Ford with a psychotic disorder, unsure if the triangle he's talking to is even real or if his mind is just making it up in his desperation to make his research work out.
Ford with a psychotic disorder not exactly sure why he experiences hallucinations and delusions, never being properly diagnosed until later in life but already used to seeing strange things and hearing strange things that shouldn't exist wherever he goes.
Ford with a psychotic disorder asking Stan if something he's seeing that doesn't seem right is real or not and trusting that he is telling the truth every time and Stan never joking about it whenever he asks because the first and only time he did, it only made Ford too distressed to function.
Ford with a psychotic disorder, hiding Bill from everyone because he doesn't fully believe he's real himself at times and feels everyone will just tell him it's just a hallucination and he's not actually speaking to a higher power. becomes even more distressing post betrayal when he feels they would just invalidate his trauma by shoving his disorder back in his face and tell him it was just all a lie his mind thought up. a delusion, in other words.
Ford with a psychotic disorder that gets more symptomatic and unpleasant/annoying/confusing once Bill comes into his life. the very mechanic of Bill entering his mind only invites hallucinations to mimic Bill and make Ford believe he's being told things that Bill never actually told him. a tower of miscommunication happens between him and his Muse.
Ford with a psychotic disorder, where Bill's betrayal is so much more confusing than it should be. his own hallucinations get worse from his sleep deprivation and make it feel like Bill is torturing him even more than he actually is. Bill thinks it's funny and also useful. it means he doesn't have to be on Ford's case all the time and he can have breaks to think of plans to get to the portal in the meantime.
Ford with a psychotic disorder, seeing Bill everywhere in his travels through the multiverse and panicking until he realizes that it's just his hallucinations again. finds it hard to not react to them until he finally gets used to it years into his travels.
Ford with a psychotic disorder, still seeing his enemy in his vision post Weirdmageddon despite his death but as time goes on and his mind eventually finally accepts that bill is completely gone, his hallucinations move on to different things. the Bill ones still happen, but less frequently than they used to. Ford calls the Bill ones "the triangle rolling in his grave" as a way to cool his reactions to them when they happen and to ground himself in the reality that Bill is not alive anymore and cannot hurt him.
Ford with a psychotic disorder, being supported and loved by his family even when Ford feels he would freak them out if he told them about what he sees and hears and sometimes even feels that aren't real. Ford feeling the twins hugging him during a bad delusion or hallucination or both and finding their love enough to calm him down.
