#mal-odies

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these are the reasons i haven't slept tonight

monster ultra

2 australian men

make them kiss!!!!!

it's 10 am and my eyes are fighting to stay open but i need to post this and then i'm going to perform osmosis with my bed

below the cut is the separate frames for the gif, and the song i listened to while making it:

i need someone to appreciate the amount of work this took. i have been going at this for 9 hours straight 💀

please don't look at ryan's hand too closely though. when i went to render it at the end i completely ran out of motivation and just went "fuck it". but if you squint it looks alright, so you better squint, ok? 🫵

i also think i like it being softer? i didn't want to over-render this one because i have a terrible habit of polishing everything until it loses all its life. so i challenged myself to keep it really simple and basically blocked everything in using nothing but the hard airbrush in procreate

ughhhhh yes please smile and then kisss!!!

and THIS SONG by Sydney Rose Mitchell???? i've had it on loop for a concerning amount of time...

it's so ryanaim, every single lyric had me sitting there pointing like that leonardo dicaprio meme going "THEM. THAT'S THEM!!"

the first verse about lying about the scars immediately reminded me of this beautiful fic by @magneticghouls where they hide the bruises/wounds the entities leave on them from each other. i haven't stopped thinking about that since i read it!

anyways i'm gonna go collapse into my bed now <3

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artwork of ryan whelan | leviticus

what do you think? is he the apple or the snake?

time-lapse below the cut:

Drawing time: 8h

canvas stats:

song reference for the time-lapse:

me, seeing a song with snake in the band name, obsession, true love, emotional codependency, destruction and immediately going “yeah that’s ryanaim”

i think the only thing i was missing was the religious guilt?? or maybe not, because:

being together is the only place they don't have to perform. they feel whole together. not to mention the word clean and how it relates to sin

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Artwork of Lily Evans ❤︎

Because, frankly, she's just so Fleetwood Mac coded. Tell me she wouldn't have gone to a concert 1977?!

Drawing time-lapse below the cut.

Close-up:

Time-lapse + some other stuff below the cut:

Drawing time: 8 h (yes i am insane about this woman to the point that i can stare at her for 8 hours)

I was thinking of the dragonfly necklace as a reference to pandalily. I sometimes pair Pandora with a dragonfly, or a moth, or a cicada, and also an octopus for some reason. Don't ask me why. It just feels right.

I don't know what animals other people think fit her?

Lily is a doe to me, or she can be a barn owl. I usually think of Marlene as a fox. Lily could be a fox too, but that might only be because foxes are orange lol.

But I really think Marlene is a fox through and through.

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Bellatrix Black and Hufflepuff's cup

My references :)

I don't know if the second pic is a painting. I LOVE how it looks. Absolutely delectable. YUM. I had to make an artwork inspired by it.

More NSFW Bellamort art I've made: another one.

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Barty Crouch Jr. artwork (⚠︎ TW: Hanging)

The time-lapse, close-ups, a version without the text, and some rambling below the cut:

Close-ups and a no-text version:

The song ends with asking their true love:

Slack your rope, hangman Slack it far and wide I think I see my true love comin' Ridin' many a mile True love, have you brought me hope Or have you paid my fee? Or, have you come to see me hanging From the gallows tree? Yes, I have brought you hope Yes, I have paid your fee For I've not come to see you hanging From the gallows tree

I don't think Barty is suicidal. Actually, I think he's terrified of death. He's terrified of a lot of things. Of his father's disapproval. Of his mother's suffering. Of being alone in a world that never once told him he was enough. As a child he made himself small and palatable for a father who never once looked at him and said "good job."

He is dependent on judgement. He does not have a stable self outside someone else’s gaze. Every terrible thing Barty does is still addressed to his father. Even if it's subconscious, his actions say: look at me.

Look at how much I can hurt.

Look at how much I can destroy.

Evan is not a savior in shining armor. He's an enabler, because he never tells Barty to stop, never says "revenge is consuming you." And he's also a victim. Barty's war with his own father is the reason Evan dies.

Before Barty, I think Evan didn't care much if he lived or died. He protected Pandora and shouldered a lot of responsibility as the sole male heir (I think the Rosier's were very rigid and traditional, almost cultish). But the distance between them had grown wide over the years. Not because they didn't love each other. Because they did, and they learned that distance was the safest thing they could do to make sure their parents couldn't use one of them to get to the other.

When Evan met Barty, he had someone he felt like he needed to protect again. Someone who needed him close instead of far away. And it saved him. It really did. He wanted to live. He wanted a future, something he'd never allowed himself to imagine.

Barty keeps going even after Evan is gone. He keeps going after his father gives in to his mother's pleas and drags him out of Azkaban. After he locks him inside the house for a decade and pretends he doesn't exist once again.

His father is still the center of his universe. The rage is still there. The need to prove something, to hurt back, to make him feel even a fraction of the pain he feels.

Would an apology have felt cathartic? Would it have been enough?

When someone nearly destroys themselves to get that apology, I think it would feel contaminated. What he really wants is for Crouch Sr. to look at him unprompted and understand the wound because a father should understand, not because Barty finally made himself too grotesque to ignore.

An apology would not free Barty. And his father could never apologize in the right way. He does not understand.

Barty does everything his father fears and still it's never enough.

He kills him, but even that's not enough.

Time-Lapse:

Drawing time: 7.5 h

Rate my life choices on the autism scale: 1 being 'that's a perfectly normal amount of time to spend on foliage' and 10 being 'You need an intervention'. I spent almost 4 hours on a tree on a Friday night instead of hanging out with people (which are people I don't really like anyway, so I tell myself it's fine). And I can't drink because of my medication. So it's just me and this tree. We're in a committed relationship now.

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Rosekiller Artwork (⚠TW: Blood and Gun)

Barty Crouch Jr. / Evan Rosier

Drawing time-lapses. I can only upload one video per post so i decided to separate the time-lapses to separate posts:

this is a link for Barty's time-lapse

this is a link for Evan's time-lapse

Close Ups:

I am obsessed with the idea of Evan having pointy ears. And pointy canine teeth and the most perfect full mouth omg I need to go lie down for a bit because holy shit.

Also Barty's slutty eyebrow piercing + love me a man with eyebags yum.

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Rosekiller 💀❤️💀

Barty Croissant jr. / Evan Rosier

For those interested of my drawing time-lapse, check below the cut.

(also um maybe I drew the finger tattoo technically upside down, but it would look strange if it was flipped. I'd also like to imagine Barty would get it the way I drew it specifically to flip people off)

Time-Lapse:

Drawing time 3.5 h

Song reference for the time-lapse:

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Time-lapse of drawing Lily ❤︎

Drawing time: 8 h (lily took about 5, and the album took 3 wtf am i doing with my time?? Anyway. Here she is.)

Check out the finished artwork: link

Song link