"Guys, no. Let me. This is my fault, I need to fix this." Luther shoots you a glare from his position, "Like I'd let you anywhere near her after the mess you helped cause." He turns to Pogo, ignoring the wince you pull and the glare Klaus and Five shoot him, "I'll do it."
"I'm afraid, that's not possible, Dear boy. For either of you. Master Luther, your blood is more compatible with my own, and Master/Miss [Y/N], being from another universe, your blood has qualities that would make it incompatible with anyone else. You are, to put it simply...one of a kind."
In other words, if anything seriously bad ever happens to you...there's no guarantee that you could pull through. Oh. Well that's reassuring.
"Hey, don't sweat it, you guys. I can do it. I...I love needles!" Klaus sends you a small smile, and you try and smile back, but you just don't have the energy right now.
"Master Klaus, your blood is...well, not as polluted as it once was, but still too polluted for her." Pogo shakes his head.
"Move." Diego shoves past all of you and stands next to Grace. "I'll do it." You try to warn him about the needle, but by the time you say, "Diego, the needle!" He's already on the floor.
Ah, Diego. Pure of heart, but dumb of ass. Pogo sends a satisfied look Grace's way. "Stick him."
A few minutes pass while Five shuffles out and Klaus waits by the door. Luther is still standing over Allison and you can't help but keep pressure on her throat, you don't even notice Grace put her hand on your shoulder. "[Y/N], Dear? Its okay, You can let go now."
You look around the room. Luther sends you a half-hearted glare and Klaus' eyes are full of worry. Pogo can't even look at you in the eyes and Ben sends you sympathetic glances every now and again. "Right. Right." You mumble and release your hold on Allison’s neck. The blood trickles up again but it's slower and not as heavy as before, and you allow yourself to step backwards, subconsciously moving to Klaus. Luther takes your place and clutches Allison's hand like a lifeline.
"[Y/N]?" You turn at the sound of Grace's voice and the look of gratefulness she sends your way is staggering. It's times like these that make you forget she's actually an android created by Reginald. "You helped save her life. Thank you." but that thank you is more than that though. It's a thank you 'for bringing my daughter home without being in a body bag', 'Thank you for helping Klaus where I could not', 'Thank you for keeping Five as sane as you possibly can' and 'Thank you for being in their lives', all wrapped up in one serene smile.
throwing a tired smile her way, you let Klaus lead you out of the room. But wherever he had planned to lead you is thwarted as you pull away and make your way to his room.
You can't take this anymore. You don't want to feel anymore, you just. Want. To be. Numb.
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You barge into Klaus' room and begin to rip it apart, tearing things open, ripping open pillows, anything you can find. You aren't stupid, you know Klaus has a secret stash hidden somewhere he probably forgot about. And you plan on using it.
"[Y/N]? What are you doing?" Klaus and Ben both cautiously make their way into his room, Ben giving you an extremely worried look. You're normally the level headed one in the relationship, but you've had a...rough few days. To put it mildly. To see you going off the deep end like this is disconcerting. "Looking for drugs. What does it look like?" you grumble and scratch that we've gone way past disconcerting and jumped straight into horrifying.
"Are you kidding me?!" Ben exclaims. "Why would you want to do that?" Klaus asks.
"Oh, I don't know. Let's run down the list, shall we?" You refuse to look at either of them and continue searching. "Maybe because my knowledge got my sister-in-law seriously hurt, there's a serial killer who's obsessed with me dating my OTHER sister-in-law that I couldn't even do anything about, Said sister-in-law is gonna bring on the end of the world and I did fuck all to try and stop it, nobody but you two and MAYBE Five take me seriously, Luther more than likely hates me, I mean-oh, hell yeah!" You find a little stash of pills and cheer as you hold them up. Klaus moves to take them away and you hold them away from him.
Klaus watches you with worry, for once he doesn't even have the urge to join in. "That's not enough of a reason, [Y/N]! You're strong, you helped get Klaus sober, truly sober, why would you want to ruin that by turning into him?" Ignoring Klaus' undignified "Hey!" you turn to Ben with an unimpressed look. "Ben, in case it slipped your grasp, sobriety is severely overrated. I mean, look where it got me!"
"In a relationship with Klaus for one!" You stand up and storm over to Ben, rage in your eyes. "Ben, my entire life was a LIE! I WANT. TO. BE. NUMB." Ben just stares at you for a minute before scoffing. "You're a colossal wimp." He deadpans. "Oh, yeah, really?" You mock.
"Yeah, really! Hey!" Ben snaps his fingers in front of your face and you push them away. Nobody but Klaus seems to notice that. "Uh, guys...?"
"Life isn't supposed to be easy, Life is hard. Bad things happen. Good people die." You roll your eyes. "I'm tired of seeing you wallow in self-defeat. You're stronger than this!"
"Well then, avert your gaze." You don't care that Klaus was supposed to be the one saying these lines, you don't care that you've officially hit rock bottom, You don't even care that you don't even care! You just want to feel numb. Truly...properly...numb.
Sighing, Ben pleads with you one last time. "[Y/N] You are stronger than this. I know you are. Don't do this. Please."
You down at the little white pills sitting in your hands. It would be so easy...
"You're right. Of course you're right. I'm sorry. So sorry." Klaus and Ben sigh in relief and Klaus moves to hold you in his arms. "Thank you." Ben says and turns away for a split second.
"Sorry you fell for a cheap trick like that! HAHA!" You shove the pills in your mouth and before Klaus has a chance to say anything, Ben shoves him out of the way and punches you across the face, causing you to spit out the pills. You hold your cheek and stare up at him in shock.
"Dude." Klaus gasps. "You just Patrick Swazye'd them! How did you do that?"
"I-I didn't...I think that was both of you!" Ben counters and you look down at your hands and can see the trembling already start. You push away from them both and ran out of the room, hugging your arms to yourself to try and stop the panic attack from forming.
Oh god, what were you thinking?
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Klaus later finds you curled up on the couch in the living room, arms wrapped around your legs and just staring off into space. "Hey." He calls out, and you don't even have the willpower to look at him. "Hey." You quietly reply.
"I'm not going to be that kind of person and go "Are you okay?" Cause we both know that's a load of bullshit. Clearly, you aren't. Instead, I want to know how your feeling right now."
"I feel dead. I don't want to feel dead. I want to feel numb. But apparently, numbness is a luxury few can afford, and I happen to be poor as fuck." Klaus cringes at your words. Not...the response he was expecting, to be perfectly honest. "I wasn't aiming for a temporary numb." You continue, and Klaus glances over at you in shock. "What?"
"I...thinking on it now, I'm not proud of my actions. It was a lapse in judgement and self-control. But...I don't know. Something in me, it just snapped. I just wanted it to be over. Done. Poof. I thought...well, I guess that's the problem, wasn't it? I wasn't thinking." You smile ruefully and Klaus can see the dark circles beginning to form under your eyes. When was the last time you had slept properly? Or eaten? He moves to hold your head to his chest and you relax at the sound of his heartbeat in your ear. Klaus sighs and you feel his chest move with every breath.
"You've had problems pile up on you for days now, with no healthy way to cope. And anytime you tried to talk to someone that wasn't me, or Ben, or Five about it, they just threw blame around and made you feel like you were alone in this." Namely Luther but Klaus isn't naming names or anything. "But you're not. I'm here. Bens here. We're all here. And once we get the whole Apocalypse mess sorted, we're all going to sit down, and have a long ass discussion about your place in the family. I don't care if dad saw you as Number Eight. I don't care that you aren't from this universe, I don't care about any of that. I care about who you are right here, right now."
"And what am I?"
"Someone who could clearly use a nap, for one." Klaus jokes but then quickly grows serious. "My partner. My moon and stars. My little Universe hopper. The first person to ever take me properly seriously." Klaus begins to pepper kisses across your face. "The love of my life." A kiss on your cheeks. "My best friend." A kiss on the bridge of your nose. "Mein Grund zu existieren." A kiss on your lips. You smile and lean into the kiss and would have let him continue had you not heard two disgusted sounds coming from in front of you.
Looking up you see Diego fake gagging and Five shooting you both a disgusted look. "I know I was rooting for your relationship, and I think it's cute and all..." Diego remarks, "But I'm still not used to that."
"Is there a reason you two are here? Or did you just come to mock us?" Klaus demands. Five shoots you both a sarcastic smile. "I can do that any day of the week, and I certainly don't need Diego's help to do it."
"We're here cause the bastard that nearly killed our sister is still out there, with Vanya." Diego’s words cause you all to grow serious again, and you shoot Klaus a nervous look. Five nudges his head in Diego's direction. 'Tell him!' and you glare at him and nudge back. 'Tell him yourself!' Five sends you a glare that could melt steel and you can only sigh and lean into Klaus more. "Yeah, Diego, reverse that last part."
"What?"
"Vanya isn't with the attacker...Vanya IS the attacker."
Diego is silent for a moment. "You're shitting me." He deadpans.
"Nope. 'Fraid not. Vanya has powers, Di. Daddy deadest suppressed them for years and when she finally found out the truth...well..." Klaus can't bring himself to finish the sentence so you have to.
"Allison tried to rumor her so she could calm down. Vanya, she...lost control...and channeled her power through her violin bow and accidentally hurt Allison. It's not her fault though!" You defend. "She doesn't how to properly control her powers yet. Just like me!"
"Yeah, but you didn't cut anyone’s neck. You just have a big ass shield and can see the dead." Diego points out and you sink back into Klaus' arms, with him sending Diego a look of loathing. "Can you all for once, not make my universe hopper feel like the scum the of the earth?"
"And anyways Vanya isn't important." Fives words cause you all to look at him in shock.
"Hey, that's your sister. A little heartless even for you, Five." Diego sends Five a small glare and Five just shrugs.
"I'm not saying I don't care about her, but if the apocalypse happens today, she dies along with the other seven billion of us. Finding Harold Jenkins is our first priority. Afterwards we can talk to Vanya, and figure out how best to help her regain control in a safe environment."
Diego nods. "I agree, let's go." But you and Klaus stay where you are.
"You guys count us out." Klaus is blasé with his words, but the hidden meaning is there. If I only have 24 hours left, I'm spending them with the person I love.
And seeing as how your knowledge has done nothing but make things worse lately, you're half inclined to agree.
"I mean, you know, no offence, or whatever. It's just...I kind of feel like this is a lot of pressure for newly sober me, so..." The words "I'm scared to leave [y/n] after their botched suicide attempt" are left unsaid.
"You're both coming." Diego insists.
"No, No, No... I mean, I think we can all agree that our powers are extremely useless."
"Useless? [Y/N] can make a shield - " You interrupt Diego with a scoff. "Yeah, that I don't have full control over yet. Face it, we'd just be holding you guys back." Klaus is nodding along and Five just sends you an unimpressed look.
"Klaus, [Y/N], Get up."
You and Klaus look at each other, then back the Diego and Five. "You can't make us." you say in unison and in response Diego simply looks away and flings a knife. It lands in between yours and Klaus' legs and you gasp in shock. "Then again..." You begin.
"I suppose a little exercise couldn't hurt." Klaus finishes with a glare to Diego and he just smile back smugly. You both get up and move to follow them, but not before giving Klaus a long, passionate kiss. You were talking hair pulling, lip biting, the whole nine yards. You pull away with a *smack* and look at the grossed out look on Diego’s face. You smile in smug satisfaction and head out to the car, with Five in tow.
Diego glances at Klaus and rolls his eyes at the dazed and happy smile on his face. "Come on lover boy." He says and half drags him over to the car.
The smile stays on both of your faces the entire ride to Harold's.
