#like he doesnt.. understand... hes not lgbt and its not...

[angel---eater]

this is where my tfem/agender egg dirk theory comes from btw

they want each other's gender soooooo fuckin bad. thank you pesterquest for doing one additional good thing and giving us hints towards roxy's dysphoria and gender envy directed at dirk. roxy and dirk quite literally want to be each other. roxy's ahead of him in Meat rn lol dirk catch tf up

[mintaikkcorpse]

When your mom says she has to go through your phone but you have a lot of stuff there questioning your gender, talking shit about her, like a gazillion art references, random memes saves, NSFW art refs, audio of you ranting to the Void, audio of you practicing terrible voice acting, thirsting over fictional characters, documents full of suicidal ideation, honestly so much shit that I'm not sharing here:

[tenshindon]

I don't think your wording is bad at all! It's realy nice to see that you're so open to outside perspectives on the matter, and it definitely makes it feel more comfortable to talk to you about it 😊 But yeah, being anything but cis and trying to find someone to date can be exhausting if the other person isn't lgbtq+ themselves, or at the very least open minded about dating someone who is, and after being with the same person for more than a decade and having things get broken off... Man, how do you even recover from that? Spending so many years together thinking you've found someone that accepts you the way you are, someone that's actually going to stay, only to lose it all after all that time... I know Yamcha recovers and they stay on good terms, but in the moment? It's so easy to think "How am I ever going to find that again?" It really isn't as easy to find someone to be fully compatible with when you're not cis.

i'm glad i can be approachable about this kind of stuff- i really do want to be able to understand and know as much as i can!

but yeahyeah that exactly is what i understand; it's upsetting enough that a lover of nearly over a decade leaves you for another person, but it surely has to add an extra layer of anxiety and might make things worse i guess (if youre that kind of person- some people can bounce back easier than others, but for others it could just make things worse. in the case of yamcha it could have made things worse as he's never even seen or spoken of with another girl outside of the main cast again)

[taegi]

so i just fucked up BA D

[evil-woke]

quick pin post

about me: bert, over 25, he/they, agender & a trans man. you can figure out how that works in your head idc. i have a chronic disabling illness and a plethora of mental illnesses. your local government leech. i probably got c-ptsd but i dont got time for that. american.

this blog is my dumping ground for various angry hateful thoughts in my head. this is a whole diff tumblr acct to my main. i log on when i have things to say or feel pissed off. trying to debate me or call me out will probably just get you blocked because idrc.

mostly trans wank, but occasional other rambles.

i <3 trans men

opinions/faq/etc under the cut

abide by this or get blocked:

if you call trans women "men" "moids" "TiMs" etc, i am going to block you. trans women are women at the end of the day.

be polite. if you come at me yelling i am going to respond in kind.

im not a terf. i do not believe in radical feminism on just about all of its points. please learn the definition of words before using it as an insult.

suicide threats/baiting proves the point in a lot of my criticisms. also a random person online isnt going to drive me over the edge, so save your breath.

opinions™️:

queer is a slur. idc what you think or how you hear it used. if you try to gaslight me on my own fucking past and memories im going to attack. if you call it "the queer community" or refer to lgbt ppl as "queer people" im eradicating you with a moonbeam

for the astutely stupid: the above point does not mention self-identification. idc what you self identify as. it's putting the word on other people i beef with.

you gotta wanna transition in some way to be trans. idc if you pursue medical transition or are even in a position to transition at all. you gotta have the desire get away from your first gender and be perceived as something else

^ nonbinary is a real thing. grow up and expand your imagination. gender is a social performance at the end of the day and is primarily a tool to divide people.

idrc about contradictory labels if you actually put thought into it. sexuality and gender have complicated relationships w/ everyone. but if you call yourself some shit like "boydyke girlfag" you come off as putting in no thought and are spitting buzzwords lol

i am not using it/its for a living human being

i dont think nondysphoric trans ppl exist tbh. i think you guys just havent IDed your dysphoria yet

transandrophobia/whatever you wanna call it is real and a very big problem. exorsexism is real and a very big problem.

tma/tme are useless. everyone can be affected by transmisogyny.

i have no respect for trans women sry ✌️ seeing "transfeminists" on this site has turned me bitter and evil and hateful. im an unironic transmisogynist atp and i dont rly care

transfeminism is not a legit movement anymore. it's become a hate movement entirely co-opted by radfems. actual feminism is awesome and based.

trans radfems are terfs. they are excluding trans men and usually nb ppl from their radical feminism

ppl afab will always be more oppressed than ppl amab. die mad abt it. this is feminism 101.

gender socialisation is real too. we have at length discussions on how those seen as girls and those seen as boys are brought up different. finding out that you're trans doesnt automatically undo how you were taught to be.

pro-fic/pro-ship/whatever but you gotta understand that putting your thoughts in public makes it no longer a thought crime. that's out in the world now. yes that includes your constant posting about raping lolis. ppl are going to judge you for that. and yes this blog counts as public too, im not that much of a hypocrite.

cats >>>> dogs. i cant fucking stand dogs. theyre fucking ugly and gross and loud.

idk enough on the politics of the middle east or russia to form nuanced opinions but i will always hold the belief that genocide, murdering civilians, and war as a whole is Bad.

i honestly dont care about worldpol much anymore. i burnt myself out and my life is too much of a shitfest to be concerned with people across the ocean. maybe one day if im not constantly on the verge of homelessness.

FAQ:

"why is your icon a woman if youre a guy" columbina is a trans man to me. either you get it or you havent opened your mind.

"kill yourself" honest question: do you really think this will work? like what do you gain out of sending this. do you think i'll suddenly be shocked and snap out of it? or that some idiot online will push me into it? no. you just look like a loser.

"you're a transmisogynist and i hate you >:(" well i hate trans women so now what

"you are a terf" i do not believe in radical feminism, and also do not exclude trans men and nonbinary ppl from my feminism. i absolutely exclude trans women though, you're right.

"is this blog satire/a joke" no.

[dusknsunsetz]

actually obsessed with benitesco because benitesco has the potential of completely destroying what tedesco's view of the church itself is. i get that it's not such a popular ship in the fandom but it has so much potential its amazing. all this is coming from the point of view of someone who was born catholic, strayed from it, and is now catholic again.

i can completely imagine how tedesco's views start to sway from the moment benitez turns into innocentus. how could a man nobody knew of, who's alignment between liberal and conservative be so unknown, win the papacy? how could this random guy from kabul suddenly show up and win?????? it's ridiculous for tedesco.

innocentus, on the other hand, can understand why tedesco is so upset. he knows tedesco isnt upset because of his loss (maybe a little bit), but he also knows tedesco must be so confused with the outcome. after all, it never occured to innocentus that he could end up as pope.

i can see tedesco looking around, searching for some dirt on innocentus, but not being able to find any. a missionary, founder of a hospital, soft spoken, kind, nice, pretty-looking, everything tedesco isnt? what was he, some kind of saint?

one day, tedesco would schedule a meeting, and out of desperation, confess what hed been doing. he would confess how he's been praying for some dirt on innocentus, some sort of flaw that he could exploit.

innocentus, being himself, would trust tedesco. he would inform him of how he was born with ovaries, tried to resign once he found out, and how his predecessor didn't allow him to retire, but go forward and make him a cardinal. he knew tedesco wouldn't tell anyone.

because this sends tedesco spiraling. it baffles him, both the fact that the late pope allowed benitez to become a cardinal, and the fact that innocentus had such trust in the man he once deemed a rival. does he have no shame? no malice? is innocentus naive enough to trust tedesco, out of all people, with such an intimate secret? is he really so innocent?

tedesco's views spiral first. then his alignments. but never his faith.

this man had no focus on liberal nor conservative agendas. he could care less if the mass was done in latin, or spanish, or english, or italian. he wasnt focused on divorce, or abortion, or lgbt issues beyond what his faith commands of him. he was focused on feeding the poor, helping those marginalized communities.

this "innocentus" was a woke, socialist, open-border, peace-seeking, green technology, tree-hugging, good for nothing, liberal, intersex pope. that was his first impression.

but he couldn't help but see the face of Jesus in him. his actions, his words, his thoughts, his innocence. all Christ-like.

so he's like, maybe Christ doesnt care about politics. and when he thinks that, hes like "of course Christ doesnt care about politics!! hes literally Christ???"

tedesco sees so much of Christ in innocentus that it drives him crazy. after all, he is a man of faith. he seeks out more of innocentus, tries to get along with him, and so on. hes obsessed with innocentus.

they go from theological talks, to spiritual talks, to prayers together, to hugs, embraces here and there, the occasional kiss.

benitesco is my favorite dynamic in conclave.

[evanisgayy]

"I want buddie!" "worst ending ever! wheres buddie?"

i been watching this show since it came out. i was a kid who at a young age related to Buck in the best and worst ways. a kid who didn't understand being gay or trans yet who diddnt have control over the trauma family can cause.

911 and Buck have been one of the BIGGEST comforts and a comfort that hasnt left. yes i want buddie cus when i was a kid seeing TK and buck joke around hell moving on to lone star and seeing TK and Carlos and being able to see there the characters how its okay to be Trans its okay to date the same gender was one of the things that helped me.

911 helped me when i saw Buck Eddie and Chris and realized sometimes blood isn't thicker and i can find my own family even if im alone for a while.

when Buck finally figured out he was Bi/liked boys i didn't care that he kissed Tommy i diddnt care that it wasnt buddie what i saw was a man who helped me for years figure himself out in the same way he helped me figure myself out. Tommy was SUCH a huge part of everything i ever wanted for Buck.

so yeah you want buddie canon cus you love gay men i want Eddie to figure out he doesnt have to preform and to realize his feelings

I want Chris to be happy with his fathers (and kets be honest Bucks already his dad without any romantic feelings)

I want Theo (who again was such a huge thing for Buck) to see how his dad can grow

over all i dont want them to rush into something. i want them to find themself in the same way these characters helpped so many LGBT youth find themself.

im 18 going on 19 and i have never felt more seen then i do with Eddies and Bucks character development

[wszczebrzyszynie]

sorry if it is a sore subject, but i read your tags about some sort of issue with skizz's moderators, and was curious what you were talking about? i hadnt heard about anything since im more of a casual fan

well i too am a casual fan to be honest i only recently went back to watching streams to destress a bit. which needless to say bit me in the ass here. two of his mods are actively posting bigoted content on their socialmedia (which they are somewhat (?) trying to "take back" on the queer topics, but dont even bother on the racism and their general support for trump and the like. i personally dont believe their change of heart either and even if, it does not change the fact that Skizz hired them before whatever things they posted after being found out) Skizz follows them on there so well i mean its stupid to think he has no idea. they are pretty open about it. which is really well interesting i suppose considering he claimed "hate is not tolerated in his community and never will" and that its "intended to be a safe space" (screenshot of the full statement* below).

(*you can find it under this video; it was made in reponse to criticism he faced for refusing to say "trans rights" on stream after a donation asked him to, which i have my opinions on i share below if youre interested, but what is important here to remember is that on the stream vod before this one he has been happily making jokes with his openly bisexual friends (Gem and Lizzie) in good faith about pride and LGBT topics, not worrying about being "polarizing", "political" or anything of this sort. i understand things are different between friends and between a streamer and a viewer, but also, as a trans person myself, think its still rather strange on its own, and with the context of his mods, i dont think his community is any way as safe as he claims to be)

first things first i think the statement itself is just generally embarrasing to post as an adult person. its immature, is ideologically just a repeat of the original reason why he doesnt want to say "trans rights" on screen but with more words and affirmations about his support to the community that cant help but feel empty when you see the kind of people he hired to moderate said community. And even though i dont think that hes obligated to say anything on stream no matter how much people pay him, the way he went about it is precisely what he said it is - he doesnt want people (transphobes in his audience, and his mod(s), that he hired) to feel uncomfortable by him saying he supports trans people live on stream. it really isnt hard to say "i support transgender/LGBT people, but i dont want people to tell me what to do/pay me to say things on stream, so dont do it" if that is actually what you mean.

i understand hes a white, middle aged cishet man, and i dont expect him or anyone on hermitcraft to be god knows how educated on different issues, but i also dont think you need to be educated to recognize that hiring people who are openly anti immigrant, hate people of colour, queer people and muslims, doesnt fit with your "no hate allowed" and "safe space" policies. i saw some people in the community try to blame this on whatever political climate is in america right now and excuse him by saying its just how it is and well as someone living in a place much more hostile to queer people i dont understand how this makes any difference and find the general excuses some of his fans come up with rather telling too. at the end of the day its not a tragedy, its just a matter of finding a different entertainer who doesnt hire openly hateful people to moderate your "safe" community. someone in the comments under the vod i linked put it well. "If you create a space thats inclusive to wolves and sheep you will only be left with wolves." Though from my personal point of view i cant lie and say it didnt sour the way i view HC and other projects he is in as a whole