#more experience

[nova-moon13]

[fieriframes]

[THE EMPIRE THING'S NO JOKE. AND YOU KEEP WINNING BEST DIVE RESTAURANT? YEAH, WE HAVE FOR FOUR YEARS IN A ROW NOW. BEST DIVE RESTAURANT? THOUGH THEN, WITH MORE EXPERIENCE, THEY WILL COMPREHEND GOOD AND EVIL BETTER OF CHOWIN' DOWN IN WHAT MIGHT AS WELL BE A PHONE BOOTH-- WELL, A PHONE BOOTH WITH A PATIO...]

[justabrokenrecord]

i've never felt this isolated till recently

[bookquoter]

4538. "If only I had more experience waking up on top of a gorgeous boy. Or more experience being this close to a member of the opposite sex, period."

-Romeo Redeemed, Jay 138

[rach-et-xo]

stealing from charlotte as per lmao

bold what applies to you

1. had sex. 2. bought condoms. 3. gotten pregnant. 4. failed a class. 5. kissed a boy. 6. kissed a girl. 7. used a little paper bag for lunch. 8. had a job. 9. slipped on ice. 10. missed the school bus.  Total so far: 6 11. left the house without my wallet. 12. bullied someone on the internet. 13. sexted. 14. had sex in public. 15. played on a sports team. 16. smoked weed. 17. smoked cigarettes. 18. smoked a cigar. 19. drank alcohol. 20. watched “The Breakfast Club” Total So Far: 15 21. been overweight. 22. been underweight. 23. had an eating disorder. 24. been to a wedding. 25. made fun of someone for being fat. 26. been on the computer for 5 hours straight. 27. watched tv for 5 hours straight. 28. been late for work. 29. been late for school. 30. kissed in the rain.

Total So Far:  22 31. showered with someone else. 32. failed my drivers test. 33. ran a mile in less than 10 minutes. 34. been outside my home country. 35. been on a road trip longer than 5 hours. 36. had lice. 37. gotten fired. 38. had a credit card. 39. been to a professional sports game. 40. broken a bone.

Total So Far: 27

41. been unhappy about my weight. 42. won a trophy. 43. hurt myself. 44. had an STD. 45. got engaged. 46. been on a diet. 47. tried out to be on a tv show. 48. rode in a taxi. 49. been to prom. 50. played a drinking game.  Total So Far: 33

51. stayed up for 24 hours or more. 52. been to a concert. 53. had a three-some. 54. had a crush on someone of the same sex. 55. been in a car accident. 56. had braces. 57. learned another language  58. killed an animal.  59. been at a yard sale. 60. been to a Japanese steakhouse. Total so far: 38 61. wore make up. 62. talked to someone via webcam. 63. lost my virginity before I was 16. 64. had my wisdom teeth taken out. 65. kissed someone a different race than myself. 66. snuck out of the house. 67. bought porn. 68. had a virus on my computer. 69. had oral sex. 70. dyed my hair. Total So Far: 43

71. gone skinny dipping. 72. graduated from college. 73. wore someone else’s clothes. 74. voted in a presidential election. 75. rode in an ambulance. 76. rode in a helicopter. 77. caught the stove on fire. 78. got in a fight. 79. met someone famous. 80. been on vacation. Total So Far: 48

81. been on an airplane. 82. been on a boat. 83. broken something expensive. 84. had surgery. 85. kissed someone before I was 14. 86. beat a video game. 87. found something valuable on the ground. 88. made a survey. 89. stalked someone on facebook/myspace. 90. prank called someone. Total So Far: 57

91. been to a library outside of school. 92. spent over $100 shopping in one day. 93. cut my hair and hated it. 94. peed outside. 95. went fishing. 96. helped with charity. 97. taken a pregnancy test. 98. been rejected by a crush. 99. been suspended from school. 100.broken a mirror. Grand Total: 65/100

[octoslice]

Jealousy.

Is that what this is? I don't feel like it is, but perhaps that's my pride talking. I love her, admire her, and look up to her in so many ways... but I don't feel as if she is generally better than me.

When he talks about her, he talks about how incredible she is, and how proud he is of her. I feel the same way about her, don't get me wrong! But he never says any of those things about me. Not while I'm around, anyways.

He calls her the "Art Messiah," and I believe her art to be truly special and amazing. I just don't feel like she's better than I am, like he seems to insinuate. Of course, we have different specialties and talents. But all in all, we are both respectable artists.

Maybe the fact that she's younger than me is making me nervous, that I'm beginning to feel like I'm in her shadow. The fact that he said "she had more experience" than me, with drawing. Well, at 21, I've been enamored with art ever since I could grasp a crayon, and well... she's over a year younger. Yes, she's incredible. But she's not more experienced, per say. 

I suppose this can all be chalked up to jealousy. But something inside tells me it's righteous to feel this way... Or at least it sets me on fire to become better than anyone thought I could be. Hopefully I can build off of this damaged ego and find a place I'm truly comfortable.

[simplelittlebandthings]

Thanks shaigirl-1!