#nosenuzzling

[blurglesmurfklaine]

I can’t believe how lucky I am to be completely sucked into the most obscure ass ship in the entire world that also just happens to have three of the most talented writers I’ve ever had the pleasure of knowing

[klaineccfanficlibrary]

A Lot Like You

Author: Nosenuzzling

Rating: NC-17

Status: Completed in December 2013

Word Count: 14,823

Summary: Darren has been looking for his soul mate ever since the name first appeared on his palm. Chris doesn’t know and doesn’t want to know. But soul mates will always find each other in just the right time and right circumstance. Whether they want to or not.

Tropes/Genre: CrissColfer fanfiction, AU, soulmate!CC

Read at: LJ  (read from the bottom - up)

[astrasperas]

(1/2) Breathe Lightly is absolutely beautiful. It takes a very special kind of story and writer to pull those kinds of emotions out of me. There are sad fics, there are happy fics, there are fics that make you fall in love with DeanCas all over again. But a fic that made me feel all of it at once. That's something else entirely. I keep rereading that last part, from Cas' recording to the end and I want to cry because the build of emotions is so... much. It's not just one emotion that makes me

(2/2) want to cry. It's all of them. My favorite kind of stories are the ones that end sad but at the same time filled with hope for the future. And that's what you've captured in your story. I love that there's sadness for the loss of Cas, but more than that there's joy in the fact that Dean and Cas were able to love each other. And that was the most important part. Thank you for sharing that story with fandom, it really is a gift.

Becky, thank you very, very much for your very kind words. ; U ; I'm very happy and very honored that you enjoyed it despite the emotional toll, and it makes me happy that you have such a wise understanding of what I wanted to express through this piece.

I'm a student nurse, and in clinical practice we very much so see this process of dying - sometimes not even of dying itself but just the prospect of dying. I see families grapple with this and the way this fic hurts is just a fraction of the way these people hurt. I wrote Breathe Lightly to be as painful as I possibly could because this is how loss feels. I wanted it to be even the slightest bit of reflection as to how the reality of losing someone you love is. It is painful beyond reprieve, it is your chest clenching like a tight fist, it is breathlessness as you cry. It's a dull, heavy, continuous ache accentuated by points of extreme sorrow. Then it is a slow burn of healing. It is the gradual flourishing of acceptance. It is hope, it is serenity, and most of all it is love. 

I chose to wrote MCD not because I wanted get some tears flowing. I chose to write it because these things are real and fanfiction reflects reality. Writing MCD is pointless if it does not allow you to live the characters' pain. You just have to. If you let yourself feel their pain, you then get to feel their hope.

[pareidoliaklaine]

Rereading a great and terrible beauty for the first time and FELICITY IS SO GAY I love it

[myangelshunter]

Ahhhhhh yes! And Sam is the best little brother about it. He pretends to not know even though he does because he's found the soundtrack in the car and he's noticed that after someone says "Who died?" it's not long till Dean starts humming La Vie Boheme. But he doesn't say anything cause he knows how Dean would be about it. He just buys him the DVD for Christmas and slips it under his pillow. And then imagine him wanting Cas to watch it!

OMG YOU'RE GOING TO BE THE DEATH OF ME

BUT

CAS

DEAN SHOWING CAS THE MOVIE

BECAUSE SAM JUST SLIPS THE DVD INTO THE LINE OF MOVIES DEAN HAS PILED UP FOR THE MARATHON. AND HE DOESN'T REALIZE IT UNTIL THE OPENING SCENE

BUT CAS IS SMILING AT THE OPENING SONG, SO DEAN DOESN'T STOP IT. AND AS THE MOVIE GOES  ON, CAS STARTS HUMMING ALONG QUIETLY, AND DEAN DOES THE SAME

AND BY THE END OF IT, CAS IS LEANING INTO DEAN'S SHOULDER AND SNIFFLING QUIETLY

AND MY HEART

AHHHHHHH

[deansdamnation-blog]

nosenuzzling answered your question “Wait, people are boycotting the 200th episode? I don’t understand. Why...”

Because Misha isn't in it so people are pouting.

deamonized answered your question “Wait, people are boycotting the 200th episode? I don’t understand. Why...”

I'm not, but I've heard two explanations: queer bating so boycott and no Mark or Misha so boycott. I don't agree, but that's what I've heard

That's stupid. One, Mark and Misha have not been with the show for 200 episodes

Two, how the fuck is the 200th queer baiting? Or do they mean the show in general? I don't understand. I'm hella stoked for the episode

OH, and did you hear the (girl who plays) Dean's voice? Cuz damn that girl got some pipes

[kikikurt]

It's harddddd. I've been considering it, but first I'm doing vegetarianism, which is a lot easier than going full on vegan first.

i think it might be harder in the US than it is here D: there's a lot of dairy free food since most places are kosher and don't mix meat and dairy. and specifically for me - i hardly eat meat and eggs and i only put milk in my coffee, and i already replaced that. so these are easy. what's harder is cheese D: and things that contain dairy and eggs that aren't as obvious. like cookies or.. idk. any kind of pastry.

klainernity replied to your post “December”

that's probably a weird thing to say but i'm so proud of you sapir <333 trust me it only gets easier with time :) (also did you know that israel has one of the biggest percentage of vegans and vegetarians in the world?!)

thank you madd :') <333 your posts about it are part of why i've been thinking about it a lot actually :') ((also why i've been reblogging all of the recipes)) and i did not know that! that's pretty cool *u*

[pundromeda]

Aaahh ok let's talk about Destiel and canon. I always thought people who think that Destiel could eventually become canon are fooling themselves and are way too optimistic for their own good. But now that I'm watching the show one episode at a time, I can see where they're coming from. I don't know, something about watching it as it airs makes it seem more believable, which really pisses me off because I know before this is seemed like an impossibility. So I just don't know. What do you think?

I honestly didn't think that there was any chance of Destiel becoming canon until near the end of last season (which, coincidentally, is also when I started watching it live). I didn't see anybody in the fandom start to think that it was possible until season 8, though. So, like, I understand that it seemed like an impossibility. It was very much impossible until Carver took over the show in season 8.

That being said, I think that, at the very least, the writers are aware of the subtext that they're writing in and the tropes that they're using with Dean and Cas. (Whether or not its queerbaiting or actual lead-up to a romantic relationship, I don't know.) Just. So many things. They can't not be aware.

One) "I need you." This is what broke Naomi's control over Cas. Cas wouldn't kill Dean, though he had been trained to do so a hundred times over. When Dean asks later "Well, what broke the connection?" and Cas replies "I don't know," we are made to fill in the blanks. We know that it was Dean, even if Cas doesn't (or won't admit it). The dramatic irony here serves to make the viewers, casual or otherwise, remember that point. This is only one of a multitude of times where Cas explicitly chooses Dean over Heaven.

Two) "Art, hope, love, dreams." "But those are human things." "Yes." Fade to Dean's face. The general public viewer may not see this on the surface, but on the subliminal level it serves to associate Dean with Cas' hope, love, and dreams. The camera angle abruptly switched right before Cas said "love", too, to make us pay attention to that particular word.

Three) If we're talking about subliminal levels, then all of the subtext in the history of the show. God, that's a lot.

Four) "He's in love..................with humanity." The silence in this line (which immediately follows the scene in which Cas chooses Dean over his angel army, thereby revealing his weakness) forces the audience to fill the emptiness with their own thoughts before Metatron finishes the sentence. Even someone who has no familiarity with Destiel will fill "Dean Winchester" into that space in the context of the previous scene. This remains the first and foremost piece of evidence in my mind.

Now let's talk about some things that would need to happen before Destiel could become canon. Dean must be canonically bisexual. Cas must be explicitly shown to have romantic feelings for Dean. Dean must textually reciprocate those feelings.

Let's tackle the second one first. We're getting close that that if point four from above is any indication. With Hannah possibly having romantic feelings for Cas, we may also get confirmation that he doesn't have feelings for her. (In an ideal world, he would say "No, sorry Hannah. I already have feelings for Dean.") It also shows that it is perfectly reasonable for an angel to fall in love with the one who shows them the ways of humanity, making it more plausible to the average viewer when they finally have Cas say it.

The first one has always been subtextually there. Dr. Sexy, the countless random guys that Dean has checked out, Dean's "gay thing". But those could be played off as jokes to the average viewer (not that I'm trying to say that bisexuality is a joke, as it most certainly isn't). However, in 10.01 we got textual confirmation that Dean and Crowley did things to triplets. Also, Dean and Crowley were sharing a room in the hotel. The breakup scene in 10.02 was so heavy handed that many may be wondering whether Dean and Crowley were actually in a relationship - or at least if Crowley didn't have some feelings for Dean. Also, Crowley telling Dean to "pick a side"? Anyone remotely familiar with the bisexual community will notice that phrase as something commonly said to bisexuals. I think that with demon!Dean around, we stand a moderately good chance at seeing a canon bisexual!Dean at some point in the future.

The third one is harder. It has to come after bisexual!Dean is canonized, but the roots are already there. Dean has been consistently shown in the past few seasons to be wanting a long term relationship - recall the shot in 9x14 where Dean's room had been rearranged to highlight the absence of another person on the left side of Dean's bed. Given that bisexual!Dean is still up in the air, this one is even more so.

My expectations boil down to this:

We will get confirmation that Cas has some very unangelic feelings for Dean (the exact nature of which may or may not go completely unspecified).

We will continue to get hints toward bisexual!Dean and subtext supporting Destiel from a meta standpoint.

The writers will craft an ending to the show that can be interpreted as Dean and Cas finally getting together if we so choose. They will definitely not be separated in the end if the arc of the show is anything to go by. Cas will be human as his endgame.

But what is humanity without a little hope and dreams? The writers have given us hope for the future of Destiel, so I say ride it until the end as long as you make sure not to set your expectations too high. Anything extra that we get beyond the expectations will just be icing on the pie cake.