A/N: This kind of went angsty... also, I’m really sorry for taking so long on this one Nonnie! But on another note... This is written for @taetaesbaebaepsae
Soft tendrils of autumn air caressed your cheeks as you made your way through the small crowd. You didn’t want to come to this damned market, he worked here and it pained you so much just to hear his name let alone see him, but you needed to get strawberries and this market had the best ones. It just was a coincidence that it was his stall that sold them. Yes, that’s right. I’m just coming for strawberries. Not to see him.
“Changkyun-ah!” A shrill voice calls out, piercing through your thoughts.
Your heart squeezes in your chest as you stop, frozen just outside the fruit stall, eyes locked on a pair of shoes not far from where you stand. Slowly lifting your eyes, you trail them along his figure, it’s oh so familiar shape. Tingles race through your limbs as your fingers twitch to trace his jaw once more.
When your gaze meets his, you flinch at the sorrow that has hollowed out his features. “Auntie,” He calls loudly over his shoulder, “I’m going to take a break.” His deft fingers untie the apron from around his waist, “One minute Y/N. Please don’t leave, I’ll be right back.” He darts into the stall, depositing the cloth on a small table and plucking a small bag before quickly returning to your side.
Warmth wraps around your elbow as he takes hold, gently steering you through the crowd. “Where-”
“My place. We need to talk and it’s not far.” His deep voice holds no room for arguing.
You press your lips together, not knowing how to feel in this moment.
The trip to his apartment is short-lived and uneventful. The soft click of his door latching behind you pulls you from your thoughts once more and the comfortable feeling of it wraps itself firmly around you, causing you to ache once more for what you once had.
“I can’t stop thinking about you.” His voice pulls you deeper into the home, your feet carrying you to where he stands in the middle of his living room with his back to you.
Your hands reach out, but you pause a hair’s breadth from him.
He rapidly turns, fingers nimbly curling around your own. His soft lips press against the tips of your digits, his eyes tightly held shut as he holds onto you like you’re his only lifeline.
“Chang-” You gasp as lightning flares along your skin where your flesh meet.
“Please, Y/N.” His whispered words brush against your ears, “I need you.”
The words you want to say stop in your throat, choking you as tears well within your eyes. You look at him again, his own eyes filled with unshed moisture. You swallow, giving in to your own wants and needs. Slowly, you nod and you see the light fill him back up as he swoops in, capturing your lips in a soft caress.
“Will you stay the night?” He asks, his voice small and imploring.
The airport was bustling with people from all over the world. People with hoods up, a neck pillows around their neck, sweatshirts on and power banks at hand. Your arms wrap around you, tightening around you as you walk alongside Changkyun and Kihyun. Changkyun rolls his suitcases along side him, his hood looming over his head and his airpods in his ears ready for his departure. The atmosphere was tense but you knew what you heart was feeling. Kihyun tried to initiate conversation and Changkyun tried to keep his composure too since his mind was hectic enough after what happened a month or so ago. He stood still and turned around ready to say goodbye to his two best friends. You coudnt be mad at him, he was following his dream, something you encouraged so you took a deep breath and gave him once last hug. Who knew when he’d come back, today was the last day. “Hey, I’ll message you and talk to you and we can still play you know?” his hand rests at the back of your head and you felt serenity when he did so. You nod your head, feeling your eyes pool with tears already; “I value our friendship and trust me, it will never change!” he forces a smile knowing how much it pained him to formulate what came out of his mouth. Kihyun gently patted your back as you stepped away from Changkyun, your cheeks wet from your tears. “Your hoodies wet, sorry.” You sniffle as Changkyun just smiles at you reassuringly. “It’s okay, don’t worry about it.” He looks down in despair. Changkyun hugs Kihyun however this time it felt apologetic and empathetic; “I’m sorry if I caused you any pain Kihyun, take care of her well, I’ll see you again sometime soon,” His lips stretch into a smile before he grabs his suitcase to make his journey to the States. Who knew when the trio would meet again.
“Hey, are you okay?” Kihyun asks you. He could tell from the empty stare that you were hurt but you turn to him smiling as you’d always do, “yeah, I’m okay just… wouldn’t have expected him to leave you know?” you shrug before linking your arm with Kihyun’s. Changkyun pondered in the aircraft, his head leaning against the interior of the plane, staring to the nothingness outside. He was off to the states with his parents to start a new life, to experience new things. You and Kihyun took the bus home but instead Kihyun stopped off at the mall. “why did you stop here?” you ask looking at yourself in your compact mirror. “Maybe get you something to eat since you didn’t eat anything?” He grabs your hand and looks back up at your again and stops for a moment. Maybe that wasn’t a good idea? He gently takes his hand away from yours and waits for you to get off before he followed. Kihyun tried his best on this occasion to make you happy, paying for food and also buying some ice cream. The sky was progressively getting darker as you both walked home together the sweetness of the ice cream setting on your tastebuds. “are you feeling slightly better now?” he asks you as he holds the empty ice cream cup in his left hand leaving his right hand unoccupied. “a little bit, I guess I just have to accept it right?” you smile at him, “besides I’m moving onto campus in a couple days so it’s just the matter of getting on with it.” You clear you throat before a downpour spewed from the darkened sky. Instinctively, you latch onto Kihyun’s arm but that was when he’d have an umbrella on him. “it didn’t say it’d rain today?” Kihyun looks over at you shivering from the rain. He takes his long bomber jacket off from his body and drapes it over your shoulders to keep you as warm as possible. “What are you doing Kihyun?” the exclamation in your voice startling him. “You’re cold and I gave you my jacket,” Kihyun’s head tilts, stating what he was doing. “I mean, thank you I do appreciate it,” you smile, “if you had other ideas in your head, don’t..” Kihyun panicked. You smiled at his light-hearted teasing but Kihyun looked ahead whilst walking. You approached your house first and gave Kihyun a hug; “thank you for walking me home and comforting me this evening,” You say as your head was leaning into his shoulder, his arms were around your waist respectively. “I’ll be here for you and Changkyun will be there for you to regardless of time zones,” he speaks softly as you part from the embrace, “I know, I hope we can still keep in touch when we move to university.” You say as you make eye contact with Kihyun’s . You remove the jacket from the shoulders and hand it to Kihyun; “please get home safely, message me when you’re home,” You smile at Kihyun. It was like old times, where you used to prove you cared for me…“I will, I promise,” Kihyun puts his hand on your shoulder before he turns around and leaves through the gates and disappears around the corner. My heart never skipped beats like this before, get a hold of yourself. He puts his jacket back on and makes the rest of the journey home with the bus.
“Are you home yet?” you type in then delete the message. Your phone rests in your hand and you think what to write. You didn’t want to sound obsessive or too protective but you wanted to sound protective enough. “hey, are you home safe and sound?”
Kihyun looks down at his phone, taking it out of his pocket as he takes his shoes off and hangs his wet jacket to dry. “Yeah, just walked in,” Kihyun types, it felt weird how you’d message him only when you didn’t have Changkyun’s attention but he shook his head to forget the absurd thoughts since his mind was making things up to mess with him. “you okay?” he messages back.
“Yeah especially after this evening, thank you so much Kihyun,” you reply to him as you sit at your dining table with your family for dinner; “do you wanna maybe help out with me moving out?” you type then delete it again because he must be doing the same. “when will you be moving to your uni campus?” You ask him since you didn’t know where he was going but assumed it wasn’t to yours. “I’m packing on Thursday for Saturday.” Kihyun replies,
The blinking line in the text box blinks to the rhythm of your heart. You felt stupid for asking but you were curious. Your evening was spent with your family, enjoying and celebrating your acceptance to Seoul University; you wondered how these wondrous dorms looked like and if you were going to have a room mate, you thought about making new friends and going to university events and having unlimited access to the library that was radiating knowledge. It was all so new and it was exciting to you. You messaged Changkyun just so he knew you were thinking about him and you waited for his response although you knew he wouldn’t reply until tomorrow. You had to begin packing so you went to scavenge for some boxes which were in the attic. Your father helped bring the ladder down and you both went up to grab some boxes and to your surprise you found a few things that your forgot about. There were some photo albums and multiple boxes of trinkets and items which you went through. They were photos of you and Kihyun from your preschool days, some toys and presents that were made by Kihyun and a his glove that he left at your house when he was 6 years old. It brought a smile to you face. “hey, are these all you need?” your father asks holding up some flat boxes; “huh? Oh, yeah those are it!” you leave the stuff in the box and put it back into its place and going back down to pack your items. During the process, it felt nauseating to leave your family and voyage on this journey alone. How would you cope without your mother and father there to help you when you needed them, your mothers cooking, your puppy? It should be fine right? Your desk was almost all cleared away and you grabbed the final two things; the photo of you Changkyun and Kihyun and the stuffed bunny. You couldn’t leave them behind you had to take them with you.
Moving out day arrived shortly and you sat in the car with your father going to your campus to move in. “did you check your accommodation?” your father asks. “I did and it looked good!” you smile confidently. Little did you know photos and real life are two different things. You arrived to your accommodation; it was a tall building looming over on the street that had other accommodation complexes; the prices were astronomical and almost unaffordable so you stayed safe with the cheaper option. You fiddle with the keycard between your sweaty palms, why were you so nervous? You got to your dorm and you swiped the card to let you in although, despite the technology, the interior was cold and almost damp. “oh god, why is it like this in here?” your father asks as he takes a look around. The gas pipes trailed along the skirting of the walls, the paint was chipped and had minor stains on them which you didn’t want to question, not to mention the tattered curtains and dark carpets. “these carpets were supposed to be a light brown,” your father gulped “I have a carpet cleaner at home, we can clean this place up a bit before you settle?” he suggests and you just nod to him, not feeling very satisfied with what you have witnessed. You check the bathroom; the tiles were a rusty brown and there was limescale covering the shower head, taps and sink. God… you thought to yourself, you had a lot of cleaning to do. You didn’t have a private kitchen so the communal kitchen was something you had to get used to as well as sharing a fridge and cupboards. From this day on, you began to get your dorm into shape, cleaning and restoring the dorm as much as you could and investing in some slippers just to be extra clean! You set up your computer at your desk and brought in your items to move in peacefully. The windows were large and opened wide enough to let out the aroma of bleach and chemicals waft out as you spray some air freshener so you could respirate in your own living space. After your father left, you tried to get used to your dorm before there was a knock just as you sat down. You didn’t know if you should open the door so you just yelled: “ I didn’t order anything, I just moved in!”
“We’re not here for delivery!” one of the voices called out. It was a cheerful, higher pitched voice. She sounded cute and friendly so you stood up and took the risk to open the door. The girl had a blue hair that was looking seafoam green in the hallway lighting. He eyes were rounder and her dark almost like a puppy. “Hello floor mate, I’m Gowon!” she is the most beautiful person I have ever seen in my life – you thought to yourself. “ I moved in a couple weeks ago and I thought we could get to know each other!” She smiles, her pink tinted lips turn into a wholesome smile. You nervously chuckle, “ahah yeah! That’d be nice. I’m trying to get used to me dorm right now,” your hand rests on the back of your neck. “ you’ll get used to it in no time!” she smiles at you, “what are you going to major in?” she asks. God, I’m a Business and Management major, does that make me boring? “Business and Management..” your tone lowers, embarrassed at what you were saying. “Oh my god really! My friend does that, I’m super interested in fashion so fashion designing was quite interesting!” who was her friend? “do you have anyone from your school here?” Gowon asks and you shake your head. “what can you do,” you let your lips curl into a smile, “ one of my friends moved to the states because he wanted to go to university there and my other friend is staying here but I don’t know where he’s going, he hasn’t told me and I don’t wanna ask him because what if he did tell me and I wasn’t listening, I’d feel bad.” Your thoughts where going hectic. Gowon puts her hand on your shoulder, “hey! It’s okay if you keep in contact that’s all that matters and besides you can meet new people here!”
Gowon was so sweet and you could see yourself become really close friends with her. You text Kihyun; “hey! I moved in.” you type and add a smile emoticon to make it seem less dry than looked. You notice the bubble with the three dots appear – he was typing- and you sat on your bed waiting for his reply. “that’s cool! How is it?” he replied. He wanted to know what conditions you were living in hoping it was too bad. “it’s okay, there were a few problems but it’s okay, it’s all sorted out… kinda.”
You spoke to Kihyun for a few minutes before he had to go offline since he was busy. You first university day starts in a couple weeks so you had time to get used to your environment and make some friends while you were at it but it wasn’t easy since everyone was in their rooms most the time. Only Gowon was out on walks or getting some coffee or going for a small food shop. You thought it’d be a good opportunity to hang out with her for a while to get comfortable and become closer friends.
[a couple weeks later]
Your alarm buzzed at 6am. You haven’t heard that for a while and it was infuriating to hear the annoying sound at your ears when it was still dark outside. You grab your phone and sit up in your bed, tossing aside your phone which decided it would like it better on the floor. You groaned tiredly and slip on you slippers and grab a hoodie to make your way to the bathroom to freshen up. You look around for the toothbrush and toothpaste wondering where they were. Of course, you didn’t turn the light on, so your pushed the light switch to find them on your sink. Your tiredness was getting the best of you. You got dressed and decided today wasn’t the day for breakfast, grabbed your bad, phone, purse and key card to make your way to campus. It was cold but it was refreshing to walk in. Usually you’d walk with Kihyun but of course, he wasn’t here to walk with you every morning.
Gowon runs up behind you; “bOO!” she yells which startles you. “oh my-” you raise your voice only to realise it was Gowon. “did I scare you?” he nudged. Your connection to her felt familiar, like you knew her for a long time and it was comforting. You see behind her there was another person; His hair was blond and wavey, stopping just under is brows, lips tinted a light pink and his smooth, glass like skin illuminated by the winter sun. “This is Minhyuk, he helped me out when we both moved on the same day!” Gowon introduces and Minhyuk waves at you, smiling at you charmingly. You raise your hand and introduce yourself before you all go to campus. Who knew how easy it was to make new friends? Two already?
You think how Kihyun was doing but to your little knowledge, he was already in his first class getting to know everyone. He looked at his phone, swiping up to unlock it then pressing the green speech bubble to message you. “Hey, you in uni yet?” he asks you. “hey Kihyun, I am. Why are you messaging me?” you sounded a little passive aggressive you you send the ‘x’ kiss. “you do know I got to the same university as you but someonewas too excited to even ask me :/” you gasped and held the screen closer to your face. “have you seen a ghost?” Gowon asks “or did someone send you an early morning naughty photo” Minhyuk snickers behind her looking over her should just to see a series of texts. “boyfriend?” he asks. You shake your head; “no no, it’s just my best friend apparently he goes here too but-” you were interrupted by Gowon’s gas, “you didn’t ask him! Girl, were you dating someone and forgot about him?” you stood there silently biting your lip. “I take that as a yes, tell us about him, what does he do, where does he go, introduce us to him plea-” Gowon paused after seeing how dismal it made you feel talking about him. “he left to the states and I guess I have to move on,” you force a smile, “lets go shall we?”
Why did Kihyun make it hard for you. Now they think you’re in a love triangle, you hope they didn’t at least. Your introductory day went well and you met a lot of people who are doing the same degree as you. “Hey,” Kihyun waves with a smile whislt walking over to you. “Wow how have you not fallen for him?” Gowon asks you and you don’t respond. “what’s up man, your bestie here has said a lot about you!” Lies. Absolute lies. I don’t hate him but you don’t want people to get the wrong idea. “oh really? I must be the centre of your conversations then.” He looks down at you and ruffles your hair and you smile back. “well me and Kihyun have know each other since we were born pretty much,” you giggle before someone interrupted yet again, “hey, you four coming to the freshers party?” he asks. You all look at each other. “oh um, sure why not!” Minhyuk smiles from ear to ear. Freshers parties are for the new students to interact and get to know each other often organised by the senior students. “when is it?” Kihyun and Gowon ask simultaneously. “it’s actually going to be next month since the uni team are free then, it’ll be at a share house just a few minutes away from the campus, but I hope you guys can come!” the guy smiles and waves. “OI wait, what time?” Minhyuk hollers. “Probably 7pm and you can leave by the early hours of the morning, see ya!”
“damn so much freedom and responsibility, how does it feel to be so free?” Gowon asks. “My parents allowed me to do things reasonably, but this is a lot of responsibility,” you twiddled your thumbs, “she never got drunk, a good little bunny she is.” Kihyun smiles and chuckles teasing you. “you guys seem like a couple” Gowon giggles, “what a shame girly, I quite liked the look of your best friend Kihyun.” Gowon pouted. You felt a bit sick; “ew, this guy? Did you know he-” Kihyun’s hand covers your mouth, “now now, I am a man of many mysteries,” he raises a brow. You scoff.
Later that evening you hung out with the three friends you have, and you were invited to Minhyuk’s dorm. “Damn you have everything sorted here, your lights are cool!” Kihyun points out, “and a games console, alright turn it on let’s play!”
You and Gowon sit on Minhyuk’s bed and talk to each other. You glance at the boys and your heart does flips. No stop it don’t do that. You tell yourself, Gowon’s voice muffling until you were shaken out of it – quite literally. You try to divert the attention and soon after you decide to go back to your dorm. The trio seemed disheartened that you had to leave first but you just had to go.
You lay in your bed staring at the leak stain on your ceiling before turning away to the side, watching the screen of your phone glow blue. You gasped; “Hey, how are you?” it was Changkyun and he finally messaged you since he left. “I’m okay-” you think to type ‘I miss you’ but you didn’t want to sound .. well you know. “I’m okay, I made a couple friends!”
You and Changkyun spoke for a little bit until he stopped replying. It seems like he fell asleep; you knew he was enjoying his time there, Changkyun never turns down a party. You sigh loudly in your room before the heating stops and your room temperature drops rapidly. “no no no-“ you go to your heating dial trying to fix it. There was no hope; why is it your dorm room with all these problems? You let it be and tried to go to sleep with layers of blankets to keep you warm.
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“Hey, are you excited for the party?” Gowon asks. “so excited,” you smile and look at Minhyuk and Kihyun talking about something, “how about you guys?” You ask. “awh yeah, I think it’d be so cool!” Minhyuk smiled; his soft puppy like features not matching up with his ‘rebellious bad boy’ vibes was something that entranced you, just how? “Yeah, It’s a new experience so that’s cool,” Kihyun added.
Throughout the day you and Gowon and Minhyuk became closer as did Kihyun. “yo, so where does your girlfriend go?” Minhyuk asks assuming Kihyun had one. Kihyub smiles and sighs, “I never dated anyone..” Gowon gasped at his remark. “I mean I tried to set him up with my friend Irene but he just refused,” you shrug “what a shame, she was a nice girl.” You say as you stand beside him. “she actually refused me, did she tell you otherwise?” he asks you, his voice low. What’s gotten in to him? “I mean, no I just assumed that-“ you were interrupted by him, “heres a life lesson, assuming things isn’t very safe it can lead to many problems,” He patted your head and smiled “she refused me politely so now you know.”
Gowon stared at him in disbelief. “have you ever had feeling for anyone?” she was interested to know. He shook his head; it was a blatant lie. “Woow…” she looked away in disbelief. Kihyun laughed already predicting their reactions but he brushed it off it was no big deal, sometimes it was best to move on, right? [later that evening] The room was cramped with students new and old dancing and drinking with their friends in the kitchen, standing in the hallways and sitting on stairs. The music was blaring out so loud that you could barely even hear your thoughts which was a good thing. You approached a small group of people who seemed to be a year older; “hey! You’re a new student here right, first year?” one of the guys spoke out to you from the other end of the room and he seemed to be approaching you at a quick pace with a drink in his hand. “want some help getting to know some people?” he seemed super friendly and draped an arm around you and escorted you around the place. You already lost the others, usually Kihyun would be beside you regardless but he left with Minhyuk somewhere. You took a sip of the liquid which gave your tongue a burning sensation; “new to drinking I see, you’ll get used to it,” he smiles at you his arm tightening around your shoulder. “so out here are all the kids who were a part of some drama and they’re quite daring too, I must say I am a part of that group,” he chuckles “no worries though because in the kitchen are the 2nd year business and management lot.. they’re a bit boring but there’s that,” he tuts and passes them as your heart sank since you saw Minhyuk and Kihyun together with Gowon and someone else they befriended whilst you were being taken around by some random student. You felt a little dizzy as he was showing you around until you asked to sit down to which you were sat down on a couch with that guy. Voices began to muffle slowly, your world a haze; what was that drink? Or what was IN that drink?
You open your eyes, gasping for air finding yourself still on the couch although your head was in someone’s lap. You look up to see it was Kihyun and you gulped, nervous to even ask what happened. He looked rather angry and out of character, Minhyuk sitting with his hands in his hands and Gowon sitting on the arm of the seat. “she’s up guys there really was no reason to act up like that was it?” She looked at the boys. What even happened?
– Minhyuk and Kihyun both saw you passed out on the couch with the older boys surrounding you with cameras out facing the ‘nice guy’ trying to do something that wasn’t right. They were both furious but they were confused as to why each other reacted the way they did. Charging in absolute anger, Minhyuk threw the guy off you and Kihyun lifted your head up to check up on you. “Leave her alone!” Minhyuk grunted as the guy held him by the collar throwing a punch and leaving him on the floor. Kihyun checked if you were hurt and luckily you weren’t but he thought why Minhyuk go so angry so quick. It reminded him of how protective Changkyun was of you and it made his stomach churn. –
“let’s take you home..” Kihyun sighs “ I don’t think right now is the best time to come to parties..” he knew something would happen if he left you alone. “taking advantage of people is so shit,” Minhyuk scoffs as Gowon pats his back. “Let’s all just go and make sure she’s okay,” Gowon picks up your stuff. Only 3 hours in and this is what happens, what a vibe killer.
Your dorm has a leaking ceiling so when you opened your door your bed was wet. “you must be joking..” you whisper. “are you okay?” Kihyun asks. “yeah I’m fine thanks, you can go now, sorry for the trouble,” you look down in disappointment. “no problem, I’m here for you whenever you need me okay, my apartment is a few minutes away from your dorm,” he writes down his address on a text message and sends it to you. You nod and thank him before shutting the door and looking at the leak and open your door heading out again. “oh hey, you alright?” Minhyuk comes back with a plastic bag of things he bought from the convenience store; “why are you outside?” he asks “leak in my ceiling again…” you respond. “ahh, wanna hang at mine before you decide what to do?” you think for a moment. Maybe going to Kihyun’s was a good idea. “I think I might visit Kihyun now,” you nod.
You felt awful. You created such a scene yet Kihyun was still there for you. You get to his apartment and knock at the door and he opens knowing it was you. “welcome, good thing I’m making food” he smiles grabbing your hand to pull your inside “come here it’s cold out there”
“I’m sorry for what I did today,” you gulp and avoid eye contact. “sorry for what? Being an idiot and taking a drink from someone else? Yeah don’t worry you didn’t know but next time don’t get lost you have a phone for a reason,” he says laying a bowl of ramen in front of you, “anyway eat up,” he says going for it as soon as he sat down. “why are you here?” he asks. You stare at him, there was genuine concern in his eyes. “I have a leak in my dorm and my bed is wet,” Kihyun laughs, “what a lame excuse to hang out with me AND stay with me,” he jokes “I’m joking of course.” He hands you one of his hoodies since you seemed cold. “well you can stay here until someone fixes that leak in your dorm,” he smiles softly. I want to tell her right here right now… he opens his mouth then stops. “what were you going to say?”
“it doesn’t matter don’t worry…” he held back, no matter how hard it was. He tucked a bit of hair that dangled down the side of your face back. “don’t eat your hair too?” he jokes and laughs. “since when were you so cocky Kihyun?” you asked him since you noticed a shift in behaviour. I have no competition… “Oh I guess new school new me?” he shrugs. “right,” you nod.
You and Kihyun sit on his bed watching something on youtube, laughing at a show you both like until he drifted off leaning back on his headboard. You thought it was an uncomfortable position, so you moved his head to your shoulder and threw a blanket over him. This felt like the good old days. Your eyes also began to get heavy, so you thought to close your eyes for only a few seconds. Although, seconds turned to minutes and minutes to hours, by the time you knew it you were both asleep. Fast asleep.
Y/n finished her shift little late than usual. Hurrying up she catched the last train to home. Feeling relieved that the train wasn't full she took a seat, but it was rather an empty train so it felt little scary too.
Y/n started reading a book to pass the time and didn't even notice that someone entered the train at one stop. After few minutes she felt as if someone was watching her so she lifted her head up and her eyes met with an handsome guy gazing at her. 'oh no not him again' she thought to herself. This guy was always in the same train with y/n whenever she used to go to work and back to her home. He smiled as his eyes formed little crinkles around it. Y/n averted her gaze as she started blushing. "Excuse me. can I sit here?" the guy asked "ye-yeah sure" she said. "Annyeong! I'm Shownu" he titled his head and gave her the sweetest smile. Y/n gave him a tight smile and started reading her book again, though her heart was racing at tremendous speed. She peeked at the guy he was still looking at her. "well I've seen you many times" he said while scratching the back of his neck. y/n closed her book and turn to face him "is that so? are you by any means stalking me?"
Shownu frowned his brows and gestured a cross with his hands "No! I'm not. I mean I happen to travel to the same way you do, thatswhy" y/n chuckled at his flustered state and said "I know I've seen you many times too Shownu" He felt a little eased now and asked "what is your name?" suddenly your stop was announced and you jolted up from your seat, grabbing your bag and book you hurried yourself towards the exit. Just when you exited and the door was about to shut you turned around "It's Y/N!" with that the train left the station. You saw him smiling at you and waving. you laughed to yourself 'such a silly boy, but so handsome'
Hiii, first fanfic on this platform, inspired by Monsta X's MOTN, read while you listen to the song, hope you enjoy <3
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Changkyun couldn’t stop thinking about y/n a couple of months after they split, thinking back he realized it was stupid and he should have never blamed her for something she might’ve not done. But here he is, sitting in the driver’s seat of his convertible, parked in front of a telephone booth, contemplating whether or not to call her.
He convinced himself countless of times that he doesn’t need you anymore. He kept thinking where you are at the moment. He kept wondering who you might have brought home that day, or if you found someone new that you’ve moved on from him entirely..
But he couldn’t take it anymore, he got out of the vehicle and went straight for the booth. He dialed in the numbers, remembering every single digit, his fingers dragging slowly through the buttons, awaiting for the voice to pick up.
He was leaning slightly against the glass booth, looking out onto the dimly lit street at midnight, recalling the memories of your usual late night drives with the cold night air over your heads, how he would park his car and you two would just talk about life, usually ending up in a light make out session under the stars... His reminiscences were cut off by a voice from the other line.
“Hello? Who is this?” a voice rang.
Changkyun immediately stood up straight, quite hesitant to answer at first, a short silence hung between them.
“Hi...” He finally replied.
It didn’t take long for y/n to realize whose voice it belonged to. Her face was quite surprised upon hearing Changkyun’s voice, but he didn’t know that of course.
“What do you want?” she asked, her question filled with confusion and disappointment, yet hints of hope were detected.
“I don’t know,, I just missed your voice..” Changkyun started talking, and when he was met by the same silence, he carried on, figuring she was silent to listen.
“I missed those times we would just leave early from gatherings, running away from our friends to do whatever we wanted to. Ugh I missed our first kiss in the car under the moonlight..” There was a slight pause before he continued,
“But then again,, I could never lie to you y/n, I’m going out of my mind for you.. Ugh what I’m trying to say is,, I still love you. I never meant to hurt your feelings ending up into this mess. Please, give me another chance and I will make it up to you..” he ended, this time sounding more desperate.
Truthfully y/n didn’t know what to say, she was hoping for Changkyun to call her back and apologize and possibly wanting her back. But she was left speechless when he accused her for a crime she definitely didn’t commit, she just wasn’t ready to go back, even if she wanted to.
“I’m sorry Changkyun, but what you did to me left a deeper scar than you think, I’m not ready yet, and before you convince me any further, don’t. Just let time do its work and who knows what might happen.” y/n finished, giving out a small reassuring smile that even reached Changkyun, making him smile as well.
He respected y/n’s decisions and understood the situation. “I understand y/n, I’ll let time do its work. Sorry for bothering you so late, goodnight, I love you.” He ended the conversation.
“Goodnight.” y/n replied. She said a whispered ‘I love you’ back while pressing the button to end the call, hoping Changkyun didn’t hear it but also wishing it reached him too.
After hearing the line went flat and quiet, Changkyun returned the phone back to its place and smiled warmly, having to hear y/n still loved him back even though it was cut off made his heart feel all sorts of feelings. He made his way back to his car, started the engine and drove off.
Meanwhile y/n snuggled into her sheets to sleep, having Changkyun as her last thoughts before she dozed off.
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Go back to our own ways in the middle of the night
Go back to our own ways in the middle of the night
Go back to our own ways in the middle of the night
Go back to our own ways in the middle of the night
Go back to our own ways in the middle of the night
You let out a sigh as your eyes followed Hyungwon walking across the room. He looked worn out and tired.
“You could start by saying hi,” Hyunwoo said behind you.
You responded with an involuntary muscular spasm as a reaction of surprise. Embarrassed, you let out a nervous laughter.
“Shownu! I didn’t see you there,” you said.
He laughed, “I’m sorry Y/N, I didn’t mean to startle you.”
“It’s okay,” you said with a faint smile.
“You know, a lot of people think Hyungwon is cold. I’ll admit he gives that impression at first but he is genuinely kind. I just think he is a shy person,” Shownu explained while taking his mic off his shirt.
You bit your lower lip, still feeling embarrassed Hyunwoo had caught you red-handed.
“It is not that.. I don’t think he is cold. I just...” You trailed off.
How could you tell him how you really felt? You were coworkers and should be professional around each other. You felt like this conversation was a tad bit too personal. It could escalate and result in a huge scandal that you didn’t wish for. Although, you knew Hyunwoo would never tell anyone, you knew that if you weren’t careful enough it could easily spread false rumors. But who were you kidding? Even if you had the chance you wouldn’t have the confidence to speak to Hyungwon. He would never be interested in someone like you. You didn’t want the conversation to go any further than that, so you decided to tell a little white lie. Determined, you made a firm nod.
“You know what? You’re right. It won’t hurt to say hi. So that’s what I’m going to do! Thank you for the advice, Hyunwoo. I really appreciate it!” You said looking straight in his eyes. Your gaze quickly fell down to the floor when you noticed the confusion in his eyes. You escaped the scene before you would expose yourself.
21/3/2020 - 1:12 pm
You trailed your pen across the paper creating doodles on your manuscript. You were supposed to study the manuscript so you could complete your lines without having to read it again between every take. But you couldn’t focus. You kept thinking about Hyungwon. It’s been over two months since you first realized you had feelings for him. You’ve been working closely with Monsta X since last year. You had the same company as them and the head chief wanted them to help promote your new album. You had been a little skeptical as to why you couldn’t promote it by yourself. You suspected it was because the chief noticed it wasn’t going that well for you and decided their most successful “project” could set things straight. At first the boys just gave you the impression that they were really professional, talented and handsome but other than that they didn’t seem interested to get to know you. You also took the collaboration very seriously especially because you were scared you could lose your one and only job.
They each had their own charms on screen and off screen. To be honest, you hadn’t noticed Hyungwon that much as first. However, his attractive sides were soon revealed to you. He liked working late rather than early like you, so you met each other regularly. You had witnessed rare moments, a side of him that not everybody got to see.
(2/12/2019 - 2:45 pm)
You remember one time, when a staff member got scolded in front of everybody for messing up the schedule with some makeup artists which delayed the whole shooting. That staff member had been rude to everybody all day and you felt like he didn’t want to work. You later found out that he was the son of the director as replacement for one of the staff members that notified as sick. Well, after he got scolded he got pushed by people’s shoulders as they walked past him to get outside. At some point he dropped all his papers and nobody looked like they wanted to help. You remember you went over to help him pick up all the papers. He didn’t thank you and just walked away.
(3/12/2019 - 11:03 pm)
The next day, when you were on your way home, you heard two people talking, almost arguing, inside Monsta X’s dressing room. It was Changkyun and Hyungwon. You didn’t mean to eavesdrop but you couldn’t help but hear the conversation as you walked past the room.
“Still. It wasn’t your job to do so. You could’ve gotten into trouble,” Changkyun said.
“But I didn’t. What else can I say? I felt bad for the guy, he looked like he had a really bad day and it definitely didn’t get any better by his behavior towards others,” Hyungwon explained.
“Yea, yea, whatever you say man. Next time don’t be so obvious, okay? I mean, if it wasn’t me who caught you on the director’s computer I can’t even begin to imagine what could’ve gone wrong. And all that trouble, just because you wanted to make it look like he actually worked on the schedule! It was obvious that he didn’t have any plans to work as soon as he stepped into-” Changkyun stopped himself mid-sentence. “Wait, I think someone’s at the door,” he said.
You remember how taken aback you were at that moment. How did he know you stood by the door? Did he have some kind of sixth sense or something? You quickly increased your pace when you heard steps walking towards the door. You barely made it around the corner before you heard the door open.
21/3/2020 - 1:16 pm
And from that moment on, you kept an eye out for Hyungwon. You figured the whole conversation was concerning that staff member you had helped, and you were curious to know why Hyungwon would go that far to help a stranger. And especially someone who most people would think didn’t deserve it. In your eyes, you helped that guy pick up the papers because you were being kind. You knew he probably had a rough day and needed some help. But literally saving his ass by doing something that could get you into trouble? Why would Hyungwon sacrifice himself like that for someone he didn’t know?
You also remember plenty of other times, when he had comforted the other members when they were feeling gloomy. He just always knew.
(29/1/2020 - 8:17 pm)
One time, you were shooting with the boys, and Jooheon kept messing up. He got more and more upset for every time he didn’t succeed but no one could tell because of his smile and laughter as he tried to play it cool. After the shooting you had noticed Hyungwon used the last bit of his energy to get water for Jooheon. The other boys laid flat down on their backs as soon as they heard the director yell “cut!” because of exhaustion. Hyungwon dapped the sweat off Jooheon’s forehead with a towel, hugged him and made him laugh. And you realized he was comforting him. Your heart fluttered by the thought of the memory. So thoughtful of him, you thought.
21/3/2020 - 1:35 pm
“Y/N!”
You almost jumped out of your chair of pure shock as your name got called out.
“Why are you sitting there daydreaming? We don’t have time for that! Stop being lazy and get to work!” The director said after walking past you.
“I’m sorry! I will do better!” You said with a slight bow.
Your cheeks were warm red as you fumbled through the manuscript.
“Having problems?” You heard a voice say behind you.
You gulped as you recognized the voice. Hyungwon.
You turned around to see him walking towards you.
“Ah, I, Uh..” You stammered.
Why were you embarrassing yourself like this? Say something!
“Yeah, I’m having trouble remembering my lines,” you said.
You couldn’t look him in the eyes but felt his presence in front of you. Before you knew it, you asked him if he could help.
“Can you help me? If you don’t mind, of course,” you said.
“It would be my pleasure,” he said.
His hand reached out for the manuscript in your hands.
Were you supposed to do lines with him now?!
He laughed at your expression and shook his head.
“Here, let me read your partner’s lines and then you’ll try and remember yours,” he said.
You hesitantly gave him your manuscript. He cleared his throat and prepared his voice, “Okay, I’ll start from page 11,” he said.
I started stanning Monsta X recently, and been taking interest a bit more on Jooheon.
If anyone else is like me and would like to read nice Monsta X scenarios, i really recommend @mx-sfthrs
I love how she writes soft stuffs and her portrayal of the members’ personality is on point! (Imo of course) I definitely enjoyed all her Jooheon writings and how he is such a big ball of fluff and adorbs babie in them.
I’m starting to read the other members’ too cuz her stuffs are all too good to pass! Besides, i noticed she lacked the notes she deserves!
As Teagan pulled Priscilla out of the club, a crowd began to form, watching the hassel unfold infront of them. "I can't believe I looked all over, worried SICK that you might be in danger, only to
find that you've been here dancing for these pigs?!", Teagan screamed as she raised her hand and swiftly accross her younger sisters face. The crowd overgrew with sounds of shock. "Oh my..did
she just hit her?", "Bro, that's messed up."
Teagan stopped in shock at what she'd just done. She watched as her sister was met with the hard cement floor infront of a crowd. "WHY DID YOU HIT HER?!", Changkyun surprisingly shouted
from the crowd as he pushed his way towards the younger on the ground. He held her as she hid her face in his chest, embarressed to face the growing crowd. Jooheon stood by as he watched his
younger brother's eyes turn from a shade of brown to a shade of black. "Changkyun, stand down.. it's an order.", Jooheon communicated through telepathy. Changkyun's veins began popping out
of his neck as he shot a death glare. "But she hurt her, not only physically, but I can feel her emotional scars. SHE WENT TO FAR.", he growled as he slowly got up, taking a step closer to Teagan.
Teagan could only freeze in shock, for she could hear the excahgne of words.
"Whoa..easy there.", Hyungwon said, stepping in between Changkyun and Teagan. He put his hand on the younger brothers chest before slowly plastering a smile on his face. "Changkyun.. you
don't know this girl you're protecting, let alone the relationship between these two. Don't jump into the action without knowing the story okay.", he said as the clouds slowly disappeared from
Changkyun's eyes. He sighed before nodding and placing his jacket ontop of Priscilla whom was still hiding from the crowd. "Let me take you home.", he whispered as he picked her up and
escorted her away.
"Alright guys, nothing to see here.", Hyungwon said as he motioned for everyone to leave. He earned himself a couple of glares from the crowd as they slowly made their way. "Come on move it!
You heard the man, keep it pushing you nosey asses dayuuum!", Ari shouted as she started shooting death glares at the left over handfull of people. Soon the place was left with the four standing
in awe at the situation. "Wow Tea, I gotta say that WAS kinda messed up of you to hit her infront of everyone, I mean shit I'd be embarrassed as hell, you should've waited AT LEAST until you
were alone and not with a crowd. People know her here, as sad as it is to say, this was her place of work.", Ari rambled, emposing more guilt. "OK yeah thanks Ari, I didn't need you to do a whole
summary on everything that just happened.", Tea barked back. Ari nervously laughed and backed away. "Sorry, I'll just go get the car.", she said as she shot a 'yikes' type of look Hyungwon's way
as he recipricated the look. "I'll go with you~", he managed to whisper as he tip toed her direction.
"Stop right there if you don't want me to kill you here and now. Get your ass over here Hyungwon you have some fcking explaining to do.", Tea snapped without even turning to look his direction.
Ari and Hyungwon just made a "uh0h" look at eachother as Ari mouthed her farewell to Hyungwon. He stopped, and twirled his way to Teagan as she stood there beaming smoke like a pot of hot
water. "What can I do for you bestie?", Hyungwon said with a cheeky smile on his face as he held Teagans hands, knowing they would swing up at him if he did not hold them in place. "How could
you not tell me and Ari that you're...", she looked around before whispering "Ruler of Earth", she said as she felt a shiver run down her spine. He made a disgusted face before shaking his head and
nodding his finger in her face. "No no no. I prefer to go by King of the Human lands.", He said as he did a sassy hair flip. "Oh okay that makes sense.", Teagan said with a smile as she giggled and
nodded in agreement. "Yeah cause this face is of a King you know.", he said proudly.
She stomped on his foot before tugging her arms out of his embrace. "This isn't the fucking time to joke Won. We've been friends for years, I'm so hurt if anything. I've trusted you with everything,
all of my secrets. I can't believe you didn't tell me. Did you think me and Ari would hate you or something? Burn you like- wait.. is this because I said I agreed with the Salem witch trials in Jr. High
and that I'd burn anyone I thought was a witch?! Cause I only said that because I wanted witch powers, not because I hated witches.", she said as she began rambling on about different scenarios.
Hyungwon sighed and put his hand on her shoulders. "Tea.. I didn't tell you OR Ari becasue I'd have to kill you if I told you.. But NOW I can talk to you about it because my brother right here-", he
said pointing at Jooheon who still hasn't left. "Shares a connection with you. I'm sure he's already explained to you that now that he's saved your life once, he can save your life for a lifetime, and
maybe more. The reason you're getting this connection from the mind telepathy is because Jooheon is connected to us by blood, which some of his blood has not transferred into your body. He
actually needs to hear you when you're in danger now. Where ever you may be. If you die.. Jooheon dies.", He said, gulping the last part. Teagan stood there in silence as she shared eye contact
with Jooheon. "You didn't tell me that part....", she whispered as Jooheon finally looked away.
"I didn't WANT to tell you that, but now you know..", he said as he began walking towards Wonho's car. "But not to worry Teagan. You're in good hands.:", he said as he clicked the car to unlock. He
turned around with his dimples sunk deep into his cheeks. A handsome devil he surely is... "As long as you're in my care, you're not getting hurt on my watch."
Gaping at the little stick in your hand, you blinked. You weren’t sure how you were going to tell Hoseok the news. You hadn’t really discussed children so far because being married itself was something he had just warmed up to. Sure, he liked kids you were aware, but you were taking baby steps ever since your wedding. When you skipped your period, you were a little concerned and decided to take a test.
You were glad you did.
Except now you had no idea how to break the news to Hoseok. He had left for the studio earlier in the morning, but not without a kiss on your cheek. Rinsing your hands off in the sink, you dropped the pregnancy test into a ziplock bag (not without feeling a little bit like a CSI agent). You changed out of your pajamas, grabbed your coat and headed straight to Hoseok’s studio. After years of working on creating and producing music for Starship, he had finally gotten a studio for himself and right now, you were glad for any privacy you could get. It felt too impersonal to tell your husband and light of your life that he was going to be a father by phone.
Reaching the studio, which was no more than two blocks away, you felt the anxiety build again. This was sweet and good Hoseok, but also Hoseok who at one point didn’t want to get married. Wasn’t having a baby with him a little too soon since you both had promised to take baby steps? You pursed your lips and wondered, if he didn’t want to have a baby, he would have discussed it with you, the two of you would have taken the necessary precautions to prevent a pregnancy.
The elevator ding-ed and the doors opened to the floor where Hoseok’s studio was. Walking over to the door, you knocked and waited. Getting no response, you let yourself in and headed over to the seat where Hoseok usually sat. Except you found him recording something inside the booth. He noticed you and shot you a puzzled look followed by a goofy smile before bobbing his head to the beat of the music playing in the headphones. You waved to grab his attention again as he looked up and you mimed talking. He pointed to the microphone asking you to tell him what you needed to say. You took a deep breath before picking up the device.
“I’m pregnant.”
You found it endearing, the way his eyes went round and wide as he gaped at you through the window. The sheaf of lyrics in his hand dropped as he just stared at you in shock and you weren’t sure exactly what this reaction meant. You picked the microphone up yet again.
“You can scream if you want.”
The door of the recording booth flew open as Hoseok rushed out and picked you up in his arms and twirled you around.
“You’re going to be a mommy and I’m going to be a daddy!” he squealed as you grabbed onto his shoulders, thrown off by the sudden movement.
“Hoseok! The recording!”
“Screw the recording! We’re having a baby! In fact I will save it and play it to my child every birthday!” Hoseok yelled joyeously now squeezing you in a hug and planting kisses all over your face. You laughed at the ticklish feeling as you hugged him back.
Well, things did go well. You even had it on record.
