#night fear

[chasing--ghxsts]

But there's still a tiny hint of fear within me, because if you started loving me out of the blue, there might come a day when you'll stop loving me out of the blue as well

Out of the blue

[planetoidsfun]

"Night Fear" Billy.

Quick morning sketch with brush.

[advicefor-yu]

I have a hard time falling asleep at night because I'm afraid of the dark and how quiet it is and sleeping alone. I notice when my housemate isn't home, I just feel terrified. I don't know how to overcome this because I plan to move out and live alone in a few months and all I can think about is how paranoid and sleepless I'll be once nighttime hits.

If you have a hard time sleeping because of the dark, then why not try to use a nightlight? Close the door and make sure everything is locked. You can put multiple night lights throughout the house if it makes you comfortable. Sometimes when I’m terrified at night, I literally have a night light on in the kitchen, living room, bathroom, and my room. It makes me feel safer and I can go to sleep easily. You can try that and see if it works for you as well? You can also try sleeping by watching tv all night on your laptop. Most likely the laptop will be put to sleep if you don’t use it for a long period of time. I know a friend who’s scared to sleep in the dark and she leaves her tv on all night. 

[shake-your-laffy-saffy]

I smile as I shut my eyes, your comforting goodnight ringing in my ears, then black.

Suddenly, I am awake. Its dark still? I look at the time; still late. Or early, depending on how you look at it. I wish I didn’t. Look at it at all, I mean. Do I need to? Must I, really? 

And yet, here I lay. And your comfort is gone. The magical protection of your affection is as dormant as you are, and I am resentful. 

I resent the night, the moon, the stars, that beckon me, and I staunchly ignore their calls. And like a spurned lover, they turn my mind against me. And I find myself questioning, EVERYTHING. My worth on this earth, my value to you and my intention. I question your place and your truth and your love. I question the tings I have long since learned o be steadfast truths, nothing is safe. 

And as the rays of the early sun filter through my window and I see the light of day, I am a savaged mess, a ruin of what I was, waiting for you to build me back up again. 

And all I can do is hope I never have to return to the desolate and cold touch of the night-time awakening once more

[jitterycantaloupes]

i fucking take the dog out during the day for a reason im scared of being out there at night why cant you just fucking understand that