Hyungwon has been your friend for years. You were taken aback when he told you that he wanted to be an idol and he was scouted when he was in a restaurant. He does have the looks and skills but you expected him to be a model rather than an idol. Nevertheless, you supported him in his decision. Unlike before, you can only meet for a few hours then he needs to get back to the company to train. Three years passed since he started training when you saw a new program in Mnet “No Mercy”. You were worried on Hyungwon’s fate. You know how much he wanted to debut. You felt relieved when his name was called on the last episode. You messaged him immediately expressing your happiness that he gets to debut. He replied the next day with a “thank you”. Even though he replied late, you tried to understand that maybe he was trying to cope with different emotions yesterday. After a few months, that’s when you realized that he’s been too busy that you haven’t met for months. While you were in the train station, you heard some girls talking about Monsta X’s first concert. You decided to attend it to at least see him. It’s the day of the concert and luckily, you were able to get a seat near the stage. The concert started and you were amazed by how they put their energy in every performance. Not to mention that Monbebes are also amazing. How can they shout almost every time? The whole time, you were only looking at Hyungwon. You can’t help but feel proud of his achievements. The powerful performances halted and they serenade Monbebes with “Blue Moon”. They were looking at some fans while singing until you made eye contact with Hyungwon. You noticed that he was surprised to see you in the concert. You simply smiled at him. After that, he never looked at you again. The concert was a blast. They bid goodbye to their fans and even before everything ended, you already went to the exit so you’ll avoid the possible “traffic” of fans going out. Before you can leave the venue, a staff came running towards you. “Excuse me, you’re Y/N, right?” “Ah, yes. Is there any problem?” “Oh, nothing. Hyungwon wants to see you backstage.” “Ahh, okay.” Then you followed her until you arrived in front of a door. You knocked and you heard someone say “come in”. You hesitated since it is obviously not Hyungwon’s voice. You opened the door and you saw seven men inside. You went inside and closed the door. Before you can even greet them, Hyungwon suddenly hugged you so tight. You hugged him back. Then you realized that he’s still covered with sweat. “Hyungwon-ah, you’re still covered with sweat.” He laughed and hugged you more tightly. “Ahh! Stop it. You know that I don’t like it.” He laughed again and pushed you a bit to have some distance. After you made an eye contact, he smiled at you and hugged you again. “Ahhh! What are you doing?!” He laughed AGAIN. “Sorry, I just got the urge to tease you.” “Everyone, this is Y/N, my bestfriend. Y/N, this is Monsta X.” You bowed to them and they also did the same. “So, why did you ask me to come here?”, you asked. “Huh? Do I need a reason? We haven’t met for like months.” “By the way, do you have anything to do after this? Let’s hang out”, he added. “Are you sure? I’m sure you really want to sleep right now.” The other men laughed because of what you said. “You really know Hyungwon”, Minhyuk said while laughing. You smiled back at them. “The thing is I really am sleepy. My energy’s drained after the concert”, you said to Hyungwon. “Then let’s just sleep together. Where should we do it?”, he asked. You heard some gasps and ‘omo’ coming from Monsta X. “Yah! Don’t say it like that. People will misunderstand”, you said to Hyungwon. “Well, I don’t know how to say it in other words”, he replied. “Just say sleepover”, you said while rolling your eyes. “Ah..” The manager happened to hear your conversation. “Hyungwon-ah, just to tell you that you’re not allowed to go outside with your friend tonight.” “Huh? Why?” “She’s a woman. I’m sure there are some fans who will probably stalk you if you go outside now. They might misinterpret your relationship.” “Ah, then can she stay at the dorm?” “What?”, you can’t help but be baffled by his suggestion. He asked the other members and they’re totally fine with it. You went inside the car and sat beside Hyungwon. You still can’t believe that you’re actually in the car of an idol group. The car arrived at the dormitory and you went inside with them. You had some small talk with the group but later on, the exhaustion kicked in and they all went inside their rooms and slept. “Y/N, let’s sleep in the living room. I’ll bring foams”, Hyungwon said. Hyungwon brought the foams and set them in the living room. “Hyungwon-ah, I don’t have anything to change into”, you said. “Ah, wait. You can use my clothes.” You changed into the t-shirt and pajama he lent to you but they looked oversized to you since he’s a lot taller than you. When you went to the living room, he’s already lying down. He looked at you and giggled seeing you with big clothes. He pat the space beside him to tell you to lay beside him. You lay down and he kept on touching your hair. You then proceeded by chatting about what happened in the months you haven’t met. “By the way, I have a younger brother now”, you said. “Huh? When?” “He was born five years ago.” “What?! You haven’t told me.” “Well, we only meet for a few minutes and I always forgot to tell it to you.” You brought out your phone and showed him a picture of your brother. “Isn’t he cute? The first word he learned to speak is ‘noona’ and not ‘omma’ or ‘appa’.” You laughed while remembering that moment. Hyungwon is just looking at you with a smile. “What’s his name?”, he asked. “Wooju.” He grabbed your phone and placed it behind him. “Yah, you shouldn’t grab someone’s phone just like that”, you said then you suddenly kept quiet when Hyungwon was simply looking at you. “We should do this frequently”, he said. “Well, you’re the busy one.” You just looked at each other for a few seconds when Hyungwon suddenly held your hand. “What are you doing?”, you asked. “I just want to hold your hand.” “Oh. Okay.” You just let him be because you held hands with him before. One thing is different though, the both of you are lying on bed. He just kept on staring to you and it felt burdensome. The atmosphere changed. You tried to chat to uplift the mood. “Do you want to meet Wooju?” “Hm?” “Umm, you should stop staring at me.” “Why?” “It’s burdensome.” Right then, he moved closer to you. “Yah, I just told you that it’s burdensome and now you even moved towards me.” “Why? I just want to.” Why is he acting like this? He brought your hand near his face and you felt his lips. You pulled your hand back. You can tell that you’re blushing hard. You can feel your heart beating fast. You’ve put a pillow in between you and him. You faced the other side while still feeling your heart beating fast. “Hey--” “Shhh! Let’s sleep.” You said while cutting him off. “Sorry”, he said in a low volume. You were already dozing off when your phone rang. You tried to reach for it when you realized that it was with Hyungwon. You faced his side and you saw him looking at the screen of your phone. “Minseok-oppa... Who is this?”, he asked. “He’s our new neighbor. Give me my phone.” “Wait. So he calls you this late?” “Do you talk to him all the time?” “And why does he call you at night?” “He’s a new neighbor but he already knows your number?” Hyungwon threw plenty of questions. “Wait! Give me my phone for a minute.” “No, answer my questions first.” Then the phone stopped ringing. “Great”, you said to yourself. “Yah! Answer my questions!” “Stop raising your voice. Everyone’s sleeping already.” Both of you sat. “Okay, he’s our new neighbor and he’s new to the city so I offered to help him if he encounter some trouble that’s why I gave him my number. For the past few weeks, he has been really nice to our family. He would always play with Wooju and he would always listen to my stories.” “Geez. Why do you have to tell your stories to him? You can just call me!” “You’re busy. I tried calling you before and you never answered that’s why I never called you again if I simply need someone to talk to.” “Just-- Just call me. I’ll answer it.” “Geez. Stop it. You’re busy.” “And why do you have to call him ‘oppa’?! You don’t even call me ‘oppa’ even though I’m older than you by 3 years.” “Because he’s older than me. I never called you ‘oppa’ because calling you by your name has become a habit already. Geez, why do I have to explain everything to you? You’re not even my boyfriend.” He pushed you down and now he’s on top of you. “Don’t talk to him anymore.” “Yah, s-stop it. W-what are you doing?”, you replied, completely surprised by his actions. “I said don’t talk to him anymore.” “Why? I’m having fun talking to him. And can you just stop?! He’s my only friend other than you.” Even with all the words you said, anyone can tell that you’re blushing so hard. “Can you just sleep? I know you’re tired.” Your phone rang again. “Get out of my way. Let me get my phone.” “No way. Let me sleep here.” And he lay on top of you. “Ah! You’re heavy”, you said while pushing him. You gave up and you can hear his breathing got slower. You can tell that he fell asleep. Why is he acting like this??? He is a bit childish but this is too much. Due to exhaustion, you can’t help but also fall asleep. You woke up with the sound of whispers. You also felt something heavy on top of you. You opened your eyes to see the other members whispering while looking at you. Minhyuk even took some pictures. “Good morning. Umm, what’s wrong?” You tried to stand up but can’t. That’s when you realized that Hyungwon’s sleeping on top of you. “Hyungwon-ah. Hyungwon-ah. Yah, wake up.” He opened his eyes and after looking at your face, he flopped down and hugged you. “15 more minutes...”, he said. Minhyuk gasped. Jooheon said his signature “oh my god”. “Just sleep beside me. You’re heavy.” “No way. You’re going to that ‘oppa’.” “Seriously, why are you acting like this? Stop it.” You looked at the other members. “Can you please lift him up? He’s seriously heavy.” “Ah yes.” They lift Hyungwon and let him sleep beside you. You stood up and stretched. You washed up and wore the clothes from yesterday. “Are you going already?”, Kihyun asked. “Yes. I have to see my brother in the kindergarten.” “Aren’t you going to say goodbye to Hyungwon?” “Just tell him that I already went. I don’t really know why but he’s been acting strangely.” “Ah, I see.” “Goodbye.” “Goodbye. Take care.” And you closed the door behind you. You went to fetch your younger brother in the kindergarten. You waited for like two hours in a nearby cafe as you were early. After waiting for hours, you went to the kindergarten to fetch him. “Noona!” “Wooju! Come here.” And he went for a hug. “Where were you yesterday?” “I have to go visit someone.” “Let’s go home”, he said. “Okay.” When you went outside, you saw a man with a noticeable height not to mention he’s wearing all black and a mask to cover his face. “Hyungwon? What are you doing here?”, you asked. “I want to talk.” “Oh, okay.” Then you both sat in the swings. “Noona, can I play with the other children?” “Sure.” You watched Wooju approached the other children. “Is that Wooju?”, Hyungwon asked. “Yes.” “So what do you want to talk about?”, you added. “Why did you leave without telling me?” Seriously? He went here to ask me this question? “You were sleeping.” “You told Kihyun that I was acting strange.” “You were last night and up until now.” “Now? Is this strange?” “It is. You can just call me if you just want to ask me this question.” “Why aren’t you looking at me?”, he asked. You didn’t realized that you were looking at your shoes the whole time. Should I tell him? “Hey.” “I’m getting weird”, you said. You can tell that he was confused. This time you looked at him. “My feelings towards you is getting weird...” “What do you mean weird? Do you hate me now? Is it because of what I did yesterday and this morning?”, he asked. “No. I-I like you. Not as a friend but as a lover.” “But... We’re friends...”, he said in a low volume. “I know. That’s why it’s weird.” You responded even though it hurts. “Hyungwon, I think that we shouldn’t meet for a while or even call each other. I need to forget these feelings. Maybe not seeing you would make it better.” “Okay...” You stood up and waved your hand to him. You called Wooju and you left the park. You haven’t seen Hyungwon for a month but your feeling’s still there. You’re now walking to Wooju’s kindergarten. You were asked by Minseok along with his fiancee and Wooju to have a dinner. As soon as you fetched Wooju, you saw Minseok waiting outside. You waved your hand to greet him. “Thank you for coming here”, you said to him. “No, it’s fine. Come, Yoora (his fiancee) is waiting in the car.” “Okay.” You were walking towards the car when someone pulled you. You saw him after a month. “Hyungwon?” “Come with me”, he said in a commanding tone. You tried to resist from his grip but you can’t. “Hyungwon! Let go!” You told him numerous times but with no response. “Y/N! Who is he?!”, Minseok said. “It’s okay. He’s a friend.” “Oh.” “Minseok-oppa. I’m really sorry. I hope we can join you for dinner next time.” “Okay, sure. I’ll tell Yoora.” And you just let Hyungwon dragged you. He brought you to the park where you last talked. He sat in the swing without saying anything. He’s obviously angry. “Hyungwon? Why... are you angry?” “Noona, can I play there?”, Wooju said while pointing at the slide. “Sure, go.” “Hey, why are you so angry?” “Is it because we haven’t met for a month? I already told you about it when we last met, right?” After a few seconds of silence, he spoke. “Is this how you’re going to forget your feelings to me? By hanging out with another man?” “Huh? Another man?” “Yes. That ‘Minseok-oppa’. So do you like him now?!” His words is slowly getting into your nerve. “Minseok-oppa invited me and Wooju to dinner that’s why we were with him.” “Dinner, huh? You’re eating dinner with him when you can’t even eat with me.” “Seriously something’s wrong with you. You’re acting too possessive and you don’t even own me.” “For your information, we were supposed to eat dinner with his fiancee. His fiancee! If that makes you better.” His angry face slowly faded. “Oh, he has a fiancee...” “I told you already. He’s an oppa because he’s simply older than me.” “Ah, I see.” Now, he’s looking at the ground. At this time, you’re the one who’s getting angry. “Hyungwon, remember our conversation? I told you not to appear before me until I’m okay. But here you are. Can you just stop appearing? I’ll definitely call you if everything’s okay.” “Okay...” His answer pissed you off. After storming at you like that, he’ll just end it with an ‘okay’ when you’re hurting just by looking at him. Tears suddenly escaped from your eyes. You tried to stop it by looking up. You felt his hands on yours. You pulled your hand away and stood up. “Don’t touch me. It seems like you can’t understand. I still have feelings for you but here you are, getting all possessive. Stop it already! It gives me hope and I know that I shouldn’t interpret it that way. I’m sure that you’ve fallen for a woman also and just imagine that she doesn’t like you back. That’s how painful it is to see you.” You felt someone tugging your sleeve. “Noona, what happened? Why are you crying?”, Wooju asked. You quickly wiped your tears away. “I’m okay. Something went to my eyes and it really hurts.” “Okay... But let’s go home.” “Shall we?” You carried him in your arms. You walked away. “Ah, noona. Aren’t we going to say goodbye to that hyung?” Facing him is the last thing that you want to do right now. “Goodbye, Hyungwon”, you said while looking at the ground. You saw his shoes getting closer to you. He lifted your chin. You looked at the side, trying not to make an eye contact. You’re getting teary again when suddenly, you felt his lips on yours. You’re eyes gotten bigger and you looked at him. “W-w-what d-d-d-o you think your doing???”, you said while blushing hard. He grabbed you on your waist and pulled you towards him. He planted his lips again, this time while looking at you. He pulled himself away. You just looked at him, not knowing what to do. “I’m sorry I got angry. I just felt jealous.” Jealous? “While we were not meeting, I realized that I’m actually inlove with you. I get angry when you’re with someone that’s why I always drive men away from you even when we were still in school. I also feel happy when you’re happy. The smile you had when you showed Wooju’s picture was beautiful but at that time, I simply thought that it is because you are my friend. I’m sorry you’re pained every time you see me. But I really do love you.” Wait, is he confessing? “Huh?”, the only word that got out of your mouth. “That’s the only thing you can say to me, after confessing to you?” “Ah. Sorry. It’s just that I can’t believe it. Are you doing this... out of pity?” “No. I really love you. How many times do I have to tell it to you? It’s quite embarrassing, you know?”, he said blushing. “I-I don’t know what to say.” “You still love me, right?”, he asked. “I-I do.” “Then we’re dating now?”, he added. He looked at you in the eyes. You nod. He hugged you tightly and kissed you on the forehead. “Noona, what did you just do with hyung?”, Wooju asked. You and Hyungwon were flustered by his question. “Ah, that was...”, you trail off. “Do you want to know about it?”, Hyungwon asked him with a grin on his face. Wooju nodded to his question. You lightly hit Hyungwon. “Are you stupid?”, you exclaimed. He held your hands and laughed a little. “Guess you have to call me ‘oppa’ now.” You smiled at him. “No way.” “Then should we sleep together again?”, he said with a grin. You blushed hard from what he said and elbowed him from embarrassment. Thank you for reading!
