if someone told soohwa that he’d text alec asking if he could come over because everywhere else that is familiar to him feels too suffocating, with too many prying eyes and malicious whispers, the head student would scowl at them, threaten to take away some points of their houses for the absurd that they’re saying. after all, soohwa doesn’t like alec, was never too comfortable with him. he knows it’s definitely a dick move from his part because the other has never done anything to him, has never picked up a fight with him, they have barely spoken to each other despite the halloween incident. there was barely any opportunity for alec to do anything bad towards him anyway.
but they have this big factor in common and that was what bothered him. soohwa never alleged he was a nice person, that he was selfless and understood his boundaries to the point of controlling his feelings about them. he’s a very jealous person, bordering on a hint of possessive. he’s selfish and doesn’t like to share, even if what it isn’t his place to decide that. hyunki and him are complicated, perhaps a little less now (surprisingly) after the sex tape, they’re a little sure of certain things now that settle soohwa’s heart a little more, even if it’s not quite perfect yet.
soohwa knows about alec, probably more than he wanted to. he knows he’s friends with hyunki, that they do a little more than what normal “friends” do, he’s vaguely aware that a lot of times when hyunki would show up at his door on sunday with hickeys all over his neck and chest, they could only have been made by one person. and if that physical connection wasn’t enough, alec and hyunki look good together, the suseong student a much more social and easygoing person than soohwa could ever be. he knows that alec would be a better person for hyunki in every aspect, he sees potential in them as a couple and soohwa— he hates it, tries his best to swallow it down and deal with it but it doesn’t make him hate it any less.
until, of course, the sex tape scandal exploded and alec was... nothing but nice, despite the comments about his ass that soohwa is still trying to recover from, and maybe it’s because he’s in a more vulnerable spot, especially after the talk with his parents, that his heart could have opened a little more to the other, enough that here he is, knocking on alec’s door with his favorite whiskey hidden in his backpack because soohwa needs a distraction, needs a new place to breath a little. “it’s me, soohwa.” he says a little louder after the knocking to identify himself.
