I really do love these kinds of characters: characters who are confident yet insecure, harsh yet kind, genius yet could also be clueless at times, so sure of oneself and one's abilities, yet could also not know how they could contribute to something bigger in this group project called life.
Perhaps it's the mystery that surrounds them. No, not the "tall, dark, and handsome" kind of mystery, but the kind of mystery that billows like smoke whenever you open the packaging to a puzzle, or the heavy fog that guards the gates to a new world, or even a new universe that you're about to step into. The contradiction, the beautifully enigmatic beings that are these characters, the warring sides that long and strive for domination of their bodies presents something thought-provoking that it could invite the most prestigious of scholars to study them.
You see, these characters are not just characters; they're journeys that one must experience to understand, but even then, you can't confidently say that you know them 100% because it seems as though each day adds yet another layer of complexity to their character, a new level that one must go through to proceed through the next. And the best part of all this, you are rewarded with something so profound that it coaxes you to look at your own self.
Because, you see, these characters can be so complex that only a few people would willingly try and understand them; these characters can be so complex that only fewer people would willingly try to accept them. These characters can be so complex that they feel more human than the majority of the people in this world of ours.
They don't conform to trends, they don't conform to standards, even if they long to be accepted into something there is always a part of them that recoils whenever they are being placed into a bucket in an effort to "fit in" because some unconscious, maybe subconscious, part of them understand that an adjective or two is simply unable to even begin to describe who they are, what they represent, and what they contribute to this plane of existence.
They have brains, they have hearts, they have souls, they have humanity, even.
That is why I refuse to believe that these characters have no other purpose than fleeting entertainment.
While, yes, there are no such thing as mages or fire-breathing dragons or fairies or mermaids or whatever fantastical creature you can think of. But there are people who are vain, who are selfish, who are ruthless, who are liars, who are murderous, who are evil. And there are people who are humble, who are selfless, who are kind, who are truthful, who are good. However, human as we are, it's impossible for us to be purely good; there are times when we make mistakes, whether intentionally or not for example. And these characters represent that. They embody the nuances of what it's like to be human, to war between desire and longing and desire and longing. They are the soldiers sent to war to kill to protect and bring peace and not even know if they've managed to include the ones so dear to them in that bubble of protection and peace. They are the fathers who fully understand their sons are in the wrong, but even amid a stern lecture, they can't help but worry about whether or not they're harmed. They are the child who had to lie and adjust for a friend, only to ask them if they can drop the act in private later because they know it's wrong.
They are the lessons we understand that we should learn and implement, but we just can't seem to find it in ourselves to empty our cup to leave room for those said lessons because we are too afraid of the unpredictable and different.
That is what makes these characters important. That's what makes these characters human.
That's what makes these characters so difficult to understand. And that's why I love them.
Can I have D, M and V for Shu, Jun and Niki nsfw alphabet please 🙏
Requests are closed actually you know what fuck it we ball. why not. im in the mood for an alphabet ask. nobody request anything else this guy right here will be the only exception
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[D] DIRTY SECRET
Morning wood. All the time. He hates it so much like you wouldn’t believe. It’s not actually that big of a deal but for some reason he’ll get hard no matter what he was dreaming of. Dream of his art winning an award and getting displayed in a gallery? Bricked up. Dream of going to a shrimp themed amusement park with the other eccentrics but it turns into a shopping mall where he gets lost in the bathroom? Hard as a rock. The worst thing to consistently happen to him.
[M] MOTIVATION
Trying to get Shu riled up for sex is like playing a game of operation. It’s very easy to mess up and make him clam up and dismiss you. There is no surefire way to get Shu in the mood, but one thing he cannot resist is being worshiped by his partner. Praise by anyone else? Who cares. Getting treated tenderly and receiving loving encouragement from someone he cares about? Well... He is just a man after all.
[V] VOLUME
He tries to stay quiet, but he always ends up making some noise. He’s generally speaking a panter and a grunter over a moaner. Just like everything regarding sex, he can be quite shy and quite particular about his performance, he struggles a lot in regards to feeling shame over making any sound during sex so be sure to give him plenty of reassurance (but not too much lest he feel coddled)!
[D] DIRTY SECRET
Wants and I mean WANTS to smell your underwear soooooo bad. It’s crazy how badly he wants to do it. He has too much respect and self-discipline to give in and do it but if you were to even so much as hint to being okay with it... well, he might just offer to do your laundry from then on.... totally not to hide the evidence of what he’d get on the fabric.
[M] MOTIVATION
His own hormones and any piece of visible skin. All he has to do is look at someone he’s into for long enough and he can get turned on. If he already has a sexual relationship with someone then oh boy is he even worse. Cleavage, thighs, hands, necks, anything can catch his eye and get him going if it’s exposed.
[V] VOLUME
Naturally on the quieter side of things. He tends to grunt a lot and is a fan of dirty talk sometimes, but he’s also more than content to just silently make you feel good without feeling the need to vocalize. He doesn’t have much shame about making noise or not making it at all, truly an unbothered king.
[i don't have access to my main pc rn forgive me for not using niki's banner i only have so many of them]
NIKI SHIINA
[D] DIRTY SECRET
You know those “hey babe I passed out 7 times but your cinnamon rolls are ready” memes? He wants to actually give it a shot. Either on the giving or receiving end, he’s down. He recognizes it’d probably suck but will that stop him? No. Would totally try cooking something with his/your cum if you’d like.
[M] MOTIVATION
Knowing someone else wants him is usually what gets him going. As long as he has the free time, Niki is usually down for a quick fuck but knowing someone else's eyes are on him makes him all the more excited. Sometimes hunger also gets him to feel in the mood. There’s a fine line though, if he gets too hungry, he’ll need a break to go eat or he might pass out lol.
[V] VOLUME
He’s generally noisy. He doesn’t really try to hold himself back unless he’s worried about disturbing his neighbors. Sometimes he can even get chatty during sex. He’s a bit prone to getting distracted and letting his mind wander so sometimes, when you check in on him, he’ll start saying something completely unrelated like “We need to buy more eggs” while you’re having sex.
hai! can i please request a jun sazanami x fem reader where she is very clingy with him!
guys i think jun is a clingy people magnet... and he likes it
(reader is fem! reader)
ʰʸᵉⁿᵃ ᵃⁿᵈ ʰⁱˢ ᵖᵃʳᵗⁿᵉʳ!!
dating jun includes...
to the people saying he wouldn't want people clinging to him, i would humbly like to say that you're wrong
why would he be so chill with hiyori and even go as far as to tease him if he wasn't okay with it? even more so if it came from his girlfriend, like let's be fr here
jun definitely prefers someone who's physically affectionate, and he definitely would initiate contact more if he wasn't an idol and going in public with you was a 50/50.
more often than not, he'll drag you whenever there's a casual hang out with eden so he has an excuse to hold your hand and not stick out like a sore thumb.
he is a bit surprised when you launch yourself at him whenever he gets home from the gym even though he's sweaty and stinky and generally not in the state people would want a hug in. but when he asks if it bothers you that he's sweaty, you literally melt his heart when you say no, and that if you did get sweaty because him at the least the two of you can chill in and have a bubble bath.
which essentially means for cuddles for you both, so he's quick to take the win.
honestly, he does tease hiyori about how he has less tolerance than his own girlfriend, despite being a guy.
i do have to say, in regards to eden, you and jun were heavily scolded by ibara for dating for one whole month without telling him.
it doesn't matter if you're another idol or producer, ibara will clock you too.
he probably wouldn't be as mad compared, let's say, hiyori or nagisa secretly dating someone, but he's a bit annoyed that you two kept such important information away from him.
but cheekily, he does give the two of you more chances to work together in the public eye, so people get used to seeing you two alone.
also jun LOVES cuddles
it's literally his life force and he doesn't know how he lived for so long without you
the first time he indulged, it felt a small piece of heaven had fallen right on his lap and he was just stunned by how nice it was
gets addicted to kisses one nanosecond in
your first kiss together got heated real fast all because he liked it so much and decided it was better not breathing for a good minute.
please forgive him, but he's just about as, if not more, clingy than you are.
in the safety and comfort of your home, he HAS to be touching you one way or another or he'll wither away die in the most pathetic way possible
and before anyone asks, yes, he will bench press your weight just so he makes sure he can carry you like a real man.
speaking of, ACTS OF SERVICE!!!
he likes to take care of you, and likewise likes it when you care for him
the acts can literally range from giving him a cup of water to preparing a bath and dinner for him
every time he's more and more convinced he needs to put a ring on you as soon as possible before ibara can stop him
like, what does he expect him to do? not officially claim his baddie? that's obscene
i imagine he offers his clothes up to you like an offering whenever possible, both to further encourage your clinginess and also to have his sweaters smell like you and he can just bask in your scent all day
to finish things off, jun probably has cuteness aggression. i mean, it's kind of hinted through this whole thing, but... it fits him so well, guys...
Hello! Please may I request Jun Sazanami with a reader who is physically clingy and has a puppyish / playful personality!?
☆ Character(s): Sazanami Jun
☆ Tags & Warnings: fluff, puppy x puppy dynamic,
☆ Type: minific
☆ W/C: 1,078 words
☆ Author's note: puppy x puppy ship dynamic? hell yeah!! jun is very puppylike but fun fact i just learned, hyenas are more closely related to cats than dogs. also happy early birthday jun!! (next month) - 🎸
Whining, you flopped onto Jun's bed with a soft thump. With your sleepiness, it felt so damn comfortable but.. it would be perfect if the owner was actually there with you. It was too cold..
It made you smile a little every time you thought about it, but the two of you were just a perfect match. Jun always complained about how warm he felt, and meanwhile, you got chilly so, so easily. Like matching puzzle pieces. Some days when you'd whine about the temperature, he'd laugh a little and ruffle your hair after giving you his jacket. Some days, you'd shiver, not saying anything. Those days, he'd wordlessly throw his jacket on you, a light flush on his cheeks. He always noticed.
You turned your head, face burning. A hyena plushie stared back at you. Its beady black eyes gleamed at you, as if it were laughing at your pathetic state. Here you were, waiting for your boyfriend like a sad dog with nothing else to do.
Well, he was a busy idol, so..
So what?! The other part of your brain screamed. Sure, it was a little childish, petulant, but a part of you felt pissed that your Jun ended up coming home later than initially promised. He texted, letting you know, but..
You huffed, not letting yourself think about it anymore. Even though your chest flared with petty anger— even though your eyes drifted down, you still waited patiently for him to come home and get a kiss after a long day. It was embarrassing, but you looked forward to that little reunion kiss all day. You hoped he felt the same..
But despite trying to turn your sadness into anger, it didn't quite have the effect you'd wanted. The room still felt cold, and too quiet. If you had more energy, you'd start pacing around the room just to make some sort of noise. Just to pretend someone else was with you. Just to pretend he was with you.
Someday, you'll get used to his schedule and not feel like this. Every once in a while, the both of you would spend time together hunched over both of your calendars, muttering and poring over them to find an empty slot to arrange a date.
"30 minutes?" Jun mumbled, only half thinking.
"No, that wouldn't do.." you replied, chewing on your pencil and leaning against him. The table was big, but to you, there wasn't any spot better than being pressed up in his personal space.
Even in the mundanity of it all, he shyly admitted it felt like a date too.
Honestly, you were so grateful he didn't have roommates anymore. Then, no one was there to see you curl up into a ball and kick your feet, half in petty annoyance and half in giddiness of that memory floating through your head. You're so lucky to have such a cute boyfriend! When he gets back, all you wanted to do was to drown him in so many kisses that his face would turn strawberry red.
"Ah- uh.. babe?"
His bedsheets were all ruffled by your movements, pillows out of place, and his blanket had started slipping off the bed, half pooling on the floor. With a manga misplaced there, his desk chair holding your jacket, his room looked like it belonged to two people instead of one. And Jun had walked into you like this.
It was.. so embarrassing..!
"Jun-kun hi!" You shot up from your curled up position on his bed, feeling a wave of dizziness hit you like a truck. “Hi! Hi! What took you so long?”
With long, fast strides, almost running, Jun made his way across his room to you. Hearing his airy voice made your shoulders slump and relax, and you hoped he didn't notice. But.. with how observant he was, especially towards you..
He probably noticed, like everything. He just didn't mention it or else you'd get too flustered.
You were halfway in the motion of getting up, swaying gently like a drunkard. Or a stalk of grass in the wind, if you wanted to see it in a more graceful way, to save your pride. You hoped Jun saw you more as a graceful plant, instead of an overexcited puppy or some passionate drunk.
“.. Pfft- you look drunk, don't move too quick.” he said with a laugh.
Eh?!
“Juuuun.. why would you say that, don't you love me..? Why do you hate me?!” you whined, relaxing more and more every second he came back.
“What? Nah, don't mess with me like that, you're always like this-”
“Ow-!”
He poked at your forehead, gentle enough that the yelp you let out was purely from dramatics. Despite the teasing, your head tilted to the side and chased the warmth of his hand like a moth to a flame. You didn't do it on purpose, nor notice you even did it. But of course, Jun did, his cheeks turning hot.
“You really missed me that much huh?” To Jun's embarrassment, instead of sounding teasing, he sounded so disgustingly affectionate, that he instantly wanted to shove those words back in his throat. Goddamn, why was he like this?! Before he could say anything else, you opened your mouth again.
“No.”
“No?!” This time, it was Jun’s turn to yelp.
“Yeah, I miss you..” you paused for a little bit of dramatic effect, “this much-!”
With a whoosh, you swung your arms wide, showing off how much you missed him. Jun almost squinted at your bright smile. Luckily, there was no mirror nearby, or else you'd probably get embarrassed and stop smiling so wide. Good. Jun never, ever wanted it to stop. Honestly, if you had a dog tail, it would be wagging so hard your torso would wiggle from the force.
“My arms are going as far as they can go. See?” He opened his mouth to reply but you beat him to the punch. “And don't you dare say you can open them wider. You know that's not fair.”
He sighed, disgustingly affectionate, and gave you a short peck on the lips instead of replying. The both of you always looked forward to your little reunion kiss, but never said it out loud. But the way your eyes shone with some emotion he doesn't have the courage to name, Jun hoped the message came across. His ears flamed pink with shy embarrassment.
(Ensemble Stars) Hiyori Tomoe x gn!Reader x Jun Sazanami . Emotional Hurt/Comfort + Fluff . Polyamory, Dissociation/Derealization, Self disregard & struggle to rely on others, Minor Swearing, Hiyori x Jun and Bantering at the end
Petnames Used For Reader; '(My/Our) Darling', 'Sweetie'. Jun calls Hiyori 'dear'
" Things haven't been feeling right lately. A lasting state of mental disonnect. You need something to help, but you're not sure what will. The answers barge into your room. "
Ao3 Mirror . 2,485 Words
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Nothing seems to be right. Nothing feels right. Inexplicably every part of your surroundings has felt distant, a block in your mind keeping you from processing their existence. You wouldn't say you'd claim nothing is real or say every facet of reality is fake. But everything you turn to look to, try to grasp, has an almost simulated feel to it. You just can't comprehend the existence of anything in the world at all right now. And you wish you didn't have to endure this bout of disconnect, wish you could just close your eyes and everything would feel normal and present for once and forever. But you can't. You found that sleeping through the days only worsens it, but living through them is starting to break you down- even when absolutely nothing that would strain you is happening. Daily life is fine, there's no trigger that you can reasonably dig up in your mind. So why are you feeling like this?
Not that you're sure knowing would do you any good anyways. Everything you've tried has had no impact on it. Just simply stuck slowly spiralling into an abyss of mental withdrawl, maybe until you take back that inital thought and proclaim the world simply doesn't exist. Maybe alongside other things the mind will conjure up to completely convince you of an opposite reality than what really exists out there and in here. And what can you do about it? What is there you haven't tried?
Well, you could try talking to your partners. But you're not certain that they'd be able to do anything with the topic. Would they know what to even say? Would it cause them to freak out and shut down the conversation? Or would they even go as far to not even consider hearing the notion for your sake and merely laugh off the idea and leave you with nothing? Wow, it sounds like you're trying to vilify them. But you swear that's not what you mean. Surely they wouldn't mean any harm, maybe even offer some form of solace in a way outside of words if they can't find what to say. Truly you're just worried if anyone could take you seriously and help you, and if not that kind of rejection stings the more you've come closer to someone.
But you're sure they'd be fine, if you just asked. But you find yourself saying that you still don't want to. Stubborness dictating that you must not initate or indicate the idea of anything being wrong for fear of devolving into a stressful burden. Maybe if they saw through the glass facade and asked first, but you don't think you can be the one to break the ice on this one.
Well, you're getting your chance anyways, as in an instant they're barging through your door with Hiyori bleating out a "Ohh darling!" and Jun seemingly acting like the other wasn't the first to speak up in a overly loud tone, "Are you okay? We haven't seen you for a few days, and you haven't answered our texts or calls." Oh, right, those. You had honestly forgotten that the passage of time was both a thing and percievable for others. And not only that but the part of your brain that would tell you to respond when someone reaches out to you by means of your celluar device had essentially shut down, leaving you to notice their attempts but think nothing of them. While Jun treads up to you with slow steps Hiyori is in contrast rushing over to be by your side with a frantic expression, "Are you okay darling?! Is something going on, is something wrong?" They seem to be repeating both themselves and blocking out that they're also repeating what the other had already said. It's something sort of comical to note, even when they're being serious. At times it can be the slightest bit overwhelming, but overall you don't pay much mind to their quirk. Oh, right, you're supposed to say something back. Guilt for causing their worry is already creeping in, you can't keep leaving them in silence.
"I'm fine, just feeling off." A pretty much bullshit lie. You're feeling more than off, and while you haven't been actively sobbing and completely out of ability to keep your basic needs in check you're not sure if fine is an accurate word. Jun, who has made his way to your bedside, bluntly calls this out, "Is your version of feeling off becoming completely unresponsive for almost a month?" Shit, had it been that long?
Hiyori adds on to that thought, "We were going to come by earlier. But thought that maybe you were just busy, you know with work and stuff like we are? But it's been such a long time and I knew something just wasn't right!"
Jun remarks "We both knew, Hiyori." with no actual bite behind it. Then he puts down his snark and turns back to you, "Do you want to talk to us, though? We'd like to know what's going on, what's been going on." You without a thought let out a sigh. There's your chance, there's the chance that you've been secretly repressing your desperation for. But you just can't. Or can you? How do you get that ball rolling, what are you supposed to say?
The two don't rush in to push you with over the top encouragement, instead remaining in silence. But they do make a move to test the waters of laying down beside you, Hiyori moving in to gingerly slot himself in your hold while facing you, while Jun follows the same pace to wrap his arms around you from behind. You neither protest or move away, it clicks in your mind that you need this and if you were to reject and push them away you might make yourself break down at the rejection of such a needed comfort. There's silence in the air for a long pausing moment. Your lovers dare not to break it whilst you gather your thoughts and courage, only staring at you with a mixture of concern and care as they hope you're comfortable with the two wrapped around you. You are, and it shows as you finally drop your head onto Hiyori's shoulder with an exhale that relieves some of the tensions from your shoulders. He in response pulls you in ever so slighty closer, while Jun other other hand leans into the blades of your shoulder himself while the thumb of his hands start to caress over patches of your body.
Hiyori interjects for the shortest moment, "We love you." A small voice said with need for you to know. Jun affirms with a "Mhm, we do. We love you." this time muttered into your back, but with the emotional intent being just as strong. You find yourself able to speak up finally, "I know, I know. I love you too. Didn't mean to leave you in the dark like that. I just..."
Here you go. You can't muster up the energy for a proper explanation. So you'll just say it in the simplest way you can, "I haven't felt 'real' lately. It doesn't feel like I don't exist, but I can't connect to anything around me. It feels like I just can't register anything I see right." They're both quiet for a moment. Please, please don't let their response be pratically nothing and have this dropped without a further intent to discuss. You feel Jun pull his head away from you, and you can't see it, but they're both looking into each other's eyes in their own mutual understanding of what the other is thinking. Almost as if they were giving each other input on how to help you through this without needing to actually converse between them. Jun nods to him, an agreement that Hiyori will be the one to start, and resumes resting his forehead against you.
Following the cue Hiyori returns to gazing down at you, "Do you know why that is, darling?" You can only shake your head, "It just started happening one day. Nothing seems to help. I don't know what to do, but it isn't hindering my ability to do things."
Jun objects, "If it's causing you to feel like this, without even a break, then it's hindering you enough." He states matter-of-factly. You don't fully understand what he means, so you tilt your head to look back at him as a prompt to elaborate. "It doesn't matter if you can still get stuff done. I mean, it does, it's good that you're able to. But what I mean is that if you're feeling this way at all then that's important. You don't need to be completely broken down for something to be matter or be seen as 'bad enough'."
Oh yeah. That's another thing that had slipped your mind. Though that specific case has lingered around for far longer. So many times you've been shrugged and pushed off for suffering. The only thing those people had wanted from you was your convience, your productivity, and what you could do for them while recieving almost nothing in return. The idea that it was all you were good for was embedded into your mind like a dagger that just can't be pulled out. The notion that anything you go through is a trivial matter to pratically ignore unless it strips all ability to function, leaving you on the floor genuinely unable to move, and will not resolve itself without external intervention- that is a mindset you had lived with. And even if that were to happen you believed that you were obliged to grovel and the feet of anyone who offers assistance, even their help was subpar or even negligent, and apologize for being something they had to even think about. As well as dangle the fact you needed help over your head like it was a horrific crime until the day you died.
Putting it that way, it didn't make a whole lot of sense to you. You were a person, even if sometimes you struggled to call yourself that, why would you need to be sorry about the need for human connection and help? But then you ask yourself why wouldn't you, deeming your existence as inherently lesser to anyone else's. Another irrational mindset. You've tried to detangle and tear it out of your brain for ages. But it's thorns are burried deep. It'd be an understatement to proclaim that there's been absolutely no progress on it however. The men laying with you now being living proof of it. It's not easy, it still nags at you when you do, but you've found yourself learning to rely on them with less hesitance than you had at the start.
And speaking of them, you realize they had been calling your name. Hiyori's frequently used petname breaks you out of your trailed off internal monolouge, "Darling?" You jolt back into the moment, briefly apologizing for the zone out. He assures, "That's alright. Did you hear what we said, though? What's the last thing you remember?" A check in. Jun's affirmation of the severity of the matter despite retaining your ability to physically function is your answer, to which he nods, "You didn't miss much, then. I was just telling my darling that was Jun said was true, and that you don't need to undermine yourself in such a way." He presses a kiss to the top of your head, and restates, "Don't undermine how you feel. It's okay to say just you're feeling bad. Being completely incapacitated was never the minimum threshold for needing help- for needing support."
Jun in turns places a kiss to your shoulder, "Mhm. It's okay, lean on us. Doesn't matter how extreme the issue is, we're here. We're going to be here for our darling. Let us be here." You just almost miss the 'please' tacked on and said into your skin. The energy to refute their affirmations has all but left you, leaving a yearn to indugle and believe in their word. Maybe one day you won't view it as indulgence, but a simple truth you're deserving of. Maybe. But that's in the future. You mumble so aloud, but you don't think you're going to be able to shake the feelings of mental detachment from reality just yet- probably not for a while. But at the very least you'll try to maintain communication and reliance on them. You're sleepy, though. The cozy embrace of devotion and being truly cherished lulling you into a long awaited rest. Things can be discussed later, how to cope through everything short circuiting you can be figured out together another day. It's time to fall into slumber for now.
Both your partners come to relax upon seeing your soothed state. Smiles gracing their lips as they nuzzle closer into you. Jun bids first, "Alright. Sleep well sweetie. We'll be here when you awake, mkay?" with a kiss to the back of your skull. Followed by Hiyori's nod and kiss to your forehead, "Mhm! You sleep well now, our darling. You're in for a lot of pampering when you wake up." He pledges with a cheery lilt of voice. And you doze off, finally filled with a peace you've been lacking that you now see will be happily provided by them.
...
Once it's established you're well deep into sleep Hiyori breaks from his admring stare onto you and morphs into a teasing smirk and raised back as he turns to Jun, "You just had to one up me. With that 'our darling' phrase."
Jun fires back with nonchalance, "And you had to copy it. You're always saying 'my darling'. Do you know what polyamory means?" It's a totally rhetorical question, he isn't actually bothered any and they both know it. "I call you dear too, if that gives you any indication."
"Ah! Dear, but not darling! I'm hurt, Jun." Playing up the antics, finding a reason to put on the melodrama to push the back and forth of banter, as Hiyori usually does.
"What? It's not like one's any better or 'superior' to the other." Jun shakes his head. But they both pause when they feel you stir at their voices. Not breaking out of sleep, but rattled enough by the satirical argument to give a short furrow of the brow and shift against the sheets. "Right. Time to sleep." Jun points out in a whisper, settling against your form.
Hiyori does the same, "Yeah. Goodnight, dear." an emphasis on the petname, one last loving tease to wrap things up.
Jun rolls his eyes, but knows he can feel his heart swell at the way Hiyori mixes sass with affection. He reciprocates, "Yeah yeah. Goodnight, darling."
And three bodies lay in slumber, witth hope sparked that everything can be okay.
A/N: A text-fic reuploaded from my old blog (if anyone remembers). This has just been formatted differently, but the texts are the same. The add-ons are the short fics underneath each text(s). I thought it would be interesting to write the aftermath of these break up prank texts!
PRANKING THEM WITH A BREAK UP TEXT (EDEN)
Featured characters: Nagisa Ran, Ibara Saegusa, Hiyori Tomoe, Jun Sazanami
Tags: (Mild) angst to fluff, textfic to fic, established relationships
Word count: 1,502
Prompt/synopsis: Pranking the Eden members with a break up text (with aftermath)!
➽ NAGISA RAN
When the two of you were at the museum, the atmosphere was a little too tight. Nagisa kept lagging behind, although at first you thought he was just taking his time admiring all the art pieces. Was he perhaps still upset over your prank? He was smiling at you softly when he picked you up from your house, but now that the two of you were alone together, you finally realised the tension that little prank of yours had made.
"Nagisa," you said gently, taking his hand in yours. "I'm sorry..."
He was silent for a moment before responding with, "You've apologised countless of times already, (Y/N)... I forgive you."
"...But you're still upset, right? I could tell... You haven't looked at me once."
And you were right. He didn't look at you at all. His eyes were glued at the paintings on the wall as he avoided your gaze.
"You can read me well," he said softly. "That's one of the reasons why I love you, (Y/N)... So, when you sent me that text, I felt like my world shattered."
He squeezed your hand.
"We've been together for a while now, and I can't see myself with anybody but you." He turned to look at you. "(Y/N), if you're ever unhappy in our relationship, I would like you to tell me. I am willing to do anything it takes for us to work out until the very end."
Your eyes stung. He was finally looking at you again. Nagisa was concerned with your reaction, so he lifted your hand up to his lips as he kissed your palm.
"I'm sorry..." you quavered. "I love being with you, Nagisa. You're the one I'll ever love... You've been nothing but good to me... I'm sorry for playing that prank on you. I should've thought about your feelings before I did it."
He didn't care about that anymore. All he wanted was to see you smile. He hugged you carefully and your arms automatically wrapped themselves around his waist.
"(Y/N), I love you. Let's spend the rest of the day smiling, okay?"
Now that the tension was lifted, the two of you resumed your visit at the museum hand in hand. Nagisa would tell you his thoughts on some of the paintings, but out of all the art pieces in the museum, Nagisa thought you were the prettiest.
➽ IBARA SAEGUSA
Ibara wasn't mad at you for pulling that prank on him, but it did seem like he was kind of irked about it. Still, he baked you your favourite cake when he arrived home. He even bought you your favourite juice to have with the cake.
"Wow, Ibara, this is beautiful!" you commented, eyeing the cake he had just baked. "Thank you so much! Let's eat it together!"
You hugged him tight and he hugged you back automatically, but for some reason, it felt forced. When you let him go, he smiled at you sadly.
"I knew it was a prank," he began. "But are you sure you're happy in this relationship?"
That caught you off-guard. "O-Of course I am!" you stuttered, confused at the question at hand. "Ibara, I didn't play that prank on you because I was second-guessing our relationship... It was just a stupid prank, I'm sorry."
He didn't seem so sure. When you tried to hold his hands for reassurance, he didn't seem so keen to hold yours in return. His arms felt limp too as if he didn't want you to hold his hands to begin with.
"I mean..." he began. "You wouldn't pull that prank on me unless you were feeling off about us..."
"No, Ibara–"
"(Y/N), I truly do love you. Life is worth living for you. I won't bear it if we ever broke up," he confessed. "If you ever have any concerns about what I'm doing or not have been doing in our relationship, please tell me, okay? I'd like to improve. All I want is for you to be happy − for us to be happy together."
His words were so genuine that it made you tear up. It was not every day that Ibara would confess his words like this. He was so vulnerable right now compared to the replies he sent you through text. It was just a harmless prank to you, but to Ibara, it was more than that.
"I am being serious when I tell you this, Ibara, but I am truly happy in our relationship," you stated. "Despite your packed schedule, you've always made time for me, you were always so attentive and loving too. I never want to let you go."
He smiled at this. Bringing you back into his loving embrace as he stroked your hair between his fingertips. "Hahaha, alright! Enough talking about this. I want to spend the day with my lover on a happier note!" he announced, going back to his usual loud self.
➽ HIYORI TOMOE
Hiyori pinched your cheek playfully, but you could feel the anger in his action.
"You were so funny today, (Y/N)!" he exclaimed joyfully.
Oh, he was mad. Hiyori picked you up at 3 o'clock so that the two of you could visit the new bakery. He was hoping to spend the day with you, eating the desserts the establishment had to offer, but when you sent him that text, his whole mood shifted.
The tension he created lingered in the air despite the bakery's cosy atmosphere and your boyfriend's smile on his face.
"Hiyori... I'm sorry for playing that 'prank' on you..." you said carefully so that the ticking time bomb in him wouldn't explode. "Are you... No, you must be mad at me... I'm sorry."
His annoyance dissipated once he saw how remorseful you looked. He sighed as he took your hand to plant a soft kiss.
"It hurt, (Y/N)..." he admitted, looking at you sadly even if he was smiling right now. "I was so sure that I did everything right in this relationship. I was hoping that I didn't annoy you or something. I was even thinking that maybe you hated the way I clung onto you... but that's only because I love you so much...!"
He continued, "I honestly did not know what to say when you sent me that message. I tried to play it off, but my heart ached when I sent those replies. I'm glad it was a prank, but it just wasn't funny–"
"I know and I'm sorry!" you cried. The love he had for you was beautiful and genuine. You felt incredibly guilty for even trying to play that prank on him. "Hiyori, I'm sorry. I love you so much... I never want you to change the way you love me either..."
He smiled, genuinely this time. "Okay, okay, I forgive you~" he began. "Let's eat our pastries now!"
You nodded, but before you could pick up one of the tarts, Hiyori said, "Just so you know... you're the best I'll ever have too."
➽ JUN SAZANAMI
But he met up with you anyway. He ran over to the entrance of Reimei, only slowing down once he saw you waving at him so happily. The audacity that you have, to be so happy like this when he was just crying in front of his lockers.
"Jun!" you exclaimed, spreading your arms out for him.
He sucked it up though. He accepted your invitation and brought you into his embrace. You hugged him gleefully, but he wasn't feeling the same. Although his face was buried in the crook of your neck, he didn't feel as happy as he usually felt when you'd visit him at Reimei.
"Jun...?" you murmured, noticing the tension in the air. "Are you still mad at me...?"
He let you go. Now that you were able to see his face clearly, you realised how red and swollen his eyes were.
"Jun?! Were you crying?" you sputtered. "I'm so sorry! That was so stupid of me!"
He smiled at you, but it was obviously strained. "When you sent me that text, I really thought it was over for the two of us. I thought I might've done something wrong... or that I wasn't giving you enough attention. I never wanted you to be unhappy..."
"Jun..." you began. "You've been nothing but sweet to me. You make me happy everyday... I love you so much, you don't understand... I'm sorry for playing that prank on you."
Before he could say anything, you brought him into a deep kiss. It wasn't long, but it was passionate. Jun wasn't ready for it especially since he doesn't like kissing in public, but for the first time in forever, he wanted to kiss you again like this.
He was now looking at you lovingly, smiling at you lovingly. He hoped that the two of you would continue to love each other for a long time, but now, he was going to give you what you asked and came here for: a kiss — well, another one.
Is Your "Best" Really Is The Best For Everyone? - Sazanami Jun x F!Reader
W/N: My first ever published fanfiction here! Expect more to come hehe. This is a bit more tailored towards my personal yume but I tried my best to make it more general so you can also experience the pain I have hehe :3c. Please pardon my mistakes and stuff, english isn't my main language ><
Tags: angst/fluff, hurt/comfort, implied self-harm, implied suicidal tendency, he did what he thought was best for her. she's an idol just like him, which leads to his decision.
One-Shot Under The Cut!
"I'm sorry, I truly am. But I think this would be the best for us."
Jun did his best to lock eye contact with you. While you stared back at him in disbelief. You could not believe what you just heard. 3 years of relationship, 3 years of his warmth, 3 years of a place to come home you know would always be there despite the entire world seemed to be against you.
He just said he wanted it all done.
"Is there nothing I could do to change your mind? Anything?" You said, gasping for air clearly holding your tears back. "I can't accept this just like that!"
Jun let out a long sigh, "It's about time we do the things we should do, (y/n). The world is not only about the things we want."
You collapsed on the floor. Eyes empty. You were not crying. It was just, empty. As if your sole essence of living just being ripped out of you.
Of course, you didn't want to be a burden for him. If he wanted to put his entire focus on his career, you should let him. It would be selfish of you to force him to stay if it was hindering him for maximizing his potential, right? If only he just said that you were a burden, that you were holding him back from reaching his true potential as an idol, you wouldn't be in this much despair.
But, no. He said it would be best for You. He mentioned that he felt like he was the one holding you back, that he was keeping you from reaching the top. You could not accept that. Did he not know? When the agency was blaming you, your unitmates were blaming you, your parents were disappointed in you, when it seemed like the whole world were blaming you for being a failure.
Jun was the one who would welcome you with a warm embrace. Jun was the one who would look at you, talk to you, as if nothing happened. Jun was the one who would see you as a person no matter how you did at work.
When you realized, Jun was already left.
You were alone.
In the middle of your apartment.
In the middle of an agonizing silence.
In the silence, louder than any concert you have ever been.
And so you laid there. No thoughts in mind, no more. You close your eyes, hoping to never wake up. Slowly, drifting into the realm of dreams.
It has been 3 days. Jun worriedly checking up your socials, both your personal and work accounts, but no new activity at all. He started to worry. You were known to be active on your socials, either to post some work updates or personal activities. You never missed a day on your socials. Realizing you weren't online at all for the last 3 days, his thoughts started to wander.
"Are you really sure this is the best course of action?" Jun asked Hiyori, "she seems to be disappearing instead of doing better."
Hiyori took a sip from his cup of tea, humming, "Who said that it would be better for her, anyway? Jun-kun, did someone influence you to do it?"
Jun scratched his head, "Ibara told me to break up with her, he said it would be best for her. Considering she was really struggling to focus due to her problem and all."
"And you believe him? Oh my," Hiyori covered his mouth with his hand.
He was hit with realization. Clarity suddenly came to him. He laughed hard, at himself. Why was he so stupid? He was the one who knew you inside and out, why would he listen to some outsider insight? Maybe it was because he was too worried about you he couldn't think clearly.
Jun rushed into your apartment, utilizing all the lunch time he had.
When he arrived, his worry grew the moment he realized your apartment door remained unlocked. So he stepped inside, only to found you remained in the exact same position he left you, in the same clothes and all, implying you probably did not move at all since last time.
"(Y/n)...?"
Jun called, half-whispering. He kneeled besides you, carefully stroking your hair.
"(Y/n)... have you eaten anything? Or at least, drank something?"
He noticed your breath was weak, without looking much, one would probably thought you were already passed. His heart hitched.
"Jun? Is that you... Jun?" You soared, slowly blinking your eyes, "I thought you were gone..."
"I have to take you to the hospital. Goddamn! What did I do to you?" Jun hurriedly picked you up, then started running to the nearby hospital.
The nurse scolded him over your condition. You haven't eaten nor drank anything in 3 days, your body was limp. The nurses rushed to take care of you considering your critical condition.
When it all calmed down and you began to regain your energy, Jun sat besides you. He was gripping your hand so hard, squeezing his eyes shut, clearly praying.
"(Y/n), please, please, wake up. Please, (y/n)..." Jun whispered to himself.
"Hey, Jun?" You said softly.
His eyes went wide, locked with yours, "(y/n)? Are you okay? How are you feeling?"
You chuckled weakly, "I really thought I lost you..."
"No, that was poor decision on my part. I would never!" His grip on your hand went tighter, "I could never, I really thought that was the best for you. I panicked, I was too worried about your well-being that it slipped my mind that I'm the one who knows you. And I know I shouldn't have left you, even for one second."
You smiled softly, tears falling down your cheek, "It's okay, no actually it's not okay. You have to pay for it, you owe me."
Jun laughed at your words, seeing you're back to your joking self put him in relief. He placed a kiss on your hand gently.
"Alright, as for my payment, I would never leave your side, I would follow you anywhere, even to the end of the world."
When you cuddle with Jun, it’s so incredibly safe. It’s when he brings you into his arms- your face against his shirt and his on yours- that you can finally close your eyes. The outside world can’t hurt you, not there. It’s so easy to forget everything, to only remember his warmth and the mumbles of “I love you”.
Sometimes, it’s silent, and sometimes the conversations are almost unintelligible to anyone else. For Jun, it’s enough to hold you like this. He knows you’re safe in his arms, home and with him. He always misses you, but you’re there with him- and that’s what really matters to him. The warmth you share, breaths tickling skin, hearts beating all bring him comfort, and he hopes you feel the same about that.
Jun really loves playing with your hair- he loves the way your hair feels against his skin, whether he kisses it or plays with it or runs his hands through it. Jun loves keeping his lips on your shoulder. Up and back on again, kiss after kiss. Another “I love you”, another “Mmm, stay a little bit longer”.
Jun really has no thoughts when you’re cuddling with him. He’s simply full of love. You, you, you- that’s every thought in that brain of his. He loves it when you touch him like how he touches you, that you’re not just present but you’re there with him.
You could be there all day- Jun doesn’t mind. Even though he’s busy, he’s found solace in staying with you like this. If only work could wait a little bit longer- Jun stays as long as he can, always. He always hates having to get up, having to separate himself from your shared embrace.
HASUMI KEITO
It feels like Keito can finally relax. It’s so magical, so magical that the work somehow just disappears. It’s not really gone, but if he doesn’t think about it, how can he worry about it? There’s nothing in the world, nothing but you. He’s so soft, his heart’s melted completely.
Keito listens. Whatever you say, he’s listening. Even if you don’t say anything, he picks up on it; are you upset? Are you sad? Are you tired? Are you just happy to be with him? Even if nothing leaves your lips, it’s alright. There’s no need to say. Anytime is alright. He’ll listen whenever you need. But he picks up on it, and he’ll wait. He’ll wait however long.
Whenever Keito falls asleep like that, you know he went a little too long without a break. He never means to, but it’s always the best kind of rest- the ones in your arms. It’s so easy to poke his cheek, it’s so easy to give him a kiss on the forehead. If he wakes up, he’ll smile and perhaps kiss you back, it’s so sweet.
Keito loves playing with your hands: intertwine, kiss, let go. Again and again, he loves it. It’s so mindless, so natural, so habit. It’s calming and relaxing for him, something he can do when you kiss his cheek and he smiles.
SAEGUSA IBARA
Ibara never knew he would like this so much. It’s all new to him, but it comes to him more naturally than he thought it would. It’s surprisingly relaxing; he never feels like it’s a waste of time. He enjoys every moment with you, always. He finds himself thinking about just how cute you are, how he’s lucky to be there right with you.
Oftentimes, he has his arm around you, while you snuggle yourself into his side. He’s reading an article- though it’s not more interesting than you- and he plants a kiss on your forehead. It just feels so right to him, so, so right. He can feel his heartbeat and yours too, and a smile that rarely ever shows appears on his expression.
Even when he’s not reading, when he’s the one cuddled up against you, both arms around you as to not ever let go, he’s just so comfortable. He holds you tightly, unknowingly burying his face into your back before he knows it. He doesn’t let go, even if this is new, because it just feels so good. He’s safe, you’re safe, somehow, even if the world’s cruel.
Ibara always lets go when you want to go, but a part of him wants to ask you to stay a little bit longer… even if he has to go too. It’s an oasis in all the stress and work that goes on, and even though he knows that it’ll have to be done sooner or later, sometimes he wishes it just wasn’t time yet.
WORD COUNT | 777 words
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