#nafsiyaati

[hamdahkhan]

What you think happened is nothing but a fragment of your imagination derived from the emotions you chose to store back then. It can be manipulated at any point in time. History is important but don't try to make judgements based on historic data, feel the present, absorb whatever's in front of you right now and let the signs guide you.

[hamdahkhan]

Sunday Morning

The letter I'd write a thousands of times but never post.

[hamdahkhan]

Be kind, be the light!

[hamdahkhan]

آج میں کسی کے کام نہیں آؤں گا

[hamdahkhan]

DECADE APART

To the couple who drifted apart after a decade or so,

I see a lot of you in each other you know

The things he notices, the things she says,

Even without an effort complement anyway

It’s been around a year of decade apart too,

But the traces of each other remain within you two

I’m sure if someone pointed them out you’d want to change,

Or maybe by now you’ve learnt to embrace

Learnt to own the part of you, the part of you that doesn’t belong to you

Doesn’t belong to you, but somehow defines you

Defines you better than the image you see,

In the eyes of others too, better than how you’d define thee

Makes me think about the things we can’t see,

The darkness, the scars that run deep

They must have left a greater mark, haven’t they?

But if I were to ask you, I know you couldn’t say

Wouldn’t necessarily deny, so probably you know it too,

And maybe you see it, feel it, breathe it through

And if you don’t then allow me to remind you,

You are no longer merely just you, but also a shade of who used to be with you.

-Nafsiyaati

[hamdahkhan]

Piece of me, piece of you.

[hamdahkhan]

Take Care

When we say goodbyes, we often say “take care” to each other and you would have wondered, why wouldn’t I take care of myself, what’s the point of saying it. Maybe because in reality you do forget taking care of yourself and start relying on others to do it for you. It’s actually an unhealthy choice we consciously make, and end up with neither you nor anyone else taking care.‬ ‪Truth of the matter is, nobody will help you unless you’re willing to help yourself.‬ If someone does try and help you, look at it like it’s a pleasant surprise and never expect the same again. They’re not responsible for your well being, only you are responsible for you. Don’t expect from people more than their capacity to offer. It’s burdening for them too. If someone’s there for you today, that’s amazing but if someone isn’t, move on instead of waiting for someone to miraculously show up. Your baggage is your own to bear, your problems are your own to fix, your messes are your own to clean, stop expecting anyone else to take care of them.

Yes, at times we do really need a support system to turn back to reality, a shoulder to cry on, someone to rely on. And if you have anyone available in that moment, then you’re one of the lucky few. But if you don’t, then stop waiting for it to come to life, this is your cue to lift yourself up without wasting anymore time. ‪Time to understand the cue when it’s there - go ahead, take care. ‬

[hamdahkhan]

Moment

I want to continue living in that moment until my thoughts are completely recollected. So much keeps happening between that I can feel the moment slipping by. It may seem stupid, but it's important for me to inhale that moment before moving on. It was something very ordinary but also something very important. I feel that capturing it could help me grow more than simply letting it pass. I’d rather process its essence and flavour with the same intensity that it existed in reality than just to have a half-flavoured memory.