#notliving

[fnovelso]

☕𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐖𝐄𝐄𝐊'𝐒 𝐅𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐄𝐃 𝐏𝐎𝐒𝐓☕️

Witty Wordsmiths 125

[vivant-ou-mort]

[fugisbombilla]

I'm in this head space where I just want to find my soulmate. Talk about our feelings. Love each other and the idea of our future life together. Make love, more often than not. Make art. Make extraordinary human beings, we will call our children. BUT... Then I sit and think. REALLY THINK! I'm terrified of actively trying to find my soulmate. Terrified and anxious over waiting for her to find me. Terrified of actually having to put in work, that I've already put in with people I probably shouldn't have. SOOOO I'll be here. Confused as hell, questioning every move I make. And every move she makes.

[socakween]

When your living, but in actual your hiding.

[dreamaliittleharder]

instead of living, experiencing and learning life, we sit all day in a chair in front of a book trying to learn how to face life by solving polynomials...

[takenbyyourwings]

Life

I’ve been always the type of girl that could not live the moment, always looking out the window, thinking, imagine the future, having fantasies, of where I’ll be in the future, what I’ll be doing, who will I be, never living today,it was a problem, I wasnt able to enjoy life, to enjoy the people around me, I wasn’t living, I was frustrated.

The biggest problem was that in the moment I reached the “situation” of my desire, I wasnt able to enjoy it either, cause I was to busy thinking about the next “big event” that I was wishing for, or that i was expecting to happen, NEVER LIVING! So frustrating!!!!

My anxiety, my anxiety, never did let me enjoy the moment, never did let me live life, enjoy it, how it is suppose to be.

My ANXIETY for LIFE, maybe a stupid quote for some of you that will read this, acutally I’m not hoping to someone to read this , I just had this in my heart, to share it,(I dont usually share things /thoughts with people, less in the internet, I’m just evolving) with maybe someone that can be in the same situation as I was, or maybe just to share some joy, cause joy, its just beautiful!

Well back to the subject, I had such an anxiety for life, I felt like it was running from me, that I was stuck(schooletc, you know), I’d always had the desire to live a happy full life (IF that even make sense) I think everyone wants to be happy, we just look for happines in different places.

My anxiety for living a happy full life didnt let me live life.

I felt like school was drowning me, taking away the years of my youth, while I could be spending them better, doing something with my life.

But here it is:

“ Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. “

Matthew 11:28

“ Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. “

1Peter 5:7

Anxiety its gone, I mean I have it sometimes but not for life, not anymore, I know I’m in good hands, loving hands, that will take care of me, that will prepare the perfect moment for me, that will make me live a

 HAPPY FULL LIVE. 

PD: I just feel I made a big mess with all the thoughts in my head.

[chubbykei-blog]

I don’t have a cat. Solution?

Get a cat.

[liveit0ff]

I'm Stuck

When I think about my life I think about what I'm doing at the moment. Right now I'm in Florida and I don't want to be here my family fights all the time, I'm sunburn, I miss my friends. But when I think about going back to New York I just want to stay inside and keep to myself. I don't even want to go outside and live anymore. I feel like my life has no meaning anymore and that I rather be dead because my social anxiety is getting worse to the point where I don't even want to be with my very few friends I have to be honest. That scares me because life is soo short and I feel I'm stuck in a labyrinth. If you don't want to live anymore... what do you do with yourself?