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the schizospec/hyperverbal autistic urge to just ramble for hours on end
Schizospec culture is having multiple rambles sitting in drafts just waiting to be picked lol
8, 13, and 16 :)
8. Halloween V.S. Thanksgivingthanksgiving
13. Harry Potter V.S. Halloweentowni haven’t seen either of them :)))))) growing up in a family where witchcraft is considered satanic was really fun :)))))))
16. Reading V.S. Writingreading
I FORGOT HOW SAD LILO & STITCH WAS FOR LIKE 82% OF THE ENTIRE MOVIE
Okay so when I got home today I came up to my door and THERE WAS THIS HUGE WASP JUST RESTING ON THE DOOR. IT WAS AT LEAST AN INCH LONG AND WASN'T MOVING A LOT. I got out my keys super carefully and tried to slowly unlock the door NA D ITS WINGS STARTD BUZZING
it didn't fly though so i figured it was wet and couldnt fly right now, so i watched it carefully but focused more on opening the door than not goading it
So I went in, closed and locked the door AND THEN IT FLEW AWAY
that was so scary D:
wow one of the first years in my program has a Hero of Heart hoodie wow....
Intellectual Sensations
How odd analytical logic is! I observe my observance. And somehow it seems to make such sense to gather up the connections of your thoughts. The abstract actions seems perfectly tangible. I come to ponder the legitimacy and possibility of psychoanalyses. I don’t know how it is possible for psychologists to suggest a Big Connection at a crucial healing point and give a prescription: the aid of a single word or sentence that changes everything: all the connections.
When people like Christopher Nolan direct Inception, the characters go down, rather than out. To me, connections and thoughts are wisps in incoherent spirals, like the patterned nests of mini mosquitos in the sky, and there’s no chance of tracing them together with words and phrases that enable you zoom out just that next level to witness the entire craft of existence. It is a pity. It’s a pity that I never seem to able to expand far enough in epistemological experience in order to paint human philosophical existence so that the future can exist as one with history: a bridge to a parallel universe of peace, freedom, tranquillity and understanding in connections. United, but not uniform, united to burn brighter together so that it defies our own existence’s space and time and our epistemic knowledge will be infinite, as we know it. Infinite until it has surpassed its logical time and transforms into something new. Humanity is frightened of transformation and my lone striving for Überrealität will inevitably tear me apart, but I look forward to that moment.
A long dream
I had this dream two nights ago and woke up at 4:23 am to write it down. Below is a direct transcription of what I wrote.
I had the opportunity to go to North Africa and tutor the 7-year-old prince of some country. Found this job online on some job listing board. Left very soon after finding said job, like maybe a day and a half later, and flew to a village in the desert but surrounded by mountains so sometimes the air was suddenly flooded with snow flurries and chill. There were lions in the town square, easily a hundred lions, and there was no fence or anything like that, they were just all perched on this raised habitat-type thing that had a cave as party of it, where I could see tigers waiting in the dark. I looked at the lions and slowly realized that all the lions had locked eyes with me - which was terrifying. A sign at the front of the square said that it was expected that the tigers would eventually kill and eat all of the lions. It was a strange and harsh little village.
I was staying in a hostel-type place and there happened to be a number of people I knew there - like Henry and Leland, and also some guy named Matthew Wilson who started talking to me on Gchat about "Bottle Rocket," and some Dutch girl who was very pretty and had a lot of freckles, and Ben Warren from Groupon. I explained to many of these people in turn what I was doing here in this strange place and that my tutoring tenure was only supposed to last a week or so.
At some point in all this, there were cinematic sequences depicting this story that seemed to be from the past but also seemed to be about the prince I was going to tutor, who was called The Blue Prince inn legend. The prince had fallen in love with a girl, and she with him, but their love had to remain secret for whatever reason. They would write seemingly mundane and non-romantic notes to each other but they each had secret flourishes in their signatures that would let the other know they loved them. For the boy prince, whose name was Léon (French pronunciation) it had something to do with how he connected one letter to the next. Watching these scenes (although I don't think "watch" is the right verb, because these scenes were truly intercut in a cinematic way, with camera angles and montage and dissolved images and voice-over from The Blue Prince [which was maybe in French? I doubt it], as opposed to the more "real life" segments of me in this North African village) - anyway, watching these scenes I somehow already knew that the prince and his love had committed suicide, like Romeo and Juliet but even younger, a childhood crush made tragedy. These scenes seemed to be taking place in the 1700s or 1800s, but somehow this was the same Prince I was to tutor.
Anyway, back to the village and me. I had started to make inquiries among the other people there as to where exactly we were, what country we were in. It seemed I had forgotten, and the name of the country was always on the tip of my tongue, but no one would give me a straight answer. Instead they all diverted their time in the hostel, talking about movies or watching clips from "Purple Rain" (this was Henry.) I couldn't even remember where exactly I flown into to get here, which city's airport or anything. Finally, Henry told me, begrudgingly and with the same kind of I-wish-I-didn't-have-to-tell-you-this vibe as if informing someone their dad has cancer or something, that we were in Libya. Libya. I was suddenly terrified. I had visions of the prince's father (I guess he'd be the King of Libya) being unsatisfied with me for some capricious reason and locking me away or killing me before I had a chance to do anything. I realized that I didn't have a phone, only my computer, so no way to communicate immediately with America - time difference. I realized that I wasn't sure I had even told my parents I was leaving the country - it had been that sudden. I was very scared and then I woke up.
This took me 30 minutes to write down and already didn't seem real by the end of the writing, so I'm glad I bothered to record it.