#low zone

[thestudentcounsellor]

Hey Step. I've got ptsd & since I was diagnosed I realised that I've forgot so many memories. I remember most of the day my trauma happened just have a few black sequences but I forget stuff like my cousins visited me last year & stayed for over 2 weeks with me & we did everything together & I have no memories of it! None! We were together 24/7 & i just remembered bc I saw a picture of us & a few days later I forgot it again & couldn't tell if she was here or if it was her mom. I'm really scared

Hello huni,Firstly I’m sorry you had such a traumatic experience! It sounds like you may be experiencing some kind of dissociation which can happen with ptsd but I obviously don’t know enough about your case and can’t diagnose etc. So I would suggest you talk to your therapist or doctor. Dissociation happens when we become hypo-aroused (low zone.) I’ll share some of my old posts about dissociation for you xx

[missambermorgan]

Let's talk about my day, shall we?

Woke up and got guilt tripped. Guilt tripped the entire 2 hours it took me to get home. Sat in traffic for an hour. Radio couldn't pick up stations. Had to sit and contemplate life in silence. Cried for 95% of my day. Breasts tender. Emotional as hell. Spotting. Left birth control and anxiety meds in car. Can't find my sedatives. Period won't start. Crying doesn't make me feel better. Hungry as a starving elephant. Lower back pain. Sleepy but can't get comfortable. Hopes and dreams crushed and now questioning existence. Fighting off anxiety attacks because I'm in such a low place. Have to work with my old partner's bestie tomorrow - my old partner hates me. Can't find my freaking sedatives. Secretly hoping SOMETHING good will happen to me soon. Destroyed my baby fund. Decided I can't have children Probably gonna chug a bottle of zzzquil and hope I can sleep. Okay bye.