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I wanted to talk a little bit about my personal teen permaregression. For me I’m permanently regressed at age 17. A majority of the time I experience a lot of negative regression. What I experience as a teen permaregressior might not be what other teen permaregressors experience.
TW below divider /// mentions of unspecified trauma, PTSD, medication, and negative regression
When I was 17 a lot of bad things happened in my life…like a lot. I had to be put on PTSD medication on top of my depression and anxiety medication. I’m not going to go into what happened to me because (1) it’s triggering for me (2) it could be very triggering to other’s reading as well.
For me it’s like my brain stopped developing at age 17. Literally. I feel as if I never matured past the trauma I experienced at that age. I’m not giving my exact age because it makes me uncomfy sharing it online, but now I’m in my 20s and have a hard time with things that are seemingly easy for other’s my age.
On top of being a teen permaregressor I age regress to ages 1-6 (I believe) due to other childhood trauma that I have. I also age dream since most of the time my age regression is negative, although sometimes it’s hard to tell if I’m Age regressing or age dreaming where I do both.
It is silly how my brain just got SO stressed it went “mm no. Dark room with stuffies and fur blankets NOW. Maybe colouring, but only certain textures. Don’t test me I’ll make you illiterate too” and I have to bow to its whims, or it will indeed: make me illiterate
Baby space can be helpful, but often I find baby space makes it too hard to read :c
Though I have trouble reading some things even when I’m regressed. Bigger. >:7
I can read!!! It doesn’t make sense to NOT be able to read when I CAN READ!!!!
Negative regressors ily. You’re doing great and your regression is no less pure or real or valid than anyone else’s. It’s ok to feel small when you’re upset and sad. I’m sending comforting thoughts your way and hoping you know how cool and special you are.
So I'm kind of interested to try regressing to this age range again but doing so in a way that wont be "negreg" or involuntary. I want to know if anyone has any tips. The last time I regressed to that age, it was completely involuntary, complete "negreg" and a feeling of complete helplessness (more than ever "SFW Interaction Only!!" please).
I don't have a CG and I'm not really in a position to pay for anything to assist with it yet (the responsibilities I'm trying to cope with by regressing) nor do I really know what "normal behaviour" will be for me at that age so...please keep that in mind when sending suggestions through (even if its just "here's a movie for that age range that's on YouTube").
I'll write another post to say if it goes well or not but anything would be appreciated. I do try to keep my blog Middle focused but in relation to my age regression, this is something that IS bothering me.
Hi hi I apologize if I sent this already, I don't have a very good memory ☹ but if your requests are open could i request something with regressed DIO and vanilla ice taking care of him? Maybe being called down from a tantrum or something? Thank you if you do :3
Ah I did get it! Sorry, I get distracted easy when small.
This one is a negative regression fic so be careful in case it's sensitive for you
I think Dio neg regresses, and sometimes gets scared after a tantrum from bad memories. He does get comforted though.
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Vanilla hates to see Dio crying. Dio had been put in timeout twenty minutes ago, and it seems that he's already regretting his actions. The little one had been crying and shaking when guided gently to the stool in the corner; No doubt fearing a Victorian-era beating common for misbehaving kids. One that was never going to come from his caregiver.
Cleaning up the shattered vase took Vanilla no time at all, with the help of Cream, but he still had work to do before he could call Dio out of the corner. He had to fetch a warm blanket from the drier, make sure Dio wasn't hiding a knife in his pockets (again), offer a plate of sweets for their eventual talk about what set off the regressor, and something to drink.
But a mumble catches his attention before he leaves to get any of those.
He didn't want to ask the young lord to repeat himself, especially since it could trigger Dio to act out again. But he couldn't just leave the little one, sad and alone when he needed a father to comfort him.
Dio's quiet sobs start again as he waits impatiently, stomping a foot at the perceived slight! How dare father not come when he's clearly needed!
Quickly Dio is wrapped in a warm hug, a large blanket keeping him wrapped up like a nippy cat. The vampire's hissing and fussing stops as he feels Vanilla carry him to the bed, holding him close and rubbing the whole time. "You are... Forgiven..." The vampire mumbles, nuzzling as best he can into his father's shoulder. A gentle jostle from the caregiver keeps him from sleeping, clearly expecting a bit more from Dio. The little one rolls his eyes before pouting, a sleepy mumble: "And I'm sorry, father..."
"Thank you, little prince. It can be hard to feel so strongly. But I won't ever hurt you for acting like a child. And you don't have to act out in fear of being hurt. I'll never let anyone hurt you."
"... Promise?"
"I promise. I will always keep you safe, my prince. My job is to keep my child safe. To make my little prince know how much I care about him, and that I am always on your side."
Dio feels a kiss pressed to his forehead, and something soft wedged into his arms to snuggle for a light nap. Must be a stuffed animal... Something to snuggle other than his father. How silly, to think he, Dio, won't cling to him as he naps!
