( @morecapable / cont. )
maybe yaz is right. maybe it isn’t about what they could do, because anyone can get through anything, given enough time and enough will, even those things that seem so impossibly dark that you can’t see how light will ever get in again, but that doesn’t mean they want to. doesn’t mean they should have to, either. and they’re doing so much, out here. so much good. ryan feels more, now, than he ever has done before. it’s hard, sometimes, and bloody awful, but...he loves it. he loves what it’s given him.
how does anyone meet the doctor, and then go back to before like it never happened?
❝ no way. ain’t enough money in the world to make me wanna go back to that, now. ❞ home is...distant. it’s a ryan that hadn’t found out who he was, yet, a ryan who’d lost so much. a ryan who was just getting through each day ‘cause he had to, but not really living any of ‘em. ❝ this is...so much more important than anything i could be doin’, back there. so much more, full stop, really. i wanna be here, same as you. ❞