@lluobiinghe [cont. from old blog]
The halfling could only snort at the elder demon’s comment, taking a seat beside the other only when he was certain it was ok to do so. It almost sounded like an insult, when one heard, yet didn’t think too much on it before reacting, but Binghe instead finds himself practically agreeing to - even coming close to LAUGHING at - such a statement.
❝ IT IS NOT TOO LATE TO BECOME WHAT WE COULD HAVE BEEN. ❞ His voice softens, much more than he’d intended at first. It almost disgusts him, how WEAK he’d allowed himself to become as he spent more time with Tianlang-Jun. Perhaps the ever-growing fondness had finally started to take hold, replace the anger and hatred that had gripped his heart for so long now. Luo Binghe refuses to admit to it however, as he patiently studies the other for any negative signs. ❝ WHAT WE SHOULD HAVE BEEN. ❞
As subtle as it is, seeing the man beside him seeming pleased, almost IMPRESSED even, at the food Binghe had prepared warms his heart. Skills that the latter had plenty of time to perfect with his time as Shen QingQiu’s proud head disciple. He says nothing on this, however, instead simply allowing a chuckle to pass his lips. ❝ I certainly hope that you mean those words genuinely. ❞
“Still… that you also fell in love with a human. Hah, you truly are my son.”
The young man has to take a moment, TWO moments, to realize just what his father had said. ‘My’ son. HIS son. Could it truly be called an overreaction to be brought to the verge of tears at such simple words, when one had been told they were better off dead before they were even born, much less when he had assumed his father had all but disowned him not too long prior? No, likely not. But he did not care if others were to think otherwise. Since when did anyone’s opinion matter to him, anyways?
He had gone far too long without the feeling of a parent’s love for their child, and it didn’t feel WRONG to crave for such a thing.
❝ … TELL ME SOMETHING… ❞ His voice grows emotionless, if only to hide just how emotional ONE sentence had gotten him just moments ago. His hand moves to lightly fiddle with the coin that he had always carried on him. The washerwoman too poor to afford a real one, yet a genuine gift all the same. It makes for a decent distraction, as onyx hues finally manage to steal a glance at the man that he had only just learnt to let his guard down around.
❝ TELL ME ABOUT MOTHER… HER, YOUR TIMES WITH HER. ❞ A pause, to make sure his voice was even. Steady. ❝ I WANT TO KNOW ABOUT THE FAMILY THAT I COULD NOT EVEN THINK TO BE ALLOWED TO HAVE UNTIL NOW. ❞
It was almost amusing to watch Luo Binghe struggle with hiding his emotions, and Tianlang-Jun would have laughed if it weren’t also so sad. The boy had become so cold, so guarded that even the former demon king found this to be a tragedy.
“For a long time I tried to forget what your mother was like, feeling that she had betrayed me - and that she had murdered you.” Finding their child alive was one thing, but the revelation that his hatred had been entirely misplaced was another. It still made his stomach turn to think about it.
“Your mother Su Xiyan was an aloof and talented woman. For the longest time she pretended to only tolerate me, you know. She was always skeptical and prying, until she worked out my true identity.”
A soft laugh. Ah, that moment had been rather funny, had it not? She’d been so angry that someone of such a lofty position would pretend to be so poor and to bother her for money. “I kept making excuses to meet up with her and she kept acting as if I was testing her patience - which I was. But we spent some wonderful times together just sitting and watching the sunrise, or having lunch under flowering trees. Oh, she pretended to hate that sort of romantic thing, claiming I was too caught up in my novels to see what she liked, but she admitted later she adored those moments too.”
The demon rubs one hand against his forehead, wincing as a sudden pain shoots up the limb. This body really wasn’t in good shape, it was a wonder he could move as much as he did sometimes.
“Once we learned she was pregnant I had hoped to steal her away to the demon realm, but those damned cultivators...” He clenches his hand into a fist and lowers it back to his lap, “They kept her from me, and kept us apart. They wouldn’t allow us - or you - to exist if they could help it. I had many things left that I wanted her to see, there’s so much beauty even in the demon realm... ah, but I know her sense of duty wouldn’t allow it.”