ignore that i just said i hate my writing im sad again
there are nights where michael kaiser fears he can’t do anything but hold you through the night.
you refuse to sleep. like some nightmare will catch up to you.
you refuse to eat. like you’ll throw it all up.
you refuse to drink. like you’ll drown in one glass of water.
you refuse to get out of bed. like the world will swallow you alive.
to put it simply, you’ve been rotting away for days and nights, now. mentally and physically, you’re stuck in the same spot.
you can cry, but no tears come out. just overthinking and dry retching. everything and nothing at the same time.
and michael wants to help, he really does. but what can he even do?
you find comfort in solitude. everything sets you off; you may not get mad physically, but he can tell it bothers you. so he tries to play his cards right and do as you say, even when its as little as one word.
lately, he’s been by your side more often.
he used to be able to go to practice and text you to check in, but he’s been leaving late in the mornings, and coming home early.
today, however, he had to be at practice early.
as he slips out of your shared bed, you weakly reach for his wrist, peeking out from under the covers.
“five more minutes?”
and he can’t help but smile a little.
the most you’ve said to him in maybe two weeks. not a demand, not a one-word answer; just a request. an innocent request that means you want him around.
“all day, schatz,” he carefully lays back down, opening his arms to bring you closer. “if you’d like, that is.”
you nod slightly, slowly shuffling to lay in his embrace.
solitude may bring you solace, but sometimes, the best cure to loneliness is to be with someone you love.
he was raised with someone that made his home into a hell, love into violence, and never a place of that he could call home— that is until he met you.
“mihya, you’re tense.” your fingers stroked the tattoo on his neck, attempting to calm him down. “your eyes is shifting.” kaiser’s eyes gazed it’s way to you and focused.
“are you okay?” your hand moved from his neck to his chin, holding it so that he kept looking at you. “yeah.” he muttered and held you by your waist.
“are you sure? it’s supposed to be our happiest day.” a small smile took over his face and his lips came in contact with your forehead, “i’m sure.”
“oh wait.. don’t tell me you’re nervous!” he lets out an unbelievable scoff, “i’m not nervous.” as he denied that accusation, a small place of him is nervous.
he’s scared of what to come, he’s scared he’s gonna end up like his father. that the trauma of his childhood will lead them to—
“mihya,” the same hand stroked the same spot once more. “you’re not gonna be like him.” the words from your lips left him speechless. “we are not gonna be like them.”
it felt like the whole moment stopped, it felt like this was more than the vows. a silent moment with the two without anyone watching, just two heartbeats that beats with one another.
“i promise i won’t ever leave you.” your words tugged on his heartstrings, and while he won’t say it— he would burn this world if ever anything tries to steal you away from him.
and so while the concept of home was never taught to him, the concept of love was learnt by him who thought that nobody could fill the hole that he didn’t even know existed.
to him, that felt more home than home could ever be.
some things are just meant to be. he hated you. he hated the way you stood up for yourself. he hated the way your voice sounded, even as it blessed his ears. (something in your voice was so warm, so comforting —he hated that feeling of being in a safe home when he had never known what a healthy family looked like.)
he hated the way people always appreciated you, always saying the nicest things when he knew you weren’t perfect. he hated the way you always watched his team’s training. he hated when you ran onto the field to hug your boyfriend —alexis ness— telling him how good he was. he hated the way you praised ness when he was a hundred million times better than that little guy.
kaiser loathed the way your voice turned so high-pitched and kind when you talked to ness, while he got the same tone as everyone else. wasn’t he worth a little kindness? wasn’t he worthy of your friendship? of course not. how could kaiser ever befriend someone like you? someone he hated and yet, still fell in love with.
he could never be friends with someone who went around telling everyone how well ness played. it wasn’t about ness. it was about you and him. why didn’t you praise him for how good of a listener he was? he never saw you talk that much with ness —didn’t that count for something? he was pretty sure the fact that you always confided in him meant something.
it was kaiser’s fault. he wasn’t able to love you the way you deserved.
“she doesn’t want me.” he always scoffed, repeating it to himself whenever he saw you in the stands, screaming ness’s name.
so what was the point of letting you into his life? what was the point of you reading his mind like an open book? what was the point of you knowing so much about him, when even ness —who had known him longer— didn’t acknowledge that much about kaiser?
you helped kaiser be himself. that’s why he fell in love. because you never —not once— told him how much of a dick he was for mistreating your boyfriend on the football field. he fell because you always seemed to rise above your arguments, always understanding the way he felt, the way he thought, the way he acted. you were the person he needed, the person he wanted, the person who could stay by his side as he heals from his past.
so why were you with someone else?
kaiser hated you before he even loved you. that’s why.
he fucked everything up.
he could never worship you the way ness did. he knew how much you loved each other —you didn’t want him.
kaiser couldn’t even put into words how much of a good presence you were in his life. he didn’t deserve you.
his destiny was to watch you be happily in love with his friend.
“i am, mein liebling,” kaiser replies with a heavy breath, his eyes narrowing. he’s on the edge, annoyed with how the supposed calm conversation was going. “you know i have better things to do, and this conversation is clearly not going anywhere.”
“you can’t just—“
too late. he’s already left. once again, leaving you short.
you knew that engaging in a romantic relationship with thee michael kaiser wasn’t all sunshine and roses, but you certainly didn’t think it would steer in this unwanted direction so soon.
“i don’t what to do,” you heaved a heavy breath, letting your arms fall to the table and resting your head against them. “it’s like—he doesn’t even want to talk or even see me.”
the food your friend, hyouma made you had been long forgotten in front of you. it was a bad habit of yours to play with your food, and you were sure that your parents would’ve had you by your ear if they were to find out, but now you really—truly—can't help but to just stare at your food with a dejected frown as you prod at the cold meal with your utensil.
“and you’re still letting him get away with it?” he asks, his brows furrowed.
“it’s not like i can do anything, hyou. i tried everything.”
“you tried everything?”
there was a thoughtful pause, and the suspense is unbearable to you.
“did it ever occur to you that maybe he would actually put in the effort of communicating when you’re the person he actually wanted?”
that’s when you felt droplets of liquid against your cheeks. you were crying. since when?
the question was meant to come with good intentions, and you knew that, but the realization of it actually fitting in your situation just hits you like a sudden startle of crashing waves hitting your body all at once—tipping you off your balance.
“yeah,” you answer, pitifully attempting to wipe away your stray tears. hyouma hands you a tissue, and you accept it with a thankful, weak nod.
“yeah i did.”
if only loving michael kaiser came easy, then maybe you wouldn’t be in your room tonight, staring at the dimly lit screen of your phone, re-reading the message you’re about to send him. tear-stained cheeks, puffy eyes from the relentless crying, a hoarse throat that you find hard to swallow, and a heavy heart knowing what’s to come.
loving someone isn’t all sunshine and rainbows, but it wasn’t supposed to make you question your worth in the relationship, too. it wasn’t supposed to tear your heart into two and leave you to yourself in such a vulnerable position in a negative light.
if only it came easy, then you wouldn’t be breaking up with michael kaiser through messages.
OMG IM FROTHING AT THE MOUTH FOR FAKE PT.2 I LOVED PT 1 SM I LOVE YOU SM EHEHEH
𝐅𝐀𝐊𝐄 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 ─ when the reader receives hate ! pt 1
includes: reo mikage, michael kaiser, isagi yoichi
warnings: gn!reader, they/them prns in kaiser + isagi, 2k+ wc for reo, 1.6k for kaiser and 1k for isagi, ooc!characters, borderline panic attack in reo's, hate and negative comments, happy endings for all, let me know if i'm missing any warnings, bad wriitng LOL
a/n: ask and u shall receive ! bro why is the cover image so low quality i can't be assed to fix it - ANYWAYS ENJOY ANON !!!
MIKAGE REO:
if there’s one thing reo is used to, it’s the amount of eyes constantly surveying his every move. there is not one aspect of his life that hasn’t been intruded by the amount of aristocratic families wondering how he’s doing. reo’s quite fed up with it himself.
but of course, if there’s one thing dating reo mikage entails, it’s having those same eyes scrutinising your every move even harder- a fact you accepted before he asked you to be his. a fact you were starting to get used to.
despite all the glamourised smiles and ambiguous compliments of your relationship, there will always be some who aren’t afraid to voice their opinions.
which, is how you got stuck talking to some ceo’s daughter at a gala you were attending as reo’s plus one.
“i’m not trying to be mean or anything, just honest,” she says with a particular slice of her hands, flaunting her expensive nails and jewellery. “but i don’t think you’re right for reo, and i know i am not the only one who thinks that! don’t you think it’s time you stop hogging him and y’know, return him to those who really deserve him?”
something disgusting churns within you at the way she talks of your boyfriend, as if he were some goal; a fish in a sea of hungry fishermen. the statement makes you feel violated, you can’t imagine how reo would feel being talked about like this for his entire life.
“and who might that be?” you counter, trying your best to remain calm and not give in to the storm within you.
she flares her nostrils, narrowing her perfectly painted eyes. “look around. take a good glance at the competition.”
“i won’t do that because there is no competition. reo chose me, whether you like it or not,” you firmly place your drink down on the table beside you before pointedly showing her the beautiful promise ring, encrusted with diamonds that reo himself placed on your finger. “besides, if there even was a competition in the first place, i’m afraid you’re all much too late.”
with a final sneer, she turns around with a pointed flick of her healthy, smooth hair before walking away, classy and expensive as ever.
just like everyone around you.
you, on the other hand, find it hard to breathe, and the luxurious fabric of your even more luxurious outfit is clinging to your body. before you even know it, you’re making a run for the exit, slipping past crowds of people and ignoring their looks of curiosity.
no one would bother to look too long anyways.
you should be proud of how you managed to remain level-headed during that interaction, but you can’t help but give in to her manipulative tactics. you did take a good look of the competition and they all looked like millions upon millions of dollars. they have had their life plan sorted from the very moment of their birth, their destiny handed to them of a silver platter, and although you know to look beyond the materialism and gold, it’s hard to ignore it when you’re surrounded by marble walls and crystal chandeliers.
suddenly feeling like an imposter, you just want to hop in a cab and go home.
bolting through expansive halls with decorative arches and doors to match, you’re almost at the parking lot where the chauffeurs awaited, just a flight of stairs await your descent.
it’s not until a hand catches your wrist that you stop.
turning around, you find no comfort in the familiarity of reo’s face which was laced with concern and worry. he’s panting, a thin layer of sweat coating his skin, and his hair was all over his face. was he chasing after you?
“y/n! where are you going?” the purple-haired asks, eyebrows furrowing even more as he notices the distressed state you’re in. he grabs both your hands, manoeuvring you to look him square in the eyes. except, it’s so difficult, you’re looking everywhere but at him. “i was calling your name the entire time, did you not hear me?”
“reo, please, leave me alone,” you request with a shaky voice, trying to get out of his grip with no success.
“i can’t, not when you’re like this,” he protests, “deep breaths, y/n, come back to me.”
a few moments of silence pass by, allowing you to return to your senses as reo holds your hands against his heart, stroking your skin with his thumb. no longer overwhelmed and suffocated by your thoughts, it’s hard to look your boyfriend in the eye, cowering away from his gaze.
“what’s the matter?” he asks gently, pressing a hand against your cheek delicately. it’s warm. you want to melt into him.
“it’s- i, i had a really- you know what, nevermind,” you murmur, shaking your head, turning your back against reo as you pull your hands away from his.
you miss the expression of heartbreak that appears on his pretty face.
your cold actions don’t deter him. instead, it makes him more determined to stay by your side, chasing after you even as you descend down the stairs. since your shoes were a lot more complicated than his, the soccer player catches up to you quickly to guide you by the small of your back as he mirrors your pace.
“i want to go home,” you mutter to him once you’re on the ground, trying your best not to collapse under the gaze of so many, surrounded by butlers and chauffeurs.
he nods with a gentle gaze. “let’s go home then.”
his kindness is not enough to shield you from the scrutiny that bears into you. “no, reo, you should stay, i’ll just catch a taxi home or something.”
he looks at you in pure astonishment, slightly taken back by your weird attitude.
“but i don’t want to. why would i want to stay if you’re not?” asks the purple-haired.
opting to remain silent rather than answer, you try to walk towards the main road of the highway, only to be cut off by reo shoving himself in front of you.
“and why would i let you take a cab home?” your purple-haired lover questions, placing both of his hands on his cheeks so you can finally look him in the eye. “y/n, what’s going on? something happened, didn’t it?”
taking both of his hands away from your face, you take a step away; once again missing the look of astonishment and heartbreak that appears on reo’s face. “nothing happened,” you say stubbornly, rubbing your hands against your arms.
“i don’t want to go home if you’re like this, can we please just talk for a little?” he remains behind you, getting the hint that you don’t want to be provoked or touched in any way, even if it’s killing him. the soccer player’s fingers itch with the need to embrace and trace every part of you that you’ll allow, but, for the sake of your fragile state, he doesn’t.
with a small exhale, you agree. it would be unfair for you to leave reo in the dark, continually brushing off his genuine kindness due to some chick that got in your head.
he leads you towards the gardens nearby which were dimly lit, yet still very beautiful. spring was in full season, so you could only catch glimpses of the beautiful flora that aligned the path, but there was no denying that it was still breathtaking. reo walks beside you, synchronising his footsteps with yours.
eventually, you arrive at a fountain in the middle of the garden. where you take a seat on its marble ledge, reo whispers ‘one second’ to you before running off to the bushes where the red roses were. he returns quickly, jogging back to you with a singular flower in his hands.
“for you, my love,” he declares with a small smile, bowing with an extended hand, expecting you to take his gift.
you readily do, heart warming at his silliness whilst twirling the rose in your fingers. “thank you,” you reply, pressing a kiss to his cheek when he places his hand next to you so he can lean against the fountain for support.
the promise ring you wear on your finger feels heavier than usual, especially when he smiles fondly at you, a lovesick expression on his face that is no doubt mirrored by you.
but looking at him, you can’t help but recall the stinging reality that he lived in a world of glamour, decadence, and allure; only doubled by the fame that came with his life as a pro-soccer player. you love reo with your whole being, really, sometimes you fear that your feelings might be a little too much, but loving him with a materialistic barrier in between is difficult.
the idea of letting him go than stealing him away from the world of mystique feels suddenly a lot kinder.
“reo,” you begin after a few minutes of simply being in each other’s presence. he looks at you with widened eyes and raised eyebrows, directing 100% of his attention towards you. with a deep inhale, you continue.
“do you ever think that… we’re not, meant to be?”
the silence is deafening.
“what do you mean?” he asks with a small stutter of disbelief, “of course we’re meant to be! you’re the one for me- you’re my soulmate!”
usually, when reo says that, it makes your insides gush and flutter, but now it riddles you with guilt and scepticism. “how can you be so sure?”
“y/n,” he sounds so very desperate. reo’s eyes have always been the window to his soul and seeing the way they shine with tears, your chest clenches with an unpleasant feeling. “why are you doubting my love for you?”
his hand goes to your ring finger, playing with the jewellery that you suddenly feel like you don’t deserve.
“you agreed, remember? you agreed to letting me love you forever and loving me in return. i put this ring on you because it’s always going to be you, no matter what circumstance, i’ll always choose you.”
“but is choosing me the right decision?”
“yes, a thousand times yes, there will never be. anyone. but. you.” reo increases the amount of emphasis he puts into each word, now changing his position so that he stood in front of you, caging you with his build. “can you tell me what happened, beautiful? because something clearly did and soured my gorgeous y/n’s mood.”
the sudden onslaught of compliments, mixed with how close reo was, broke down your resolve easily, crumbling at his feet as you gave in to his gentle demands.
“i met an unpleasant someone who told me i should give you up for people who deserve you more,” you whisper, throwing your arms around his neck, a gesture of equal affection and possessiveness.
he hums, seemingly calm but you know better. the furrow of his eyebrows was one of scrutiny and distaste. you’re glad he’s trying to remain subtle, you’ve had enough of emotional responses for one night.
“and who might this unpleasant someone be?”
“i have no idea. she gave me a name but it went in one ear then out the other.”
pressing his face into the junction where your neck and shoulder meet, the soccer player revels at this chance to be close to you.
“it was probably important though,” you reiterate, “and, well, might be able to benefit you a lot better than i ever can.”
he scoffs into your skin, causing you to shiver. “no one’s name is as important as mine, my love, and no one can boost it more than what it’s already worth. if anything, those who have me gets the boost, i’m already the best.”
his (rightfully deserved) cockiness makes you smile ever so slightly as you punch his shoulder. “are you implying i’m a gold digger?”
“well, you didn’t choose me, did you?” asks reo with a raise of his eyebrow. “i begged you to go on a date with me and you only agreed the fourth time i asked.”
the recollection makes a giggle slip past your lips- a sound reo dearly missed as he admires your beauty in the dim lighting of the gardens. he places a fleeting kiss on your neck before looking up at you.
“of course, everyone else won’t know that and assume,” you point out before leaning in towards his lips, unable to resist him much longer.
“who cares?” he mutters against you before melting against you in a gentle kiss filled with love, reassurance, and promises. “they’re all irrelevant anyways, just a bunch of talkers with nothing to back up their words.”
“then what am i?”
“you’re my future. you’re the one that actually cares about me, more than my money or my soccer skills. remember the first day we met and you told me to get out of the way? back in college?”
“well you were blocking my path. i was running late to my class as well.”
reo chuckles, pulling away from you so there was a little distance between your faces. “never thought i’d want someone so bad just because they didn’t know who i was.”
“then show me,” you say with a little challenge in your tone. “screw the gala, take me home, reo.”
“thought you’d never ask.”
MICHAEL KAISER:
“kaiser gets it in! a miracle shot, just what you’d expect from bastard münchen’s genius striker!” the announcer exclaims as the crowd shoots up in excitement, roaring and buzzing with excitement as the members of germany’s football team all swarm around the blond, cheering and celebrating.
kaiser participates in the hype, fist bumping his teammates before running back to position, but not without sparing a look at the screen that was displaying the match. no one misses the kiss he blows in the direction of the camera and although the stadium is filled with squeals (from boys, girls, grown ups and children alike), you know something they don’t.
right before the match, kaiser made you promise that each goal of his equated to ten kisses, a deal that you readily accepted and bumped up to twenty as a way of motivating him to take the game home.
that kiss he blew was just a way of solidifying that he was thinking of you and the wink he sent straight after was just making sure you’d keep your promise.
you can’t help but feel like the luckiest person in the world with him.
as the match progresses, you can tell it’s going to be an easy victory, with all favours towards your lover’s team - kaiser earning another two himself.
it’s almost scary just how effortlessly he dominates, settling the score at 3-1 for bastard münchen, once again making feats you thought were difficult look effortless. as the whistle blew announcing the end of the game, roars fill the stadium once again and you too, jump up with the crowd to cheer as loudly as you can.
repping his jersey with his name on the back, it just feels too good, especially when you bask in the afterglow of a well deserved victory.
you don’t miss the amount of glances kaiser sends your way, antsy to be able to reach you and spend some time with you because he’d rather have you congratulate him than a bunch of old, white men that just want to sponsor him. they can get in line because you’re his top priority.
you hope he sees you and the heart you make with your arms over your head just for him.
dawdling out of the stadium always takes forever because of the amount of people that always come to see his game so when over half the people have cleared out, you make your way down to the front row, where your soccer genius boyfriend was waiting for you.
“you were incredible, my love,” you say as a greeting, wrapping your arms around him in a tight hug, one that he readily returns. you don’t really care that he was sweaty, too overwhelmed by how proud of him you were.
not that your opinions really mattered in the grand scheme of things, but kaiser considered it a great lucky charm, one he holds highly.
“as always,” he mutters, pressing a kiss against your cheek. you giggle at the sensation, smiling widely as he continues. “tell me more about how amazing i was.”
rolling your eyes at his arrogance, you decide to indulge him, just a little. “the best out there, greatest soccer player of all time, and you looked so handsome too, my main character,” you pinch his cheek. “done?”
“not at all,” keens kaiser, smiling at you like a cat.
“get your stuff first and then when we’re home, i’m all yours.”
“i’m holding you to your promise, pretty, that’s sixty kisses from you.”
with a final kiss on the forehead as farewell, you bid him goodbye and watch as he runs off to get changed, joining ness who was waiting for him by the exit. the magenta-haired soccer player waves at you from halfway across the field, a gesture you readily return before turning around to go outside.
passing by the security guards who give you a little nod of acknowledgement, you’re relieved to see that the audience that gathered tonight had gone off into their cars, ready to go home for the night.
you’re about to go around to where the players exit so kaiser wouldn’t swarmed by a flurry of fans and reporters, until you’re stopped by a hand on the shoulder. the grip wasn’t strong, but demanding enough for you to turn around and greet whoever wanted to talk to you.
it was a pair of teenage girls. they were well-dressed and pampered, but the look they were giving you was less than friendly. somehow, you already knew where this conversation was going.
“can i help you?” you ask, flashing them a smile.
one of them eyes you up and down, judgement very clear in her eyes. you cringe a little. “are you kaiser’s partner?” she asks.
you nod in affirmation. you hate the sleazy feeling developing in your gut, expanding due to the scrutiny of their gazes. one of the girls nudge the other one in an ‘i told you so’ manner, which is returned with a smirk that is mischievous in kind.
“do you need something from me?” you question, finally letting your astoundment show on your face. really, you just wanted to walk away from this conversation and find kaiser so you could go home.
“yeah, we’re just wondering why, y’know, that he’d choose you.”
“excuse me?”
“like don’t get us wrong, you’re pretty and all, but we just think that you’re kinda bland for him,” one of them states as the other hums in agreement.
the audacity. you furrow your eyebrows and stand your ground.
“okay, cool. what do you suggest i do then since you seem to be experts in my relationship.”
“break up with him, duh?”
“and let one of you date him instead?” you scoff. “fat chance.”
“just give him up, okay? we could love kaiser more than you probably ever could, clout chaser.”
“gold digger!”
now amused more than frustrated, you bite back the laugh that bubbles in your chest. it was entertaining seeing some sixteen year old girls try to tell you that you and your boyfriend (of two years) shouldn’t be together.
being kaiser’s partner had its downsides sometimes, and it was mostly just the hate you receive for ‘stealing’ him off the market, especially since he was so young, some fans didn’t appreciate that he wasn’t an eligible bachelor. but, you’re used to it. so long as you get to watch him in the spotlight, you don’t really mind the darkness.
you sigh, crossing your arms over your chest. “right… are we done here? because this ‘gold digger’ wants to see their partner and congratulate him.”
“what part aren’t you understanding?” one of them asks before the other one completes the sentence. “you and kaiser just don’t look good together!”
before you could answer, a heavy arm drapes itself over your shoulders. “aww, why not?” a familiar voice asks. the two girls in front of you freeze, panic evident on their faces. “what disturbances held you up from seeing me?”
then you see and hear an overload of flashes and camera clicks. kaiser must’ve caught the paparazzi on his way out and you suddenly remember that you left him waiting, feeling slightly guilty when you turn your head to meet his gaze. you wrap your arms around his torso, happier than ever to feel his warmth against your own.
“what happened here?” kaiser asks, a question directed at you and you only.
“they were just telling me that they didn’t like that i was a main role in your theatre,” you say, earning an eyebrow raise from your genius boyfriend. “how should we fix that?”
he hums for a moment, meeting the widened eyes of his fans.
“kick them out,” he simply declares before turning around with you still in his arms. you two pass by paparazzi, paying them little mind except from the small smiles you send their way.
once you’re in a clearer, quieter area, your boyfriend turns to you and embraces you properly, a gesture you return eagerly as he breathes you in.
“what a way to sour such a good victory,” murmurs kaiser, voice muffled by his jersey that you were wearing. “can’t believe i had to play your knight in shining armour instead of the king that i am.”
you pinch his neck which causes him to flinch with a little shriek. always leave it to you to dumb down his narcissism.
“i was handling it myself pretty well, y’know,” you sigh, “being the michael kaiser’s partner, i’ve grown immune to the hate i receive.”
kaiser frowns, “i didn’t think it happened often,” he whispers. “i’m sorry. how many times have you had to defend yourself without me knowing?”
“it hardly matters-”
“-but it does. i don’t like when people slander you, less when it’s for no reason other than because you’re with me. you should be marvelled at and admired, just like the masterpiece you are.”
his words cause butterflies to erupt in your stomach, a feeling you mask with a playful eye roll.
“yes but,” you counter, reaching to cup his cheek, “being with you makes up for it.”
he smirks, contrasting the downhearted expression he wore moments earlier. kaiser’s skill of immediately recovering from whatever kicks him down truly is something to behold and at times, envy. “of course it does,” he boasts, dramatically flipping one of his bangs.
“besides, i’m willing to fight back if it means i get to be with you.”
before he can argue back, you grab his arm and pull him towards the entrance.
“now come on, let’s talk about it another day. i believe i owe you sixty kisses.”
“make it one hundred now for leaving me waiting for so long.”
“if you get too greedy i’ll leave you on the sidewalk.”
“you’d do that to your king? how dare you!”
ISAGI YOICHI:
“what does your mum like?” you ask a clueless isagi who simply stares at the range of perfumes that the department store had displayed.
“i have no idea,” he mutters. “i never really paid attention to what smells she used.”
“fragrances, yoichi, not smells.”
“oh. right,” the star soccer player rubs his neck awkwardly, smiling sheepishly at you after correcting his small mistake.
he was so adorable, you wanted to pinch his cheeks.
this was the first time that isagi was buying a gift for his mother with his own money, and the first person he turned to for help was his partner: you, explaining that this had to be the best gift she’s ever received. for how much she’s done for him, and how much she’s supported his soccer career, isagi doesn’t know if he can repay it through money, but gifts are hard to deny regardless.
readily agreeing to help, you have memories of isagi’s mother welcoming you into the family with warm arms. she would tell you how beautiful you are, how excited she was to meet you, and that her son better treat you well otherwise you could always turn to her for help; a statement that made the star striker gulp.
“i mean, you could never go wrong with a few classics like carolina herrera, dior, or chanel?” you suggest, walking over to the section filled with perfumes contained in shelves, their respective brands displayed on top. isagi follows you like a lost puppy, clinging close to your side by holding your hand, squeezing it ever so often.
everything you’re saying is going in one ear and through the other, and isagi lets it show on his face.
“don’t worry yoichi, any perfume you pick tends to be a good gift regardless, besides, we have the whole day to figure out what your mum likes,” you reason logically, just in case it might provide him with some relief in the midst of expensive, designer fragrances.
“right,” he huffs, reaching out to read the labels of some bottles.
after a long hunt of going through the shelves, he eventually settles on a fragrance from maison francis (with a pricetag that made you gawk yet isagi was very calm about, agreeing without even thinking about it), but since the packaged version was locked in a glass cabinet, you opted to call a store attendant.
“that’s a great idea, babe, need me to go with you?” he asks, readjusting the strap of his beat-up bag, the one he’s had since high school. funny how some things don’t change for isagi, you love that about him.
you shake your head in response, telling him to ‘wait here’ before strolling off.
however, during this brief time of being without you, isagi was approached by a trio who looked like they were a family, the eldest holding a phone between his hand.
“isagi yoichi?” he asks timidly, fiddling with the phone.
the soccer player flashes a friendly smile, hoping to reduce any of the anxiety they might feel from approaching him. he was just an average, friendly guy after all. “that’s me, need anything?”
“can we take a picture?” the middle daughter asks, pressing her hands together in a pleading motion.
“of course! come on.”
the set of siblings smile eagerly before ambling to isagi’s side, who squats down so he could fit in frame. after a ‘3, 2, 1’ countdown, the photo is taken and just as the dark-haired athlete was about to stand up, a store attendant approaches.
“would you like me to take the picture?” they ask politely, gesturing to the phone.
simultaneously, everyone agrees and soon enough, the photo is taken and done, allowing isagi to high-five them before waving them off, the three of them thanking him profusely for his time.
the store attendant lingers, turning to face him with wide eyes of admiration. “wow, i didn’t think i’d ever get to meet you!” they exclaim. “i watched your match against the under-20 team like so long ago! you were amazing!”
“oh, yeah,” isagi chuckles, flustered at all this recognition, even though he’s been getting more and more of it lately, “thank you for your support.”
although he inwardly cringes at the line that he’s reused over and over again, the store helper thinks nothing of it, beaming back at him. “you’re super cute too, do you think i could get your number?”
isagi lets his shock show on his face before blurting out: “no, i have a partner already.”
the attendant’s face drops into a look of disappointment and the striker wants to run off to find you. you never should have left him alone.
“what a shame. the person that you were just with right?” isagi nods. “don’t know what you think is so special about them, i personally think you’re too good for them and should find someone better, but, it’s not up to me.”
isagi feels his vision zero in, growing red with each word. him? too good for you? what irony.
“excuse me?” he vocalised lowly- practically a growl as he eyes the employee down. “i’m giving you three seconds to get out of my sight before i-.”
he’s too preoccupied with the fury he feels to notice the way the attendant squeaks, eyes laced with fear, before scurrying off mid-sentence, fully intimidated by the striker. isagi sighs, slumping his shoulders. he’s never used that tone to anyone outside of soccer in an attempt of pre-game slander and now he just misses you.
where did you run off to?
right on queue, you materialise beside him, huffing with a pout on your face. “i couldn’t find any store attendants, that’s so weird! where’d they go?”
deciding against telling you that he just scared one away for trashing you, he simply leans his body weight on you, sighing when you embrace him tightly so he wouldn’t knock the both of you over.
“whoa, what’s gotten into you all of a sudden?” you ask, unable to hide the smile on your face from his sudden acts of affection. “everything okay, love?”
“i want to go home,” he whispers against your shoulder. “spend some time with you.”
“what about the gift?”
“i’ll order it online. it can arrive in time.”
relenting, you pluck him off you with great effort. “if you’re sure then, okay, let’s go home.”
“we can get takeout from your favourite on the way home.”
“what’s the occasion?”
“thought i needed to show you how much i appreciate you.”
the two of you just could never seem to stay away from each other
“c’mon, baby,” kaiser’s voice filters through the door, sweet and lilting as he speaks to you, “don’t be like this. ‘m here to apologize.”
“fuck off.”
you can barely hear kaiser’s laugh through the door and the sound of him knocking again. “baby, don’t you wanna see what i got you?”
you pause. just as you were about to walk away from the door and resolve to ignore kaiser for the rest of the day, he does what he does best—sinks his claws into you.
from the moment you’ve met him, you and kaiser have circled each other like planets in orbit. never was there a moment when you weren’t on his lap at a party or he was at your side when you called for him. as if magnetized to him, you tried to be as close as possible. alike as you were, even magnets push away from each other.
pulling open the door, kaiser is standing in front of you in a plain pair of jeans and a white t-shirt. there’s golden rings dotting his fingers and the thin white gold chain hangs around his neck as it always does. his tattoo peeks through his shirt and there’s a cocky smile on his lips, infuriating enough it almost makes you shut the door in his face again.
almost.
“are those roses?” the question comes out unbelieving.
for all the times the two of you have argued, kaiser has never bought you flowers. usually you’d ignore each other for a few days before one of you would end up texting each other again.
kaiser’s smirk turns sweet and he nods, holding the hand out that’s occupied with flowers. there’s a bit of a shake in his hand, and you think you can see him shifting from side to side, almost nervous. but you can’t be right, because kaiser has never shown you a side of him that wasn’t overconfident, conceited or even downright unbearable. he was practically made of walls, never letting them down for anything.
“can we go back to how things were now?” his tone is mildly pleading and you purse your lips as you take the flowers from his outstretched hand. “i miss you.”
“missing my birthday was fucked up.” you furrow your brow and cross your arms across your chest, as if trying to keep your emotions from spilling out to him. inviting kaiser to a small birthday celebration was hard for you, and for him to not even text you ‘happy birthday’ and miss the party was just a slap across the face.
he sighs, free hand now pushing his hair from his face. “i fucked up, baby, and i’m sorry. i’ll be better and it’ll never happen again. let me make it up to you.”
if you had a nickel for every time he said he’d change, you’d be rich beyond words—and if he had a nickel for every time you took him back, he’d be just as rich.
holding out your arms for a hug, you sigh softly as he envelops you. his scent is just as piercing as the day you met him and you bury your face in his shoulder.
“i missed you.” he murmurs it against your hair, and you know he means it.
there was no you without kaiser and there was no kaiser without you. it didn’t matter what he did or what he promised, at the end of the day, you ended up in each others arms.
pairing: (prince) micheal kaiser x (servant) female reader
❏ warning: emperor au, slight angst, and not proofread
❏ word count: 344
These past couple of nights have been exhausting as he relives the same night terrors. There he is standing in a pool with no visibility of its ground underneath. Within seconds the darkness is pulling him in, consuming his being. No matter how loud he cries for help, no one is there to save him. And it just sets in the reality of his life because of his title. He’s the crown prince, he has many enemies and little to no trustworthy people by his side. Except one, you. Once he fully submerges into the depths of hell, he wakes up. His breath weighted, eyes scanning his bedroom to quickly check that he was awake. Uncomfortable with the thought of going back to sleep, he heads to his comfort place.
This was dangerous, to roam the paths of each quarter without a guard but he couldn't give a crap. He enters the servant quarters to your room to see you soundly asleep. He didn't want to wake up, so instead he held your hand as he laid his head into his arm. If only he could be free from all his burden, this life. His thoughts stopped as he felt you held his hand back. Safety washed over him, he just feels whole when he’s around you. You’re the light that burns away the walls of reality.
Little by little he drifted away and to his own amazement had a goodnight of sleep even though he slept sitting on the cold stone ground rather than in his soft bed. It was a shocker to see Kaiser by your bedside holding your hand. “Good morning, Sleepyhead.” He smirked wondering if he could just move you to his quarters instead? “Say, why don't we have a nice chat with the head maid to see what arrangements can be made for you to live in my quarters.” Silence. Were you still dreaming? Or did you somehow misheard him? Either one would be a good conclusion cause there was nothing that would have warranted this out of nowhere.
