#neutralitea

[aro-thoughts]

Why in aro week of all times do I get more crushes 😂

[cheritzssebba]

Hey so I was playing Nameless again today and um..

I think my game's broken guys

[smol-aro-tea]

Yet another thing I don't understand abt allos- they think love (and I suppose emotions in general) makes you vulnerable.

Perhaps this could be an autism thing but still, I don't understand it. How the hell do love and emotions make you vulnerable? Cuz it makes you 'soft'? Aww, rlly?? Little baby scared of some emotions?? You think emotions gonna make you soft??

Doesn't make sense. Maybe it's the fear of being known? As in, the fear that if other ppl know you have troubles that make you sad then they'll expose you? Is that it?

And maybe they think love makes them vulnerable cuz they don't wanna risk getting too close to the person and then being sad when they end up leaving? I've never felt that way tbh cuz of how disconnected from reality and ppl that I already am, and cuz of how passive my attraction is. I never rlly have the desire to stay w someone til I die, I mostly just wanna be around them so I'm not scared of them leaving since I don't care abt it that much anyways.

I think a huge part of it is toxic masculinity. You're not allowed to have emotions - other than anger or jealousy - especially when it comes to love, and I think women are the same cuz they're not allowed to be themselves and must be perfect and quiet but sexy caring housewives. They have to conform to too many double standards so they have to repress how they feel and love may make straight women vulnerable as men are more likely to be abusive.

But that's just my take. I don't rlly subscribe to the gender thing or the romance thing or the neurotypical thing or whatever so I've never rlly felt that way abt love and emotions, but I guess I can sorta see why others do.

[aro-thoughts]

I have the urge to say "I love you bye" when leaving my friend and I have the urge to hold her hand but I stop myself because even though ik she's ace and she knows I'm aroace I'm not sure if she'll understand or maybe she'll even think it was just a slip of the tongue that doesn't mean anything or an accident

[aro-thoughts]

Presential crush on my teacher ❤ that makes 9 :)

[aro-thoughts]

Ok nope just questioned whether I'm 'actually' apl or not- to reiterate again, to myself and anyone else bothering to read, my attractions are not platonic nor just aesthetic, they are presential.

Platonic would require wanting specifically a friendship with someone. Aesthetic would focus only on how they look.

My presential attraction is a desire only to be around someone, focused on their presence/aura/vibes, nothing more, nothing less.

[aro-thoughts]

Does anyone have any of those posts detailing what feeling a certain attraction is like but for platonic attraction? Heavily considering that I'm probably aplatonic.

[cheritzssebba]

I rlly wanna normalise using the different words for attraction, like crush, squish, plush, swish etc. I hate all the time when there's like an ask game or smth on like 'have you had a crush on me'/'how many ppl have you crushed on' pls just say attraction and let ppl gush abt how they find you aesthetically pleasing, or platonically rlly fuckin cool, pls stop w the romantic shit thank you