You arent behind and you are going to be okay.
💥💥 TW for slight mentions of suicide
My first semester of freshman year I had straight A's, even in advanced math. I was in band and marching band the summer before I was a preschool teacher aid doing college art classes and ofc marching band, I continued all of this my first semester.
My second semester I got sick, I was constantly throwing up and in serve pain. this is also when my mental health dropped. No one believed my pain and I even tried to take my own life. My grades dropped to F,s and D's there was maybe one or two C's but i was failing and all I felt was behind. 
The summer I got worse. I missed so much marching band I had to quit, I quit all my band classes to not go down that hallway I loved playing I loved the people and I quit cus I was puking so much.
I did less than 2 months of my sophomore year before I started having panic attacks just walking into the school.
What was my 'sophomore year' I spent in bed. My family got worse during this time and I tried to end it again, it almost worked.
I felt behind. I was 15/16 with no social life feeling like I was going to puke when asked "hows school going?"
My junior year I changed highschools, helped stop the panic attacks. I was in a program to help my graduate in 1-2 years so early or on time. I felt behind i was a junior in some sophomore classes and I still didn't allow myself to return to their band.
Still no one believed my mental health or my physical health.
I went to this school for a week before leaving again. I felt behind and I wanted to die I was still puking and nearly passing out I wanted to scream in the crowds. I was still alone.
So I officially dropped out September of 2024. November I went and started to work on a GED. I did the tests but then I quit as that teacher told me it was my fault for needing a GED and still panicking with people around.
January of 2025 I developed hand tremors. Doctors finally listened to a degree.
I didn't work on my GED until November of 2025. I did 2 hours of work a week (bare minimum to be qualified to get a school laptop to be able to work online) between doctors vists.
From October of 2025 to April of 2026 I have had 3 surgeries, I have been diagnosed with EoE and still waiting to find the cause of my hand tremors and chronic pain. I have another surgery at the end of June/ early July with a MRI of my brain.
Finally after putting in 2 hours some weeks 10 another or going 3 weeks without doing any school work I have graduated, not only have I graduated I have gotten College levels in both Math and English.
Yeah I probably would have been class of 2025 if I worked on my GED that November.
But today I can say I graduated May 26, 2026 and I was never behind I went at my pace and it was perfect even if I didn't finish until 2027.
I hope my story can help someone out there breathe and know its okay, you are okay life doesn't need to be rushed.
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