you suffer an unimaginable loss when your brother is the victim of a grisly homicide — one that you are the sole eyewitness, and primary suspect of. you are forced to navigate the grief and trauma while simultaneously working with vincent to bring your brother to justice, and clear your name.
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warnings: vincent x fem reader, mentions of familial death, grief, depictions of violence, slowburn, (scattered) religious allegory & themes, mentions of childhood trauma/familial resentment
Started a new Podcast!! “Remnants” an audio drama by Eira Major
To say I am invested would be an understatement. I absolutely love Sir, there I said it. And all the characters and storylines are so intriguing and once you think you have something figured out the podcast throws another curveball at you. And there’s nothing more I love than a series that lets you theorise.
Spoilers under the cut!
So, you might have noticed the random capitalised letters in the Episode descriptions. I think I have figured out the first two messages up to Episode 15, but I have yet to make sense of everything that comes after. I tried to record the morse code and use an online decoder but that didn’t work very well, then I found out that the morse code (I guess it is the same which can be heard at the end of the Episodes) can be found under ask and receive
At the moment, I do not have any theories about the characters the Apprentice reads the Remnants of, for this I need to listen again and listen more attentively or read the transcripts.
But then there’s Sir. He is so interesting to me. And he seems, not sad, exactly. A tad bit desperate maybe. Sir repeatedly says he is not a thing that knows only a thing that processes. Doesn’t he seem like he wants to be a thing that knows, though? I think Sir was, maybe for the first time, unsure if he should (re)shelf or discard someone.
Before I dive into that, something else: remnants are objects that hold memories of people‘s lives, that is to say, in my humble opinion they are the embodiments of the souls that have lived those lives in form of objects that had a certain amount of significance during that lifetime. They are made tangible, like Sir does so he can touch the Apprentice.
I once had an interesting conversation about rebirth: they believe, that once you die, your soul arrives at, for lack of better wording, the “spirit“ realm, where it (the soul) processes the life lived (sounds familiar, right?) and studies the things it was meant to learn and experience while alive. And after some time (whatever time means for them) they might get to live another one. But, and here’s the interesting part, not necessarily in what we call the future. The soul might get send to our past to live there. Time for them is not as straightforward as it is for us. My friend, who I had the conversation with, said the soul receives a life that is necessary to teach whatever it needs to learn next. I am talking about this, because something Sir said in Episode 28 reminded me of this: “I’m afraid they only lived the lives they lived. What is done is done. The past cannot be untangled.“ The souls have lived those lives and it cannot be unmade, they have experienced what they needed to experience.
In this context (re)shelving means the souls get another turn at life and discard means they do not. If discarding means complete “death“, whatever Death might be, or the souls are just done with this particular world and get scattered to somewhere else like dust in the wind is something I cannot answer. Especially because we know the Apprentice tries to find out on what criteria he has to judge the remnants and he once seemed to want them to label in a black and white scheme - have they lived an honest life; were they evil liars; etc etc, but that‘s not how Sir judges. He said in 28 that he would shelf them all if he could, but that is not how it works.
That brings me back to my first point: Sir was not sure how he should judge Edwin and thus made him his Apprentice to get more time, to see more of his character, to learn about this soul that played a part in so many other stories, but it somehow escalated and Sir grew more and more curios and thus attached. He seems to care about his Apprentice like a person cares about their favourite pet, and I do not mean this in a degrading way, but in the way you love this little creature you share a home with to bits but you are not the same. Sir seems to me like he got the taste of deeper knowledge (in this case about the Apprentice and his opinions and actions and whatever is happening with him at the moment) and experiments to acquire even more information. It’s not about Edwin‘s fate anymore, at least not solely.
Who are you without your memories? Who are you without your experiences? Are you still you? Is this who you are in your very essence? How would you judge others without a mask you can hide behind? How would you judge other people when all you know about yourself is what you carry in your heart, in your gut? How would you judge yourself without knowing it is you? Is this why Sir shows the Apprentice only remnants about people that are tangled with his own? Sir wanted the Apprentice‘s judgement of himself because he himself was unable to decide. But now he refuses to let him go. Sir, you have already decided but are undeniably tangled with your Apprentice, how far will you push in your curiosity?
Edwin Peterson, you have been so many other people, you have barely been yourself.
Isn‘t this life‘s greatest lesson - to be unapologetically yourself?
Please, does this make any sense at all? Did I hit any mark?
