#justmini

[minimckee]

Hi, yes, I know I've said this before, but why the FUCK DOES ANYONE LET ME TALK??? I'M A WALKING DISASTER, I SPOUT SO MUCH STUPID SHIT, HOLY HELL I ACTUALLY HATE MYSELF SO MUCH, NORSE MYTHOLOGY HAD IT RIGHT WITH SEWING PEOPLE'S LIPS SHUT WHAT THE HELL-

[minimckee]

Maybe I'm just in a bad mindset right now (I mean, I am, but I'm not sure if that's what's driving this) but the fact that I'm seeing SO MANY posts about how Thomas should've gone to the callback and he made the wrong decision is SERIOUSLY stressing me the heck out.

Like NO! He did the RIGHT THING! He said he'd go to something very important to his friends, it's important to honour that! If you don't, it builds distrust, festers disappointment and can destroy friendship! There is no greater heartbreak than having someone you love, someone you adore SAY THEY'LL DO SOMETHING AND THEN AT THE LAST SECOND THEY DON'T. I know, because I've BEEN THERE. I can't trust what used to be one of my best friends to be there for me when I need her, because I know that I'm not a priority for her. I'm not important to her. Not when it comes to things that are important to me.

Yes, I agree that character Thomas should've probably talked to Marylee and Lee. I think, if he was as close with them as is implied, they would've understood and urged him to go to the callback. So yes, I guess he should've gone to the callback, but ONLY if it involved talking to the couple first and getting their opinion.

Selfishness is ugly. It's UGLY. And today's society is very selfish. Empathy is important. Keeping your word is IMPORTANT. Roman made the right choice, THOMAS made the right choice, because sometimes the right thing to do isn't easy. It isn't fair and it hurts us and ONLY US, but it's still the RIGHT THING TO DO.

Maybe it's just my personal beliefs, but the world is so much bigger than us. We shouldn't be living only for ourselves. We are put here to LOVE each other. Yes, we can't always put others first, but we can't always put ourselves first either.

Deciet was ultimately wrong because he was blinded by selfishness. He was blinded by what he wanted, and not what was right. Empathy, compassion, SELFLESSNESS is not a blindfold. It is liberating. I never feel more peaceful, calm and happy than when I'm giving to someone else, because THAT is the right and the good and the loving thing to do.

I'm sorry for the rant. I'm sorry if I've offended, but seeing so many people in such a beautiful fandom parrot off some of the worst parts of this world makes me ache.

[minimckee]

Apparently people are now saying that Disney bought their own tickets to make Captain Marvel do so well in the box office???

Are people really this upset over a female-led Marvel movie? Honestly, grow up 😄

[minimckee]

Okay, I wanted to put this here so I wouldn't forget, but I HAVE A SANDERS SIDES THEORY!

We know from one of the members only livestreams that this Sanders Sides is probably going to either be a new room, or a new 'Dark Side'. We also know that the team have been working on costumes, plural, for this episode, and Thomas was looking pretty funky in some makeup on that charity livestream.

My theory, and hear me out on this because I know most people think its a 'Dark Side', is that it's actually Roman's room. For a while, I'd been thinking (hoping) Roman's room would be next, but I thought after 'Learning New Things About Ourselves' it would probably be Logan's. But costumes? COSTUMES? How could it not be Roman???

Additionally, the first thing I thought when I saw Thomas' makeup, was that it looked an awful lot like what I, as a cosplayer, would expect to see underneath, oh I don't know, a MASK! You know what Batman cosplayers have underneath that cowl of theirs, around their eyes? That same exact smear of raccoon eye makeup! So I think we're gonna see some masks in the newest Sander Sides, and I think it'll be in Roman's room, which might actually change the outfits of the Sides (you know, like in all those Fanfictions where Roman takes them on a quest and they all dress up as squires and wizards and princes, etc).

Secondary theory, we might see a representation of this moment again with the masks?

Who knows? In any case, I'm very excited for whatever Thomas puts out, and I know I won't be disappointed even if I turn out to be completely and horribly wrong xD (because, let's face it, my theories are normally just wishful thinking 😄). I'm just pumped to see what these costumes are gonna be, because Joan and Talyn have proven to be excellent at coming up with flippin AMAZING designs, oh my goodness I'm so PUMPED!

But hey, that's just a theory, a SANDERS THEORY, thanks for reading! (my cringe levels are high, ignore me 😄😄😄)

[minimckee]

This just in... (it's a big ol' rant Fam, buckle up and expect to see my personal, inexperienced opinion thrown into a couple of angry paragraphs)

My parents don't think there should be any diversity in franchises like Star Wars and Marvel because "it's never been that way before".

"It's supposed to be an escape from real life"

But like, fuck all the women and POC who wanna escape from their life too, right?

"Their primary audience is white males, they just have to accept that and make the movies for them"

Okay, fuck you. More than white males go to see these movies, and diverse people DESERVE TO GET REPRESENTATION.

Honest to God, I'm sick of seeing a bunch of white dudes run around and save the day. I'm sick of it. It's freaking boring. Give me my POC characters! Give me my badass women, who can still be feminine at the end of the day! Give my my LGBTQ+ characters and have that not be their only trait! Give me my disabled characters! Let them be the heroes too!

"Oh, Captain Marvel is gonna fail cos all the white boys don't wanna see it now"

Fuck the white boys. Not literally. Lots of them suck. But fuck them.

I want more female super heroes. Can you believe this is Marvel's first main movie with a female lead? It's first. Before now, not including the one-shots with Peggy, Wasp was the only female hero to have her name even in the title of the movie. I'm so freaking excited to see a female superhero!

Wonder Woman was amazing for me. Coming out of that I felt strong. I can't wait to feel the same way after watching Captain Marvel. And even if I don't, what a wonderful step forward in putting women in lead roles for Marvel. I'm not discounting any of our other badass leads we have, trust me when I say I adore them.

But how exciting is it to finally have the main character be a woman. The title character be a woman.

Marvel has been getting better. Black Panther was a stunning movie in and out, with such a diverse cast of talented black actors. Spiderman too, is full of diversity, and it sounds like that's going to get even better in Far From Home. It's just so disheartening to hear my parents, particularly my dad, essentially taking the side of the same gross people who chase women off social media for a character they acted. Yeah, acted. Not wrote. Like, if you really have a problem with the actions of a character, THE ACTOR REALLY ISN'T TO BLAME FOR THAT??? LEAVE THEM ALONE.

I thought the Star Wars debate between my dad and I would get better, but it didn't. When it comes down to it, my dad doesn't care about diversity. He doesn't care about feminism or female empowerment. He thinks the white boys (and I don't mean all white boys, I mean those white boys) should be pandered to because "they're the main market, like it or not".

Star Wars is not just for white boys. It never has been. It never will be. It's for everyone. I'm glad they've been trying to step out and make changes to add a more diverse cast. I'm just so sorry that they've had so much backlash while doing so. I wish I could tell them to keep at it. I'm just one white girl. I'm pretty privileged when it comes down to it, but there are others who deserve a diverse Star Wars, who deserve to see themselves in Star Wars, and those people are not white men.

I can only speak from my own experience. I've not had to deal with that many hardships when it comes to seeing myself on screen. But shit, when the new She-Ra came out and I saw a cartoon character with dark blonde hair, I lost it! I was so excited to see a blonde, that actually had the same colour hair as me, instead of your typical bleach-blonde princess!

How much more excited do you think people of colour get when they finally see themselves represented on screen? People with disabilities? People in the LGBTQ+ community?

They deserve representation too.

[minimckee]

Needless to say, I didn't take the cruel words from my now ex-friend very well...

Maybe now that I've written them all down they'll stop swimming around in my head?

Edit: click to see the small words better cos Tumblr hates quality apparently?

[minimckee]

I Turn 20 Today

I never really thought I'd make it this far, but I'm glad that I did. Despite everything that's happened to me, everything I'm going through, I've never felt so loved and supported in my life. I have so many good people in my life, and I'm so grateful.

So today, I've decided I'm gonna do my absolute best to have a good day. Yeah, it's cloudy and yeah, my emotions have been non-existant at best lately, but damn it! I deserve a nice birthday!

So thank you to all the wonderful, beautiful, caring, loving people in my life right now. Thanks to my parents for trying their best. We fight, but I know you love me in the end. Thanks to my little brother who shares memes and insults with me. Thanks to my boyfriend, who turns up at my house to eat my food and steal my Wi-Fi and who loves me no matter what mood I'm in. Thanks to all my friends who listen patiently to me and support me whenever everything is too much to carry alone.

And, running the risk at being lame, thanks to the creators who have helped me get to this point. There have been days when I've had no hope, where I didn't think I'd get this old cos I thought I'd give up along the way. But, on those days, I always had one of your videos to turn to and help me smile again, even for only 15 minutes. It was enough to keep me going. Is still enough to keep me going. So to @thatsthat24 and @amazingphil and @danielhowell , thank you so much. I hope you see this, if only to know how many more people than I who can resonate with this message. How many more people you've helped to remember how to smile.

So yeah, I'm in my 20s! I can't wait to see what challenges and growth the next 10 years bring! Hopefully a few more smiles 😊

[minimckee]

I was doing some sketching to practice my posing, and somehow it turned into Virgil? I edited it to make it purple, and I figured I'd share it here, cos why not? It's not, like, a full blown drawing, but it does fit pretty nicely as a phone background, so that's cool 😊

But yeah, Virgil on the phone, leaning moodily against the wall. It's up to you who he's calling, let me know what you think! And, of course, click/tap the image for better quality!