Wild how quickly time passes...
It's already been 18 months since the last time I heard from birthdad. It's never going to be an easy thing that he chose to abandon our adoption constellation, but I know it says nothing about me.
However, him leaving has left holes in places I didn't expect, and emotional responses I can't always predict.
Anger Sadness Hurt Rejection
Relief
I can't listen to Breaking Benjamin anymore - he was the reason I started listening to them. Yet I still love learning about cars and watching The Grand Tour - our relationship (back in 2009-10) was why I started learning about cars and watching BBC's Top Gear.
His presence in my life has made me who I am today. I don't want to erase that, but I also don't want to forever think about what I went through with him.
So, yesterday I allowed myself to reminisce about everything. But today I put those memories back in their box in the corner.
















