Dj and you said that.. I'm not John Vickys jealous She won't be She has everything She's going To Rollins with a full ride She is beautiful She has the perfect life I enjoyed living with her Girls suck.. But she never sucked She gave me Shit But none of it Bothered me I wanted to fix I wanted to progress I wanted to take her to car shows I wanted her to talk shit with my friends about my friends I wanted her life to be my life I need it.. I can't be this way Chris I have nothing I lost my best friend, my dog, and her That was my time My car sits I focused on real life things I wanted to step away from the car scene to see if life was fun And it was.. It was perfect I realized I learned That was when I learned.. She knew it She trusted me Things were well I let it slip. I dropped the past... I made mistakes That a highschool would do Because it was my first real relationship.. I love her I get it I'm 21 I'm okay lookingb But touching somebody else Nothing.. Nothing's is her She fit into me.. Idc if I sound crazy I get it I'm 21 and stupid "No one will understand me" But I know It's real I don't think about drinking and being 21 I think about the future How to collect the pieces and move forward I don't waste my time I use it It's my time I used it on her.. I took her time But she's in highschool, her success is outside a schooling system..
I feel stupid I can't talk to her I want her to see this I want her to see my emotions But I can't show her
We met up with Dj And I was scared She's so scary She's so high up in regards I fear her hand Her power. But now She's found someone else But now She doesn't wanna talk to me But now she has friends who hate me Who protect her feelings And banish me to make it really come true But now she blocked Dj But now Is it.. I can't..
I built her.. She loves the cigarettes I love Because I used to say cowboy killers She wears the shoes I bought her She wears my shirts religiously She's so perfect She use to wear mom jeans I loved it She would do anything I asked Maybe with attitude But there's no fun without She use kiss like me She use to put her hair down and she'd cut it but damn I loved every bit of her hair She's beauty's She did things that I never asked She did things I csnt even say She was And is my everything..
chris-The thing is what can you do at this point be real . Keep chasing her and where will that get you ?
Idk.. Idk her limit Idk Mine And I'll go to mine for her. Dude I love her to the moon and back She was my best friend She hates when I say that now But just because I don't verbalized my feelings Didn't mean I have them I learned What I should've gave her with this She told me to wait And I fuckdd it up I fucked it all up I wanna show her I wanna show her Who I can be I have growing to do I want to do it with her Idc if she goes to Rollins And I don't see her I don't care if me going to school effects it I wanna drown down at work I wanna give her the time I have I want to help her Every need Idc if I don't get some biological homework I'll figure it out with her I wanna study With her I wanna experience problems I wanna help her in an accident I wanna help her with worrying about class I wanna help her move out And I wanna move out But I get it if it's not together I wanna show her I'm a man I wanna save money And make her happy I wanna make plans For the future I get it Marriage is stupid Idea But I'm speaking in real terms In real life scenario This could happen I've been planning I've been fixing and healing to hope one day We'd be so strong together Power couple I wanna show her I wanna send this to her I wanna bore her with my voice I wanna speak up And show her who I am I want her to not just know me inside and out But really know me I want her to call me out for secret farting I want her to ask me not to burp in her face I want her to be my only I want her to be the last I don't want anything else Nothing Nothing st all Will make me feel the way she did The way she actually made me smile Eating pizza at her job Eating shitty Chinese Or even trying ale house to find out It's not that good in take out I wanna hang out with her and her friends I wanna see the preppy highschool keisha I wanna see the keisha that wasn't so cool around me But funky outside of me I want her And I need her Chris I wish I could've told her this I wish she knew I wish she understood How I feel I wish I didn't do what I did. I wish keisha was still mine.. My parents miss her My sister cried for her My family Felt family with her My niece! Dude my Fukien niece The one that doesn't chill with me often THAT ONE. Likes keisha Keeps asking where she is She use to play in my room with her She use to watch her For fun She saw me in my niece she saw kindness in my niece and keisha was brushcred beautiful around her.
She plays with puppies
She volunteers at the shelter
Who VOLUNTEERS
at the shelter for fun the one
Person I fucking love to death
The nicest
Most kindest person
Alive
The one who floats like a butterfly
And kisses like me
I miss her
I need her To be honest Friends help But nothing fills the void Chris And it sucks If you want me to be real Nothing will be the same And I have to get use to being this way This is jonny without a girl. Through highschool I was that kid who wrote poems and didn't talk to anyone I went from that to This moment in time And at this point I can't handle this because I'm not prepared I'm not ready Nor use to being this way With what I have I know what I have But this is the stupid part of me, But what I have Was nothing in comparison to her That's why I'd give up so much All she would have to do is ask She never asked much.. Though
