Elastic Heart
Scott Miller x Plus Size! Reader
Warning: Angst! No fix. Scott being an asshole. Being led on. Sexual flirting. Not proofread. Might edit later. (Let me know if I missed anything)
(A/N: Idk if this will be multipart series or not but I felt like writing an angst would be a bit therapeutic for me. Been obsessing over Elastic Heart by Sia and I wanted to write something inspired by it. I'm also writing a bit about something that I experienced...at least its loosely inspired by it. Hope you enjoy.)
You were in love with him. The Enigma that was Scott Miller had filled up your senses and you were whole heartedly in love with him. You weren't exactly sure what was it that made you love him. You silently enjoyed being around him.
You met him by chance when you were driving your pick up truck trying to avoid a pending tornado. He was on the side of the road completely drenched in mud. You slowly pulled up beside him.
"Need a lift?" You asked.
He glanced over at you. "I don't take rides from strangers."
You snorted. "You plan on walking somewhere? There's a tornado coming. Just tryna be nice. Have a great day." Then you began to roll your window back up.
"Wait!"
You smirked and rolled the window back down. "Taking a ride from a stranger doesn't sound so bad now, does it?"
"Just take me into town." He walked around to the passenger side and got in.
You smiled at him. "Nice to meet ya, I'm Y/N."
He only grumbled to himself. "Just drive."
"Well aren't you a real peach. Remind me never to pick up strangers." You replied and started driving.
Scott directed you to the next town over where he was staying in a motel. You parked the truck and cleared your throat. "Um thank you."
"So you do have manners afterall? I'll be damned." You reply looking at him. "Gonna tell me your name or are you gonna stay a mystery mud man?"
He huffed. "Scott. My name's Scott."
"Scott." You repeated testing it out. "Yeah you look like a Scott. Bit of a tight ass sounding name."
He shot a glare at you. "Yeah that look screams Scott. So does that make you the stick in the actual mud?" You ask cracking up at your own joke.
"That's not funny." He said.
"I thought it was hilarious." You replied. "So how'd you end up in the middle of the field drenched in mud?"
He sighed out. "Got in an argument with my business partner. He left me out there."
You nodded. "Sorry about your breakup."
Scott shot you another look. "It wasn't a break up."
You shrugged. "Whatever you say. So what do you do?"
"Storm research. I try and get as much information about these twisters as I can." He explained.
"Sounds cool."
He scoffed. "It's more than just cool. It's revolutionary."
"So revolutionary your partner left you?"
"Javi didn't like the way we got our funding but it worked."
You raised an eyebrow. "How did you get your funding?"
He looked at you. "My uncle. He buys properties from families who lost their houses in storms. He invests in us and we give him the statistics."
"Yeah I don't blame this Javi fella. Sounds like your uncle preys on people's tragedies."
Scott rolled his eyes. "He gives them second chances. They are getting money."
You clicked your tongue. "Oh please. You can't tell me your uncle is giving them a fair price for the land he is getting."
The two of you argued until you said something that made him laugh.
"You know you can argue with me until you turn blue in the face but that changes nothing." You glanced over at him. "You are turning into a crustacean before my eyes." You say noticing the mud is drying on him.
For whatever reason that made him laugh. "Crustaceans are a subspecies of animals you know."
You shrugged. "Yeah. I know, but thats the best thing I can come up with. The mud is drying out and it's getting crusty."
He looks down at himself and he started to move realizing he was in fact crusty. He sighed.
Suddenly a few tricks pulled up in the parking lot. You saw a Hispanic looking man with light eyes and freckles on his face get out of one of the trucks. Scott's face distorted into one of anger. He got out of your truck quickly.
"Javi!"
The man turned around with wide eyes. "Scott? You made it back? I-"
Then a fist went flying into his face. You gasped loudly and jumped out of the truck. "What the fuck, Scott?" Javi asked holding his face.
"That's what you get for leaving me for dead." He said about to take another swing.
For whatever reason you decided to jump in front of Scott with your hands up. "Scott-" The hit landed on you instead and you dropped to the ground.
Everyone in the parking lot gasped. You heard voices all around you. "Y/N?" You couldn't keep your eyes open it hurt too much but you knew it was Scott.
"Really Scott? You'd hit a woman to get to me?" It was Javi's voice.
"It was an accident! She stepped in front of me."
"Who even is she?" Javi asked.
"I don't know. She picked me up in the side of the road and drove me here." Scott spoke."She told me her name was Y/N."
"You probably need to take her to the hospital or something to get checked. You hit her pretty hard." You heard a woman's voice.
You groaned as you held your head. "Scott?"
You felt someone get real close to you. "Yeah?"
"Remind me to never pick up strangers again." You replied.
"I am so sorry."
"Y/N, can you open your eyes?" You heard the woman ask.
You groaned in response. "Not really." You tried to open yours.
"She might have a concussion. I'm not so sure."
"Since when did you have an extensive knowledge of medical care, Kate?" Scott spoke sarcastically.
You heard the woman scoff. "I don't but the way you landed that hit on her anything is possible."
You finally managed to get your eyes open. All you saw were heads leaning over to look at you but it was a little blurry. Scott appeared the most worried. "Y/N,are you okay?"
Your eyes landed on his face. "I have had better days."
You started to sit up but everything was spinning. You held your head. "Ugh."
"Hey take it easy." Kate said rubbing your back.
"I'm fine. I think I'm okay." You then turned your head and puked on Scott's shoes. "Sorry."
He sighed deeply. "I think I deserved that."
"Okay that can't be good. Y/N,I'm going to take you to the hospital." Kate said kneeling beside you.
You shook your head. "Hospital is gonna be full of people affected by that tornado."
"Doesn't matter you need to be seen." Kate said. "Besides it didn't hit this town."
Javi and Scott helped you up. "I'll take her. It's my fault." Scott said.
Kate glanced him up and down. "You are covered head to toe in mud and you have vomit on your shoes."
He huffed. "Fine. Make sure to bring her back here after, okay?" His tone was surprisingly soft.
Kate nodded. An attractive blonde man walked up. "You really think it's a good idea to go out there? You just got out of a twister where you literally crawled out of a truck."
She looked at him. "Tyler, it's fine. I'm fine. She needs medical attention right now."
The man sighed and nodded.
Kate walked you to a Stormpar truck and helped you inside the passenger seat. You held your head groaning. "God this hurts like a bitch."
Kate ran to the other side and started driving you to the nearest hospital. "So you drove Scott to the motel?"
You squinted as you thought about it. You started hearing some ringing in your ears. "I can't remember right now."
She glanced over at you seemingly worried. After about 20 minutes you made it to the hospital where you were checked and taken care of. The did a CTscan of your head and saw you did in fact have a concussion. They told you that you'd be fine and just needed rest and to take Tylenol.
Kate took you back to the motel. You saw Scott leave his room as soon as he saw the truck. You opened the door and got out. Kate helped you to stand right. "How is she?" Scott asked as he approached you.
"Docs said you have her a concussion."
Scott glanced at you with regret in his eyes. "Will she be okay?"
Kate nodded. "Yeah. She just needs rest and Tylenol. She can't drive so she'll have to stay here."
That's when Scott looked back over to Kate. "She has to stay here? With you?"
"Yeah she can stay with me. Is that a problem with you?" She asked raising an eyebrow.
He cleared his throat. "No, I just think she should probably stay with me. It's my fault she's concussed."
"Do you not trust me to look after her?" Kate asked.
He let out a mock laugh. "That has nothing to do with it."
"I was the one that took her to the hospital. I think I can keep an eye on her." Kate said placing a hand in her hip.
Scott rolled his eyes. "I told you that's not why."
Kate huffed out. "You know what? I don't have the energy to argue with you. I need a shower. Have her stay with you. Just don't be your usual self."
He glared at her but she didn't say anything else as she walked away. "Tryna get me alone?" You asked teasing.
Scott looked at you in a way you couldn't describe. It was almost angry but something else. "No,"
He started walking you to his room. "So you're here to finish the job?"
"Finish the job?"
"Yeah, you're gonna kill me off aren't you?"
He turned to look at you. "There's something seriously wrong with you."
You only smiled at him. "It's one of my endearing qualities."
Scott snorted in response but he had a smile on his face.
That night you stayed with him and slept in the same bed. He argued he would sleep on the floor but you insisted you could share the same bed and that there were probably bugs. The thought scared him enough to agree.
That was then the start of a great friendship with him. Scott gave you his number and the two of you would always talk on the phone after that and you were never afraid to call him out on his bullshit. In turn he'd always find a way to tease you. That's how your friendship worked.
It's been about a year of friendship. You'd fallen for him since. You were at work in your bakery when you got a call. It was him. "Hey Ava, I'll be right back. Gonna take my lunch." You told your employee/best friend.
"Is that your boyfriend again?" She teased.
You rolled your eyes but with a huge smile on your face. "He's not my boyfriend Ava. You know that."
She stuck her tongue out at you. "He might as well be. You guys talk almost everyday and he always puts that huge grin on your face when he calls."
"Mhm gotta go." You said taking off your apron and stepping to the back. Then picked up your phone. "Scotty."
"My favorite pain in the ass."
You let out a laugh. "You know I'm at work."
"So am I."
You grabbed your lunch box. "You should probably do your job then."
"It's a slow day. No storms in forecast. I'm bored." He replied.
You snorted. "So you decided to bug me while I'm at work?"
"Hey you're your own boss. It's not like you'd get in trouble." He argued.
You started grabbing your food from your bag. "Can't run a business if someone keeps calling me."
"You act like you don't love it when I call you." Scott replied.
You let out a laugh. "You think entirely too highly of yourself, Scotty."
You were the only person in the world allowed to call him Scotty. With those rights you used them often.
"I do because I know you love me." You knew he was smirking from over the phone.
You felt your cheeks heat up. "You're a cocky little shit."You say as you take a bite from your sandwich.
Scott laughed over the phone. "What are you doing thinking about my cock, Y/N?"
You damn near choked. "Scott!"
Now he was full on cackling. "You're so fun to tease, doll."
You rolled your eyes. "I'm revoking your discount at the bakery."
He gasped. "Ah come on baby don't be like that."
"Nope. I made up my mind." You said taking another bite of your sandwhich.
"It's too early in the day for me to be getting Y/Nphobia. I'm getting really itchy." He said.
He made up a new phobia one day and used it whenever to tease you when ever you'd call him out on shit. He thought it was hilarious.
"Bullshit you know you have Y/Nphilia." You countered.
Scott only laughed. "I'm never admitting to that."
You smiled. "It's okay, you don't have to. I know you have it."
"I love you, Y/N."
Your face heated up again. "I'm not admitting that I love you."
He snorted. "That's okay. I know you love me too."
"Fuck off, Miller." You replied.
"But then I wouldn't get to have this great phone sex with you. Keep yelling at me I'm so close." He teased.
You felt like your body was on fire. "You're a menace. You know that?"
"That's what you love about me."
"Yeah, one of the reasons."
"Aha! So you admit it, you do love me."
You groaned. "I don't understand why you aren't like this with everyone else. I get the most annoying version of you."
Scott sounded giddy on the other side. "Because there's only one of you, and I have to give you my best."
"Ha! If this is your best I'd hate to see your worst." You replied
He cleared his throat. "Well you've seen that part of me too. Remember? The first day we met I was covered in mud, I accidentally punched you and you puked on my shoes."
You gasped covering your mouth. "I forgot that I puked on you."
"I could never forget. That was the best foreplay I have gotten." He teased.
You grimaced. "You're disgusting."
"Yeah? What else?" He asked.
"A huge pain my ass."
"Fuck keep going." He faked a moan.
"Pig."
"But you'd still fuck me."
"So what if I would?" You challenged him.
He made a satisfied sound. "Want me to stop what I'm doing and head over to you before your lunch is over?"
You rolled your eyes. "Yeah right."
"I know where you live and work, doll."
You felt your heart pang. He was never serious. This is how he was. You'd play flirt with each other but be wouldn't do anything about it. You were used to it. That didn't make it hurt any less. "Uh, Scott, I have to go."
"Aww do you really h-"
You hadn't let him finish you immediately hung up. You let out a big sigh and put the rest of your food away not being able to eat anything else. You took deep breaths as you tried not to cry.
Soon you heard foot steps. "Hey, Y/N, are you still on the-"Ava started then looked at your face. "What's wrong?"
You looked up at her and your eyes started watering. "Nothing." You said but your voice betrayed you. A tear slipped down your face and you quickly wiped it away.
"Why are you crying? Did Scott say something?" She asked you.
You sniffled. "It's stupid."
Ava looked behind her to see the bakery was still empty. Then she turned her attention back to you. "Talk to me. What happened? You were so happy to talk to him."
You took a deep breath. "Nothing, it's just the same shit, different day. We talk like we usually do but he always gets me flustered and I hate it because he never means it. Any of it. This is his way of joking with me. I feel like I constantly kid myself into believing he's actually interested in me."
Ava shook her head. "No, my love, I really think he is interested in you but you know that man is married to his job. I'm sure he just can't balance romance and work right now." She tried to assure you.
You sighed wiping away another tear. "I just... I wish if he did really want to be with me he'd tell me. He shouldn't make that kind of decision himself if that's the case."
Ava gave you a sympathetic look. "He doesn't seem like the most logical guy out there when it comes to the spectrum of normal human interactions."
That caused you to snort. "He sucks at communicating his feelings, I believe that."
She looked back again to double check that the shop was still empty (it was). Ava looked back at you again. "How about this, Scott is gonna in that other town for another two weeks, why don't you write him a letter being 100% honest about how you feel? See what happens."
You furrowed your eyebrows feeling really unsure. "I don't know, Ava."
"You'll put the ball in his court and he gets to decide for sure where this goes between the two of you." She said. "Make it really personal."
You nodded. "Fuck it, why not?"
She clapped and fist pumped the air. "Alright! I'll leave you to finish your lunch."
"Wait, why'd you come in here in the first place?" You asked her.
Ava furrowed her eyebrows. "Honestly, I don't remember." She laughed then went back to the register.
You shook your head with a smile on your face.
That night you started writing your letter to Scott. You started it off with a song recommendation which was Honest by Mali Koa. Then you wrote the rest. It took you almost all week to write what you wanted but once you had what you wanted you felt proud of it. At the end of the letter you made it perfectly clear and asked Scott that if you had no chance then he needed to let you know. As a finishing touch you sprayed your favorite perfume so he'd remember what you smelled like.
You anxiously put your envelope out to get picked up by the mail that night you finished the letter. The following day it was picked up and you were anxious since then.
Two days later you got a text from Scott.
I got mail from you. I haven't been able to sit down and look at it but I'll let you know when I do.
It's really important, can you read it ASAP?
Can't yet. I promise I'll read it ASAP.
Your anxiety levels were at an all time high but you tried to push it all down. He'll read it when he gets the chance, you kept telling yourself. It bothered you that he didn't want to just take a minute to read it. It was just a letter.
You secretly cursed, Scott for not prioritizing your letter. Ava tried talking you out of your panic about the letter and reassured you that he was a busy man. Which is true. He could get really busy with his job and research. The problem is, if he cared about you like you thought he did, he would read something that was important to you, right?
A week had went by and you didn't talk as much with Scott. He hadn't been calling you and you certainly weren't planning on calling him. So you both were at a stalemate.
That weekend you went with Ava to the local bar. It wasn't much but you were feeling sorry for yourself and you practically drank yourself to death and danced. Your heart still called for Scott so you pulled your phone out.
I like yih so mucchhhhh
Big smoooo has to u
Huh?
Kisssssyyy
Wherrreeeeeee
You put your phone away and you started feeling sick. Suddenly you booked it to the nearest trash can and vomitted whatever was in your stomach. Ava ran up to you and rubbed your back.
"Y/N, are you okay?" She asked you.
You wiped your mouth. "That was the most expensive vomit of life." You muttered.
She tried not to laugh at your comment. "Okay let's get you home girly. You're done for the night."
"No I don't wanna." You whined.
Ava started dragging you out of the bar. "I'm taking your ass home come on."
She managed to get you in her SUV and drove you to your apartment (it was above the bakery). Ava struggled but helped you climb up the stairs.
She helped you get comfortable and into bed. Ava grabbed ibuprofen for you and a glass of water to put it on your night stand. She took one last look at you and sighed before she walked out.
The next morning you woke up with a headache and a vague memory of the night before. You turned to see the ibuprofen on your night stand. You popped three pills and chugged the whole glass of water.
You then grabbed your phone and opened it to see the messages you sent to Scott last night. Your eyes nearly shot out of your head. "Oh my God!"
I am so sorry about that! I was seriously not myself last night 🤦♀️🤦♀️
I read your letter that was sweet
Good song choice
Thank you
I feel like the blood just left or I'm going to pass out. I'm not sure 😀
Oh god
Don't oh God me
But that was it. You weren't sure how to feel. He read your letter. Including the part where you explicitly told him to let you know if you didn't have a chance with him. He didn't say yes but he didn't say no.
That's when you called Ava. "Ava, he read it. He read my letter."
"And?"
"Well he said it was really sweet and he liked the song choice but that was it. He didn't say he wanted to be with me but he didn't reject me either. I don't know what to do." You explained.
The line was silent for a moment. "Well he didn't say no...so maybe he really is interested in you."
"Should I ask him?"
"Maybe not yet. Give him some time."
So you gave him time. You did try setting up dates with him but it felt like he kept making excuses about why he couldn't come. Mostly because he was busy with work so he told you that you would need to set up a time you both weren't busy.
Well you know I have short hours on the weekend. Just let me know
Yes ma'am
But he never did. You started to feel like he was slipping from your fingers and it was slowly driving you crazy. You wanted to confront him about his behavior but you were terrified of losing him all together. Nothing you were texting to him was coming out right anymore.
Sorry, can't talk much. One of the radars got lost and it's messing with my readings. Nothing has been going right.
All these issues you're having this tornado season and you still haven't reformed StormPar fully. Guess you'll never be a real company.
That's fucked up. There's no way to say that respectfully. You don't know what I have been dealing with. I only tell you some stuff.
Wait Scott that's not what I meant. You have to know I was kidding. I know you're working hard to rebuild StormPar after Javi left.
But he never replied after that. You were in your bed crying and trying to self sooth but you felt like you were losing a good friend and you didn't know what to do. You loved Scott so much that it hurt.
Being a bigger you never felt like people paid attention to you but he did. Even he wasn't serious he made you feel something. You were struggling to hold onto it.
Another week passed and the tornado season ended which meant he had to travel back home soon and wouldn't be miles away from you anymore.
I don't know if you're still mad at me but I hope you had a good end to the season.
I'm not mad at you, Y/N. It was a good end. Thank you.
Despite him texting you that. You guys didn't talk as much anymore. Finally one day you said fuck it.
Hey Scott, I know you’ve got a lot going on, and I’ve been giving you space because I don’t want to ever stress you out. But I’ve been feeling a bit uncertain and anxious since I shared my feelings with you in my last letter. If you don’t feel the same way, I completely understand, and that’s okay. I promise I will be fine. I just need a bit of clarity so I know where we stand. It would really help me to have some peace of mind. You don’t have to feel pressured to respond right away; just let me know when it’s convenient for you. I'd greatly appreciate it.
You thought he would take a while to respond but he didn't.
In the most loving and respectful way, I see this as a friendship ❤️
You felt your heart drop and the tears form in your eyes.
Thank you. That's all I needed to know. Thank you for your transparency
You should have ended the friendship there. Cut your losses but you told him you'd still be his friend and just needed space and he told you best wishes.
For a while you were still friends. It was almost the same as it used to be. Ava told you that sometimes friendships can develop into something more. That he might need time. You tried to be positive but your heart was breaking.
I'm sorry Scott. I really thought I could do this but I can't. I really don't think I can be friends with you anymore.
If that's what you want.
If that's what you want? Was that all he had to say? That broke you completely.
Without much other thought you blocked his number. You started your healing journey from there. It felt like you were going through a break up but the most embarrassing part was that you were never together.
You were almost sure he didn't care until you got a text from Kate one day. You did keep in touch with her every so often.
Javi says Scott mentioned you to him. Well actually Javi was asking about you to Scott. Said he hadn't heard from you in a while to which Scott said you stopped talking to him and that he didn't get it.
Was this joker serious? He didn't get it?
Funny.
You then sent her screenshots of your text messages with Scott. Where he said he read your letter then you sent her the last part of your letter where you asked him to be honest with you if you didn't have a chance. You then sent her the plans he said he would make with you. Then you sent the message where you asked for clarity after his mixed signals and how he replied as seeing it only as a friendship. Then finally you sent the last messages to each other before you blocked him.
If that's what you want? Seriously? I knew he was an asshole but I thought he was different with you.
I thought so too. My mistake
I'm so sorry you went though that.
It is what it is. I'm more mad at myself for wasting my time.
Wait Javi and Scott are on speaking terms again?
Yeah they decided to try and be adults since they'd be seeing each other on the field. Javi started another company.
Good for him.
It is. I'm proud of him.
The months had passed and you were growing. You threw yourself into your business. It was nice. You finally felt like yourself but sometimes you felt that phantom pain from not having Scott to talk to.
More than anything you just wondered to yourself why could you never get this love thing down. Scott was just another disappointment but you were really hoping he was the one.
What hurt the most was that you saw and noticed the red flags but you just wanted him so bad you ignored them. If he wanted to be with you he would have made time. He would have hung out with you. Scott would have made it clear from the start and not give you mixed signals.
You slowly began to realize that Scott had breadcrumbed you. He would give you enough attention to keep you around but not enough to have to make a commitment. You still felt anger about it but you were glad he couldn't hurt you anymore.
Tornado season came around again. Nothing new. It happened every year.
Hey girl, in town again. Wanna meet up for drinks?
Sure!
That night you met Kate at the local bar and you were so excited to see her again.
"Y/N, you look great!" She said giving you a hug.
You smiled widely then pulled away from the hug. "Thank you, I feel great."
"I bet, don't have that asshole in your life anymore. You look like you've been living your best life." She said.
You tried not to drop your smile at the mere mention of Scott. "I have been. Business is good. Still no luck in romance so I decided to marry my job." You said and let out an almost pained laugh.
A moment later you Javi walk over. "Hey Y/N, long time no see."
Your jaw dropped. "Holy shit, Javi! It's been a minute. You're in town too?"
He nodded pulling you into a hug. "Yeah I am. Kate didn't tell you she's working with me?"
You turned to look at her. "No she failed to mention that. Only said you started your own company." You said then looked back at him.
He smiled at you. "Yeah, I did, both Kate and Owens are helping me with it. Making sure I get the right investments unlike another companies."
Keep smiling, Y/N. Keep smiling. Don't think about him. He's not worth it. He didn't break you. You're okay. "Well that's good."
"Kate mentioned,what happened between you and Scott. I'm sorry he did that to you." Javi said.
You cleared your throat. "Thank you, but I'm not here to talk about Scott."
He put his hands up in defense. "My bad. Let me buy you a drink then."
You scrunched your eyebrows at him but shrugged. "Sure, why not."
"What would you like?"
"Malibu coconut rum and coke."
He raised an eyebrow but seemed curious and nodded. He looked at the bartender. "Can I get two Malibu coconut rum and cokes?"
The bartender nodded and started preparing the drinks. "Opening a tab or just these?" He asked.
"I'll open a tab." Javi replied and handed him a card.
A moment later you saw Owens come up. "Hey Y/N, how are you?"
"Hey Tyler. I'm good. Living life day by day."
He only nodded but he turned his attention towards Kate. "Wanna come with me to dance?"
She scrunched her nose. "I don't know."
"Come on it'll be fun." He took her hand and led her to the dance floor.
You smiled softly at the two of them. They made a cute couple you had to give them that.
"Two Malibu coconut rum and cokes." The bartender said as he placed the drinks down in front of you and Javi.
You turned back around and smiled at the bartender. "Thank you."
"You're welcome." He said before walking away to attend another patron.
Javi grabbed the drink and sniffed it. You let out a laugh. "Don't sniff it! Just drink it. I promise it's good."
He shrugged then took a sip from his drink then looked up at you in surprise. "Hey that's not half bad."
You smiled. "Right? My signature drink. Well besides a good margarita."
"Nothing wrong with margaritas." He replied. "Why don't you sit down with me. I don't think you're gonna get any taller." Javi pulled out the stool next to him at the bar.
You thought fuck it and sat beside him. "So how's it been, running your own business?"
"I'd say it's been going pretty well. He's been beating me out of all the good storms."
Your heart dropped to your stomach at the sound of that voice. You let your face drop too. When you turned around you were face to face with a ghost.
"Good to see you, Y/N."He said giving you a smile but something about it seemed completely fake.
You glanced him up and down. "Scott."
"This seat taken?" He asked grabbing the empty stool on your left. Before waiting for a response he sat down.
"Looks like you already made yourself comfortable." You muttered before taking a huge sip from your drink.
Javi cleared his throat. "Always a pleasure to see you Scott."
"Wish I could say the same Javi."
You glanced at Scott. "Hey, he's just tryna be nice."
"It's fine. Javi knows I'm not serious."Scott said. "You gonna give me Y/Nphobia this early in the night?"
Javi furrowed his eyebrows. You didn't say anything as you sipped your drink. This was how he was going to play it. Act like nothing happened. As if he didn't break your heart.
You didn't know what to do. He was entirely too close to you. Your heart felt like it would beat outside of your chest. You took a deep breath and looked at Javi. "Well I'm glad your company is doing good."
He smiled softly at you. "Thank you."
The bartender walked back over. "Can I get you anything?" He asked Scott.
"Just a beer and another drink for my friend here." He said and used his thumb to point over to you.
You waved your right hand making a slicing motion by your neck. "Oh no, I'm fine with the-"
Scott grabbed your left hand. "No, I insist."
You wanted to protest but no words came out as you pulled your hand away from him. "Fine."
The bartender grabbed a beer from the cooler behind him and handed it to Scott. Then he prepared your second drink.
You silently finished your first drink. You side eyed Javi and could tell he was starting to get uncomfortable. You then side eyed Scott to see that he appeared completely unphased.
This was so like him. He fucked everything over but he gets to live life untouched. Unaffected. Without blame. You wanted to tell at him. To push him. Cuss him out. You were tired. Emotionally exhausted. He drained you.
The bartender took your empty glass and put your second drink in front of you pulling you out of your thoughts. "Thank you."
"So how have you been, Y/N. Haven't heard from you in almost a year, right?" Scott asked you."You look good."
You didn't look at him but you felt his eyes on you. "Thank you. I've been, fine. Just working." Short and sweet. You were hoping he'd catch the hint that you didn't want to talk to him.
"Still have that bakery?" He asked.
You simply nodded before taking a sip from your second drink.
Javi cleared his throat. "You know I still haven't made a trip to your bakery, Y/N."
You turned to look at Javi. "You should. I came out with tornado cookies recently. Mini cow figure flying in it included with each cookie."
That made Javi laugh. "A mini cow figure?"
"Yeah I found little tiny toy cows that I like to stick in the cookies. The customers get a kick out of them and the kids love them." You replied with a proud smile.
"You were always so creative." Scott spoke up making your smile drop.
You took another sip from your drink. "Thanks."
After another minute of awkward silence and you practically chugging your second drink Javi looked at you. "Hey, Y/N, do you wanna dance?"
You smiled. "Yes I'd love to."
Javi took your hand and led you to the dance floor.
"Thanks for the rescue. I don't know what the fuck his problem is." You said as Javi pulled you in for the dance.
Javi let out a single laugh. "Yeah Scott has a way of getting under people's skin." He said before twirling you.
For a split second you glanced at Scott who was still sitting at the bar. He was staring right at you with a clenched jaw.
"Y/N! So glad to see you dancing." You heard Kate say.
You turned to look at her with a smile. She was swaying with Tyler. "Yeah. Javi asked me to dance but it was a good excuse to get away from Scott." You tilted your head towards the bar.
Kate glanced at the bar and saw Scott sitting there staring at you. Her jaw dropped before she looked at you again. "I can't believe he's even here. At the motel we were saying we were gonna go to the bar and he said he didn't want to come. That's why I invited you because he said he wasn't coming."
Tyler had a nervous smile in his face. "I might have accidentally mentioned that Y/N was gonna be here in passing."
"Seriously, Tyler?" Kate asked looking up at her boyfriend.
"I'm sorry. He was saying something about you not wasting time to go the bar since this is our first night so I said you were looking to hang out with Y/N,more than anything. I didn't know Y/N would be his deciding factor to come." Tyler explained.
Kate groaned. "It's fine, Kate I promise. I'm barely talking to him." You assured her. "It's more awkward than anything."
She glanced at the bar again and saw he was still staring at you. "He won't stop staring at you." Kate said leaning close to you.
You glanced over at him briefly to see that yes he was in fact still staring. "That man has audacity."
Kate nodded. "I have to run to the bathroom, can you come with me?"
"Yeah, let's go."
Kate smiled. She turned to Tyler gave him a quick peck kiss before grabbing your hand to pull you towards the women's restroom. "I think he's jealous."
You tilted your head in confusion. "Who?"
"Scott. I think he's jealous that you're talking to Javi and dancing with him." Kate went inside one of the stalls.
You scrunched your face up. "You think so? I don't see why. Javi is just being nice."
Kate snorted. "Y/N, I've known Javi for years. He's not just being nice. He's interested in you."
Your jaw dropped slightly. "Interested in me?"
"Yeah girl, you're a catch."
"Me?"
"Yes you. Why is that hard to believe?"
You shrugged. "I don't know, after the whole thing with Scott it kind of just messed with my confidence. I already had issues before him. He kind of made things worst." You looked at the mirror above the sink. "To be honest, I still can't stop replaying that stuff in my head. When I sit back and look at all the mixed signals I can really see how he led me on for so long. I really thought he was interested, ya know?"
Before you knew it tears were running down your face. "Sometimes I think he did actually like me but he didn't like that I was plus sized so he kept me at arms length." You admitted.
You heard a flush then saw Kate come out of her stall. "Aww sweetie I'm so sorry he made you feel that way." She walked towards the sink. You stepped back to give her space to wash her hands.
"Honestly, it is what it is. Moral of the story, I don't think he's jealous. I think he just got a major blow to his ego." You explain.
Kate dried her hands. "I can't believe you were ever into that asshole."
You sighed."Me neither but he was my asshole, ya know? He in his own way always made me feel special. I guess I liked that."
The both of you walked out and were going back to the dance floor when Scott approached you. "Y/N, we need to talk."
"I don't think we have anything to talk about."You said trying to get past him.
"Okay how about I talk and you listen." He said blocking you.
You shook your head. "It okay, Scott. I don't want to listen to anything you have to say."
"Scott, leave her alone. You've done enough." Kate said.
"This has nothing to do with you. This is between me and Y/N." Scott said raising his tone.
You sighed. "Kate it's fine. I'll be there in a minute."
"Are you sure?" She asked.
You gave her a nod. As she walked away you turned to look at Scott. "Y/N, you have no idea how much I have missed y-"
He was cut off by a slap to the face. "Fuck you, Scott."
He held his face he looked so surprised. "What was that for?" He asked and the craziest part was that he had the audacity to look confused.
You let out a laugh. "You seriously don't know? Scott you broke my fucking heart. Then when I tell you I couldn't be your friend anymore you didn't even fucking care!" Don't cry. Don't cry. He won't see you fall apart.
"Baby, I'm sorry. I-"
"Don't call me baby. I'm not your baby. I'm not your anything." You spit out like venom.
He sighed. "Y/N, I'm sorry. I hate to admit it but I miss you. I know I wasn't a good friend to you but I want to make it up to you. I want to fix us."
You almost laughed. "Wow. So it takes me leaving and cutting ties for you to realize how much you liked having me in your life?"
Scott had a face of discomfort. "I know it was shitty of me. I should have fought for a friendship."
"That probably would have been a good idea, yeah. I would have also appreciated it if you didn't lead me on for as a long as you did."
He furrowed his eyebrows. "How did I lead you on?"
That question did make you laugh. "Does me writing a letter about my feelings for you not ring a bell? I told you to let me know if I didn't have a chance and you never did. I still had this hope that one day you'd tell me we could be together like a fool. I had to ask you explicitly to tell me the truth."
Scott shifted his feet seemingly unsure how to respond. He had no excuse. "I was afraid you'd stop being my friend."
You scoffed. "So how long would you have let me go on like that?Following you like some dog that needs water."
He was hesitant to answer. "I don't know. I was hoping one day you'd get over me."
"How? How do you think I was going to get over you? You flirted with me constantly. As someone who works all the time and never goes out you were the only one who gave me that kind of attention. What do you think that did to me?"
Scott was completely silent.
"Tell me something, what do you miss the most about me?" You asked.
You saw his Adam's apple bob in his throat. "You were always there for me when I needed you. I was always your number one priority."
For whatever reason the answer made you smile. Not because it flattered you but he proved you right. "You don't miss me for my company, you miss me because I always came running to you."
"That's not true."
"It isn't?"
"Y/N, I loved you. I still love you." He tried to reach out to grab your hand.
You stepped back. "Go fuck yourself."
Javi saw you step away from Scott when he tried to grab you and he came rushing over. He wanted to give you space but he knew now he needs to help. "Scott, come on leave her alone."
Scott glared at him. "Fuck off, Javi. Stay out of it. This is between me and her."
"Well now it's between you and I. Y/N wants nothing to do with you."
Scott scoffed. "So it's not enough for you take my storms from me now you want to steal my girl?"
His girl? This asshole was delusional.
"How is Y/N, your girl? You were a shitty friend, you led her on, finally had the balls to reject her, and broke her heart. You haven't spoken to each other in a year. Y/N isn't yours and she never was." Javi said.
Scott breathed heavily through his nose. "I didn't mean for any of this to happen. I love Y/N. I was afraid. I..." He looked like he wanted to say more but he struggled to get the words out.
"Scott, it's too late."You speak up from behind Javi. "It's over."
He shook his head. "No, it's not over. It can't be over. I need you."
You didn't say anything to him you just walked away.
"Y/N! Come back! Please! I'll do anything!" He called after you.
He wanted to grab you and keep you there with him but you were already gone.
That's when you knew for sure that Scott didn't break you. You were still fighting for your peace but you had thick skin and an elastic heart. You'd bounce back from this.
