#mikayla pace

[mikayla-pace]

"Silence is a perpetual state of bliss that I'm not willing to trade for anything in the world."

– Mikayla Pace

[mikayla-pace]

Faith and acceptance...

The words dangle from my tongue

Where they ought have never belonged

But I decided they stay there-

Leaving the bitter taste I have yet to swallow

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This body has never known when to give up

No matter how many times the world has tried to kill it,

No matter how many times I've tried to kill it

It chooses to stay whole like a miracle

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I've never been one to throw away concepts

Such as dreams, love, concern, attachment-

I know my heart is too stubborn for it's own good

But I let it run free

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Let it consume me,

Let it drown me

With an influx of excitability

To an intensity I cannot handle-

This is me...

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Yet I know it should not be.

To have a beautiful soul eroded and tattered

For reasons not worth dying for,

Sins I never had to atone for,

Martyrdom while I still breathe

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I have come to realise

This game of righteousness?

It's stupid...

How many lives have I given up

To save the ones of the present?

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For the future is a big, bright place,

With boundless possibilities

And a million serendipities

Awaiting the vigour

Only I can give it

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And if I mourn every mistake,

Every failure,

Every difficult circumstance I am not ready to face,

What would happen to that bright future?

And everyone who would've been part of it?

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Fate, destiny...

All these uncertainties await me

Only if I choose to accept it,

Only if I choose to live it,

Only if I choose to trust it.

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- there is an infinite number of possibilities in this universe and I'll find the best one.

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I wish there was a bed in library whereas

I could let the stories from the books

Seep into my dreams

As they lull me goodnight,

Slowly and gently,

Telling when the tides will grow

And so does my heart,

With every forlorn passage

It beats a song of awe

For all the things I've learned

And all the things I've never learned

How my veins in a measure of meters

Could be longer than my life

And how much longer it would take

To actualise my aspirations,

And in how many definitions

The human brain can concoct

An adjective to describe love,

Be it a marriage of oxytocin and serotonin and more,

Or a connection alighted through the soul,

There is always more,

Like books in the shelves of the library,

And every other library in the vicinity

Holding years, decades, millennia of knowledge

The people of Alexandria could only imagine to have

But they did burn down,

And so will my interest,

So until then,

In dreams and words I'll drown.

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- laying on a bed of papers

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I know I started the morning right

When I have the blender in the sink

As I sip a frappe quite different from a cafe's

But with the added niche of having it being made by moi,

On the sofa invitingly covered in blankets

Lies a book I have yet to finish.

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My phone open on a writing app,

The pen on the floor,

And various notebook pages sprawled on the coffee table

I spill my thoughts to the cosmos

Wondering what made me do what I did-

Valiant emotions to create past masterpieces

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I lie in wait-

Drinking up my laziness

As I look into the incandescent lit-ceiling

With the windows drafting in

The yawn of the morning,

Not quite ready to wake up until 6am...

And so the world stands still

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And here I sit still.

Trying to make heads or tails of how the words work

And how everything else does...really

As within this moment lies an equation whereas

A poet studying science forgot to add and sutract

And is seriously considering going to art school instead.

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Lacing my eyes upon the pages

Whispers the back of my mind still thinking...wondering...

On how every moment that led up to now

Have assembled the pieces that made me...me...

An ongoing debate of predestination, or dominoes,

Or maybe serendipity?

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I pull myself out of my reverie and head for the kitchen,

To drop my glass and my philosophies

As a signal if you may,

That here stops my dreams

And here starts my life-

As the rising sun awakens-

The start of a new day.

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- just me and my reveries

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I am a planet

Self-glorified to be forgotten-

A moon to revolve

In every orbit but my own.

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That no faith nor tears

Can pull out the misery...

Every call

But a failed destiny

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Cloud my eyes with stardust

So you cannot disappoint me;

This self-hate

My recurring elegy.

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So my core

No longer break,

I hide the anger

In the name Agnostic

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But my very form

All cracked and torn

Invited the

Celestials' scorn

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So I made a bet with you,

None more to lose,

Then I realised

My wishes got through...

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- that shooting star was you

[mikayla-pace]

"The smarter and wiser you get, the more you understand. And the more you understand, the more things seem to lose meaning. It isn't fun being smart."

– Mikayla Pace

[mikayla-pace]

Why am I easy if I enjoy a man's affection? Why am I weak if I want to love and express my sensitivity? Why am I sexist if I want to live a domestic life? How can being my own person and following my own desires make me any less of a feminist and self-respecting woman?

- aren't we forgetting the true essence of choice and equality?

[mikayla-pace]

Hear of the song of the angels,

The gentle breeze carries

This homesick lullaby

I sing to you, my child

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A thousand wishes

Upon the great stars

As I scoured the galaxies

To have them bring you to me

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My answered prayer,

The fragment of my soul,

Dear child,

You are love eternal

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No mortal sentiment

Can express the joy

Ebbing from my heart

As I hold you in my arms

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No lyres to outwit thy serenity

As your soft nose crinkles

At the sing-song hum

Of my whispered tune

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Flowers at your feet

Grazing the tips of your toes

In it's silky, soft petals

Complimenting your grace

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My child,

The world could fall

And I'll still smile

As long as I have you.

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- newborn lullaby