Blindside - Yandere Football Player x Reader
You never meant to catch his eye. You tell yourself that every time you see the first note, folded into your locker like a secret dagger waiting to twist. You don’t know who left it—no signature, just black ink on white paper, edges scored by fingernails. When you unfold it, your breath hitches:
“I know you hate football. I love that you’re here anyway.”
You press the paper against your chest, the metal locker rattling as you close it, and swallow against a panic you can’t name. Minutes later, you find him on the bleachers, alone under floodlights that burn pale against the night. Colton Reyes, East Ridge High’s star quarterback, number 8 stitched in silver across his back. He doesn’t smile. His gaze is a blade of something fierce—recognition? Hunger? You look away and almost expect him to vanish. But when you look back, he remains, inches from you on the bench, voice low enough to ignite every nerve:
“I saw you read it.”
You start to say you must be mistaken, but his hand curls around yours, warm where your skin is cold. The pads of his fingers brush your palm—and the world spins off its axis.
You pretend it’s a dream. Next day, another note appears in your textbook:
“You scowl in math. I like it when you look unhappy, makes me feel protective.”
You don’t know why that thrills you. You hide the paper in your backpack and count heartbeats until you can leave, but when you step out onto the quad, there he is, leaning against your locker, black roses in one hand, the other pressed to his chest like he’s listening for your heartbeat through denim.
“Those are for you,” he says. The words sound rehearsed, but the tilt of his head is intimate, as if he’s making a promise. “I walked past the florist. Your name was everywhere in those blooms, they reminded me of you.”
You could run. You could bolt down the hallway, turn corners until you can’t find your way home. Instead, you take the roses and tuck them inside your locker, letting the thorns scratch your fingers. You know they’re too dark for sympathy—petals shaded like bruises—but they’re yours now, and that embarrasses you more than his possession.
At home, you place them in a vase. Each morning when you wake, you find petals on your windowsill, each one carved with a single word: her, mine, forever. You press them between the pages of your journal, even though your hands tremble when you do it. You swear you’re not falling in, but every time you think of escape, you taste the copper flavor of fear, and what’s fear but another kind of attraction?
He watches you in classrooms, across lunch tables, on the bleachers where you sit hidden beneath a hoodie that does nothing to mask your shape. There’s a note waiting for you after practice on Friday, summons in jagged letters:
“Meet me at the track. I have something to show you.”
You stare at the message until the bell rings, then follow its direction like a moth to flame. The track curves in silent laps under the stadium lights. He’s there, jersey stained brown with mud, but his eyes shine as if he’s stepping out of a dream. He leads you to the infield, where chalk lines cross like fated lovers. In the center, he’s planted more black roses—two dozen in a perfect circle around a bouquet of fresh carnations, petals white as your fear.
He kneels in the middle. He doesn’t offer the flowers. He just watches you, strips off his helmet so his hair falls in dark waves around his face, and breathes your name like a benediction.
“Do you see? This is ours. I built this world so I could show you what I feel.”
You try to speak, but your voice breaks. He stands and takes your hand, pulls you into the circle. The flowers tremble as you step inside. You shiver, but he doesn’t let go.
When you wake the next morning, you’re in your own bed, the petals gone—but a bruise blooms on your wrist in the shape of his grip. You try to pretend it came from tripping, but everyone notices. Your mother stares at your arm as though she sees a map to your pain. You can’t tell her how it happened. You can’t tell her how you feel, tangled in shock and something warmer that coils tight in your chest.
At school, everyone avoids you. Some whisper—he’s dangerous, they say. Others stare at the hoodie you wear, the same gray one with his number painted across the back. You want to laugh, because he said it would suit you. He said gray was your color. Gray like twilight, gray like absence of other light, gray the shade between breath and silence.
He sends more notes.
“You smiled at me today. My heart cracked open.”
“I kissed you in chemistry. You didn’t stop me.”
“I suspect you love me already. Don’t lie.”
You’re too numb to lie. You hide in restrooms, tracking your reflection in the stained mirror, searching for the person who once slept without nightmares. Some part of you resists, but the rest of you trembles when his name appears on your phone. Every vibration is an orchestra inside your chest.
One Saturday, you venture out to buy groceries. You hate leaving home, but your fridge is empty. The store is bright with fluorescent lights that buzz like insects. You pick apples and bread, trying to ignore the hair on your neck standing up. In the checkout line, you hear boots behind you. You don’t want to turn, but you do. He stands there—helmet in one hand, flowers in the other—smiling. No one else in the store seems to notice. It’s as if the moment you appeared, they blinked away.
He hums to himself as he loads your items onto the conveyor belt. The cashier raises an eyebrow when he hands over a fistful of cash, way more than enough for groceries then nods at you both as though this is normal. You pay for your groceries with shaking hands and flee into the parking lot, but he follows. You reach your car, yank the door open, and there he stands in the aisle of the lot, silhouette black against broad daylight.
“I wanted to make sure you got home,” he says.
You slam the door. Your back presses hard against the wheel. You sink to the floor, shaking. Through the glass, you watch him turn away and walk back into the store, as if he never followed. Your heart pounds, and for the first time you feel certain you cannot live without him. Because if you could, you would have left already.
The breaking point comes at Natalie’s party. You wear a simple dress—black lace over gray slip—because he said you looked beautiful in shadows. The basement thrums with bass, bodies pressed in heat and laughter. You clutch a soda, watching faces blur. You feel watched long before you see him, so when he steps into the strobe light, drenched in sweat and mud, it feels like someone struck thunder in your chest.
He crosses the room without excuse, and every part of you wants him to. He slams a hand to the wall beside your head, chest heaving, voice hoarse:
“I told you I’d find you.”
Your pulse pounds. Jason, the boy from chemistry who never saw you as poetry, appears beside you, pale with fear. He tries to pull you toward the stairs, but Colton’s other hand snakes around your waist, dragging you back.
“Not so fast,” he breathes, eyes ablaze. “I can’t share you.”
Jason stumbles back, words dying on his lips. You press your palm to Colton’s chest, feel the straining muscles beneath his jersey, the rapid drum of his heart.
“Let me go,” you whisper. But you don’t pull away.
He kisses you then—mouth bruising your lips, fingertips digging into your hips. You know you should push him off, scream until someone rescues you, but the world narrows until there’s only him. His grip, the taste of tears and mint, the desperate promise behind every passing breath:
“You’re mine.”
You don’t answer. You press into him because once you tried to escape this orbit and discovered you had nowhere else to go. You have never been freer or more lost than you are here, in his hold, where desire and terror are braided together so tightly you can’t tell one from the other.
After that night, you live in a bubble on the outskirts of East Ridge. His watchful eyes follow you through school corridors, stadium lights, and empty streets. Notes arrive fewer now—petty reminders rather than declarations: h/c tulips because they match your hair, a wicker basket of apples “so you won’t starve.” You know he could break in again, claim you off your couch at three AM, but he doesn’t. He leaves you the illusion of choice.
Still, you can’t let him go. The hallways feel colder, lonelier. Without his possession, you feel undone. When you slide into your seat in English class, you glance at the desk beside you and imagine him there, shoulder brushing yours. Even Macbeth’s dagger can’t compare to the weight of his obsession.
When senior prom arrives—a soft haze of candles and gowns. You wonder if you’ll go alone, or find him waiting at the gym doors in full jersey, bouquet in hand. You don’t have to wonder. He shows up in a tux borrowed from a mother’s ex-boyfriend, number 8 still painted on the white rose pinned to his lapel.
He doesn’t ask you to dance. He sweeps you into his arms, guiding you across the floor with the assurance of someone who’s already planned your future. You close your eyes, resting your head on his shoulder, the world shrinking until it’s just your breathing hearts, his whispered promise:
“You’re mine. Always.”
In the end, you realize there is no escape—nor do you want one. Beneath the bruises and blood, beneath the guilt and the ghost of who you once were, you find the singular truth: you were never yours to lose. You’ve been his from the moment his window opened on that first gray morning, when shadow fell across your wall and you understood that love could kill, and that death could feel like home.
