiating from you, pressed directly against him.
"you're not wearing..." he stammers, his voice barely audible, raw with a mix of shock and pure, sensory overload. he looks at you, his gaze searching your face, stunned by the realization that you’ve come to him like this—completely unshielded and ready.
you pull back just a fraction, arching an eyebrow as you meet his blown-out pupils with a look of cool, triumphant amusement. you let a low, throaty laugh escape your chest, the sound vibrating between you.
"is that a problem, darling?" you murmur, your voice dripping with honeyed malice. you lean in closer, pressing yourself fully against him, making the reality of the situation impossible for him to ignore. "does it feel good to feel me, jude? tell me, how does it feel to know exactly what’s waiting for you?"
you begin to move against him, slow, deliberate shifts of your hips that send shockwaves of sensation straight through him. the friction is intense, and as you rock against him, he feels the undeniable, unmistakable heat and dampness of you soaking through the fabric of his trousers. it’s an exquisite, maddening sensation that strips away his final reserves.
jude’s head falls back against the upholstery, a low, guttural moan escaping his throat that he can no longer suppress. his hands grip your waist so tightly his knuckles turn white, his body betraying him as he loses the battle for composure. he can’t hold back the pleasure, the sheer intensity of the contact leaving him breathless, his hips instinctively mirroring your rhythm in a desperate, frantic search for more. he’s completely undone, entirely surrendered to the exquisite torture of feeling you against him, his mind blanking out until there is nothing left but the raw, electric pulse of the moment.
"i need you," he gasps, his voice cracking with a raw, desperate hunger as he pulls you closer, his hands shaking as they move to the waistband of his trousers. "i need to feel you—everything."
you lean back, watching him with a predatory, triumphant smile. you reach down, your movements slow and deliberate, and begin to undo the fastening of his trousers. his breath hitches, his entire body arching as he waits for you to continue. you lean into his ear, your voice a dark, low whisper that pushes him over the edge. you murmur things so illicit, so deliciously wicked, that he loses the last shred of his restraint.
he is completely undone, his eyes unfocused and drowning in want, his body trembling with the intensity of his desire. he is yearning for you with a frantic, uncontainable ache, his pleas becoming incoherent as he realizes there is no version of this night where he doesn't give you exactly what you want. he is utterly subjugated, a captive to your touch, and as you continue, he stops trying to stay anchored to reality—he only wants to sink deeper into the beautiful, dangerous trap you've set for him.
you don't waste another second. you take him, guiding him directly into your heat, the sudden, overwhelming sensation causing him to let out a broken, guttural sound that vibrates through the entire interior of the car. he is completely stunned, his eyes wide and blown-out, paralyzed by the sheer intensity of the friction and the way you’ve claimed him.
he looks down at you, his breathing turning into sharp, desperate gasps, his hands clenching into the leather of your dress as his entire world narrows down to this single point of contact. he looks utterly overwhelmed, his composure completely shredded by the reality of how perfectly he fits.
you hold his gaze, the atmosphere in the car thick and suffocating. you bite your lip, a mocking, triumphant smirk playing on your features as you savor his reaction. you lean in, your voice a low, teasing taunt against his ear.
"you’re so big," you whisper, the words dripping with a mix of cruelty and pleasure. "it feels so good to have all of you, doesn't it?"
the look on his face is one of pure, raw subjugation. he’s completely caught, his hips twitching instinctively, unable to pull away and unwilling to stop. he is utterly at your mercy, yearning for the movement, his entire body trembling under the weight of the sensation you’re forcing him to feel.
the air in the car is heavy, charged with the scent of his arousal and your own. jude is completely shattered, his head thrown back against the headrest, his eyes squeezed shut as he lets out a series of broken, desperate moans. the friction is all-consuming, and he can feel every inch of his length buried deep inside you, the sensation so intense it leaves him shuddering.
"god, it feels so good," he gasps, his voice trembling and raw, his hands clutching your hips to keep you pressed firmly against him. "it’s insane... please, just don't stop."
you maintain the rhythm, slow and torturous, enjoying the way he writhes under your control. you lean down, your voice a dark, velvet whisper against the shell of his ear, punctuating your movements with stinging, suggestive remarks. you tease him about his lack of resistance, about how easily he’s fallen, and about exactly what he’s become since you entered his life.
every word is a lash that drives him further into his own pleasure. he’s completely addicted to the dynamic, his body arching into yours with a frantic, primitive need. he is so far gone that the concept of consequence has been obliterated; there is only the heat, the rhythm, and the terrifying realization that he has become nothing more than a plaything for your amusement. he begs you, over and over, his voice a frantic prayer of desperation and lust, pleading for you to continue until there is nothing left of him but the sensation you’re providing.
the moment you groan his name—a low, melodic sound that vibrates against his chest—the world around him seems to tilt on its axis. hearing his own name on your lips sends a fresh jolt of adrenaline through his system, shattering whatever tiny barrier of restraint he had left. he is no longer just overwhelmed; he is completely and utterly undone.
he feels the absolute, suffocating intensity of you settled on his lap, your weight perfectly distributed, and the sensation of being buried deep within you becomes his entire reality. he looks at you, his eyes dark with an intoxicating blend of worship and ruin, completely captivated by the power you hold over him. he realizes, with a dazed, frantic clarity, that he is completely at your mercy—he is subjugated by the physical friction, by the way you look at him, and by the sheer, electric vulnerability of being this connected to you.
"my god," he breathes, his voice barely a coherent sound as he leans into you, his movements becoming more desperate, more demanding. he is drowning in the sensation of you, his hands trembling as he holds you close, his entire body responding to your rhythm with an almost violent need. he’s lost to the pleasure, fully aware that he has surrendered his control to you, and he is terrified, yet thrilled, by how much he craves the sensation of being trapped in this exact, agonizingly perfect moment with you.
you continue to ride him with a slow, deliberate cadence, the friction between you becoming an agonizingly beautiful torture. you lean down, your hair brushing against his jaw, and as you grind against him, you whisper into his ear with a voice thick with playful, dark intent.
"it’s just so incredibly large, jude," you murmur, your tone dripping with a mixture of praise and mockery, "i can barely take all of you."
hearing you acknowledge his size while you’re this deep inside him is the final catalyst; he gasps, his head falling back as the sensation rips through him. he’s completely subjugated, his muscles locking, his breath hitching in his chest. he feels the tension coiling tight in his core, the pressure mounting with every movement you make. he’s on the very precipice, his body trembling, his hands digging into your skin as he clings to you, desperate to hold onto the sensation even as he feels himself beginning to unravel.
every time you whisper those words, the intensity surges, the friction between you feeling like a live wire. you keep teasing him, trailing your hands over his shoulders and down his chest, your voice a constant, taunting melody in his ear about his size, about his need, and about exactly how good it feels to have him trapped like this.
the constant reinforcement of his own desire, paired with the overwhelming, tight sensation of being inside you, pushes him to the very edge. he’s completely subjugated, his back arching, his breath hitching into jagged, shallow gasps. he’s losing his grip on reality, his internal rhythm spiraling out of control because of how much he wants you.
"you’re killing me," he manages to choke out, his voice thick and desperate, his pupils dilated to the point where his eyes are nothing but black pools. he feels the familiar, building pressure in his core—the unmistakable surge of his release drawing near—and he knows he can’t hold it back much longer. he’s entirely at your mercy, his body betraying every last defensive thought he had left, as he clings to you, waiting for that final, shattering moment of surrender.
jude’s control finally shatters completely. his hips begin to buck against yours in a frantic, losing battle, his face twisted in a mask of pure, unadulterated pleasure. "i can't... i'm going to—i'm coming," he gasps out, his voice cracking with the strain of holding on for as long as he possibly could.
you don't pull away; instead, you press yourself harder against him, pinning him down and locking your gaze with his. "don't you dare stop," you command, your voice a sharp, commanding whisper against his ear. "do it inside me. i want to feel every bit of it."
the words are the final trigger. he lets out a ragged, desperate cry as he finally surrenders, his body going rigid as he explodes within you. the sensation of his release is electric, and it pushes you over the edge as well; you gasp, your nails digging into his shoulders as you shatter right along with him. you hold onto him tightly, both of you lost in the blinding, heavy heat of the moment, anchored only by the intense, rhythmic pulsing that binds you together. for those few seconds, nothing else exists—no reality, no consequences—only the raw, shared aftermath of what you have just done to him.
you disentangle yourself from his lap in one swift, fluid movement, your dress sliding back into place as if the scene you just created never happened. you reach into the neckline of your dress, pulling out a small, folded scrap of paper. with perfect timing, the car rolls to a smooth stop—you have reached your destination.
you slide out of the car, the cool air hitting your skin, and you turn back to face him through the open door. he is still entirely undone, his hair disheveled, his trousers still unfastened, his chest heaving as he stares at you, completely unable to process the transition from the intensity of the moment back to the quiet of the street.
you lean into the car, your voice cool and sharp, slicing through his daze. "you should leave your girlfriend, jude," you say, a faint, mocking smile touching your lips. "she’s not half the freak i am, and we both know it." you hold his gaze for a second, watching the realization dawn on him, before adding, "if you make the right choice and call me, you’ll know where to find me."
with that, you drop the paper onto his seat and walk away, leaving him behind in the stillness. as he finally manages to lower his gaze, his hands still trembling, he looks down at the scrap of paper. there, written in your handwriting, is your number.
the silence in the car feels deafening as the engine cuts out, leaving him in a state of sensory shock. he stares at the empty space where you were just sitting, the scent of you still clinging to the leather and to his own skin. the gravity of what just happened begins to settle in: he has just betrayed his girlfriend—someone he was supposed to be committed to—with a total stranger. he doesn’t even know your name.
yet, as he looks down at the slip of paper with your number, a cold, startling truth washes over him: he doesn't care.
the guilt that should be crushing him is nowhere to be found, drowned out by the lingering electric pulse of what you did to him. he runs a hand through his messy hair, his heart hammering against his ribs, not with regret, but with a terrifying, addictive longing. he realizes with a jolt of clarity that he hasn't just been physically overwhelmed; he has been completely dismantled. he is entirely under your spell, and the idea of going back to his normal life, to his girlfriend, feels like a pale imitation of the reality he just tasted with you.
he clutches the paper in his fist, his knuckles white, his breath hitching as he stares at the number again. he is no longer just a guy who made a mistake; he is a man who has found something dangerous, something he knows will ruin him, and yet he knows, with absolute, hollowed-out certainty, that he is already entirely yours.
the art of noticing: world cup preparations are incredibly stressful
jude bellingham x fem!reader
A/N: wow, it’s been awhile… I’ve had this idea in my head for weeks but finally got around to writing it.. enjoy!
W/C: 1.848
humidity, sweat and the fact that you're driving during rush hour on one of the hottest days of the week couldn't even be on the top list of your problems right now...
you had to catch a flight to tampa, florida in a matter of five hours..
this included packing your suitcases for almost two months of games and activities. you also had to eat something that held you over until you arrived at the airport. right, and driving to the airport and boarding the plane was included..
realizing the time crunch, you had already given up on cleaning the house you lived in with jude. after all, who would deny it when their boyfriend suggested a professional cleaning of an impossible-to-clean-fast mansion?
it was one thing less to worry about.
the madrid sun beamed through your windshield, and you would be lucky to be home in the next thirty minutes to tackle packing.
drivers honk their horns, and windows get rolled down for curses and shouts—anxiousness gnaws at you as you scold yourself for not packing earlier.
but how would you even predict that your last exam of the semester would be moved to a later time slot?
all that studying had made you procrastinate on packing and planning out how you would navigate your first time traveling for an international tournament.
it was such an insane thing to be able to experience. attending a tournament with the world's best teams, seeing thousands of people support their country– but seeing your own boyfriend play for his country was on another level..
you'd been nervous at first, wondering if you could take the publicity and stress that came with being seen in public—especially when this opened doors for more criticism towards your relationship with jude.
but your support and love for him were way more valuable than some blatant disrespect on twitter and Instagram..
after all, to choose to go was a no-brainer.
jude had handled your tickets and accommodation. along with his mum who excitedly told you what spa treatments she would enjoy at the luxury hotels you'd be staying at.
after driving for a few minutes in semi-highway hypnosis, you park your car. getting out with shaky hands and a racing mind.
did you really need that many pairs of shoes? how many of your outfits did you have to shop for in the states? and how many wags wore the team kits or opted for more creative outfits?
whatever— you had to leave within the next two and a half hours— who could care much about resting and enjoying the airport lounge before a twelve-hour flight?
you're startled when you unlock your front door and hear the melody of a smooth rnb song spilling from the upstairs master bedroom.
right, jude was home and only would leave for the states tomorrow morning with the team jet..
since flight and hotel availability were limited, it was best that you head out slightly earlier for a smoother travel day— apart from the fact that you were burdened with hurrying now..
kicking off your shoes, you carry your bag up the stairs. the flowing music getting louder with every step you take.
"jude?"
his name leaves your lips in a rushed manner, eyes flashing with slight panic as you make a beeline to your shared bedroom.
fuck... you had so much to do...
"baby! in here!" jude's accented soft voice makes you stop dead in your tracks at the doorway of the bedroom, your eyes immediately dropping to the suitcases on the floor.
you're almost convinced they're his clothes he's packing, but pause when you notice your vanity bag and toiletries packed in a see-through pouch.
while various items out of your closet are folded up and placed neatly in both halves of the suitcases.
no way... he'd packed your suitcase?
you look up, confusion wafting around you and the panic slowly leaving your system.
jude drops the shirt he's holding onto the bed, an old one of his you loved wearing after a rough day and a long shower.
"babygirl.." jude's eyes light up immediately at the sight of you, his voice having a teasing edge while he takes a few steps closer to you. one of his biceps flexing as he wraps his arm around your back, a strong squeeze giving you a surge of comfort.
you take in his smell first, a powdery cologne that immediately pulls you into a tranquil state. then the soft fabric of his gray shirt, the sleeves snug on his upper arms..
"how was your exam, hm? i saw your text—why would they push it back when your schedule was posted weeks ago? fuck's sake, like you don't have enough on your plate."
he murmurs close to your ear, using the closeness to give you a fat kiss on the cheek, his soft breath hitting your skin.
before you’re able to answer, jude grabs your cheek between his thumb and pointer— a soft grumble leaving his throat as he lowers his gaze to your eyes..
"look at this sweet face.. how am i going to be apart from you so long—"
"stop it.."
you rub the skin of your cheek, a frown making its way in between your brows.
"can- can you explain all of this? why are you packing my stuff?"
a knowing look replaces his pouty one, his hands dropping down to your waist, fingers digging into your shirt..
"packing for you, love. what does it look like? you think i couldn't see you pacing around this morning? your eyes were flying from the closet to the slides on your laptop. only an idiot wouldn't notice when his girlfriend is in distress.."
your heart thuds harder, once, twice, until you catch your bottom lip between your teeth. this feeling, it was incredibly beautiful… not because he did all the work for you..
no, because he had noticed..
you had spent years being under-appreciated, and undervalued. those years before being loved by jude— they had shaped an incorrect image of your selfworth..
getting the generic birthday gifts, not personalized to your interests or likes. having to specify every time what you want, none of it ever being a happy, pleasant surprise..
jude had shown you a completely new way of loving. loving you, and showing you that he'd notice when you're having a stressful time— or just needed a big tub of ice cream and a nice long cuddle.
it was an eye-opening switch, getting gifts. materialistic ones and sweet gestures that you never had to specifically ask for.
he just noticed.
weeks ago, you had mumbled sleepily before bed that you wanted to try fish tacos from a new restaurant right outside the city..
the next day jude had come home from a long grueling training day to drag you out to taste the delicious fresh tacos you were so curious about.
overwhelmed by the mountain of emotions— the stress of the exam, having to fly for twelve hours soon, and thoughts of hurriedly packing being replaced with an airy but deep sense of gratitude.
you couldn't possibly hold yourself back from the moistening of your tired eyes.
"thank you. that's so nice—" you cut yourself off as you clumsily wipe the tears out of your waterline..
your boyfriend's face drops immediately— he begins shaking his head as if he’s able to make you suck your tears back into your tear ducts..
"hey—hey, theres no need for tears, my love.. no don't do this baby..."
jude catches your hand midway. his larger hand wrapping around yours before he tilts your chin up to him.. thumb coming to rest gently on the soft skin of your jaw.
"look, i'm so sorry that you have to go through a stressful time to come and support me. I'll do anything to lessen your burden— tell me baby. I'll do anything as long as you're happy and carefree."
he gives you a second before continuing.
"you have a good two hours or so. let's get you in the shower, 'kay? a nice relaxing shower. after, you can eat something I'll order in— then we'll leave for the airport. tell me you’re okay with that, mhm?"
while he's arranging your game plan, you nod your head. trying to organize your own thoughts before heading in for a shower.
"yes, okay but what did you pack? what if you forgot—"
"already handled. i went through the packing list on your ipad— it's all settled. for your peace of mind, we’ll go through it after you're all clean and your belly is full, okay? we have enough time.."
jude squeezes your hand, before placing a soft, plush kiss on your lips. his warmth and sweetness flooding your anxious system.
being understood and acknowledge felt absolutely incredible.
within a matter of minutes, you're clean and dressed in airport appropriate loungewear. eating the food ordered by your boyfriend.
"made sure it wasn't anything too greasy.. don't want you having an upset stomach on the plane.."
jude reaches his hand up to smooth his finger over your browbone, a small thoughtful smile on his face. those brown eyes of his squinting lovingly as he looks at you eat..
"remember you're getting picked up by a driver at the airport in florida. no need for an uber— and definitely don't get into a sketchy taxi.."
"i'm not a child, jude. do i look like the type to trust anyone blindly.."
"right, it's not like you got into a random guy’s suv after you joined me on that family trip to milan.."
you scoff, but half choke on the bread you're chewing..
"he was a nice man and promised to keep the fare fifteen euros!"
"i told you— it could've gone terribly if he was a different man.."
jude pats your back a few times before cracking open a can of coke.. the fizzy drink spilling over the edges and wafting the smell of sugar into the air.
"thankfully, I'm a good judge of character.."
you retort, giving him a cheeky smile. then wipe your mouth with a tissue.
"when can i see you in tampa? how long after you land?"
he meets your eyes, and hands the can over before nodding.
"when the team lands we'll check into our hotel and have free time until the next day. oh— right there's a time difference so.. we'll be arriving around midday.."
"shit, right.. I forgot about that.."
you chew on your bottom lip in sudden thought.
"you'll be fine.. just.. try to entertain yourself on the plane so you'll prevent jet lag.."
"will do, sir.."
you roll your eyes at his repetitive nagging, giving him a small salute with a sarcastic smile..
"right, if you're done, let's go up to do a quick check of your luggage.."
he kisses your cheek before getting up to clean the takeout trash.
you can't help but admire the way he'd made sure to reassure your anxiousness and worries..
you couldn't wait to make even more special memories with him..
