seasons change

but people don't

[msuxhyunki]

msukevin​:

[ ✉︎ → sexy seeker 🥴 ] damn bro….that’s sucks…. [ ✉︎ → sexy seeker 🥴 ] nice sharing the field with u while it lasted! [ ✉︎ → sexy seeker 🥴 ] dw tho bro i’ll score enough points to make up for ur absence !!!

➥ don’t lie ➥ kevin this is the worst thing that could have happened  ➥ we’re going to lose every single game  ➥ ur going to let me down

[msuxhyunki]

msukevin​:

[ ✉︎ → sexy seeker 🥴 ] 👁👄👁 [ ✉︎ → sexy seeker 🥴 ] ANYWAY BRO when u caught the snitch in that last match— HELLA SICK BRO!!!

➥ i hate this ➥ i hate you  ➥ please never look at me or talk to me or think about me  ➥ yeah, you mean my last match? admin’s took me out until next semester.... 

[msuxhyunki]

msusoohwa​:

[...]

soohwa is such a quick learner that it’s really taken him no time to learn what makes hyunki squirm under his touch. 

he’s a quick learner, and while he’s not the most remarkable person that hyunki has slept with, no the most adventurous or even at times, the most exciting, there’s just something different about being in his bed (or shower, or floor, or wherever.) something in the way he touches him, or maybe how attentive he is. 

how sweetly he kisses him? it’s something, a hint of it that hyunki actively avoids. 

even if right now, well, he can’t really do that, but it’s turning out to not be so bad. he kinda likes it-- or, really likes it by how his thighs are shaking and his feet slide over the covers, gasping and moaning into soohwa’s mouth. 

and if it’s a little pathetic, desperate sounding, how he whines and reaches out for soohwa the second he sits back, the second he takes him hands off him, well he just won’t mention it when they watch this back-- because they will be watching this back. the thought makes his cock twitch, a deep breath and he mumbles, “hurry up then.” but there’s a hint of amusement in his voice and a little smile curling on his lips. 

hyunki watches him with a greedy look, catching his lip between his teeth and propping himself up on his elbows. he meets soohwa halfway, one arm wrapping around his neck to kiss him back, toes curling as he finally gets what he wants. 

soohwa isn’t the biggest or the most skilled person he’s every slept with, but each and every time the head boy kisses him like this and slides his cock in oh so slowly, almost a bit mean (even if he knows that soohwa is obsessed with being careful, gentle with hyunki) he swears he’ll never find someone who does it better. 

he has to push the other back a little, falling back into the pillows, gasping as the other bottoms out and his eyes are rolling back. “god, if you don’t move immediately.” 

the glance at the camera is accidental, but there’s a spark of pleasure that shudders through him when he thinks about how he must look right now, spread open, breathless, but then he looks up at soohwa and pleads, “please.” 

[msuxhyunki]

msukevin​:

[ ✉︎ → sexy seeker 🥴 ] considering how long it took u to notice it was even up i’m gonna say yeah lmao [ ✉︎ → sexy seeker 🥴 ] but what i cant believe is u NOT calling it sexy time [ ✉︎ → sexy seeker 🥴 ] bro????

➥ thanks that makes me feel so much better wow  ➥ .... i call it sex, like any other normal person  ➥ but i’m gonna call that a mistake more than anything  ➥ at least tell me you didn’t watch it 

[msuxhyunki]

msusoohwa​:

[...]

talking about which— “i heard it first from friday.” soohwa actually grimaces when he remembers her messages, her awful code for sex. “actually technically jamie, another ta for dada, i don’t know if you know her, texted me first, but she kept beating around the bush. another couple of friends also texted me.” he scrunches his nose when he also remembers that— “alec also texted me surprisingly. said i had a cute ass. i still don’t know how to feel about that as a matter of fact.”  

“friday?” he frowns. that means she’s seen-- “god. of course it had to be her.” not only did he spill intimate details about him and soohwa to her pre halloween, but now she had the actual evidence to back up his word-- which was a lot more damning than he was comfortable with. there was a different between telling someone what you did in the bedroom and them actually watching it. 

he shakes his head though at the mention of the other people because, “i can’t say i know her well.” mostly of her, but nothing more. 

but hyunki is scoffing because, “alec texted me too.” which, to be fair, he was texting alec last night, recounting some details, but again, it was much different. “cal told me. and... kevin, which is weird because i didn’t even now he had my number.” still, each person that mentioned it to him, buzzed about it, well, that meant that they had seen him, seen them intimate like that. 

“there were a few... buzzard’s too. but i won’t recount those to  you.” he didn’t want to make his worse... 

hyunki looks down at his hands in his lap, fidgeting because, “what kind of trouble do you think we’re going to get in? do you think we’re going to be-- oh my god.” he gasps, quiet. “do you think we’ll be expelled. it was an accident-- they have to realize that. or maybe-- maybe they didn’t see it.” even if he knows there’s absolutely no way it wouldn’t have gone unnoticed, even if it was taken down now. “we’re screwed, aren’t we?” 

[msuxhyunki]

msusoohwa​:

[...]

he frowns when hyunki starts crying again, wants to reach out to brush his tears away but again soohwa stays puts right where he is. instead, he clears his throat again, tries to wipe off the frown of his face because hyunki just understood that he isn’t mat at him and soohwa doesn’t want to give away wrong signals. “it was an accident, i know you didn’t mean to do it and you deleted the video as soon as you saw what happened. you did everything you could in the situation.” then soohwa just shrugs. “there’s no reason to be mad at you. as you said before, i also consented to the sex, not only consented to the video but i was the one who suggested it. so… if you’re not mad at me even if i feel like you should be, then i have even less reasons to be mad at you.” 

“you’re so stupid.” he whimpers, tears slipping down his cheeks, but he finally moves. it’s slowly, but it’s surely. hyunki crawls up the bed, into soohwa’s lap, arms wrapping around the other’s shoulders. now that he’s sure that the other isn’t mad at him. 

isn’t going to retaliate against him, isn’t going to do anything to take his anger out in hyunki’s direction, so he feels it’s okay to touch, okay to let himself get a bit closer and not risk himself. 

even if he knows, again, he knows soohwa would never be the type. 

but he isn’t and hyunki slowly lets himself melt into the other’s arms, shoulders shaking with sobs again, but nearly as hard as before. now he just buries his nose into soohwa’s bare shoulder and mumbles, “i’m sorry. i’m so sorry.” because he still was. 

no matter who’s fault it was, it was him that posted it and him who should have to deal with the main consequences. 

it takes him a minute to get over himself, to cry himself out again, but eventually he does, subsiding to small sniffles as he just sits there for a second, not really wanting to move. soohwa is much more comforting than people of his past, he doesn’t feel like he’s about to get reprimanded for his tears, won’t be told to shut up, to stop crying. it was something and if he didn’t feel so absolutely horrible for what he did, he would say it was something important. 

“did...” he sits back a little, sniffling and rubbing his eyes. “who told you?” because god forbid it be a professor or someone worse. “who told you that it was up?” 

[msuxhyunki]

msusoohwa​:

[...]

any other time he would say that soohwa is doing too much, he’s being too much, but whatever it was, be it the camera catching their every move, or just how much more intense and charged this feels than usual, hyunki feeds on his words. 

they make him feel good, wanted-- not that he ever doesn’t with the other. 

“more.” he insists in between breaths and kisses. he won’t break, soohwa knows he won’t break and it’s nice. it’s always nice with the other, even if he’s not nearly the most adventrous, the most intense person hyunki has slept with, it’s always nice. he always ends up wanting more. “another. hurry up.” 

he’s impatient, just wants to move things along, wants that satisfaction of falling apart under the other. doesn’t want to dweel on how sweet the prasie makes him feel, how it makes his back arch, hips rolling into soohwa’s touch and nails digging into skin. 

but really, who is he to disagree when it really feels like that at the moment, feels like there’s nothing else in the world except the way soohwa kisses him, the way his hands feel on him and how eager he is because he knows how it’ll feel once the other is finally in him. 

that thought along has him groaning, nodding along as he forces himself to look the head boy in the eye, teeth sinking into his own lip. “made for it-- for you cock.” he’s no stranger to a bad mouth, knows how to play the game and sure, he can play just fine with soohwa, but he always ends up a little breathless, speechless, mind numbed and he’s getting there. 

it must be the added charge of the camera, feeling almost like someone is watching them, and the though of just how good they probably look together in the dimness of the other’s room, flushes and so close. hyunki takes a slow glance at the phone, breath hitching at soohwa’s touch and his own hand wrapped around himself. 

they must sound obscene as well. 

it’s not something thinks about for long, much more interested in dragging soohwa back in for a kiss, open mouthed, messy and desperate. 

[msuxhyunki]

msusoohwa​:

[...]

“and then said head student will be even more preoccupied making sure to find fun ways to punish them for it and maybe not so officially also punish them for watching the video.” and soohwa hopes that this casual enough to lift the mood a little, to stop hyunki from crying again.

the tears don’t fall. he’s a little confused at the other’s words, mostly because they aren’t scathing and aren’t accusing him of deserving this. no, they’re self deprecating and he’s not sure what to do with that. 

“so you’re really not mad?” and it’s something that hyunki just can’t seem to wrap his head around. “soohwa, i posted a video of us having sex. like... full on... fucking.” the idea that he wasn’t in the wrong here was just so outlandish he couldn’t believe it. 

“they saw me cum. they saw you-- dick out and--” it just didn’t make sense. the other had every right to be mad at him and he was laughing. he was laughing because he didn’t think it was hyunki’s fault. 

or, he was being baited. led to believe that the other wasn’t mad until soohwa could properly lash out at him, really do damage. but... looking at him, really looking at his face, listening to the words he’s saying and it’s a slow conclusion that hits him, but when hyunki gets it it has him murmuring in a quiet voice, leaning forward a little, “you really aren’t mad...” 

he’s hesitant, cautious when he moves, only pulling his feet up onto the bed, inching just a bit closer to the other with that confused look on his face. “you should be mad at me.” and this time when the tears gather in his eyes, it’s for a different reason. he’s almost relieved, which is silly considering their situation. “you should be so mad at me. why aren’t you mad?” 

[msuxhyunki]

msunate​:

[...]

“you’re off the main team, then, effective immediately. we’ll bring in the reserve seeker the rest of the semester. i’ll trust you’ll be willing to work with him to prepare him for the matches.” nate wants to leave it at that, but despite how much he might dislike hyunki, there’s always gonna be a bigger part of him that values kindness above all else, and so he has to ask… “you doing okay, though? with… everything that happened?”

it’s beyond embarrassing to be standing here. he can tell that the team has dissolved into whispers, some being not to subtle in their looks his way. he hates the way people look at him now, like they know (which, makes sense because most of them do know. they know more about him than they’d like for him to know.) 

and he takes a cautious glance at nate just to check and-- yep. that’s the exact look. 

he know what the letter said, he had to sit through the excruciating meeting where his consequences were spelled out, each and every one feeling like a nail in not only his social coffin, but his academic one as well. 

but even if he knows what’s coming, knows how he’s taken off the team for the last two matches of the semester, the most important ones, well, it stings. it stings because they had done so well that last match, the snitch having ended up securely in hyunki’s grip. and now, well, he just ruined that for himself, didn’t he? 

“yeah, i’ll help... it’s the least i can do.” if he can’t play he can make sure that the reserve seeker puts up a fair fight in his place. he clears his throat, rubbing his neck and seemingly trying to avoid an answer. 

he knows he can’t though, knows that nate didn’t even have to ask, especially when he was clearly upset with the other. so he deserves an answer. “i’m... doing as well as you might expect...” hyunki sighs, finally forcing himself to look at the other. “did you...” a frown. “yeah, of course you did. everyone did. it’s... they took my prefect status. that kinda sucks, but... … managing.” 

[msuxhyunki]

msusoohwa​:

[...]

the head student fidgets with his own hands, his turn to not be able to look at hyunki in the eyes. “actually, i—” he bites his bottom lip a little too harshly, nervous and anxious, almost chews on it. “i’m the one who should be apologizing, i’m sorry. i acted like a child again, then i suggested the video without thinking about how this could happen and now because of it, we did the— video and we’re stuck in this situation now. once again i wasn’t able to control my emotions. i was selfish, greedy and immature. that’s why i’m sorry. i’m really really sorry.” soohwa can feel his breath getting uneaven again, quickening while waiting for hyunki throw a pillow at him, to yell and announce that he doesn’t want anything to do with hyunki anymore, to end things and blame soohwa for it as much as soohwa blames himself.

the attention of the little crup is nice, reassuring and not so overwhelming that is sends him any further into tears. in fact, it makes him move, scoot back on the bed a little so cookie can climb in his lap, shower attention on him and wag that silly little tail of his. 

and it help’s that soohwa is so quiet, is to attentive and not overbearing, not pushing him this way or that. he lets him process this at his own pace and it’s sweet, so, so considerate and exactly what hyunki needs. 

exactly what he wants. 

still, as the tension leaks out of his shoulders he can’t help the guilty pit that settles into his stomach. he can’t look at the other still, instead watching his toes curl into the carpet. soohwa doesn’t sound mad. he sounds the farthest from mad he could ever be and it still confused him a little. 

though, it’s mostly because he expects a reaction when he should know better by now. soohwa isn’t him and he doesn’t know how many times that the other is going to have to say it to him or he’s going to have to say it to himself. 

except, of all reactions, taking the blame is not something hyunki expected to come. that has him looking up, eyes still red from tears and brows furrowed in confusion. “what?” no, that wasn’t right. 

it was soohwa who started the argument in the first place, but it was hyunki that put the camera on, it was hyunki that wasn’t more careful and posted the video for so many-- so many people to see. “no. soohwa, no. it’s not... that’s not your fault. how could--” he turns a little, not quite getting closer to the other, but turning more to face him now, voice still a little wobbly. “soohwa, how in the world could we have seen this happening?” it’s just not something that happens. it’s not, but it did. to them of all people. 

“i’m the one who posted it. not you. i wanted to have sex with you and i was okay with making a video like that. but i posted it and now the whole school has seen us-- oh my god.” he gasps, tears gathering in his eyes again. “god, the whole school knows what i sound like when i cum. shit.” he hopes no one watched that far. 

[msuxhyunki]

[text] sexyeeker h >> like i told you when you message me he does have a nice ass [text] sexyeeker h >> I KNOW IT'S THERE i don't know what to do with you [text] sexyeeker h >> are you busy? if you need me, i'm here ok?

[ ✉ to hot guy shit ] 

➥ it is nice, isn’t it?  ➥ .... bro that’s not the point right now  ➥ ITS GONE NOW I DELETED IT  ➥ i’m with soohwa right now. we’re.... it’s weird. it’s really weird, but he’s not mad at me so .... 

[msuxhyunki]

msuastrid​:

[ message to hyuncuteki ]

✉ : we’re both kinda dumb tbh ✉ : guess that’s why we make such good friends ✉ : the 2 people who really matter paid attention so i’m still gonna avoid them all week ✉ : tho everyone else… has forgotten in favour of the video (sorry dude) ✉ : im glad that you guys are okay though ✉ : i would offer to bring you food or something but i think you and him need some time alone lol

[✉ to astrid darling]

➥ two peas in a pod ➥ i’m sorry baby i hope they don’t give you too much shit  ➥ .... yeah. that’s great. like idc about me, but i’m pretty sure i just ruined soohwa’s like  ➥ even if he won’t admit it  ➥ UGH STOP we’re literally sitting here not talking  ➥ but like i don’t wanna leave because people will look at me  ➥ and i know they’re thinking about what my dick looks like  ➥ or how i sound  ➥ i’m dropping out of school. moving to mexico 

[msuxhyunki]

msuastrid​:

[ message to hyuncuteki ]

✉ : fuck okay look i was a bit hasty when i messaged all that ✉ : i didn’t know if it was an accident or not but i see you deleted it so i’m guessing it was ✉ : i’m just having a really fucking bad week and i took it out on you im sorry ✉ : i mean i DO look like a fool now but its my own fault ✉ : i know its no consolation but you guys are both hot as shit so [ deleted ] ✉ : did you get in trouble for the video? are things okay with soohwa?

[✉ to astrid darling]

➥ it’s okay. i get it. i did kinda screw you over  ➥ screwed myself over too ➥ absolutely no pun intended  ➥ if it makes you feel any better i don’t think many people are paying attention to your posts.... in the nicest way possible  ➥ not yet. but i DID start crying all over him and he was like  ➥ not mad which was very weird. so i think we’re okay?  ➥ i’m not crying anymore so that’s helpful 

[msuxhyunki]

msusoohwa​:

[...]

he loves getting his way, loves when soohwa gives him what he wants. 

the friction of the other’s cock pressed against his, even if the drag is a bit dryer than he usually prefers, has him moaning into the other’s mouth. it’s still good, even if it doesn’t last for long-- much to his disappointment. 

and it doesn’t quite occur to him in that moment, that when soohwa pulls away, strips himself down (and has hyunki’s hands itching to pull him back and just touch) that this isn’t so private, that the camera will probably pick up the way he whines, the pleading look at his face and the way his legs fall open wider as if to try and get soohwa’s hands on him again faster. 

it’s going to be damning evidence, proof that this is more than just sex because hyunki’s had plenty of it before, and he’s been plenty desperate, but it was always for the physicality of it, the anticipation of pleasure, and never because of who was touching him. 

soohwa makes a big difference in that aspect, not that he’s going to be admitting that to the head boy any time soon. 

maybe when they take it upon themselves to watch this back, maybe when it’s clear in how he breaths, “just for you.” with a hand sliding down his own chest, fingers wrapping around his own cock, thumb dragging beads of precum with the rest of his grip and his hips rolling off the bed into his own touch. 

is it playing a little dirty, sure? does it get him what he wants? 

almost instantly. 

“ye-eah.” his breath hitches and his voice breaks, eyes fluttering shut at the feeling, at the anticipation.  “hurry up-- i need it, soosoo. need your cock, please.” 

[msuastrid]

[ message to hyuncuteki ]

✉ : wth was that video?! ✉ : pls tell me that was an accident  ✉ : you know i look like a pathetic fool rn bc everyone knows those zims i posted were all just for show ✉ : i mean good for you for getting dick but did you really have to post it for everyone to see?!

@msuxhyunki

[msuxhyunki]

[✉ to astrid darling] 

➥i really don’t want to talk about it anymore ➥wtf are you kidding me?  ➥YOU look like a fool?  ➥astrid the whole school just watched me get RAILED  ➥but yeah sorry, you’re the idiot. 

[msuxhyunki]

msusoohwa​:

[...]

“you’re a mess, darling,” and soohwa does mean it in the nicest way that he can, even if he still internally winces at his choice of the words but it isn’t like the head student feels like he can be too picky about it, not when hyunki is so ready to bolt out. “just stay at least until you’ve calmed down?” he offers, holds onto the same covers that hyunki is but doesn’t reach out for him, eyes as pleading and worried as he sounds. “i’m worried about you going out like this, please, i will do anything, i’ll leave myself if you want to be alone. calm down first and then we’ll do whatever you want, i give you my word.” and indeed, soohwa would go grab the sun if that was what hyunki asked of him to make him stay, soohwa would take his own heart out with his own hands if that was what it took to make the other to stop crying. “just don’t go, please.” 

he’s only half listening to soohwa. his words don’t sound mean, he doesn’t sound mad and there’s no harsh edge to his tone. it’s different. hyunki knows he’s different, but it’s just something he can’t shake, can’t get rid of so easily. 

and so he’s almost out of bed, feet on the floor when he realizes that, really, soohwa is right. 

if the following buzzards after his were anything to go by, it would just do more damage if he was out in the halls, out on campus with teary eyes and a breaking voice. it wouldn’t help, another thing he knows. but the urge to run is still there, the urge to separate himself, put distance between them. 

he needs there to be space. 

so at the end of the bed he stays, fingers curled into the covers as he tries to work down his sobs, to get over himself. and it should be a little ridiculous, this whole thing. soohwa begging him to stay and trying to comfort him when he’s the one who should be the most upset, and hyunki, shying away from the other boy, crying his eyes out in his underwear. 

it should be funny, but there’s not a single thing he can find to laugh about. 

in reality, he doesn’t know how long he’s sitting there, wiping at his eyes every so often, but the other stays true to his word. soohwa doesn’t move toward him and he doesn’t try to touch him. 

the little things, hyunki supposes. 

it isn’t until cookie is popping his head over hyunki’s knee that he can finally calm himself enough to speak clearly, can’t quite get rid of the shakes or look the other in the eye, but it’s a start. 

“um...” and his voice is rough, hoarse and it makes him wince. “i...”  but he also doesn’t know what to say. “i deleted it.... i deleted it as soon as i realized...” which was much too late. “i’m-- soohwa, i’m so sorry...” 

[msuxhyunki]

.time out

it was fair. he didn’t like it, dreaded it and was ashamed by it, but it was fair. hyunki was the one who slipped up, who wasn’t more careful in his postings and in return, screwed up not only his own reputation, but soohwa’s as well-- and with the helpful reminder, the schools too. 

so the consequences, they made sense. they were something he couldn't’ argue. 

no, he’s had the fight effectively beat out of him for the time. and it couldn’t be more evident in how he trudged down to the practice fields, tail between his legs and head down. there was a letter from the school administration clutched in his hand, paper slightly wrinkled from how hard he was holding onto it. 

nate was going to hate him, he was going to kill him, effectively rip him apart. but hyunki deserved it. he felt he deserved it. 

“hey-- uh.” the field was busy, players setting up for practice and getting their brooms ready, talking among themselves and he spots the captain, off to the side. “i got... um, i have a letter from the school. you need to read it...” 

@msunate