#kian rambles

[toybox-collective]

Questions for others with DID/OSDD:

Is it wrong of me to wish I wasn't the host sometimes?

Or wish that my brain would finally send me into the headspace for a few months?

Is it okay to feel useless as the host?

I feel like I could just relax in the headspace for like..a month and be like totally fine coming back out to front without stress.

There are other alters that are way more prepared to deal with stress than I am, and yet I have to bear it before they can take it from me.

If one of my gatekeepers were to come up for an extended period of time they would have everything so well put together.

[okiankeno]

That deadman shower scene... I could feel sam's uncomfort from the screen

[torturedmendept]

ok i love jodie and don't want her to go any time soon but like also petition for jameela jamil to be the next doctor please

[okiankeno]

felt pretty cute today, idk

[torturedmendept]

my past few days have been a downward spiral

- i booked a flight to london!!!! yay

- but i didn't get my confirmation email

- then someone hacked my bank account and playstation network details to buy a thousand dollars worth of games

- still didn't get my confirmation email

- had to call bank, get card canceled, & file police report

- sony has the shittest customer support i've ever seen.

- my playstation network account got banned because of everything the person has done, but since sony is shit i can't get into contact with them until tomorrow to fix it. it's been a whole weekend

- i got my confirmation email!!!

- but then i also got some woman from newcastle's confirmation email too??? with literally all of her information in it????? her name is vera & i emailed her about it

- still have to get ahold of sony to tell them about everything. 6am monday morning couldn't come fast enough.

conclusion: sony customer support sucks. british airways confirmation email system sucks. people are shit. i have no money to spend while i'm in london now, but hey at least i'm going????? maybe i'll see catherine tate or david tennant and i'll forget all of my troubles because i'll be floored by love

[torturedmendept]

YEE [gay panic] HAW

[torturedmendept]

i could look at gifs of catherine tate from big school all day and be completely and utterly satisfied

[torturedmendept]

me before arachnids in the uk: i guess yaz and ryan would be cute /////:

me now: MY LITTLE GAY HEART IS SOARING FUCKIN BYE RYAN THIRTEEN IS HERE THEY ARE GAY AND SHE IS STAYING