I just can't draw anymore, it brings me zero joy. Tried to revive it but it's just not there. Struggling to figure out what else to do. It hurts to feel like my creative juice is just kinda gone. Another thing illness has taken from me I think.
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I just can't draw anymore, it brings me zero joy. Tried to revive it but it's just not there. Struggling to figure out what else to do. It hurts to feel like my creative juice is just kinda gone. Another thing illness has taken from me I think.
Title: A Different Reflection
Here i was face to face with my younger self,
She's smiling softly and eager to hear stories from her present self.
Also asking if we still have the same hobbies,
And i replied sadly with a "No" and held her hands tightly.
Her smile slightly falter and asked, "you don't love drawing anymore?"
I replied, "we lost our spark to improve."
She asked again, "how about dancing?"
I sigh and answered "we lost the confidence of trying."
She felt sad and asked again, "how about writing songs?"
I answered with a sad smile, "the songs are still here, but we don't write them anymore."
Hearing those she felt sad and asked one more time, "why did i changed so much?"
I take breath and answered the little girl.
"The world is cruel, that's why. They made a little girl lose her passion and make her stop from trying."
A lot has happened, and the world has hurted us so much.
I know you aren't proud of it, but we will fight.
You're young, so cherish your youth.
Do things you won't be able to do when you become the present you.
It's sad and i regret letting myself down,
But maybe there is more waiting for me, as i keep choosing life instead of ending it now.
So, younger me, i'll hold your hand.
Comfort you and prepare what will happen next.
No matter what cherish yourself,
Don't end up broken to pieces like how i am now.
Please survive, i'm begging you my darling self.
Immolation - Lost Passion
Drew my ocs for the first time in nearly 6 months… hashtag healing from the trauma of my AS Moving Image Arts animated film
ECHOES OF EVERDAY
Echoes in the everyday, shadows of our dreams,
Lost in the monotony, caught in the seams,
Yearning for the fire, the passion that gleams,
Echoes in the everyday, fading like moonbeams.
Whispers of nostalgia, faint in the breeze,
Searching for the memory, of the will that's ceased,
Yearning for the magic, that once captured dreams,
Echoes in the everyday, imagination deceased.
In the ebb of twilight, monotony dictates,
Whispers of longing, despair resonates,
Hopes fleeting, the passion abates,
Echoes in the everyday, hope patiently awaits.
~ W
what if we've already
died a thousand death's
before this?
what if
the novelty of
life,
honor and glory
passed us by long ago,
and now we just count down the days
till our next gloom.
after all,
we've been digging our graves
since the first day we were born;
driven by the horrors of living
in a world
where the repurcussions
of our past lives
haunt us,
where we cared and stood up for our beliefs
where our voices were finally heard --
and now?
our words float away
like the pollution in the air
we fought so hard to protect,
our stories are
burned, stolen, and discredited
only at the mere fact
that we dare
stand up for ourselves
in a society that only pretends
to care
why should we
fight for glory anymore?
generations of speeches
sermons
poems
books
and letters
continue to only scratch
the surface of something
we can't even see
but know exists -
something that keeps killing
passion
maybe that's why we're all so tired
we've already fought our fight
and each new body we burn through
only brings us closer to the hope
that this life is our last
and we will finally be
allowed to
die.
Losing my self in A lost passion
I JUST WANT TO BE PASSIONATE ABOUT SOMETHING AGAIN!!!