#never a failure

[tea-ray-blog1]

‘...not a failure’

[dajacharts]

I published the lyrics to Advo-cake for my college creatives magazine. Gonna keep praying on it although I have no expectations.

[itsxsonya]

If u take and use it, please give credits! Post and like.

[hausofadia-blog]

[artofcloud]

never a failure always a lesson and time to die ))

[etherealwords]

Never regret. If it’s good, it’s wonderful. If it’s bad, it’s experience.”

[morethanlemons]

Never a Failure, Always a Lesson

It's a hard skill to gain: realizing that when something goes wrong it doesn't have to have a negative response. I've made plenty of mistakes growing up. I befriended kids who picked on me, I was mean to people I shouldn't have been, I accidentally plucked off half my eyebrow, I thought I was in love with this kid in middle school (the kicker, he's now gay), I threw away friendships because of a boy, and my longest (thus far) relationship ended. Trust me there's plenty more mistakes in my life those are just some of the big ones I learnt lessons from. 

Let's start with the befriending kids who picked on me. I didn't know they were being mean, truly I didn't. I thought they were laughing with me, I thought I was funny, when truly I was a punchline to their sick little joke. What did I learn from this failed friendship? I learned that finding the right friends is imperative to a happy life. I also learned how to grow a backbone. Once I realized they were picking on me it genuinely hurt my feelings, but I decided I could either play victim or pick myself up and move on; I chose the latter. 

Thinking I was in love in middle school broke my heart for the first time. It was the first rejection I've ever received. Somehow though it made me realize that I can't be what everyone wants. Obviously now I realize why he wasn't into me, however in the 7th grade I tried so hard to change who I was to be loved. I learned that in order to be truly loved you have to be yourself 100%. Sometimes you can love (or think you love) someone so much but they can't love you back and that's okay. You just have to accept it and move on. 

I now get into my ended relationship. That was the hardest thing that ever happened to me. Mainly because I didn't see it coming. I truly loved him so much. Again, looking back on the situation, I realize just how much of myself I lost to the relationship. I jeopardized myself to try and be something I wasn't to make someone love me. That's not how love should be. I realized that someone should love me for my hiccups, my crazy random freckles, my spazzy mind, my height, my love for making people love themselves, my family, my nostalgia for the present, my crazy hair, my intelligence, and my silly mannerisms. Someday someone will truly love me for all that I am. Not inspite of my quirks, because of them.  

It's hard to realize in the moment that a lesson is happening, but I promise you that you will learn more from bad situations than you will from good.  Embrace that things sometimes go wrong, but also embrace that things unexpectedly go right. Don't fear the failures, create progress through them.

Life is more than lemons; enjoy it.