Most of the time, it's not even in a sexual way. More so in a you're still here, alive and with him sort of way. He's lost almost everyone important to him so he's afraid he's going to wake up one day and you'll be gone.
At first, he was hesitant to touch you because he knows you weren't big on it unless it was while the two of you were having sex. But one day, you noticed he was struggling with something and when you asked him what was wrong, he laid it all out for you.
"Sometimes, I worry if you're actually here with me or if I'm imagining it."
So that's when you told him if he ever starts to question it, to touch you no matter where the two of you are.
At the market while you're buying fresh produce and flowers, Levi's hand is on the small of your back.
On a walk in the late evening, letting the chilly air pull you closer to him so Levi could wrap his arm around you.
While the two of you are laying on the couch together, both of you reading your books, his legs are across your lap and your running your fingers up and down his ankle.
In the kitchen as you're making dinner, Levi is right there helping you, all the while his hand brushes across yours as he reaches over you to grab something.
During morning teatime when you're sitting on the outdoor chair swing, his head in your lap, as you run your fingers through his hair.
In bed, when both of you are asleep, he knows you don't like to be touched at all because you run warm while you sleep. So he gently brushes his feet against yours.
When he wakes up in the morning, the first thing he does is pull back the blankets you insist on sleeping underneath to make sure you're still there. He'll brush a finger over your cheek and feel the tightness around his heart lessen as your snoring fills the air.
Every time he feels your skin on his, your warmth filing him, Levi knows that you're there and nothing will ever change that.
A month…a month is how long it took for Levi to break.
‘You know where to find me.’
You’ve stood outside his office time and time again, hand raised to knock, but your nerves and the fear of many unpredictable outcomes have stopped you each time.
‘Did he actually mean what he said?’
Opting to turn around with your tail tucked between your aching legs every time.
You think you’ve been inconspicuous, unseen, but Levi knows. Every time he sees a shadow creeping beneath his office door, he knows it’s you.
He straightens up in his seat, his eyes locking on to your shadow through the crack of the door, holding his breath as he waits in anticipation. Waiting for you to seek him out.
Disappointment filling him every time as he watches you retreat, exhaling as he goes back to his paperwork.
He wouldn’t ever admit this to you but he’s thought about that mission, the night you two shared a tent, coming back and taking you in the showers. He’s touched himself over and over to the thought of having you again.
He wants you again.
Did you not want him?
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“Can we please buy more food?!” Sasha bellowed as the trio walked down the busy roads of Trost, Mikasa flicked her finger onto Sasha’s forehead after her sleeve was pulled on for too long.
“Captains orders were to stick to the list,” Mikasa dryly replied, “I’m not getting in trouble for you….again,” face turning into a menacing glare as she looked over her shoulder at Sasha.
Sasha whined into your shoulder dramatically, you stifle a snicker and rub her shoulder lovingly.
The Levi squad was tasked with a supply run while visiting Trost, their commanding officer dealing with something else pressing.
Sasha’s stomach couldn’t take it any longer as she moped around, perking up as a half-baked idea pinged off the walls of her brain.
Sasha side eyes you as you were leaning over a crate of peaches, inspecting them thoroughly, “Soooo…,” Sasha dragged out as she leaned towards your ear, gaining your attention and also a swat of annoyance.
You raised a brow at her, unimpressed, “What is it now, Sasha?” You could sense the trouble radiating off of her.
She drops dramatically down to her knees, pulling at the hem of your uniform, as her voice comes out rushed“pleaseaskthecaptainifwecangetabitetoeatbeforeweleave,yourehisfavoriteandwemightactuallythinkhehasacrushonyoubecauseofhowniceheistoyouandimreallyhungryandjustwanttoeatsomegoodfoodbeforewehavetogobacktoeatingdryriceandwatersoup?!”
Sasha’s voice carried on for miles it seemed like, your eyes wide and cheeks turning furious as you feel the eyes of hundreds that have all stopped to watch the dramatics.
Mikasa exhaled in frustration, eyes locking with yours, “Do it before she implodes. I don’t want to deal with her on the way back,” her eyes relaxing a bit in comfort, “And shortie is nicer to you compared to us and the others,” her eyes gleaming with tease and happiness, a small smirk forming as she looks at you.
Your cheeks kept the flame that arose, sighing while slapping Sasha’s greedy fingers away from you, “Sasha, I’ll ask him if you promise to never embarrass us like that again,” you step away from her as she fell face first from losing her balance, turning to the Ackerman, “Mikasa, don’t be ridiculous, he treats me just the same as you guys.”
Mikasa huffs in amusement, deciding to not comment, “He should be heading back by now, you’ll probably catch him before the crowd if you head that way now,” she winks as she held out the pouch of coins you three were given for today’s shopping trip, “Take this, to prove we didn’t spend it all and we can actually grab that bite to eat, we’ll meet up with the boys.”
You parted ways, Sasha screaming she loves you, your hand raising to shoot a middle finger in her direction without looking at her.
You sighed as you tried to pull yourself together. Sasha’s and Mikasa’s comments flustering you as they ring out in your head.
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You walked hastily at first, your anxiety getting the best of you, thoughts running a mile a minute before you forced yourself to stop walking and breathe. A shop you stopped by caught your attention once you calmed down, looking into the small window.
Your gaze was held on a few tea tins stacked on a table, some looked to be a high brand tea, a certain someone popping into your mind. As if he ever left.
You were so intently looking inside that you didn’t notice a man coming up right beside you.
“Hey-y! I’m Alan, I couldn’t help but notice your beauty from way over there,” you side eye an average height, blonde, brown eyed merchant, gesturing to a small stand behind him with his thumb. Alan had walked all the way from the other side of the market after seeing you walk past his stand in a hurry, starstruck by how pretty you were.
“Oh- uhm, thank you?”
He wasn’t bad looking, just…not your type, ya know?
His smile was almost a bit too wide, it made you feel a little uncomfortable, “Are you from around here?” He eyed your uniform, “The scouts huh? A beautiful woman like you?”
You quirked an eyebrow at his statement, sexist much?, “What’s that suppose–”
“Would you want to go on a da–" no
“Oi.”
You jumped back and began to swivel to attention, ears nearly flickering at the familiar commanding voice drilled into you.
“Captain-”
Levi’s hand shot out to your bicep, firm, interrupting not only you but your movements. You tense at the contact, not expecting him to touch you so openly.
“Relax,” his voice was cutting, direct, but soft, “What are you doing here? Where are the others?”
Levi’s stared deep into your eyes as he held onto your arm, eyes questioning but you swear you see a hint of something else as he looks at you. His eyes dart away from yours for only a second, sizing up the male just behind you.
Your brain short circuits for a moment…or two, “I-I…,” his eyebrow raised, his lip flickering up for only a moment, “The others are hungry…they sent me-”
“Sorry, do you already have her hand?” The blonde cut you off, with a timid and pitiful smile, he didn’t see a ring on your lovely hand.
Levi’s eyes cut deep into his, the blonde flinched at how cut throat they looked, “What’s it to you,” not a question, a statement, a challenge. His tone was unimpressed but held an underlying message. Back off.
He also didn’t deny it.
Alan sheepishly laughs, rubbing the back of his neck, “I just-,” he trails off as he looks to you, for help? Pity? Who knows.
“You just what?” Levi taunts almost, his grip still on you, unyielding…protective.
“I just thought–"
“Do you? Think?” Eyes taunting as he speaks to the merchant, “Seems to be challenging for you.” He then fully pulls you towards him, putting more distance between you and the man.
Alan tried to speak one more time but came up short with something to say, so he took that as his cue to turn around and leave with what little dignity he had left.
You were a bit flustered, not from that scene, but from how close Levi was to you. You were a bit amused by his actions but his steel blue eyes and godly overwhelming scent caused you to lose half your brains in that moment.
Black tea with a hint of mint and lemon filled every crevice of your nose, the feeling of his fingers still wrapped around your bicep sending waves of heat through your body.
He then turns you towards him, eyeing your flushed cheeks, you involuntarily pressed your thighs together as his eyes poured right into yours.
“What were you looking at?” He questioned you. You didn’t know he had seen you way before he approached you, watching you from afar.
“Huh?” You dumbly replied, shifting in place as you tried to reel in your thoughts.
Levi nods towards the store you were just looking into before that merchant started bothering you, “See something you like?”
You fumble with your words,” oh- no no, I was…just looking sir-,” you extend the coin purse out to him, “Besides the others are hungry and want to grab a bite-"
Levi took the regiments money bag away from you and replaced it with his own money, “Go,” his hand pushes you by your waist, “Grab whatever you were eyeing and meet us at the tavern, I’ll make sure your food is ordered.”
“But..sir!-"
“That’s an order,” He calls out, walking away from you with a sigh, his own blush forming across the top of his cheeks out of your sight.
‘Maybe spending money on you will give you a hint…’
and give you a reason to see him tonight.
Your eyes wide in confusion, you stand there for a minute before hesitantly walking inside. You make a beeline to the tea instantly, picking up a few different tins before deciding on one you know the captain would like.
You pay for the tin and stash it in your coat, along with the captains money, and head towards the tavern.
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“Yes Sasha, I’m going to eat my roll,” you plainly said, Sasha smacking her forehead against the table in misery, you roll your eyes at her blubbery and sigh, “Here,” you toss half of your roll to her, which she inhales immediately.
“Sasha,” Sasha’s head perks up in fear as she heard the captain say her name, “Stop begging for food before I put you on stable duty for the rest of the week,” a tea cup covered his mouth as he spoke but his eyes were sharp with annoyance, he pushed his tray in your direction, his roll being the only thing left, “Eat.”
You swallowed the half of your own roll, “I’m okay Cap-"
“Eat,” Levi states again, his eyes flicking to yours sharply, not taking no as an answer. Your breath catches as his foot kicks against yours discreetly, gently nudging it.
The others watched in silence, most trying to contain their laughter at Sasha’s sulking figure…others Armin and somehow Connie eyeing the stoic man as his eyes never leave yours, not so oblivious to the two of you.
Connie couldn’t help his dumb ass mouth from saying what everyone was thinking, “Just fuck already!”
Silence.
Then…
“We already have,” Levi states while standing, eyes not leaving yours, then shamelessly adding, “Twice,” gasps and choked sounds come from your comrades. He grabbed his tray, his roll being placed on your own, “Finish up, we’re heading back soon.” Levi leaves before another word is uttered.
Shit. 
That’s one way to get your attention…
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You tried your best to dodge any detailed questions the squad had for you once you all were out of the captain’s sight.
Mikasa and Sasha cornered you after fighting the boys away, demanding details and complaints about how you didn’t tell them. You explained everything to them and had them swear them and the rest of your squad wouldn’t say a peep.
You curse Levi out a bit in your head for outing you to them, why would he do that? Does he not care if they know?
You didn’t expect that from him of all people…you would expect he wouldn’t want what the two of you did together be put out on display.
So here you are, right outside his door, cheeks flushed with embarrassment and unease as you force yourself to knock.
“Come in,” you hear, so you open his door and walk in, shutting the door swiftly behind you.
You turn..
Levi looked at you as if he was already expecting you, his desk cleared of everything, elbows propped up onto his desk and hands folded over his mouth as he stared.
You both stay like that for a while, staring each other down, daring the other to say something first.
Your chest heaved as your breathing started to get heavy under his stare, you were the first to break, “Why?”
He clicked his tongue before sitting back in his chair, a moment passes before he responds, “A month.”
Your eyebrows furrow, confusion written all over your face, you open your mouth to speak but were quickly cut off, “I’ve watched you walk away from my door more times than Connie and Sasha can both count,” he dryly jests, tilting his head at you as he continues, “Why is that?”
He waits for your response, watching as you shift in your spot, mouth opening and closing as your cheeks flush. His mouth waters at the sight of you, he had you in his office flustered, stumbling and blushing, yet he thinks you’re the most stunning thing he’s ever laid eyes on.
“I..I was,” you start, stumbling over your words, he made you oh so nervous and jittery when he stared at you like that, “I was going t-to,” you stutter, “But-"
“But?” Levi cut in, fingers tapping against his arm rest as he tried to wait for you to finish, his own nerves getting the best of him.
Your tongue was tied, you didn’t know what to do...what he wanted…what this was. Where was the line? How far could you cross until it’s too much for him?
You inhale shakily, trying to ground yourself under his intense stare, “Why would you out us to the squad?” your eyes flicker to the floor, embarrassed, “Now they all know-, and you just don’t care-? What happens now? What-"
“Come here,” he interrupted your rambling, fingers wagging at you to come to him. Levi has never been good with words…but that doesn’t mean he couldn’t show you.
Your body moved as if it had a mind of its own and made your way over to him. His eyes follow your figure as you come to the front of his desk, his head shaking instantly, a finger motioning you around his desk.
You swallow thickly as you round his desk slowly, his chair turning and shifting as he spreads his slutty little legs apart.
Your eyes give you away as you take him in, his head tilts up to you, head cocking to the side as he waits for you to finish. You eye the growing bulge in his pants, eyes flickering up to his, cheeks crimson.
Levi stands, the air between you grows thick with suspense, he reaches out to grip the opening of your jacket. Pulling you towards him and then pushing you to sit on the edge of his desk.
The sound of his money bag clinking against metal, inside your jacket, fills the silence.
Your hands shoot to his, cold meeting hot, fingers rubbing against each other. He steps even closer, caressing your fingers with his own as he moves them to your inner pocket, gathering the items from inside.
Levi eyes the tin as he sets the bag in his desk drawer, shifting it to read the label, “This is what you bought?” His eyes flicker up to meet yours.
You swallow, nodding meekly, “Yes…”
His gaze intensified at your answer, “Why?”
Say it.
He sets the tin down beside your hip, sighing as he presses into you, his head dipping down to meet yours, “You bought this for me.” It was obvious.
You gave another meek nod, “Yes.”
A moment passes before he exhaled the word, “Idiot,” then pressing his lips to yours, hands coming to cup your face as he pressed you harder against the desk.
The kiss started off slow, testing, sweet even. You could feel his body shudder under your palms as he exhaled a sigh at your touch.
It grew with heat as you both slowly started to melt, his tongue eagerly slipping into your mouth. Hands finding their way down to your hips, Levi then lifts you to fully sit on his desk, stepping in between your legs to press himself against you.
You gasp at the feeling of him, his hand wrapping around your throat to keep your mouth on his, back arching to press further into his touch.
“Should’ve done this sooner,” Levi murmured between kisses, “Deprived me of this for a month,” a few tongue swipes and he gently bites down on your bottom lip, pulling slightly as his hands yank your jacket off.
You’re disheveled form shakes in anticipation, eyes hooded, “Cap-"
“None of that,” Levi states, hand coming to pull your head back by your hair, “You’ll call me by my name when I’m making you cum tonight, am I clear?”
You nod.
His eyes darkened, “Words,” the word sending shivers down your spine as you recall your first time together.
“Yes,” your voice clear, wanting, hands wandering shyly up his abdomen.
Levi hopes you fully understand what he was saying, he didn’t think he could be any more clear…giving you his life savings money, outing your situationship relationship, wanting you to call him by his name, kissing you.
His eyes roam over your face, taking you in, before capturing your lips with his again. Mouth shifting down your jaw, to your neck, soft kisses and gentle sucks placed upon your skin as he unbuttoned your blouse.
You exhale shakily, fingers twisting into the fabric of his shirt, neck extending to give him more access, “Lev-,” a gasp over taking you as he bites down and presses his hips into yours with a small hum.
Levi takes his time, undresses you slowly, not even touching his own clothing before he gets you down to your panties. He rises as he dropped your pants to the floor, hands crossing over his body to lift his shirt up and over his head, too rushed to care about the fabric.
He sinks to his knees in front of you, hands spreading over the back of your thighs as he spreads them while pushing up, opening you up for him.
Your body leans back at the position, thighs quivering as you tried to not let your nerves get the best of you.
You feel his fingers grip your underwear, “Relax,” he kissed your inner thighs as he pulled down the thin fabric, tossing it over his shoulder.
Levi rubbed your entrance with his thumb as he looked up at you, tongue swirling around your clit, humming against the skin as you gasp and jerk your core against his face.
His thumb leaves your entrance to plunge his tongue into it instead, flicking rapidly, hands holding your hips down as you try to buck.
Mouth falling open into a whine, thighs trying to squeeze closed, Levi moves his face side to side while pushing against your legs. Your fingers drag into his dark hair, curling your fingers into the strands.
Levi eats your pussy as if he was starved but also like he was trying to teach you something, a punishment maybe.
Working you up just to pull back before you reached your peek, starting all over again.
You panted as you approached yet another orgasm, begging he doesn’t stop, “Please please please-"
Levi hums, a smirk evident on his face, “You want to cum?”
Breathy pants as you squeeze your eyes shut, “Fuuuc- yes!” Hips jolting when he sucked down on your clit.
His eyes locking onto yours, “Say my name,” his fingers sliding into your soaked entrance, sliding in and out, coaxing your orgasm out of you, “Cum.”
You whine his name loudly as you came, evidence of your orgasm on his tongue as he licked you clean.
Wiping his mouth as he stands, he pulls your legs around his waist and bends down towards your awaiting mouth. You’re able to taste yourself on his tongue as he kisses you, his right hand straying from your body to unbuckle his belt.
Levi pressed one of your legs to the desk, hoisting your other leg in the air and pushing it up by your calf, your legs positioned in an L shape.
His pants fall, kicking them to the side as he steps out of them, boxers along with them. His hard length standing tall and angry, twitching with desire.
His red, bulged tip nudged your entrance. Hips tilting in response, you shift forward trying to sink your heat onto him, impatiently.
He chuckled in response, sinking down into you in a deep, slow thrust that had your back arched off his desk.
“Levi!”
He groans, “Yeah,” hips moving against yours in steady thrusts, hands holding your ankles in place as he moves, “I know baby, missed this pussy too.”
Levi speeds up, getting desperate as your core pulses around him, he folds over you as he pants. Skin on skin echoing in his small office, grunts and gasps shared between the two of you.
You were a moaning wreck, you were sure anyone on this floor heard what you two were up to, but neither of you cared.
Your core pulsed and sucked around him rapidly as your orgasm neared, “I-I’m-"
“I can feel you sucking me in,” Levi rasps out, hips stuttering at the feeling, “Come on. Give it to me.” A demand.
He snaps his hips down harder, his cock brushing your g-spot every thrust, forcing a messy climax from you. Levi’s edging made you ten times more sensitive, which turned out to be Levi’s undoing.
Watching you squirt around him, screaming his name, nearly brought him to his knees. He saw stars as he came inside you, a throaty groan ripped from his throat, hips a stuttering mess.
He lets your leg fall to his waist, leaning over you to press his lips to yours, hips still gently moving.
You can feel his length twitching inside of you, still hard, he breaks the kiss to travel to your ear, “Don’t think I’m done with you just yet,” smirking as he feels you clench around him, “You still have an entire month to make up for.”
Without disconnecting, Levi makes sure your arms and legs were wrapped around him before pulling you off the desk, carrying you to a side door connected to his office.
Inside was a small bedroom with an adjacent bathroom. A bed, one side table, and a closet. Perfectly spotless of course. Try hard.
Levi walks the both of you inside, closing the door behind him, and laying you both on the bed.
His mouth latches on to yours as soon as your back connects with the bed, hands intertwining with yours above your head. Slow, passionate thrusts, rocking his body with yours.
“Shit,” Levi swore against your mouth, hips stuttering, slamming down against you as if he was irritated at his reaction to your wet heat, “S’good baby,” he mumbled as he drops his face down into your neck, your core a wet overstimulated mess, he picks up his pace when he hears you helplessly moan into the side of his neck.
Levi has your legs pushed to your chest as soon as he feels your walls start sucking and pulling him in, mounting you in a mean mating press like he has something to prove.
Levi groaned as you squirt again, hoisting himself up with one hand to shamelessly watch, hips moving greedily.
“Lev-, ohh-,” your moans drawl out, back arched, head thrown back. His teeth nip at your exposed throat, groaning into your skin as he pushed his cock in deep, releasing another load inside of you.
Gentle, sweet kisses were shared before Levi gently slipped out of you, heading for the bathroom and turning the light on, he slipped in and came back out seconds later. A cloth in hand, silently and gently cleaning you up.
Levi dressed you in one of his shirts, kissing your cheeks softly as he lays you both down, “Sleep,” you hear as the duvet is pulled over the both of you, eyes heavy.
As if you would leave…he’s made himself quite clear after all.
