#otherkininity

[bloodstainedden]

I lovelove being treated as a fictional character !!!!

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[bloodstainedden]

I don't have the words to explain how werid my alterhumanity is to me.

I'm so many different people and species packed into one person. I'm multiself and polyden due to bpd (& npd) and being fictionkin. I constantly change in a way i cannot explain.

My memories shift. My thoughts shift. It all depends on my prominent type. What that is? I don't know.

What I do know is I've never been human. Probably due to the neglect I've experienced, or maybe i was just born to not be human.

I've always been Dazai. I've had multiple signs of this. Drowning in a dream on purpose and finding out that exact memory matched Dazai years before I knew what BSD was other than "the orange and brown guys that people use in some gacha videos"

The constant trying to harm myself when I really didn't care to? That was because I was trying to replicate how I felt in my world because, despite being in this world, I never lost my memories even when I didn't exactly know why.

My interest in crime back then? Came from when I was in the port mafia. Not being able to feel anything almost 24/7? Due to BPD and being Dazai.

My birthmark even? Despite not believing in birthmarks meaning anything, I got injured in my world there (on my shoulder).

All of this has added up to me realizing I was Dazai and this wasn't just, a thing. There was a reason I experienced life how I do.

When I saw BSD, I grabbed it without really thinking from the bookshelf. I got it, read it and realized that it was like looking at a reflection. I thought it was just Rowan (it could have also been them but it was mostly me) being a fictionkin of him.

A little pasted, I decided to identify as a otherlink of him. Time pasted again before I changed that to choicekin. Then I looked back and realized I've always been Dazai no matter how much I wanted to hide it.

I've also always been a netheral in a way I couldn't explain. I just didn't realize it at the time because its such an unknown species.

Hell, no matter how many times I got more kintypes, linktypes, or theriotypes, I was born Dazai Osamu and a netheral no matter how late I realized it.